To Kureij,

I never really knew your name until now,
I only know that he loves आप as much as he loves me.
I never meant to...hurt you, the way I did,
Tearing your प्यार away, when he told me about आप I was naive,
I remember saying
'it's alright! I don't mind sharing!'
...looking back I realise how silly I was,
I didn't take into account that maybe...
आप wouldn't want to.

Things got...complicated for us,
I don't...
I don't really regret the things we did,
I felt happy...
I finally knew what it felt like for May.
आप can hate me, I won't mind.
I really won't. I'd understand,
I know this sounds...odd, for 'the other woman' to say this...
but I want to be फ्रेंड्स with you.

I honestly wish you'd heard it from him.
I told him
'you should tell him before he finds out another way'

Obviously...that never happened.

It would be nice if we could make this work,
Where आप can have him and so can I,
but, I know this isn't a utopia and that will never happen.
I प्यार him and I know आप प्यार him, too,
maybe someday, we'll actually meet and we can...
be friends.
I'd like that.

I'd like that a lot.

With many, many regrets
Alyss.