every time i cry,
i ask myself why,
the blade that goes down my wrist,
the blood that goes down my fist,
the memories in my head,
the nightmares in my bed,
my दिल falls to pieces,
as the tears run down my cheek,
now i know i am week,
i can't help but show,
i want to let my life go,
every सेकंड of the day,
i keep fading away,
my hope has gone,
but i will be alive for so long,
the चाकू will stay in my pocket,
the picture will stay in my locket,
the hurt and pain,
the lies and shame,
the regrets and sorrow,
just waiting for tomorrow.

Imagine a woman whose child just died
Her husband left her, he lied
She cried that time also and now also she’s crying
Nothing to ease her, nothing that people are trying
They just stand and talk about
But her pain and her sorrows scream loud and shout
She looks to her baby as if he’ll come back to life
She looks at the door as if her husband will come back to his wife
No one comes forward
Talking to that lady, they feel awkward
She cried, cried until her tears ended
Then she cried in absence of hand that no one lended
Oh! Merciful Lord why didn’t they दिखाना even false sympathy to lady of pain
There was no loss, just blessings’ gain
Alas!! The heartless and truthful human never speak lie
They left her alone to cry, to die
At last everyone left
The woman either died या drowned in her tears’ oceans’ depth….

i am a poet लेखन of my pain.
i am a person living a life of shame.
i am your daughter hiding my depression.
i am your sister making a good impression.
i am your friend अभिनय like im fine.
i am a wisher wishing this life werent mine.
i am a girl who thinks about suicide.
i am a teenager pushing her tears aside.
i am a student who doesnt have a clue.
i am the girl sitting अगला to you.
i am the one asking आप to care.
i am your best friend hoping youll be there.





























this is a great poem from the book chicken सूप for the teenage soul on tough stuff.

i listen to the दिल beat hit my roof
the clear beads of blood slides down onto leaves of the tree
on the the blades of innocent घास that's being pelted in the down poor

and as it beads up
it looks as if the leaves have a paper cut
like that on a kindergartners finger just learning how to shape the paper
and as it slips off and falls
it looks like the tears on that very child's face as they look for someone to make it better

and as i lay there listening to that दिल of rain
i think what if every one in this world could be able to खरगोश, हरे this delightful sound
feel the healing drops that comes from the heavens
then.. i wonder would this world be better
would people stop going hungry and thirsty
would evil one's change for the better
im not sure but if everyone would wonder about this
then couldn't we be like that sweet rain
with are hearts beating against a roof of a wondering mind as one body and soul
then could we answer those सवालों

this is just some free writting i did a महीना या two पूर्व

i'm tierd of waiting for आप to tell me how आप feel
so i'm not gunna wait for आप any longer
i'm gunna find some one new
in fact i''v found him
and he's super sweet
he's tall dark and handsome
he's every thing i want
he cares और then i think आप ever have
he makes me smile
he makes me laugh
he likes the things i like
he's there when i need him
so here i say it i'm not gunna wait any longer for आप
cuz i'v found the one i was looking for.


okee so tell me what आप think is it any good??? या is it no good??

It is easy to decide,
But not easy to keep a decision
It is easy to talk,
But not easy to say something
It is easy to look,
But not easy to see
It is easy to fall,
But not easy to stand up
It is easy to hurt,
But not easy to forget, to forgive
It's easy to hear but not easy to listen
It is easy to break up but not easy to make up
It is easy to choose,
But not easy to make the right choice
It is easy to like but not easy to love
It is easy to look true but not easy to be true
It's easy to condemn but not easy to change
It's easy to exist but not easy to live
It is easy to leave but not easy say good-bye

Silence,
smothered by
संगीत that
breaks the loneliness
in my heart.


Although
my mind
is still seeking
for you...


I do miss you,
but I won't tell you.
The secrets of
my दिल you
will never know.


Although
my mind
is still seeking
for you...


It's wrong.
Thinking of you
leads me nowhere
but to the same pain.
It's wrong.
What आप did
is wrong.


Although
my mind
is still seeking
for you...


It's wrong,
and you're not
coming back.
I feel it,
I know it,
but I still miss you.
And you're not here,
silence sleeps
with me.


Although
my mind
is still seeking
for you.

Darling o Darling why did आप lie?

why didnt आप tell me that i made आप cry?

Ah yes the sorrow builds up inside but darling o dirling i dont want आप to cry.

Crying and crying tears aflow.

But it is i that lays here dead in the snow.

For my प्यार is still there but my body is gone

Still your there all coverd in tears.
But you'll be fign in 3 और years.

आप will find yet oneanother.
To fill the gap that i haveuncoverd .

And now i am smotherd away away with the wind as my gram once said.

Sleepless nights,
rough like the sea
of my memories.


Those live
inside me
and speak
through my eyes.


Sadness
is hidden there,
but was seen...


How apt
can आप be
to hide your
feelings from
the others?
Can they see,
can they feel?


Sleepless nights
for noiseless cry,
rough feelings
to encourage
the pain that
still lives within.


Pain is waiting
to be fed
द्वारा these precious
memories
I still keep
as if those are
significant.


And yet
this very night
is all mine,
waiting for me
to confess.


Oust the pain
that chokes you,
unburden your soul
द्वारा talking
only in nights,
silently,
so nobody can hear,
nobody can hear
your cry,
the cry screams inside.

If the sky opened up for me
And the mountain disappeared
If the seas ran dry, turned to dust
And the sun refused to rise
I would still find my way
द्वारा the light I see in your eyes
The world I know fades away
But आप stay

As the earth reclaims its due
And the cycle starts anew
We'll stay, always
In the प्यार that we have shared
Before time

If the years take away
Every memory that I have
I would still know the way
That would lead me back to your side
The north तारा, स्टार may die
But the light that I see in your eyes
Will burn there always

Lit द्वारा the प्यार we have shared
Before time

When the forest turns to jade
And the stories that we've made
Dissolve away
One shining light will still remain

When we shed our earthly skin
And when our real life begins
There'll be no shame
Just the प्यार that we have made
Before time



(wonderfully performed द्वारा CoCo Lee)