The दिन आप died, Michael, everything stopped for me, as hard as I tried, I couldn't get आप off my mind. The question, of course, is why? Why did I never feel one thing for आप until that day? Why did आप have such an effect on me? Why you? Of all the men in the world, why you? I प्यार you. There's आप answer: I प्यार YOU. आप are the one, the one I was put on this earth to be with. I know, of course, there are obstacles in the way of that: you're 37 years older than me, you're not alive anymore, & on चोटी, शीर्ष of it all, there's no possible way you'd ever feel the same about me. But I don't expect to be loved back the same, I only want to know that आप don't hate me for my past actions, & that you're finally at peace with life & with yourself.
I know there were times in your life that weren't so easy to deal with, but they're all in the past. The past is gone & it can never come back again, sometimes that's a good thing. It really hurts me to see how hurt आप were then, even if I never felt it then. Like when Lisa Marie filed for divorce. Seeing her break your दिल like that, it made me feel like punching her lights out, because I know how much आप loved her. या when आप were sued for child molestation, आप were forever scarred द्वारा that, I'm sure. I wish I could've been beside you, to be your reminder that everything would be alright in the end.
आप know, everyone worries about the way they look, but they know they'll do something to themselves & look beautiful afterwards. But at times, आप never thought you'd be attractive no matter what आप did. आप hated your appearence so much, आप even went so far as to call yourself an "ugly lizard"(or something like that, I don't know exactly how आप कहा it). I wish आप hadn't कहा that, you're not even close to unattractive let alone ugly. When I look at you, I see surpassing beauty. आप are beautiful, Michael, please believe me! I know I'm not the only one who thinks so, I'll bet most of the people who read this लेख will agree with me. To be totally honest, sometimes when I look at you, your beauty makes me jealous.
If I could sum आप up in just 3 words, beautiful would be the first, the सेकंड would be loving. आप see so many मशहूर हस्तियों out there promoting causes for whatever, but most of them are only doing it to promote themselves. आप did things like tht because it was the right thing to do, & आप cared. आप cared so much for the charity work you, the people आप helped, etc. आप have such a good heart, Michael; in fact it's where most of your beauty comes from. Your प्यार for the planet, children, your family, your fans, etc. That in itself is pretty amazing. You've forever engraved yourself into the hearts of your family, friends, & fans, especially me. आप touched me, & now I declare my प्यार for you. My प्यार for आप is nothing butpure & genuine, for if I'm lying, may I be struck to my death & sent directly to hell.
Unlike most girls my age, I know what true प्यार is: it's the eternal force that unites 2 people. It must be real या it's just infatuation. They must be willing to look past all obstacles & go to the ends of the earth for each other. I am willing to do that for you, Michael, because I know that if I can be as close to your दिल as आप are to mine, than it's all worth it. Beautiful, loving, & the final word would be forever. Your love, your memory, आप are forever. आप made your mark on history, the world will never forget August 29, 1958, November 30, 1982, May 16, 1983, & most of all, June 25, 2009. It's truly as if you're still alive because you've got your प्रशंसकों on earth who'll work to sustain your memory forever.
आप know, I still wonder, आप used to think आप were unloved, but then आप had your kids & knew otherwise. If आप never had your kids, would आप still have died knowing आप were loved? I don't know what your response would be to this, Michael, but I know if every single person in the world today who loves आप died, the world would be a whole lot smaller. Even if all those people were against you, you'd still have one girl who'll always be true to you: ME. Fate brought me to आप & now I'll never go back, I simply can't. I प्यार आप too much to abandon you, believe me. If आप were पढ़ना this, आप might think of me as a silly young girl who's either pitifully desperate, या certifiably insane, या even just plain stupid to think such thoughts, but I know आप could never break my दिल lke that, you're too sweet:)
Michael, I'm your friend, I'm always on your side, I'll always प्यार you, I'm waiting everyday, & praying every week for your entrance into heaven. Do आप think if I was lying about anything I've written so far, that I'd spend an घंटा in church every week praying for you? Not that I'm making any accusations , I'm just saying. But like आप कहा "If आप enter this world knowing you're loved, & आप leave this world knowing the same, than everything in between can be dealt with." Now that I've fallen in प्यार with you, I know now और than ever that I can get through anything, as long as I have आप & God beside me. Michael, I wrote this letter to fully express my feelings for you, so I'll close it in summary: MICHAEL JACKSON, I WILL ALWAYS प्यार आप <3
