So Damn Heartbroken :( its long but PLZ read

so there was this guy that had प्यार of his life that fucked his life and went away
i mean she never even let him touch her, not even holding hands and she slept with others she cheated she fucked his life, she made him nearly addicted to things he even was nearly dieing
he was desperately in प्यार with her and waited for her over 5 years and stuff, this girl was so awful
anyways
i was in प्यार with this guy,
i really loved him
i really did (i still do)
we went in a relationship
i did EVERYTHING for him
when i say EVERYTHING i REALLY mean EVERYTHING
आप really cant even know
i gave everything i had bcuz of him
cuz my family didnt let me be with him
i even left my family just to be with him
i just did everything
i dont know what else to say
me and him broke up, and the reason was he was like everyone else is better than you, what have आप done for me huh? you've done nothing, name only 1 of the things you've done for me
your so bad your like this your like that
and he was like that girl was so good, she never did anything to hurt me, she was so good, ur not
im LIKE DA FUQ!
there is not just that girl, beside her that was the प्यार of his life he has lots of female फ्रेंड्स which he used to say are so moody and bad tempered and stuff
and he was so ok with them and he REALLY LOVED them, but this is only about me! no one did anything for him
everyone everytime left him alone and did all the bad things to him
but i did everything for him
and that was what i got at the end
he never ever saw any of them
what should i do?!
REALLY!
i cant take it
im the bad one at the end and she is the good one?!