January 1, 2013,
I was just getting back to Neverland after filming the pilot episode of "my stepbrother is a secret agent" and I'm excited because this new job has way better work hours than my संगीत career does. I'm not saying that I'm giving up on संगीत but, I do need a break from it for a while and surprisingly my manager Frank took the news very well.
It was just a little after 10 o'clock in the morning when I walked through the front door and Kyle was in the रसोई, रसोईघर making pancakes. I walked up behind him and kissed his neck as he कहा "I can already tell that I'm going to like having आप घर so early every day!" Carter ran into the room and pretty much jumped into my arms with excitement.
I helped Kyle set the तालिका, टेबल and all of us sat down to eat breakfast. Kyle कहा as he helped Carter cut his पेनकेक्स "we have to start thinking about when we're going to tell your family about our engagement. They haven't even seen Neverland since we moved in. I think everyone's long overdue for a visit; don't you?" I कहा "Prince, Blanket, and Paris yes… My other family members not so much! They always cause problems when it is definitely not necessary!" He कहा "just think about it because आप can't keep them away forever babe!" I कहा "I know that; I just think we should invite them over tomorrow and get all this over with! I'm perfectly fine with having my siblings come over here anytime they want to; even if they wanted to sleep over! I would प्यार that!"
January 2, 2013,
Kyle had just walked in carrying four boxes of पिज़्ज़ा, पिज्जा in his arms when my family members pulled into the driveway. I rolled my eyes and कहा sarcastically "oh joy; this is going to be fun!" I opened up the door and was surprised to see that it was only my aunt Latoya and of my siblings. I कहा as I hugged each of them "I'm a little surprised that grandma didn't at least come!" Aunt Latoya कहा "she couldn't deal with coming here and remembering how happy your dad was when he was living here." I कहा sympathetically "I understand; there's plenty of time for her to visit us!"
As we sat down at the table, I reached for a piece of पिज़्ज़ा, पिज्जा and Paris noticed my engagement ring. She looked at my aunt and asked "is that a promise ring AJ? Please tell me that's just a promise ring!" I कहा "it's not a promise ring Paris; it's an engagement ring!" Paris कहा almost seeming to be in denial "engagement ring as in engaged to be married?" I कहा "yes; that would be why it's called an engagement ring!" My aunt’s eyes widened as she stared at me with a stunned look on her face. She कहा "engagement ring; really Kyle? Are आप sure you're ready for such a big commitment at 19 years old?" Kyle responded "if it was any other girl, I wouldn't have proposed so quickly; but I'm truly in प्यार with AJ and always will be!" Aunt Latoya asked "you know that Carter's part of the deal if आप marry AJ right?"
We moved into the living room and Kyle continued the conversation द्वारा saying "of course I do!" I कहा "Carter calls him daddy and says that he is his daddy!" Aunt Latoya laughed and asked "yeah; but how much of the dirty work that goes along with parenting are आप doing Kyle?" I कहा "I don't know who told आप that the two of us aren't good parents! I'm assuming from my uncles… Don't believe everything that they say because they blow everything out of proportion!" She कहा "they told me that Carter still drinks out of a baby bottle and wears diapers!" I कहा "they haven't seen him in months! They don't know what they're talking about! We may be teenage parents; but I think we're doing a pretty good job at it! He doesn't drink from a bottle anymore!" She asked "well; what about the diaper situation?" I कहा "they are completely gone for your information! I would think that आप out of all people wouldn't believe everything that comes out of some of the family's mouths!" She कहा "it's not that I believed them; it's just that you're just a teenager who doesn't really know anything about parenting."
I furrowed my eyebrows because I was quite offended द्वारा what my aunt had just कहा and कहा "just because I'm a teenager doesn't mean that I can't figure it out!" She कहा "I didn't mean for that to sound rude." I कहा wanting to let it go "it did sound rude; but that's alright!" Prince asked as he looked at me "you do realize that most of the family is going to flip out about this whole आप and Kyle getting married thing; right?" I कहा "that's alright; they always complain about something that I do या don't do. I'm used to द्वारा now!" Paris कहा "I have a feeling that some of them won't come to the wedding just because they want to annoy आप AJ." I कहा "I really don't care anymore! I've seen firsthand how two-faced they can be and I don't really want to associate with them! I can see why dad kept us a सुरक्षित distance away from them!" Kyle कहा "all I care about is that I get married to AJ! It doesn't matter what it takes! I know that she is the one for me and other people's opinions don't matter!"
January 3, 2013,
It was barely 7 in the morning when Kyle and I were woken up द्वारा this loud banging noise coming from outside. Kyle rubbed his eyes and asked "what the hell is that noise babe?" I forced myself out of बिस्तर and looked out the window. I कहा "YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!" Kyle asked "what is it?" I bit my bottom lip in anger as I कहा "my uncles are outside ramming their fucking car into the front gate!" Kyle looked out the window and shook his head in disbelief as I put my slippers on. Kyle asked "where are आप going?" I asked "where do आप think I'm going? I'm going to find out what the hell their problem is!" He कहा "I don't think that's a good idea AJ! Maybe I should just call the cops!" I कहा "the cops aren't going to get through to them; they never do! I'm going down there to deal with this myself!" He कहा "then I'm going with आप to back आप up!" I quickly looked into Carter's bedroom and noticed that he was still sleeping.
Kyle and I walked up to the front gate outside in our pajamas. Once they saw us coming, my uncles got out of the car and Marlon कहा "you guys better not get married! We totally disapprove of all of this!" Jermaine asked "what are आप two thinking? आप guys are only a couple of stupid teenagers!" I कहा "first of all, what the hell are आप doing ramming into the gate like that? सेकंड of all, आप guys don't really have a lot of room to talk! Each of आप doesn’t know how to respect a woman!" Randy कहा "yes we do and we know a whole lot और about प्यार than आप do!" I कहा "really? Last time I checked all of आप have either several failed marriages या a marriage in shambles!" Jackie कहा "if आप and Kyle go through with this wedding, all of us will be there to protest!" Kyle laughed and कहा "you really think we care about your approval; newsflash we don't!"
I looked at the damage that had been afflicted on the gate and कहा "you guys are going to be paying for this!" Tito कहा "you make millions and millions of dollars; pay for it yourself!" I कहा "if I don't receive a check in the mail from आप within the अगला week, I will be pressing charges for property damage and attempted trespassing!" Jackie कहा "I don't believe you'll actually go through with it; but whatever helps आप sleep at night!"
They all got back into the car and drove off in the other direction. I looked at Kyle in complete disbelief and asked "are they really that immature?" Kyle कहा "apparently!" I कहा "I know how my dad was with confrontation of any kind and he must've been terrified of my uncles!!! They don't scare me at all and I was being dead serious when I कहा that I'm going to press charges on them if they don’t give me the money to repair the gate! Dad probably would've let them get away with it just to keep the peace; but I'm not like that and they'll learn their lesson quickly! I don't know how many times I have to say या do something until they realize not to mess with me! I'm so sick of the ridiculousness they cause! They are grown men and need to start अभिनय like it because I'm getting fed up with their crap!"
February 11, 2013,
I was sitting in the living room watching TV with Carter while Kyle did some maintenance work on my truck when I got a phone call from Prince. I answered it and asked "what's up? I miss आप guys!" He कहा "you know my 16th birthday is coming up and I don't really have anything planned. Blanket was thinking of what he would want to do for his 11th birthday and he brought up the idea of hanging out at Neverland to have a sleepover together." I कहा "it's funny that आप bring that up because I was just talking to Kyle the other दिन about having a sleepover with the three of you!" Prince asked "so does that mean Blanket, Paris, and I can sleepover at Neverland?" I कहा "of course; but instead of just staying one night since tomorrow's Friday, आप guys should just stay for the whole weekend!" I could hear Paris in the background asking "is AJ going to let us stay the night at Neverland? I haven't been there since 2005 and I've been dying to go over there since I found out she owns the ranch!" Prince कहा "the entire weekend is even better! We'll be there around 4 o'clock tomorrow! Thank आप so much AJ!" I कहा "you don't need to thank me Prince! I miss आप guys and can't wait to see you! Carter needs help with something; so I have to get off the phone now. I'll see the three of आप tomorrow." He कहा "okay AJ; we प्यार आप and can't wait to spend the whole weekend at the ranch!"
February 12, 2013,
Kyle had just gotten back from picking up the Chinese खाना we ordered and we were waiting for my siblings to get here; so we could start the weekend long sleep over at Neverland. I opened the front gate from a keypad inside the house as a car pulled up in front of the entrance to the ranch and dropped them off. As I welcomed Blanket, Paris, and Prince inside, I noticed Paris had dramatically changed her appearance from the last time I had seen her. She died her hair black and had it cut in a punk rock style. I stared at her in silence for a few सेकंड्स trying to come up with the right words to say and I कहा "it's a little surprising to see this new side of आप that I didn't know existed; but I like it!" She thanked me and we all sat down at the तालिका, टेबल to start eating.
I asked "how are things going for आप guys over at grandma's?" Blanket कहा "it was really fun in the beginning; but now she's hardly ever around anymore!" I asked "what do आप mean?" Paris कहा "ever since our uncles and Janet kidnapped her over the summer, they've been watching her like a hawk! I'm assuming आप saw the video of me and Aunt Janet arguing in the driveway at Havenhurst! She took my phone away when I tried to reach out for help when we hadn't heard from grandma in a few days! I was really worried about her; Prince and I both were!" Prince कहा "I was going to call आप AJ; but there's not much आप can do from halfway around the world!" I कहा "you still could've called me! I told आप that if आप ever needed anything that I would be there for you; no matter what!" Paris कहा "I am so sick of all this drama! The biggest reason we wanted to come over here was to get away from the rest of the family!" I कहा "I know how आप feel because they had been harassing Kyle and me ever since they found out about the two of us planning to get married! They leave nasty notes in the mailbox and try to scare us with their threats." Prince कहा "it's probably only going to get worse after आप two get married! All they do when they come over to our house is complain about आप and Kyle! It's really starting to make me mad!" I asked "why; what do they say about me and Kyle?" Prince कहा "they say that you're really immature and that Kyle doesn't know the real side of who आप are AJ!" Kyle कहा "they don't even know what they're talking about! I can guarantee आप that I know और about AJ then all of them combined!" I कहा "they only see what they want to see! They bring out the anger in me! Very few people can make me that mad!" Paris कहा "after आप pressed charges on them for damage to the front gate and attempted trespassing, they flipped out! It was only a $500 fine या they could have fought आप in court over it! I couldn't believe they actually thought about taking it to court instead of paying 500 bucks! It would've only been $100 each for them to pay the fine equally! I don't understand why they would want to make a big deal out of nothing!" I कहा "it's because they just want to get as much money as they can from me! That's the only motive they have and that's all they care about!" Kyle कहा "I really hope that आप guys try to stay away from them as much is possible because they are up to no good!" I कहा "alright; enough with all this drama; let's have some fun!"
I started to दिखाना them around the house and Prince noticed the grand पियानो sitting in the corner of the living room. He asked "is that the same पियानो that was here when we all lived here?" I कहा "yes; it is!" He ran his fingers across the keys and कहा "I remember that all of us would sit on the floor while dad played us some songs a little while before we went to bed." I कहा "yeah; and आप and I would argue over who would sit on his lap! I've kind of forgotten all the songs that daddy taught me when I was little." Blanket कहा "I wish I wasn't three years old when we moved out of here because I don't really remember anything dad did with us here." I कहा "that's alright Blanket; I bet आप still have a lot of fun memories with daddy in the other places we lived in together!" He कहा "I still have some memories; but I'm forgetting most of them because I was only seven when he died!" I कहा after thinking about it for a few मिनटों "follow me आप guys; I have an idea!"
Blanket, Prince, Paris, Carter, Kyle, and I all walked down from the main house to the personal movie theater that was on the ranch. Kyle and I haven't set foot inside it since we moved to the ranch and this seemed like the perfect excuse too! We walked inside and saw the concession stand that the few staff members I hired a couple of weeks पूर्व had stalked full of candy. The पॉपकॉर्न machine was already running and the buttery smell filled the air around us. Blanket asked "this was really our own movie theater AJ? I कहा "yeah; it's pretty cool!" Paris asked "why did आप want to bring us to the movie theater?" I opened a nearby door and we walked into the screening room. Kyle sat down with Carter on his lap and helped him open up a package of खट्टा gummy worms.
10 मिनटों later, I came in carrying a huge stack of videotapes and Blanket asked "what are आप doing AJ?" I कहा "you'll see in a minute" as I popped a videotape into the VHS machine that was installed in the wall. I sat down in the chair अगला to Prince and a घर video started playing.
*In the घर video, dated at the bottom of the screen February 18, 2001*
Dad, Prince, and I were all sitting on the couch. I asked "daddy; why do आप have to leave tomorrow?" He responded as he looked down at me "you know I have to work AJ. I wish I could stay every single day; but I do have to leave every once in a while to make money." Prince कहा "I'm going to miss आप too much daddy! I don't want आप to leave!" Dad कहा "I know सेब head; but I have to! You're going to have fun here with Grace; I promise!" I कहा "you always say that we'll have fun while you're gone; but we never do! It's so much और fun when you're घर daddy या when आप take us with आप on your trips!" He कहा "I know AJ; but I can't always take आप with me; especially because there are three of आप now and I can't leave Prince and Paris behind!" I कहा "I know; I'm just going to miss आप tucking me into बिस्तर every night and playing hide and seek!" He कहा "I'm only going to be gone for three days and then I'll be back!" I asked "you're still going to help me get ready for बिस्तर tonight; right? He कहा "I always do!"
The video cuts off for a few सेकंड्स and then continues onto दिखाना dad lying अगला to me in my bed. I asked "am I going to be able to see आप tomorrow morning before आप leave?" He कहा "I don't think so sweetheart because I'm leaving really early in the morning!" I asked "daddy; can I ask आप something?" He कहा "of course आप can!" I asked "what's it like to be in love?" He had a surprised look on his face that such a big सवाल could come from a six-year-old. He pondered it back and forth in his mind for a few मिनटों before saying "it depends on what kind of प्यार you're asking about." I asked "what kinds of प्यार are there?" He कहा "well; there's प्यार like what I have for आप and your brother and sister. Like the way a mommy या daddy loves their children. Then there's कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला love." I कहा "I know what आप mean; like when a boy dog and a girl dog प्यार each other!" He chuckled and कहा "no; that's not what कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला प्यार is! कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला प्यार is when two young people think they might प्यार each other." I कहा "oh; are there any और kinds of love?" He कहा "there is one more." I asked "what's it called?" He responded after waiting a few सेकंड्स "true love." I asked "how do आप know the difference between true प्यार and regular love?" He कहा "trust me; when the time comes you'll know the difference! You'll just be able to tell! Why are आप asking me all these सवालों about love?" I कहा "I don't know; I was just wondering." He कहा after lightly pecking my lips "oh okay; just as long as आप don't go out and fall in प्यार with any boys anytime soon! Your daddy's little girl and if it were up to me आप wouldn't तारीख, दिनांक any boys until आप turned 50 years old!"
*Video ends*
I definitely understand what true प्यार is supposed to feel like now because I'm truly in प्यार with Kyle. It's funny how dad just knew that someday I would figure this whole being in प्यार thing out! I put another videotape in the VHS and pressed play.
*In the video dated at the bottom of the screen March 1, 1999*
Dad looks directly into the camera and says "hello world; I just want to दिखाना आप what I have to deal with on a daily basis." He points the camera in my direction and asks "do आप know why you're in timeout this time AJ? I कहा "I don't care! Shut up; आप stupid daddy!" He sternly कहा "stop that right now! आप don't tell me to shut up या call me stupid; that's not nice at all!" I started taking off one of my shoes and pretended like I was going to throw it at him. He कहा "don't even think about it AJ!" I laughed as I threw my left shoe directly into the camera lens and just barely missing his face. He asked "why would आप do that AJ?" I stuck my tongue out at him and कहा "because आप told me not to; that's why!" He sighed with frustration and कहा "it doesn't matter how many times I put आप in the corner; it always turns into a battle! Do I need to go over there and hold आप on my lap until आप calm down?" I कहा "I AM CALMED DOWN!!!" He कहा "no you're not and what did I tell आप about yelling in this house? Do we yell here?" I कहा "NO!!!" He calmly asked "then why are आप still yelling at me Alanna?" I कहा "BECAUSE आप WON'T LET ME OUT OF TIMEOUT!!!" He कहा "you yelling at me won't get आप any closer to being out of Timeout! आप know that yelling at me isn't going to bother me AJ."
I started crying and he कहा "that's not going to work anymore either!" I कहा "you're a mean daddy!" He कहा "that's not a nice thing to say to me. Do आप realize that if आप just calm down आप would already be out of the corner?" I कहा "JUST SHUT UP DADDY!!!" He कहा "stop telling me to shut up Alanna Michael Jackson! I hope you're not in timeout for three hours straight like आप were earlier."
*Video ends*
Prince कहा "I can't believe आप use to talk to dad like that!" Paris कहा "yeah I know AJ; and then आप threw your shoe at daddy's head!" I कहा "I used to be really out of control; but since I had Carter I have calmed down a lot! I've only gotten into a few fights since then and try my best to avoid situations where I would have to fight. Before, I would go looking for someone to start a fight with; just so I could prove that I was stronger than them! I hate to say it but, I think the fact that dad isn't physically here anymore has caused me to grow up a lot just because he isn't there to protect me from a bad situation that I put myself in anymore!"
February 13, 2013,
We were all sitting around the तालिका, टेबल eating the birthday cake I bought for Prince and I कहा "so little brother; I saw the picture of the police officer लेखन आप a ticket for the way आप parked one of the cars!" He laughed and कहा "cut me some slack AJ; this whole driving thing is new to me!" I कहा "I know; I just like messing with you!" He asked "I still have to finish a few और hours of driving with an adult in the car before I can go for my official driving test and I was wondering if आप would ride around with me in the car today?" I कहा "sure; Kyle will आप stay here with my brother and sister and Carter while I go with Prince?" He कहा "that's fine babe; I don't know what all of us are going to do; but we'll have fun!" Carter कहा "daddy; can we go swimming in the pool?" Paris कहा "that sounds like fun!" I कहा "alright; आप guys have fun! Prince and I will be back in a few hours."
Prince climbed into the driver’s सीट in my truck and I sat अगला to him in the passenger's seat. I कहा "you better not crash my truck because you'll never hear me forgive you!" Prince looked at me horrified and I कहा “I’m joking! There's no pressure!" He took a sigh of relief and started the truck. As we drove many roads in Santa Barbara, we started to make small talk. Prince asked "so how do आप like being an adult?" I कहा "it doesn't really feel any different to me because ever since grandma kicked me out of her house Kyle and I have pretty much been doing everything on our own. It's definitely weird paying bills and signing documents; but I like having the responsibility. I don't have to depend on other people anymore to make sure that things get done!" He कहा "grandma really misses आप and started to regret making आप leave. I think she realizes now that आप live at Neverland with Kyle and Carter that आप will never हटाइए back into her house! I think she knows that dad would have been disappointed in both her and आप for letting it get to the point where आप need to be on your own pretty much at 17 years old. Dad would never let आप go out on your own at that age; let alone take Carter with you! Grandma felt really badly for that and worried about आप for days on end until Aunt Latoya called her and told her that the three of आप were staying with her." I कहा "I was never really mad at grandma for kicking me out. Sure, I was mad in the moment; but that's part of my oppositional defiance disorder. I know I deserved to be kicked out of the house because she did warn me about anything going on between Kyle and I. Honestly, I felt really stupid about it afterwards! I wasn't really worried about myself; I was और worried about Carter!" Prince कहा "I was really mad at uncle Jermaine for threatening to bring मक्खी, ड्रैक, ड्रेक to the pound if आप didn't come to pick him up! I actually ended up getting into an argument with him about it! I'm not usually the type to challenge the adults; but that was totally uncalled for!" I कहा "I'm completely fine with आप guys stepping out into the spotlight a little bit; I just don't want it to get in the way of your education because that's what's most important right now! I saw Paris on the Ellen दिखाना and heard that you're conducting an interview for entertainment tonight!" Prince कहा "Blanket isn't really handling not having आप living with us that well! Even though he is 11, he cries for आप almost every night when he's in his room द्वारा himself! I go in there and asking what's wrong; but all he'll tell me is that he misses daddy even और now that he doesn't see आप every day!" I कहा "well; anytime आप guys want to come see me and hang out is fine with me! I get off of work from filming the Nickelodeon दिखाना around noon most days." He कहा "once I get my license we'll visit आप a lot more! I don't really like asking people to drive us over to your house because all they do is complain about you!" I कहा "don't pay any attention to them Prince; they aren't worth it!" He कहा "it's almost like they forget that you’re my older sister and they criticize आप right in front of us! They don't even care about our opinions and the worst part is that they don't even really know us! They may think they do; but they don't!" I कहा "let them talk bad about me all they want because I don't care and I never will! The only people whose opinion matters to me are Kyle, my siblings, Carter, and dad!"
We pulled back into the driveway at Neverland and got out of the truck. Prince and I walked out to the backyard where the swimming pool is. I sat down on the edge of the pool and let my feet hang over the side into the water. Blanket, Kyle, Paris, and Carter noticed us and I chuckled at how cute Carter looked swimming around with his little Spiderman lifejacket on! Kyle lifted Blanket up and tossed him halfway across the pool. Blanket कहा as he resurfaced to the चोटी, शीर्ष of the water "you should come in AJ!" Carter कहा "yeah mommy; आप should come in!" I कहा "I think I'm okay up here for now." Kyle asked "Carter; do आप want me to make mommy get in the pool?" Carter कहा "yeah daddy; but how are आप going to do that?" He कहा "you'll see" as he looked at me with a mischievous gleam in his eyes. He climbed out of the pool and slowly walked up to me as I laughed. I कहा "you wouldn't dare!" He chuckled and कहा "oh; but I would!" I walked backwards and कहा as I put my arms up to block him from grabbed me "I have a pair of $200 jeans on; don't!" I bumped into Prince as I continuously walked backwards and he playfully pushed me towards Kyle. As Kyle picked me up, I shouted "no, no, no!" I started laughing uncontrollably and grabbed onto Prince's कमीज, शर्ट as I कहा "if I'm going in then you're going in with me!"
I pulled Prince just barely inside the pool before Kyle tossed me with all his might across to the deep end. I came up for air and कहा "you are so dead Kyle!" I climbed out of the pool and went over to where Paris was sitting drying off of the towel. Paris asked "you really are in प्यार with Kyle; aren't you?" I कहा "of course I am! I wouldn't have taken the engagement ring if I wasn't!" She कहा "I can honestly say that I've never seen आप so happy in my life! Kyle is such a great guy and any guy who would father a child that isn't biologically his is amazing to me!" I कहा "yeah; I know and that's what I wish other people would see!" She कहा "while आप were gone with Prince I finally got to see what आप were talking about! He got Carter dressed to go swimming, made sure that he ate enough of his lunch, and he even helped Carter wipe his nose when he sneezed everywhere earlier! He is the only guy I know besides dad that wouldn't hesitate to clean up boogers!" I कहा "I know; it almost makes the want to cry because that should be Damien! Trust me, I couldn't care less if I ever saw Damien again; but at least Carter has Kyle! It's sad to think that the only father that he's ever known isn't even his father! I just don't want him to know about Damien yet because I don't want him to get his hopes up that Damien will be there! Kyle already does everything that any good daddy would do! I couldn't ask for a better fiancé if I picked him out myself! He watches Carter all दिन for me while I'm out living my dream! He picks up खाना for me and brings it to me at work! He gives Carter a bath four nights a week because we agreed to विभाजित करें, विभक्त करें that evenly! He cleans up everything and anything that Carter does या plays with; including things that most fathers wouldn't even go near या want anything to do with! I just प्यार Kyle so much; it's the kind of प्यार that आप can't even describe!" Paris कहा "I think if daddy was here he would totally approve of आप getting married to Kyle; even if आप guys are only a couple of teenagers!" I asked" just out of curiosity; what if instead of Kyle and me getting married it was Damien? What do आप think dad would say?" She कहा "dad would have a total freak out! He hated Damien for all the pain that he caused you! I'm so glad that आप realized that Damien wasn't good for आप या Carter! I agree with आप on Kyle; I think he's the perfect guy for आप and Carter!"
February 14, 2013,
I had just gotten घर from work, after an extra-long दिन and was just happy to be able to relax. It was 9 o'clock at night when I walked through the front door of the house and all the lights were off. I turned them on and walked upstairs. I glanced over in Carter's room and noticed that he was asleep. I walked into his room and turned the TV off after चुंबन the चोटी, शीर्ष of his head which was still wet from taking a bath earlier. I shut the door as I left the room and went down to our bedroom.
I turned on the light and saw Kyle sitting on the edge of the बिस्तर with rose petals surrounding him. He कहा "happy Valentine's दिन babe! I know आप don't really like romantic holidays like this; but I wanted to do something special!" I kissed his lips as I sat down अगला to him on the bed. I went to grab the box of condoms that was sitting on चोटी, शीर्ष of the dresser and he कहा "you know AJ; we don't really need to use those!" I asked with a confused look on my face "why; I thought this whole romantic thing was to get me in the mood and it's working! आप didn't really have to do all this to make me want to!" He कहा "that's not what I meant! Obviously I want to have sex with आप because it's Valentine's दिन and I प्यार you! What I meant was that we don't need to use the condoms!" I कहा "but; if we don't use them there is chance that आप could get me pregnant!" He कहा "that's the whole point AJ; I want to have a baby with you!" I कहा "whoa; slow down Kyle! We aren't even married yet!" He कहा "so; let's go get married at the courthouse in a couple days!" I asked "what's gotten into you? Why do आप want to do all this so suddenly?" He कहा "your uncles came द्वारा the ranch again this morning and spray-painted the sign outside. I say that आप and I just go get married as soon as possible. We can still have the big wedding in a few और years; but this way everyone will know that we were serious when we कहा that we were getting married and maybe they'll leave us alone!" I कहा "actually, that doesn't sound like such a bad idea after all! Instead of doing the whole thing with a priest, we should just save all of that for the big wedding. आप and I can just go down to the courthouse for now and sign a marriage license that states that we are legally married just so my uncles can't try to sabotage anything anymore!" He कहा "sounds good to me; just as long as the family knows that we will eventually have a huge ceremony like a normal wedding when we have और time!" I कहा "the people that matter will understand where we're coming from! I would never leave them out of the real marriage! This is just the paperwork that says that were married; not an important wedding! I would never leave any of them out of that!"
February 17, 2013,
We just left the courthouse after signing our marriage license, and we are headed over to my grandmother's house to tell everyone. We pulled into the driveway and I asked "are आप ready for this… Husband?" Kyle laughed and कहा "you're so cheesy! Yes I'm ready for this… Wife!" I held Carter's hand as he walked inside and the entire family was waiting for us. Uncle Randy कहा "I heard आप have an announcement to make.” I कहा as I took a deep breath "Kyle and I got married."
Just like I thought they would, they immediately erupted into a barrage of screaming and protest. Uncle Jermaine asked "what do आप mean आप guys got married? I thought आप were going to have a wedding!" I कहा "we are; just not right now because I'm too busy with work to plan a wedding! We just went down to the courthouse and signed our marriage license; that's all! We are saving all the special stuff for the big wedding ceremony in a couple of years!" Grandma smiled and कहा "I really don't understand why your uncles are being so immature about this! I'm happy for आप and Kyle!" Jackie asked as he raised his voice at my grandmother "how can आप be happy for them? This is the stupidest thing they have done! Michael would be flipping out right now if he was here!" Kyle कहा softly "actually; AJ and I went to a psychic to get Michael's approval on the marriage and he was okay with it!" Uncle Tito कहा "all that psychic stuff is fake and आप are just using that as an excuse!" Paris कहा at the चोटी, शीर्ष of her lungs trying to overpower the screaming that was going on in the room "EVERYBODY JUST BE QUIET! WHY CAN'T आप JUST BE HAPPY FOR AJ? EVERYTHING CAN'T ALWAYS BE ABOUT आप GUYS!" She ran upstairs and I ran after her.
I followed Paris into her bedroom and shut the door behind me. She had tears in her eyes and her mascara was running down her face. I looked at her sympathetically and कहा "it's alright Paris! I don't give a shit about what they think!" I कहा down on the बिस्तर अगला to her and put my arm around her as she कहा "I hate it when our uncles come over here! It's always so stressful because all they want to do is start drama! I don't know why they like to pick on आप so much; I don't get it! What did आप ever do to them to deserve that?" I कहा "it's not about what I did to them; it's about what I have! They are just jealous of my success and I guarantee आप that if I passed each of them $1000 that they would totally be with us being married! All they care about is money Paris! That's all they'll ever care about!" She कहा "I'm so excited that आप and Kyle are married! I know that dad would be excited too! It's funny because dad would always joke around when we were little about आप and Kyle getting married someday!" I laughed and कहा "it's pretty ironic that me and Kyle are actually married now!"
May, 7, 2013,
Kyle and I are slowly settling into married life and it's actually pretty easy to use to! We were upstairs getting ready for बिस्तर and Kyle was in the bathroom that is in our bedroom brushing his teeth. I looked in from the spot where I was laying in bed. He laid down on the बिस्तर and I कहा "now that we're married; I've been thinking about this whole baby thing and I think we should go ahead and start trying to get pregnant." He कहा in an excited tone "finally; let's start now!"
June 13, 2013,
There is a knock on the front door of Neverland and I went up to answer it. It was my grandmother with my siblings. I invited them inside and we went into the living room where Carter was watching TV with Kyle. They all sat down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे with us and my grandmother कहा "I just want to apologize to आप for the way that your uncles acted when आप announced everything with the marriage license." I कहा "you don't need to apologize to me grandma; I know that you're scared of them and that they intimidate you!" She कहा "I प्यार you, Kyle, and Carter! I don't have a problem at all with आप to getting married with a marriage license for now and then the ceremony later! I can completely see that आप two are in love!"
Carter interrupted the conversation द्वारा saying something that absolutely embarrassed me beyond belief. He asked right in front of everyone "mommy; how come daddy makes आप scream at night when you're in your room with him?" Kyle looked at me with a mortified look on his face and I started to blush. I कहा "oh my God; this is embarrassing!" Grandma immediately burst out laughing as I turned bright red. She कहा "so I guess that सवाल from Carter means that आप and Kyle just might be ready for another baby?" I कहा as I continued to blush "possibly; I'm still stuck on the fact that Carter was awake all those times and heard Kyle and I!" Kyle कहा "I guess we automatically assume that he will be sleeping when we decide to try because it's usually midnight!" I कहा wanting to change the subject away from the sex life between Kyle and I "I have to go to work soon so; आप guys might want to leave!"
After they left, Kyle looked at me and then Carter asked "daddy; how come आप make mommy scream like that?" Kyle कहा completely at a loss for words "ummm; mommy and I are just watching scary फिल्में together in our bedroom. We don't wake आप up; do we?" Carter responded "not really; I get up to go to my potty in the middle of the night and I can hear mommy screaming. I thought आप were hurting her daddy." I forced back laughter and कहा "don't worry buddy; daddy would never hurt me! Daddy and I just watch some really scary फिल्में at night and it makes me scream really loud." Carter कहा "oh okay then; just as long as you're not hurting mommy daddy!" He ran off upstairs and Kyle and I both took a sigh of relief. Kyle कहा "oh my God AJ! आप and I need to be और careful about making sure Carter's asleep!" I कहा "I'm just glad that he didn't decide to walk in on us! That would have terrified him! I'm locking our bedroom door from now on; so at least he will have to knock! I've never been so embarrassed in my life!" Kyle कहा "tell me about it! We just had our son describe the noises that he hears आप and I making while we're being intimate to your 80-year-old grandmother and little siblings!" Afterwards, Kyle and I couldn't help but laugh at the awkward situation our son had created!
August 5, 2013,
I stood in the bathroom and tossed yet another negative pregnancy test into the trashcan which was now overflowing with the past pregnancy tests I have taken. I walked out of the bathroom and Kyle could tell द्वारा the expression on my face that it wasn't successful. I threw my hands up in the air as I sat down अगला to him on the बिस्तर and कहा "I don't get it! It was so easy for me to get pregnant the first time! आप and I have literally had sex every night for the past five months and still nothing! I wonder if something is wrong with me!" He कहा "maybe आप should just make a doctor’s appointment just to be sure that nothing's wrong babe!" I कहा "I'll see if the doctor can fit me in for an appointment tomorrow morning before I go to work. I hope nothing's wrong with me that stopping me from getting pregnant!"
August 6, 2013,
Kyle and I sat there in a hospital room waiting for the results of the tests the doctor performed on me. Thankfully, Prince and Paris are still off from school for the summer and agreed to watch Carter during my appointment. Kyle and I were both worried because it was taking the doctor a really long time to come back into the room.
After 20 मिनटों of waiting, Dr. Simpson came back into the room and कहा "every single test I ran on आप came back negative. There should be no reason why आप yourself can't become pregnant. You've obviously had a child before; so your eggs looked perfectly fine to me. Do आप mind if I do some blood work on आप Kyle?" He कहा "I don't see why not." She ran some tests down to the lab and we were once again left waiting in the hospital room for the results.
Dr. Simpson came back into the room and कहा "I've never seen this in a 19 साल old before!" Kyle and I both asked in unison "what is it?" She responded "from everything that I can tell from the tests… You're almost completely sterol Kyle. आप only have a 5% chance of getting AJ pregnant with your own equipment; if that's what आप want to call it!" Kyle just looked at me and bolted out of the room. I कहा as I looked at Dr. Simpson "I better go after him; thanks for making time for my appointment."
I ran outside to the parking lot and saw Kyle sitting on the curb trying his best not to cry. I sat down अगला to him and कहा "there's still that 5% chance that आप could get me pregnant naturally. We can keep trying if आप want to!" He asked "what's the point? I'm not real man according to what the doctor just कहा in there!" I put my arm around him and कहा "just because आप can’t get me pregnant with your own stuff doesn't make आप any less of a man than आप are in my eyes!" He asked "what makes आप say that babe?" I कहा "think about it; it takes a real man to be a father to a child that isn't even biologically his! आप gave up your dream of being a mechanic just so I could live my dream! That's way और than Damien would ever do for Carter या me if I was with him instead of you!" Kyle asked "you really wouldn't प्यार me any less? Even if आप and I can never physically create a child together?" I कहा "of course I would still प्यार आप as much as I do now! I प्यार आप for आप and that other stuff has nothing to do with it! Besides; just think of how much money we'll save because we really don't need condoms anymore!" Kyle smirked and कहा "yeah; that's always a good thing!" I कहा "if आप want to keep trying to get me pregnant, I'm cool with that because in end if it doesn't work it was a real good excuse to mess around with आप even और than usual!" The two of us rolled around on the ground laughing and he कहा "you can always manage to cheer me up; no matter what's going on!"
September 15, 2013,
I came downstairs carrying my cell phone in my hand and Kyle asked "why do आप look so depressed?" I कहा "that was one of the producers of the Nickelodeon दिखाना that I'm part of and he just called to tell me that the दिखाना is canceled because of bad ratings." Kyle asked "so what happens now?" I कहा "I guess I go back to finishing my सेकंड album that was supposed to be released. Then I will probably have to go on tour again; hopefully this time worldwide!" He कहा "well; I'll be here to support आप with whatever आप need while you're in the studio या promoting the album when it's released." I कहा "thanks; I don't think we've had so many depressing things happen to us this close together before!" He कहा "the good thing is that it can't get any worse than it already is!"
After talking with Frank on the phone about heading into the studio tomorrow to finish working on the album that I never completed, I sat there in the living room staring off into space. I noticed out of the corner of my eye that a police officer was walking up to the front gate. I got off the सोफ़ा, सोफे and opened the gate from the keypad inside and he knocked on the door to the house. I answered it and he कहा "hello; I've been asked to deliver this mandated court appearance paperwork to your house.” I wrinkled my eyebrows with a puzzled look on my face and shut the door as he walked away.
I opened the नारंगी, ऑरेंज envelope and pulled out an official court document that कहा "petition for custody" across the top. Underneath that, I read" the father stated as Damien Adam Hayes is issuing आप Alanna Michael Jackson with a petition to the court of Santa Barbara County for partial custody and/or visitation with the child hereby stated as Carter Shawn Jackson. आप have four months to decide if आप would like to settle this out-of-court द्वारा way of mediation या if आप would like to appeal the above father's ability to adequately care for the child. – Thank आप for your time, Judge Marion Anderson
I shook my head in disbelief as tears began to well in my eyes. I ran upstairs and shut the bathroom door faster than Kyle could even notice. A few मिनटों later, he heard me sobbing and leaned up against the door. He asked "what's wrong AJ?" I कहा "come in here!" He opened the door and sat down on the closed toilet सीट as he looked down at me. I curled myself up into a ball and had my head buried in the चोटी, शीर्ष of my needs as I sobbed uncontrollably. Kyle asked "what's going on?" I managed to force out the words "Damien wants to fight me for custody या visitation over Carter!" Kyle कहा "I thought Damien didn't care if he ever saw Carter again!" I कहा "that's the thing; Damien doesn't care about Carter! He's only doing it to spite me because I am a lot better off financially than he is! I think he thinks that if we evenly shared 50-50 custody of Carter then I would have to pay him some sort of child support for the time he would have Carter! I think I really would have to pay child support if he won 50-50 custody of Carter!" Kyle कहा "even though I've never met Damien, I hate him! That's really immature of him to use Carter to get money from you!" I कहा "I don't even care about the money! I care about Carter! I don't want him to get attached to Damien all because Damien will pretend like he cares about him for the first few months and then decide to just not दिखाना up one दिन when Carter is waiting for him!" Kyle कहा "I understand why आप want to protect Carter from being hurt emotionally द्वारा Damien and I highly doubt with Damien's past he will be awarded any type of custody! I think the most the courts would be willing to give him is supervised visitation! Don't worry AJ; we're going to fight this in court! We can't let Damien get any time alone with Carter because there's no telling what he would do just to get money out of you!!!"
I was just getting back to Neverland after filming the pilot episode of "my stepbrother is a secret agent" and I'm excited because this new job has way better work hours than my संगीत career does. I'm not saying that I'm giving up on संगीत but, I do need a break from it for a while and surprisingly my manager Frank took the news very well.
It was just a little after 10 o'clock in the morning when I walked through the front door and Kyle was in the रसोई, रसोईघर making pancakes. I walked up behind him and kissed his neck as he कहा "I can already tell that I'm going to like having आप घर so early every day!" Carter ran into the room and pretty much jumped into my arms with excitement.
I helped Kyle set the तालिका, टेबल and all of us sat down to eat breakfast. Kyle कहा as he helped Carter cut his पेनकेक्स "we have to start thinking about when we're going to tell your family about our engagement. They haven't even seen Neverland since we moved in. I think everyone's long overdue for a visit; don't you?" I कहा "Prince, Blanket, and Paris yes… My other family members not so much! They always cause problems when it is definitely not necessary!" He कहा "just think about it because आप can't keep them away forever babe!" I कहा "I know that; I just think we should invite them over tomorrow and get all this over with! I'm perfectly fine with having my siblings come over here anytime they want to; even if they wanted to sleep over! I would प्यार that!"
January 2, 2013,
Kyle had just walked in carrying four boxes of पिज़्ज़ा, पिज्जा in his arms when my family members pulled into the driveway. I rolled my eyes and कहा sarcastically "oh joy; this is going to be fun!" I opened up the door and was surprised to see that it was only my aunt Latoya and of my siblings. I कहा as I hugged each of them "I'm a little surprised that grandma didn't at least come!" Aunt Latoya कहा "she couldn't deal with coming here and remembering how happy your dad was when he was living here." I कहा sympathetically "I understand; there's plenty of time for her to visit us!"
As we sat down at the table, I reached for a piece of पिज़्ज़ा, पिज्जा and Paris noticed my engagement ring. She looked at my aunt and asked "is that a promise ring AJ? Please tell me that's just a promise ring!" I कहा "it's not a promise ring Paris; it's an engagement ring!" Paris कहा almost seeming to be in denial "engagement ring as in engaged to be married?" I कहा "yes; that would be why it's called an engagement ring!" My aunt’s eyes widened as she stared at me with a stunned look on her face. She कहा "engagement ring; really Kyle? Are आप sure you're ready for such a big commitment at 19 years old?" Kyle responded "if it was any other girl, I wouldn't have proposed so quickly; but I'm truly in प्यार with AJ and always will be!" Aunt Latoya asked "you know that Carter's part of the deal if आप marry AJ right?"
We moved into the living room and Kyle continued the conversation द्वारा saying "of course I do!" I कहा "Carter calls him daddy and says that he is his daddy!" Aunt Latoya laughed and asked "yeah; but how much of the dirty work that goes along with parenting are आप doing Kyle?" I कहा "I don't know who told आप that the two of us aren't good parents! I'm assuming from my uncles… Don't believe everything that they say because they blow everything out of proportion!" She कहा "they told me that Carter still drinks out of a baby bottle and wears diapers!" I कहा "they haven't seen him in months! They don't know what they're talking about! We may be teenage parents; but I think we're doing a pretty good job at it! He doesn't drink from a bottle anymore!" She asked "well; what about the diaper situation?" I कहा "they are completely gone for your information! I would think that आप out of all people wouldn't believe everything that comes out of some of the family's mouths!" She कहा "it's not that I believed them; it's just that you're just a teenager who doesn't really know anything about parenting."
I furrowed my eyebrows because I was quite offended द्वारा what my aunt had just कहा and कहा "just because I'm a teenager doesn't mean that I can't figure it out!" She कहा "I didn't mean for that to sound rude." I कहा wanting to let it go "it did sound rude; but that's alright!" Prince asked as he looked at me "you do realize that most of the family is going to flip out about this whole आप and Kyle getting married thing; right?" I कहा "that's alright; they always complain about something that I do या don't do. I'm used to द्वारा now!" Paris कहा "I have a feeling that some of them won't come to the wedding just because they want to annoy आप AJ." I कहा "I really don't care anymore! I've seen firsthand how two-faced they can be and I don't really want to associate with them! I can see why dad kept us a सुरक्षित distance away from them!" Kyle कहा "all I care about is that I get married to AJ! It doesn't matter what it takes! I know that she is the one for me and other people's opinions don't matter!"
January 3, 2013,
It was barely 7 in the morning when Kyle and I were woken up द्वारा this loud banging noise coming from outside. Kyle rubbed his eyes and asked "what the hell is that noise babe?" I forced myself out of बिस्तर and looked out the window. I कहा "YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!!" Kyle asked "what is it?" I bit my bottom lip in anger as I कहा "my uncles are outside ramming their fucking car into the front gate!" Kyle looked out the window and shook his head in disbelief as I put my slippers on. Kyle asked "where are आप going?" I asked "where do आप think I'm going? I'm going to find out what the hell their problem is!" He कहा "I don't think that's a good idea AJ! Maybe I should just call the cops!" I कहा "the cops aren't going to get through to them; they never do! I'm going down there to deal with this myself!" He कहा "then I'm going with आप to back आप up!" I quickly looked into Carter's bedroom and noticed that he was still sleeping.
Kyle and I walked up to the front gate outside in our pajamas. Once they saw us coming, my uncles got out of the car and Marlon कहा "you guys better not get married! We totally disapprove of all of this!" Jermaine asked "what are आप two thinking? आप guys are only a couple of stupid teenagers!" I कहा "first of all, what the hell are आप doing ramming into the gate like that? सेकंड of all, आप guys don't really have a lot of room to talk! Each of आप doesn’t know how to respect a woman!" Randy कहा "yes we do and we know a whole lot और about प्यार than आप do!" I कहा "really? Last time I checked all of आप have either several failed marriages या a marriage in shambles!" Jackie कहा "if आप and Kyle go through with this wedding, all of us will be there to protest!" Kyle laughed and कहा "you really think we care about your approval; newsflash we don't!"
I looked at the damage that had been afflicted on the gate and कहा "you guys are going to be paying for this!" Tito कहा "you make millions and millions of dollars; pay for it yourself!" I कहा "if I don't receive a check in the mail from आप within the अगला week, I will be pressing charges for property damage and attempted trespassing!" Jackie कहा "I don't believe you'll actually go through with it; but whatever helps आप sleep at night!"
They all got back into the car and drove off in the other direction. I looked at Kyle in complete disbelief and asked "are they really that immature?" Kyle कहा "apparently!" I कहा "I know how my dad was with confrontation of any kind and he must've been terrified of my uncles!!! They don't scare me at all and I was being dead serious when I कहा that I'm going to press charges on them if they don’t give me the money to repair the gate! Dad probably would've let them get away with it just to keep the peace; but I'm not like that and they'll learn their lesson quickly! I don't know how many times I have to say या do something until they realize not to mess with me! I'm so sick of the ridiculousness they cause! They are grown men and need to start अभिनय like it because I'm getting fed up with their crap!"
February 11, 2013,
I was sitting in the living room watching TV with Carter while Kyle did some maintenance work on my truck when I got a phone call from Prince. I answered it and asked "what's up? I miss आप guys!" He कहा "you know my 16th birthday is coming up and I don't really have anything planned. Blanket was thinking of what he would want to do for his 11th birthday and he brought up the idea of hanging out at Neverland to have a sleepover together." I कहा "it's funny that आप bring that up because I was just talking to Kyle the other दिन about having a sleepover with the three of you!" Prince asked "so does that mean Blanket, Paris, and I can sleepover at Neverland?" I कहा "of course; but instead of just staying one night since tomorrow's Friday, आप guys should just stay for the whole weekend!" I could hear Paris in the background asking "is AJ going to let us stay the night at Neverland? I haven't been there since 2005 and I've been dying to go over there since I found out she owns the ranch!" Prince कहा "the entire weekend is even better! We'll be there around 4 o'clock tomorrow! Thank आप so much AJ!" I कहा "you don't need to thank me Prince! I miss आप guys and can't wait to see you! Carter needs help with something; so I have to get off the phone now. I'll see the three of आप tomorrow." He कहा "okay AJ; we प्यार आप and can't wait to spend the whole weekend at the ranch!"
February 12, 2013,
Kyle had just gotten back from picking up the Chinese खाना we ordered and we were waiting for my siblings to get here; so we could start the weekend long sleep over at Neverland. I opened the front gate from a keypad inside the house as a car pulled up in front of the entrance to the ranch and dropped them off. As I welcomed Blanket, Paris, and Prince inside, I noticed Paris had dramatically changed her appearance from the last time I had seen her. She died her hair black and had it cut in a punk rock style. I stared at her in silence for a few सेकंड्स trying to come up with the right words to say and I कहा "it's a little surprising to see this new side of आप that I didn't know existed; but I like it!" She thanked me and we all sat down at the तालिका, टेबल to start eating.
I asked "how are things going for आप guys over at grandma's?" Blanket कहा "it was really fun in the beginning; but now she's hardly ever around anymore!" I asked "what do आप mean?" Paris कहा "ever since our uncles and Janet kidnapped her over the summer, they've been watching her like a hawk! I'm assuming आप saw the video of me and Aunt Janet arguing in the driveway at Havenhurst! She took my phone away when I tried to reach out for help when we hadn't heard from grandma in a few days! I was really worried about her; Prince and I both were!" Prince कहा "I was going to call आप AJ; but there's not much आप can do from halfway around the world!" I कहा "you still could've called me! I told आप that if आप ever needed anything that I would be there for you; no matter what!" Paris कहा "I am so sick of all this drama! The biggest reason we wanted to come over here was to get away from the rest of the family!" I कहा "I know how आप feel because they had been harassing Kyle and me ever since they found out about the two of us planning to get married! They leave nasty notes in the mailbox and try to scare us with their threats." Prince कहा "it's probably only going to get worse after आप two get married! All they do when they come over to our house is complain about आप and Kyle! It's really starting to make me mad!" I asked "why; what do they say about me and Kyle?" Prince कहा "they say that you're really immature and that Kyle doesn't know the real side of who आप are AJ!" Kyle कहा "they don't even know what they're talking about! I can guarantee आप that I know और about AJ then all of them combined!" I कहा "they only see what they want to see! They bring out the anger in me! Very few people can make me that mad!" Paris कहा "after आप pressed charges on them for damage to the front gate and attempted trespassing, they flipped out! It was only a $500 fine या they could have fought आप in court over it! I couldn't believe they actually thought about taking it to court instead of paying 500 bucks! It would've only been $100 each for them to pay the fine equally! I don't understand why they would want to make a big deal out of nothing!" I कहा "it's because they just want to get as much money as they can from me! That's the only motive they have and that's all they care about!" Kyle कहा "I really hope that आप guys try to stay away from them as much is possible because they are up to no good!" I कहा "alright; enough with all this drama; let's have some fun!"
I started to दिखाना them around the house and Prince noticed the grand पियानो sitting in the corner of the living room. He asked "is that the same पियानो that was here when we all lived here?" I कहा "yes; it is!" He ran his fingers across the keys and कहा "I remember that all of us would sit on the floor while dad played us some songs a little while before we went to bed." I कहा "yeah; and आप and I would argue over who would sit on his lap! I've kind of forgotten all the songs that daddy taught me when I was little." Blanket कहा "I wish I wasn't three years old when we moved out of here because I don't really remember anything dad did with us here." I कहा "that's alright Blanket; I bet आप still have a lot of fun memories with daddy in the other places we lived in together!" He कहा "I still have some memories; but I'm forgetting most of them because I was only seven when he died!" I कहा after thinking about it for a few मिनटों "follow me आप guys; I have an idea!"
Blanket, Prince, Paris, Carter, Kyle, and I all walked down from the main house to the personal movie theater that was on the ranch. Kyle and I haven't set foot inside it since we moved to the ranch and this seemed like the perfect excuse too! We walked inside and saw the concession stand that the few staff members I hired a couple of weeks पूर्व had stalked full of candy. The पॉपकॉर्न machine was already running and the buttery smell filled the air around us. Blanket asked "this was really our own movie theater AJ? I कहा "yeah; it's pretty cool!" Paris asked "why did आप want to bring us to the movie theater?" I opened a nearby door and we walked into the screening room. Kyle sat down with Carter on his lap and helped him open up a package of खट्टा gummy worms.
10 मिनटों later, I came in carrying a huge stack of videotapes and Blanket asked "what are आप doing AJ?" I कहा "you'll see in a minute" as I popped a videotape into the VHS machine that was installed in the wall. I sat down in the chair अगला to Prince and a घर video started playing.
*In the घर video, dated at the bottom of the screen February 18, 2001*
Dad, Prince, and I were all sitting on the couch. I asked "daddy; why do आप have to leave tomorrow?" He responded as he looked down at me "you know I have to work AJ. I wish I could stay every single day; but I do have to leave every once in a while to make money." Prince कहा "I'm going to miss आप too much daddy! I don't want आप to leave!" Dad कहा "I know सेब head; but I have to! You're going to have fun here with Grace; I promise!" I कहा "you always say that we'll have fun while you're gone; but we never do! It's so much और fun when you're घर daddy या when आप take us with आप on your trips!" He कहा "I know AJ; but I can't always take आप with me; especially because there are three of आप now and I can't leave Prince and Paris behind!" I कहा "I know; I'm just going to miss आप tucking me into बिस्तर every night and playing hide and seek!" He कहा "I'm only going to be gone for three days and then I'll be back!" I asked "you're still going to help me get ready for बिस्तर tonight; right? He कहा "I always do!"
The video cuts off for a few सेकंड्स and then continues onto दिखाना dad lying अगला to me in my bed. I asked "am I going to be able to see आप tomorrow morning before आप leave?" He कहा "I don't think so sweetheart because I'm leaving really early in the morning!" I asked "daddy; can I ask आप something?" He कहा "of course आप can!" I asked "what's it like to be in love?" He had a surprised look on his face that such a big सवाल could come from a six-year-old. He pondered it back and forth in his mind for a few मिनटों before saying "it depends on what kind of प्यार you're asking about." I asked "what kinds of प्यार are there?" He कहा "well; there's प्यार like what I have for आप and your brother and sister. Like the way a mommy या daddy loves their children. Then there's कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला love." I कहा "I know what आप mean; like when a boy dog and a girl dog प्यार each other!" He chuckled and कहा "no; that's not what कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला प्यार is! कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला प्यार is when two young people think they might प्यार each other." I कहा "oh; are there any और kinds of love?" He कहा "there is one more." I asked "what's it called?" He responded after waiting a few सेकंड्स "true love." I asked "how do आप know the difference between true प्यार and regular love?" He कहा "trust me; when the time comes you'll know the difference! You'll just be able to tell! Why are आप asking me all these सवालों about love?" I कहा "I don't know; I was just wondering." He कहा after lightly pecking my lips "oh okay; just as long as आप don't go out and fall in प्यार with any boys anytime soon! Your daddy's little girl and if it were up to me आप wouldn't तारीख, दिनांक any boys until आप turned 50 years old!"
*Video ends*
I definitely understand what true प्यार is supposed to feel like now because I'm truly in प्यार with Kyle. It's funny how dad just knew that someday I would figure this whole being in प्यार thing out! I put another videotape in the VHS and pressed play.
*In the video dated at the bottom of the screen March 1, 1999*
Dad looks directly into the camera and says "hello world; I just want to दिखाना आप what I have to deal with on a daily basis." He points the camera in my direction and asks "do आप know why you're in timeout this time AJ? I कहा "I don't care! Shut up; आप stupid daddy!" He sternly कहा "stop that right now! आप don't tell me to shut up या call me stupid; that's not nice at all!" I started taking off one of my shoes and pretended like I was going to throw it at him. He कहा "don't even think about it AJ!" I laughed as I threw my left shoe directly into the camera lens and just barely missing his face. He asked "why would आप do that AJ?" I stuck my tongue out at him and कहा "because आप told me not to; that's why!" He sighed with frustration and कहा "it doesn't matter how many times I put आप in the corner; it always turns into a battle! Do I need to go over there and hold आप on my lap until आप calm down?" I कहा "I AM CALMED DOWN!!!" He कहा "no you're not and what did I tell आप about yelling in this house? Do we yell here?" I कहा "NO!!!" He calmly asked "then why are आप still yelling at me Alanna?" I कहा "BECAUSE आप WON'T LET ME OUT OF TIMEOUT!!!" He कहा "you yelling at me won't get आप any closer to being out of Timeout! आप know that yelling at me isn't going to bother me AJ."
I started crying and he कहा "that's not going to work anymore either!" I कहा "you're a mean daddy!" He कहा "that's not a nice thing to say to me. Do आप realize that if आप just calm down आप would already be out of the corner?" I कहा "JUST SHUT UP DADDY!!!" He कहा "stop telling me to shut up Alanna Michael Jackson! I hope you're not in timeout for three hours straight like आप were earlier."
*Video ends*
Prince कहा "I can't believe आप use to talk to dad like that!" Paris कहा "yeah I know AJ; and then आप threw your shoe at daddy's head!" I कहा "I used to be really out of control; but since I had Carter I have calmed down a lot! I've only gotten into a few fights since then and try my best to avoid situations where I would have to fight. Before, I would go looking for someone to start a fight with; just so I could prove that I was stronger than them! I hate to say it but, I think the fact that dad isn't physically here anymore has caused me to grow up a lot just because he isn't there to protect me from a bad situation that I put myself in anymore!"
February 13, 2013,
We were all sitting around the तालिका, टेबल eating the birthday cake I bought for Prince and I कहा "so little brother; I saw the picture of the police officer लेखन आप a ticket for the way आप parked one of the cars!" He laughed and कहा "cut me some slack AJ; this whole driving thing is new to me!" I कहा "I know; I just like messing with you!" He asked "I still have to finish a few और hours of driving with an adult in the car before I can go for my official driving test and I was wondering if आप would ride around with me in the car today?" I कहा "sure; Kyle will आप stay here with my brother and sister and Carter while I go with Prince?" He कहा "that's fine babe; I don't know what all of us are going to do; but we'll have fun!" Carter कहा "daddy; can we go swimming in the pool?" Paris कहा "that sounds like fun!" I कहा "alright; आप guys have fun! Prince and I will be back in a few hours."
Prince climbed into the driver’s सीट in my truck and I sat अगला to him in the passenger's seat. I कहा "you better not crash my truck because you'll never hear me forgive you!" Prince looked at me horrified and I कहा “I’m joking! There's no pressure!" He took a sigh of relief and started the truck. As we drove many roads in Santa Barbara, we started to make small talk. Prince asked "so how do आप like being an adult?" I कहा "it doesn't really feel any different to me because ever since grandma kicked me out of her house Kyle and I have pretty much been doing everything on our own. It's definitely weird paying bills and signing documents; but I like having the responsibility. I don't have to depend on other people anymore to make sure that things get done!" He कहा "grandma really misses आप and started to regret making आप leave. I think she realizes now that आप live at Neverland with Kyle and Carter that आप will never हटाइए back into her house! I think she knows that dad would have been disappointed in both her and आप for letting it get to the point where आप need to be on your own pretty much at 17 years old. Dad would never let आप go out on your own at that age; let alone take Carter with you! Grandma felt really badly for that and worried about आप for days on end until Aunt Latoya called her and told her that the three of आप were staying with her." I कहा "I was never really mad at grandma for kicking me out. Sure, I was mad in the moment; but that's part of my oppositional defiance disorder. I know I deserved to be kicked out of the house because she did warn me about anything going on between Kyle and I. Honestly, I felt really stupid about it afterwards! I wasn't really worried about myself; I was और worried about Carter!" Prince कहा "I was really mad at uncle Jermaine for threatening to bring मक्खी, ड्रैक, ड्रेक to the pound if आप didn't come to pick him up! I actually ended up getting into an argument with him about it! I'm not usually the type to challenge the adults; but that was totally uncalled for!" I कहा "I'm completely fine with आप guys stepping out into the spotlight a little bit; I just don't want it to get in the way of your education because that's what's most important right now! I saw Paris on the Ellen दिखाना and heard that you're conducting an interview for entertainment tonight!" Prince कहा "Blanket isn't really handling not having आप living with us that well! Even though he is 11, he cries for आप almost every night when he's in his room द्वारा himself! I go in there and asking what's wrong; but all he'll tell me is that he misses daddy even और now that he doesn't see आप every day!" I कहा "well; anytime आप guys want to come see me and hang out is fine with me! I get off of work from filming the Nickelodeon दिखाना around noon most days." He कहा "once I get my license we'll visit आप a lot more! I don't really like asking people to drive us over to your house because all they do is complain about you!" I कहा "don't pay any attention to them Prince; they aren't worth it!" He कहा "it's almost like they forget that you’re my older sister and they criticize आप right in front of us! They don't even care about our opinions and the worst part is that they don't even really know us! They may think they do; but they don't!" I कहा "let them talk bad about me all they want because I don't care and I never will! The only people whose opinion matters to me are Kyle, my siblings, Carter, and dad!"
We pulled back into the driveway at Neverland and got out of the truck. Prince and I walked out to the backyard where the swimming pool is. I sat down on the edge of the pool and let my feet hang over the side into the water. Blanket, Kyle, Paris, and Carter noticed us and I chuckled at how cute Carter looked swimming around with his little Spiderman lifejacket on! Kyle lifted Blanket up and tossed him halfway across the pool. Blanket कहा as he resurfaced to the चोटी, शीर्ष of the water "you should come in AJ!" Carter कहा "yeah mommy; आप should come in!" I कहा "I think I'm okay up here for now." Kyle asked "Carter; do आप want me to make mommy get in the pool?" Carter कहा "yeah daddy; but how are आप going to do that?" He कहा "you'll see" as he looked at me with a mischievous gleam in his eyes. He climbed out of the pool and slowly walked up to me as I laughed. I कहा "you wouldn't dare!" He chuckled and कहा "oh; but I would!" I walked backwards and कहा as I put my arms up to block him from grabbed me "I have a pair of $200 jeans on; don't!" I bumped into Prince as I continuously walked backwards and he playfully pushed me towards Kyle. As Kyle picked me up, I shouted "no, no, no!" I started laughing uncontrollably and grabbed onto Prince's कमीज, शर्ट as I कहा "if I'm going in then you're going in with me!"
I pulled Prince just barely inside the pool before Kyle tossed me with all his might across to the deep end. I came up for air and कहा "you are so dead Kyle!" I climbed out of the pool and went over to where Paris was sitting drying off of the towel. Paris asked "you really are in प्यार with Kyle; aren't you?" I कहा "of course I am! I wouldn't have taken the engagement ring if I wasn't!" She कहा "I can honestly say that I've never seen आप so happy in my life! Kyle is such a great guy and any guy who would father a child that isn't biologically his is amazing to me!" I कहा "yeah; I know and that's what I wish other people would see!" She कहा "while आप were gone with Prince I finally got to see what आप were talking about! He got Carter dressed to go swimming, made sure that he ate enough of his lunch, and he even helped Carter wipe his nose when he sneezed everywhere earlier! He is the only guy I know besides dad that wouldn't hesitate to clean up boogers!" I कहा "I know; it almost makes the want to cry because that should be Damien! Trust me, I couldn't care less if I ever saw Damien again; but at least Carter has Kyle! It's sad to think that the only father that he's ever known isn't even his father! I just don't want him to know about Damien yet because I don't want him to get his hopes up that Damien will be there! Kyle already does everything that any good daddy would do! I couldn't ask for a better fiancé if I picked him out myself! He watches Carter all दिन for me while I'm out living my dream! He picks up खाना for me and brings it to me at work! He gives Carter a bath four nights a week because we agreed to विभाजित करें, विभक्त करें that evenly! He cleans up everything and anything that Carter does या plays with; including things that most fathers wouldn't even go near या want anything to do with! I just प्यार Kyle so much; it's the kind of प्यार that आप can't even describe!" Paris कहा "I think if daddy was here he would totally approve of आप getting married to Kyle; even if आप guys are only a couple of teenagers!" I asked" just out of curiosity; what if instead of Kyle and me getting married it was Damien? What do आप think dad would say?" She कहा "dad would have a total freak out! He hated Damien for all the pain that he caused you! I'm so glad that आप realized that Damien wasn't good for आप या Carter! I agree with आप on Kyle; I think he's the perfect guy for आप and Carter!"
February 14, 2013,
I had just gotten घर from work, after an extra-long दिन and was just happy to be able to relax. It was 9 o'clock at night when I walked through the front door of the house and all the lights were off. I turned them on and walked upstairs. I glanced over in Carter's room and noticed that he was asleep. I walked into his room and turned the TV off after चुंबन the चोटी, शीर्ष of his head which was still wet from taking a bath earlier. I shut the door as I left the room and went down to our bedroom.
I turned on the light and saw Kyle sitting on the edge of the बिस्तर with rose petals surrounding him. He कहा "happy Valentine's दिन babe! I know आप don't really like romantic holidays like this; but I wanted to do something special!" I kissed his lips as I sat down अगला to him on the bed. I went to grab the box of condoms that was sitting on चोटी, शीर्ष of the dresser and he कहा "you know AJ; we don't really need to use those!" I asked with a confused look on my face "why; I thought this whole romantic thing was to get me in the mood and it's working! आप didn't really have to do all this to make me want to!" He कहा "that's not what I meant! Obviously I want to have sex with आप because it's Valentine's दिन and I प्यार you! What I meant was that we don't need to use the condoms!" I कहा "but; if we don't use them there is chance that आप could get me pregnant!" He कहा "that's the whole point AJ; I want to have a baby with you!" I कहा "whoa; slow down Kyle! We aren't even married yet!" He कहा "so; let's go get married at the courthouse in a couple days!" I asked "what's gotten into you? Why do आप want to do all this so suddenly?" He कहा "your uncles came द्वारा the ranch again this morning and spray-painted the sign outside. I say that आप and I just go get married as soon as possible. We can still have the big wedding in a few और years; but this way everyone will know that we were serious when we कहा that we were getting married and maybe they'll leave us alone!" I कहा "actually, that doesn't sound like such a bad idea after all! Instead of doing the whole thing with a priest, we should just save all of that for the big wedding. आप and I can just go down to the courthouse for now and sign a marriage license that states that we are legally married just so my uncles can't try to sabotage anything anymore!" He कहा "sounds good to me; just as long as the family knows that we will eventually have a huge ceremony like a normal wedding when we have और time!" I कहा "the people that matter will understand where we're coming from! I would never leave them out of the real marriage! This is just the paperwork that says that were married; not an important wedding! I would never leave any of them out of that!"
February 17, 2013,
We just left the courthouse after signing our marriage license, and we are headed over to my grandmother's house to tell everyone. We pulled into the driveway and I asked "are आप ready for this… Husband?" Kyle laughed and कहा "you're so cheesy! Yes I'm ready for this… Wife!" I held Carter's hand as he walked inside and the entire family was waiting for us. Uncle Randy कहा "I heard आप have an announcement to make.” I कहा as I took a deep breath "Kyle and I got married."
Just like I thought they would, they immediately erupted into a barrage of screaming and protest. Uncle Jermaine asked "what do आप mean आप guys got married? I thought आप were going to have a wedding!" I कहा "we are; just not right now because I'm too busy with work to plan a wedding! We just went down to the courthouse and signed our marriage license; that's all! We are saving all the special stuff for the big wedding ceremony in a couple of years!" Grandma smiled and कहा "I really don't understand why your uncles are being so immature about this! I'm happy for आप and Kyle!" Jackie asked as he raised his voice at my grandmother "how can आप be happy for them? This is the stupidest thing they have done! Michael would be flipping out right now if he was here!" Kyle कहा softly "actually; AJ and I went to a psychic to get Michael's approval on the marriage and he was okay with it!" Uncle Tito कहा "all that psychic stuff is fake and आप are just using that as an excuse!" Paris कहा at the चोटी, शीर्ष of her lungs trying to overpower the screaming that was going on in the room "EVERYBODY JUST BE QUIET! WHY CAN'T आप JUST BE HAPPY FOR AJ? EVERYTHING CAN'T ALWAYS BE ABOUT आप GUYS!" She ran upstairs and I ran after her.
I followed Paris into her bedroom and shut the door behind me. She had tears in her eyes and her mascara was running down her face. I looked at her sympathetically and कहा "it's alright Paris! I don't give a shit about what they think!" I कहा down on the बिस्तर अगला to her and put my arm around her as she कहा "I hate it when our uncles come over here! It's always so stressful because all they want to do is start drama! I don't know why they like to pick on आप so much; I don't get it! What did आप ever do to them to deserve that?" I कहा "it's not about what I did to them; it's about what I have! They are just jealous of my success and I guarantee आप that if I passed each of them $1000 that they would totally be with us being married! All they care about is money Paris! That's all they'll ever care about!" She कहा "I'm so excited that आप and Kyle are married! I know that dad would be excited too! It's funny because dad would always joke around when we were little about आप and Kyle getting married someday!" I laughed and कहा "it's pretty ironic that me and Kyle are actually married now!"
May, 7, 2013,
Kyle and I are slowly settling into married life and it's actually pretty easy to use to! We were upstairs getting ready for बिस्तर and Kyle was in the bathroom that is in our bedroom brushing his teeth. I looked in from the spot where I was laying in bed. He laid down on the बिस्तर and I कहा "now that we're married; I've been thinking about this whole baby thing and I think we should go ahead and start trying to get pregnant." He कहा in an excited tone "finally; let's start now!"
June 13, 2013,
There is a knock on the front door of Neverland and I went up to answer it. It was my grandmother with my siblings. I invited them inside and we went into the living room where Carter was watching TV with Kyle. They all sat down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे with us and my grandmother कहा "I just want to apologize to आप for the way that your uncles acted when आप announced everything with the marriage license." I कहा "you don't need to apologize to me grandma; I know that you're scared of them and that they intimidate you!" She कहा "I प्यार you, Kyle, and Carter! I don't have a problem at all with आप to getting married with a marriage license for now and then the ceremony later! I can completely see that आप two are in love!"
Carter interrupted the conversation द्वारा saying something that absolutely embarrassed me beyond belief. He asked right in front of everyone "mommy; how come daddy makes आप scream at night when you're in your room with him?" Kyle looked at me with a mortified look on his face and I started to blush. I कहा "oh my God; this is embarrassing!" Grandma immediately burst out laughing as I turned bright red. She कहा "so I guess that सवाल from Carter means that आप and Kyle just might be ready for another baby?" I कहा as I continued to blush "possibly; I'm still stuck on the fact that Carter was awake all those times and heard Kyle and I!" Kyle कहा "I guess we automatically assume that he will be sleeping when we decide to try because it's usually midnight!" I कहा wanting to change the subject away from the sex life between Kyle and I "I have to go to work soon so; आप guys might want to leave!"
After they left, Kyle looked at me and then Carter asked "daddy; how come आप make mommy scream like that?" Kyle कहा completely at a loss for words "ummm; mommy and I are just watching scary फिल्में together in our bedroom. We don't wake आप up; do we?" Carter responded "not really; I get up to go to my potty in the middle of the night and I can hear mommy screaming. I thought आप were hurting her daddy." I forced back laughter and कहा "don't worry buddy; daddy would never hurt me! Daddy and I just watch some really scary फिल्में at night and it makes me scream really loud." Carter कहा "oh okay then; just as long as you're not hurting mommy daddy!" He ran off upstairs and Kyle and I both took a sigh of relief. Kyle कहा "oh my God AJ! आप and I need to be और careful about making sure Carter's asleep!" I कहा "I'm just glad that he didn't decide to walk in on us! That would have terrified him! I'm locking our bedroom door from now on; so at least he will have to knock! I've never been so embarrassed in my life!" Kyle कहा "tell me about it! We just had our son describe the noises that he hears आप and I making while we're being intimate to your 80-year-old grandmother and little siblings!" Afterwards, Kyle and I couldn't help but laugh at the awkward situation our son had created!
August 5, 2013,
I stood in the bathroom and tossed yet another negative pregnancy test into the trashcan which was now overflowing with the past pregnancy tests I have taken. I walked out of the bathroom and Kyle could tell द्वारा the expression on my face that it wasn't successful. I threw my hands up in the air as I sat down अगला to him on the बिस्तर and कहा "I don't get it! It was so easy for me to get pregnant the first time! आप and I have literally had sex every night for the past five months and still nothing! I wonder if something is wrong with me!" He कहा "maybe आप should just make a doctor’s appointment just to be sure that nothing's wrong babe!" I कहा "I'll see if the doctor can fit me in for an appointment tomorrow morning before I go to work. I hope nothing's wrong with me that stopping me from getting pregnant!"
August 6, 2013,
Kyle and I sat there in a hospital room waiting for the results of the tests the doctor performed on me. Thankfully, Prince and Paris are still off from school for the summer and agreed to watch Carter during my appointment. Kyle and I were both worried because it was taking the doctor a really long time to come back into the room.
After 20 मिनटों of waiting, Dr. Simpson came back into the room and कहा "every single test I ran on आप came back negative. There should be no reason why आप yourself can't become pregnant. You've obviously had a child before; so your eggs looked perfectly fine to me. Do आप mind if I do some blood work on आप Kyle?" He कहा "I don't see why not." She ran some tests down to the lab and we were once again left waiting in the hospital room for the results.
Dr. Simpson came back into the room and कहा "I've never seen this in a 19 साल old before!" Kyle and I both asked in unison "what is it?" She responded "from everything that I can tell from the tests… You're almost completely sterol Kyle. आप only have a 5% chance of getting AJ pregnant with your own equipment; if that's what आप want to call it!" Kyle just looked at me and bolted out of the room. I कहा as I looked at Dr. Simpson "I better go after him; thanks for making time for my appointment."
I ran outside to the parking lot and saw Kyle sitting on the curb trying his best not to cry. I sat down अगला to him and कहा "there's still that 5% chance that आप could get me pregnant naturally. We can keep trying if आप want to!" He asked "what's the point? I'm not real man according to what the doctor just कहा in there!" I put my arm around him and कहा "just because आप can’t get me pregnant with your own stuff doesn't make आप any less of a man than आप are in my eyes!" He asked "what makes आप say that babe?" I कहा "think about it; it takes a real man to be a father to a child that isn't even biologically his! आप gave up your dream of being a mechanic just so I could live my dream! That's way और than Damien would ever do for Carter या me if I was with him instead of you!" Kyle asked "you really wouldn't प्यार me any less? Even if आप and I can never physically create a child together?" I कहा "of course I would still प्यार आप as much as I do now! I प्यार आप for आप and that other stuff has nothing to do with it! Besides; just think of how much money we'll save because we really don't need condoms anymore!" Kyle smirked and कहा "yeah; that's always a good thing!" I कहा "if आप want to keep trying to get me pregnant, I'm cool with that because in end if it doesn't work it was a real good excuse to mess around with आप even और than usual!" The two of us rolled around on the ground laughing and he कहा "you can always manage to cheer me up; no matter what's going on!"
September 15, 2013,
I came downstairs carrying my cell phone in my hand and Kyle asked "why do आप look so depressed?" I कहा "that was one of the producers of the Nickelodeon दिखाना that I'm part of and he just called to tell me that the दिखाना is canceled because of bad ratings." Kyle asked "so what happens now?" I कहा "I guess I go back to finishing my सेकंड album that was supposed to be released. Then I will probably have to go on tour again; hopefully this time worldwide!" He कहा "well; I'll be here to support आप with whatever आप need while you're in the studio या promoting the album when it's released." I कहा "thanks; I don't think we've had so many depressing things happen to us this close together before!" He कहा "the good thing is that it can't get any worse than it already is!"
After talking with Frank on the phone about heading into the studio tomorrow to finish working on the album that I never completed, I sat there in the living room staring off into space. I noticed out of the corner of my eye that a police officer was walking up to the front gate. I got off the सोफ़ा, सोफे and opened the gate from the keypad inside and he knocked on the door to the house. I answered it and he कहा "hello; I've been asked to deliver this mandated court appearance paperwork to your house.” I wrinkled my eyebrows with a puzzled look on my face and shut the door as he walked away.
I opened the नारंगी, ऑरेंज envelope and pulled out an official court document that कहा "petition for custody" across the top. Underneath that, I read" the father stated as Damien Adam Hayes is issuing आप Alanna Michael Jackson with a petition to the court of Santa Barbara County for partial custody and/or visitation with the child hereby stated as Carter Shawn Jackson. आप have four months to decide if आप would like to settle this out-of-court द्वारा way of mediation या if आप would like to appeal the above father's ability to adequately care for the child. – Thank आप for your time, Judge Marion Anderson
I shook my head in disbelief as tears began to well in my eyes. I ran upstairs and shut the bathroom door faster than Kyle could even notice. A few मिनटों later, he heard me sobbing and leaned up against the door. He asked "what's wrong AJ?" I कहा "come in here!" He opened the door and sat down on the closed toilet सीट as he looked down at me. I curled myself up into a ball and had my head buried in the चोटी, शीर्ष of my needs as I sobbed uncontrollably. Kyle asked "what's going on?" I managed to force out the words "Damien wants to fight me for custody या visitation over Carter!" Kyle कहा "I thought Damien didn't care if he ever saw Carter again!" I कहा "that's the thing; Damien doesn't care about Carter! He's only doing it to spite me because I am a lot better off financially than he is! I think he thinks that if we evenly shared 50-50 custody of Carter then I would have to pay him some sort of child support for the time he would have Carter! I think I really would have to pay child support if he won 50-50 custody of Carter!" Kyle कहा "even though I've never met Damien, I hate him! That's really immature of him to use Carter to get money from you!" I कहा "I don't even care about the money! I care about Carter! I don't want him to get attached to Damien all because Damien will pretend like he cares about him for the first few months and then decide to just not दिखाना up one दिन when Carter is waiting for him!" Kyle कहा "I understand why आप want to protect Carter from being hurt emotionally द्वारा Damien and I highly doubt with Damien's past he will be awarded any type of custody! I think the most the courts would be willing to give him is supervised visitation! Don't worry AJ; we're going to fight this in court! We can't let Damien get any time alone with Carter because there's no telling what he would do just to get money out of you!!!"
Michael Jackson's personal chef Kai Chase just testified -- claiming a frantic Dr. Conrad Murray begged her for help the दिन MJ died, ten मिनटों before anyone called 911.
According to Chase, she was in the रसोई, रसोईघर preparing lunch for Michael and his kids -- and between 12:05 and 12:10PM, Murray ran downstairs, yelling for her to "get Prince, get help, get security."
Chase claimed she sent Prince to Dr. Murray and returned to work.
Chase admitted she didn't contact security -- a point highlighted द्वारा defense attorney J. Michael Flanagan.
Yesterday, MJ's personal assistant Michael Amir Williams testified ... Murray called him at 12:13 PM, and Williams immediately phoned security. MJ's security guard Alberto Alvarez eventually called 911 at 12:21 -- between 11 and 16 मिनटों after Murray allegedly asked Chase for help.
While Chase was leaving court today, we asked if she thought her testimony was helpful -- she responded, "Absolutely."
According to Chase, she was in the रसोई, रसोईघर preparing lunch for Michael and his kids -- and between 12:05 and 12:10PM, Murray ran downstairs, yelling for her to "get Prince, get help, get security."
Chase claimed she sent Prince to Dr. Murray and returned to work.
Chase admitted she didn't contact security -- a point highlighted द्वारा defense attorney J. Michael Flanagan.
Yesterday, MJ's personal assistant Michael Amir Williams testified ... Murray called him at 12:13 PM, and Williams immediately phoned security. MJ's security guard Alberto Alvarez eventually called 911 at 12:21 -- between 11 and 16 मिनटों after Murray allegedly asked Chase for help.
While Chase was leaving court today, we asked if she thought her testimony was helpful -- she responded, "Absolutely."