Cover Page To This Story(Ill Fix It Later)
†Trigger Worning To Those Who Self Harm†
Nicole was born on March 3rd 1965 Nicole's childhood was great. Her mom and dad loved her very much. They went to डिज़्नी Land and a bunch of other places. But the fun and games came to a sad end one night.
Nicole has gone through a lot. In a short amount of time. Her parents died when she was seven due to a fatal accident on their anniversary. They were going to a restaurant for a romantic dinner. And since her grandparents didn't want to take care of her she lives in a foster घर where everyone treats her as if she isn't there. The kids also make fun of her and they also do mean and awful things to her. She feels worthless and unloved all the time,she has depression.
She was diagnosed with depression on the one साल anniversary of her parents death.
*1983*
Nicole is now 18. And she is working at a local diner. And from all of the money she saved up from पूर्व jobs she had since she was 14 she got her first appartmant. Its not the greatest one but its a roof over her head.
When she got घर from her long दिन at work she took a शावर, शॉवर and while she was showering she looked at her legs and arms and all she saw were scars on चोटी, शीर्ष of scars. Nicole asked herself "Who would प्यार a girl with scars?" Then she took a Razer and started to cut her left arm. She watched as her blood came out of her arm and washed away in the water. Then she whispered the cutters lullaby.
The Cutters Lullaby
Go To Sleep And Close Your Eyes
And Dream Of Broken Butterflies
They Tore Their Wings Against A Thorn
आप Know The Pain They Have Bore
Silver Metal That Shines So Bright
Scarlet Blood That Feels So Right
Dream Of That Blood Trickling Down
And Wake Up Just Before आप Drown
The Moonlight Shinning Off Your Tears
As आप Bleed Out Your Own Worst Fears
So Tonight आप Start To Cry
Whisper The Cutters Lullaby.
When Nicole कहा the last line she had tears in her eyes. Then she got out of the शावर, शॉवर and dryed her self off. Then she put on her pj's and then she braded her long damped long hair and she went to बिस्तर and cried herself to sleep...
Nicole woke up the अगला morning to start another दिन of working and hiding her new wounds.
A/N Well This Is Chapter 1. Sorry In Advance If It Takes Me A Long Time To Update. This Is A Very Hard Story To Write. I Hope आप Guys Understand!!! Credit Goes To Eternalmike For The Summary. I Hope I Will Be Able To Update This Story Often. And Ill Be Changing The Picture Of Michael To Match The Era.
Maria von Köhler's Michael Jackson sculpture at the Premises Studios
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If आप smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If आप just...
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time आप must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If आप just...
Smile, though your दिल is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...
If आप smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If आप just smile...
That's the time आप must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If आप just smile
I care for Michael Jackson cause he made me believe that आप can do anything if आप set your mind to it he has made me happy rather its his smile या संगीत the song "Cry" i would always listen to when i felt down या sad but i would look up and keep my head to the sky. I know Michael tried to change the world and he couldnt do it द्वारा himself. He needes help im wanting to help the world so bad and hope that people will never forget the King Of Pop. I have learned so many things if आप compare my life with his. Well thats another story but i प्यार michael hes my idol some one i look up to hes always made me smile and if haters cant see that. Let them hate we dont care right? if आप will comet why आप प्यार and care for Michael Jackson our King of Pop
11/11/2010 11:00 PM PST द्वारा TMZ Staff
The first new Michael Jackson single will be a duet with एकॉन -- a song entitled "Hold My Hand" that was originally leaked in 2008.
Epic Records/Sony संगीत just announced the lead single off the upcoming album "Michael" -- and "Hold My Hand" will be released this coming Monday, November 15 on michaeljackson.com.
एकॉन and MJ recorded the track back in 2007 ... a raw, incomplete version was eventually leaked to the public.
The new album will feature a total of 10 tracks -- including the controversial "Breaking News" -- when it's released December 14.
The first new Michael Jackson single will be a duet with एकॉन -- a song entitled "Hold My Hand" that was originally leaked in 2008.
Epic Records/Sony संगीत just announced the lead single off the upcoming album "Michael" -- and "Hold My Hand" will be released this coming Monday, November 15 on michaeljackson.com.
एकॉन and MJ recorded the track back in 2007 ... a raw, incomplete version was eventually leaked to the public.
The new album will feature a total of 10 tracks -- including the controversial "Breaking News" -- when it's released December 14.
The world was in great depression,
the custody for your kids was in session.
There was too much buzz around,
all I wanted to hear your voice your sound.
I wish आप hadn't gone,
all आप had to do was sing one और song.
I'm लेखन this to you.
your death has made me blue.
Why did आप pass on June 25, 2009?
"This is it" last संगीत कार्यक्रम then आप had to resign.
On my continuation my friend
told me आप had passed आप were dead.
God decided he needed you,
I respected the things आप used to do.
Your songs were good, great,
to me and the संगीत world आप were a saint.
येशु decided he wanted आप my friend,
आप and I know that your संगीत is not at an end.
The world kept talking about him,
the planet and the sun now seemed a little less bright, dim.
Goodbye आप were a story, a light,
see आप later and when I see you, आप will be a sight.
the custody for your kids was in session.
There was too much buzz around,
all I wanted to hear your voice your sound.
I wish आप hadn't gone,
all आप had to do was sing one और song.
I'm लेखन this to you.
your death has made me blue.
Why did आप pass on June 25, 2009?
"This is it" last संगीत कार्यक्रम then आप had to resign.
On my continuation my friend
told me आप had passed आप were dead.
God decided he needed you,
I respected the things आप used to do.
Your songs were good, great,
to me and the संगीत world आप were a saint.
येशु decided he wanted आप my friend,
आप and I know that your संगीत is not at an end.
The world kept talking about him,
the planet and the sun now seemed a little less bright, dim.
Goodbye आप were a story, a light,
see आप later and when I see you, आप will be a sight.
TMZ has learned Michael Jackson's tomb has been defaced द्वारा a stealth band of vandals -- who have marked the walls of MJ's mausoleum with hidden messages ... and it's all in permanent ink.
Security at Forest Lawn in Glendale, CA is on the lookout for "fans" who have been लेखन messages in hard-to-spot places outside the main window of the building in which MJ is entombed.
The लेखन is mostly hidden underneath ledges -- या in spots covered द्वारा bushes -- and contains messages like, "Miss you" and "Keep the dream alive."
Reps at Forest Lawn are pretty ticked off -- telling TMZ, "Activity such as this, is a prime example why we are evaluating the level of access to the various entrances of the Great Mausoleum."
Forest Lawn also tells us that anyone caught vandalizing the cemetery will be banned for life.
Security at Forest Lawn in Glendale, CA is on the lookout for "fans" who have been लेखन messages in hard-to-spot places outside the main window of the building in which MJ is entombed.
The लेखन is mostly hidden underneath ledges -- या in spots covered द्वारा bushes -- and contains messages like, "Miss you" and "Keep the dream alive."
Reps at Forest Lawn are pretty ticked off -- telling TMZ, "Activity such as this, is a prime example why we are evaluating the level of access to the various entrances of the Great Mausoleum."
Forest Lawn also tells us that anyone caught vandalizing the cemetery will be banned for life.
