Chapter 18,
January 25, 2011,
I am so excited because I'm in लंडन and finishing my last four concerts of my "legacy" tour and that means I get to go home! Don't get me wrong, I प्यार being on tour but; I miss Carter!
I was just settling in back in my hotel room, when there was a knock at the door. I opened it assuming it would be room service but, instead there was a tall, good-looking teenage boy with brown hair and blue eyes standing there. I got worried because I thought he was an obsessed fan. I कहा "sorry but आप can't come in! प्रशंसकों aren't even supposed to know what room I'm in!" I started yelling for security and he कहा frantically "calm down AJ! I'm not one of your crazy fans! Don't आप remember me?" I कहा "not really, who are you?" He rolled his eyes and कहा "your friend Kyle! My dad was फ्रेंड्स with your dad and we used to hang out together when आप came to the UK!"
I कहा "it is you! I haven't seen आप in forever! Come on in; we have a lot of catching up to do!" He walked in and sat down in a chair that was in the room. He कहा "I heard आप were in लंडन for the rest of the week and decided to stop by." I stared at him and how much he's changed from when we were little kids. I'll be honest with you, he is crazy attractive! I snapped out of it and कहा "yeah; it's so weird seeing आप again! I thought my odds of seeing आप again were very slim." He asked "so, where are आप going to go after the tour is over?" I कहा "back to my grandmother's house." He asked "you must make lots of money; how come आप haven't moved to your own place yet?" I कहा "after I get back to California, I'm going to start house hunting."
He picked up the framed picture of Carter that I had displayed on the डेस्क and कहा "this must be आप are son. He is on every tabloid magazine in London!" I कहा "yeah; don't remind me!" He कहा "he's really cute!" I कहा "thanks" as I looked at the clock. I कहा "I'm really tired but, if आप want to hang out tomorrow is my दिन off." He gave me a friendly hug and कहा "I'll pick आप up here tomorrow morning."
January 26, 2011,
Kyle knocked on my hotel room door and I opened it. He कहा "I hope you're ready for a good दिन today!" Jeff followed me out of the hotel room and I introduced him to Kyle. I asked "where are we going?" He कहा "I thought we could go see a movie; if that's cool with you?" I कहा "I haven't been to the फिल्में in months because I've been so busy with everything to do with the tour."
The मिनट we stepped out of the hotel, paparazzi swarmed me. Jeff pushed them back as best he could while Kyle and I squeezed our way to the car. Once we were inside, Kyle asked "is it always like that when आप go out?" I कहा "sadly, this is my new normal!" He कहा "I couldn't imagine having to deal with that every day!" I कहा "I don't think anyone could ever get used to that. That's why tried to keep Carter a secret for as long as possible. Thanks to my uncle, Carter will never have a normal life!"
Kyle asked "so; do आप still get in trouble a lot?" I laughed and कहा "I'll always be getting into some sort of trouble!" He laughed and कहा "I remember when your dad brought आप and your siblings to my house. आप called your dad 'a stupid dummy head’ and I just looked at आप because I couldn't believe आप had the guts to talk to your dad like that! No matter how many times he put आप in the corner, right after आप would get out he would have to put आप right back in because आप would do something else that he didn't approve of!" I कहा "yeah that definitely sounds like something I would do!"
The car pulled up in front of the movie theater and thousands of प्रशंसकों were crowding the streets because word had gotten out that I was going there to see a movie. I sighed with frustration and Kyle suggested "why don't we just go back to my dad's place? He and my stepmom left last night to go on a business trip and they won't be back for three weeks." I asked "what about your little brother and little sister?" He कहा "they are with my great aunt." I कहा dying with the anticipation of getting to be a normal teenager for once "that sounds awesome!" Jeff कहा "I guess since you'll be at his house then I don't really need to be there to protect आप because no one will know that you're there."
Kyle and I walked through the front door of his father's घर in London. I looked around and it doesn't look like much has changed since I was there when I was a little kid. Kyle sat down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and gestured for me to sit down अगला to him. He कहा "I hope this isn't going to be too boring for आप sitting around here!" I कहा "boring are आप kidding me? I've been looking आगे to just being able to relax for a long time!" He passed me an Xbox controller and asked "you want to play?" I कहा "sure but; be prepared for me to kick your butt!" He playfully कहा "I think you're a little too overconfident!" I smirked at him and कहा "no; I'm just stating the obvious." He smiled and कहा "oh; we'll have to see about that!"
After about four hours of playing video games, Kyle's stomach started growling and he asked "do आप want to make something to eat?" I कहा "sure but, I have to warn आप that I'm not the best cook!" He laughed and कहा "neither am I so; I guess were even." I opened up the fridge and saw some hamburger that wasn't frozen. He opened up one of the cupboards and कहा "there's पास्ता shells." He tossed the box to me and I कहा as I looked down at it "that's not पास्ता shells आप doofus; it's bowtie pasta!" He laughed and asked "what's the difference? There pretty much the same thing; just shaped differently." I कहा "I guess you're right about that one! What's the point of making them into little bowtie shapes? You're just going to eat them anyway." He laughed and asked "I'm guessing were making पास्ता with meat sauce?" I कहा "yeah; I'll do the पास्ता and आप can cook the hamburger."
Kyle's phone started ringing and he stopped cooking the hamburger to answer it. I heard him say "oh that's great news! So all I have to do is pick up my diploma and drop off all my books? Okay, I'll stop द्वारा the school at the end of the week to drop everything off. Thanks for letting me know. I'll see आप then Mr. Hartford; goodbye." I asked curiously "who was that?" Kyle responded with a big smile on his face "that was my principal and he कहा my application for early graduation was approved this morning!" I asked "you're graduating a साल early?" He कहा "yeah; I have really good grades in all my classes and I really hate doing sit down paperwork. I decided to add 12th grade classes to my schedule so I could graduate early." As I put up off the on his plate I कहा "you are so lucky!"
He was speechless and then we were interrupted द्वारा the sound of the smoke alarm going off. He कहा "oh crap; I forgot about the hamburger!" I burst out laughing as he stood up on a chair swarming smoke away from the alarm. I कहा as I looked at the charred remains of part of our meal" well; it looks like were just having पास्ता with sauce!"
We both sat down in the living room on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and he कहा "sorry about burning the hamburger!" I कहा "that's fine; it doesn't really matter!" He passed me the sprinkled cheese and I asked "so what are आप planning on doing after आप get out of high school this week?" He कहा "I really want to be a mechanic! My friend dad owns a body खरीडिए a few blocks away from here and he offered me a job at the beginning of अगला year." I asked "what are आप going to do to occupy yourself until then?" He sighed and कहा "I'll probably just be sitting around here because all my फ्रेंड्स will be at school during the day."
I thought about it for सेकंड and कहा "I have an idea." He asked while wiping his face with a napkin "what?" I कहा "my tour ends this week and आप can come back to California with me to hang out! There's a spare bedroom for आप to use and I'm sure my grandmother wouldn't mind because आप and I are just friends!" He कहा "it sure would be nice to go back to California but; I wouldn't want to impose!" I कहा "my grandmother's pretty laid-back when it comes to me; she won't care! She enjoys hosting guests at Havenhurst! Plus I'm in desperate need of some friend time! If I don't go back to you, I'll be stuck in the house with them all the time!" He कहा "sure I'll come back with you; that does sound like fun!" I heard the tour bus pull up into Kyle's driveway and कहा "okay; come द्वारा the hotel at the end of the week and आप can just leave with me on the flight back to California." He gave me a friendly hug goodbye and कहा "I'll see आप then!"
January 30, 2011,
I performed the last संगीत कार्यक्रम of my "Legacy" tour last night and was packing up my suitcase so we could leave for our flight back to California. There was a knock on my door and I answered it. Kyle stood there with his suitcase and he was dressed in winter clothes. I laughed and कहा "you are going to California with me; not Alaska!" He कहा "I know; all my shorts and tank tops are in my suitcase. This is all that I had left hanging in my closet to wear today."
Frank yelled from his hotel room "are आप guys ready to leave yet? We have to get on the tour bus and hit the road if we want to make back to your grandmother's द्वारा tomorrow! Kyle कहा "wait; I thought we were flying." I कहा "I thought we were too; but Frank forgot all about the tour bus. If we flew, there would be no way to get the bus back to California and to the rental place!" Kyle कहा "oh okay; that's fine with me!"
Frank, Jeff, Kyle, and I all boarded the tour bus that was waiting outside the back door of the hotel; so I could easily sneak out without anybody noticing me. I sat down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and Kyle कहा with his mouth wide open "this is so awesome!" I कहा "I thought it was too; at first!" Kyle asked "you mean that you're bored द्वारा all of this?" I कहा "yeah; nothing beats being at घर with my family!" He कहा "I bet आप can't wait to see Carter!" I कहा "more than आप could imagine! I've only seen him twice since I've been on tour and that makes me mad because I was told I would be able to see him a lot more! I wasn't even able to go see him on his सेकंड birthday two months पूर्व and it hurt me a lot because the only thing I could do was help sing happy birthday to him on Skype!" Kyle कहा "I'm sure he'll be excited to see आप tomorrow!" I कहा "Prince has been trying to explain to him दिन द्वारा दिन when I'm coming back घर but; he's too young to really understand! I don't even think he understands that I'll be back tomorrow! I'm so excited to surprise him and actually see with my own two eyes how big he had gotten! It's been eight months since I've seen him in person!" Kyle asked "do आप think Carter is going to like me?" I कहा "I have a feeling that he's going to प्यार you! I think he desperately wants a male role model!" Kyle कहा "well; I'd be happy to be that for him until I have to go back to लंडन to work in the body shop!"
Hearing Kyle say that made me smile, I've always wanted to provide that for Carter but, I thought that was out of the सवाल for a long time after Damien left! Even though having Kyle around as a friend to spend time with is only temporary, I'm definitely going to use him as a support system while he's in California! I'm getting to the point where I want to start breaking away from the adults in my life and start creating a life for Carter and I on my own! I hope I can figure all this out!
January 31, 2011,
I was woken up द्वारा Frank nudging my shoulder. I opened up my eyes and he कहा "wake up kid; we're on the सड़क, स्ट्रीट that leads to Havenhurst." I looked over at the alarm clock that कहा 8:00 AM on it and got off of the full-sized बिस्तर that was in the tour bus. I shook Kyle awake and he sat up on the bunk बिस्तर that he had fallen asleep on last night. He rubbed his eyes and asked "are we here?" I yawned and कहा "yeah!" Frank had the Havenhurst security guard open up the front gate and he parked the tour bus. Kyle and I got off the bus and Frank कहा "enjoy your two महीना break AJ! I'm pretty sure I'll have a whole bunch of ideas for your अगला career हटाइए when it's over!" I कहा "okay; see आप in two months Frank and Jeff." With that, the bus driver pulled the tour bus out of the driveway and I looked at Kyle with a smile on my face.
I कहा "come on; I'm dying to see my family!" He followed me into the गेराज and I opened the door with the spare key that was underneath the welcome mat. I walked inside with Kyle behind me and Prince looked up at me. He shouted "AJ's home" and ran up to hug me. Blanket, Paris, and grandma all got up from the तालिका, टेबल and hugged me. I asked "is Carter still asleep?" Grandma कहा "yeah; he should be awake anytime now though!"
Grandma's eyes shifted over to Kyle and she asked "who's this AJ?" Before I could respond, Prince interrupted द्वारा asking "Kyle; is that you?" Kyle shook his head in agreement and I asked "grandma, I was wondering if Kyle could stay with us for a while?"
She immediately pulled me into one of the other rooms and asked in hushed tones "what is he to आप guys? How do आप know him?" I कहा "his father was a friend of dad's and we used to hang out from time to time when we were little." She asked "okay; well are आप two dating?" I laughed and कहा "no; we're just friends!" She कहा "as long as आप two are just फ्रेंड्स he can stay in the spare bedroom but; I'm telling आप right now that if I catch any funny business going on he'll be out the door and you'll be going with him! Am I being understood?" I rolled my eyes and कहा "yes grandma; there's nothing to worry about!" I hugged her and कहा "thank आप for letting him stay here! I'm so glad to have a friend to hang out with!"
Grandma and I went back out into the रसोई, रसोईघर and I कहा "she कहा आप could stay Kyle." Kyle कहा "thank आप so much Mrs. Jackson!" Grandma responded "you're welcome; I'm glad to see Alanna has a friend again!" Blanket hugged me and कहा playfully "don't ever leave again! I missed आप too much!" I put a piece of his hair behind his ear and कहा "don't worry; I won't be working for another two months and even after that, I'm not going on tour for a while!" He smiled up at me and कहा "good!"
As he stood there in the kitchen, I heard a tiny voice shouting from upstairs "uncle Prince; I'm awake!" Prince walked toward the stairs and I कहा "I'm back; I got it! Kyle, come up with me because I want आप to meet someone!"
Kyle followed me upstairs and we walked into my bedroom. Carter was standing up in his पालना with his hair sticking out everywhere. Carter कहा "mommy; when did आप come back?" I lifted him out of the पालना and कहा "I just got back buddy; what's up?" He कहा "I missed आप so much mommy!" I कहा "I missed आप so much more! Can I have a kiss?" He lightly pecked my lips and I कहा "I want आप to meet somebody! This is my friend Kyle; can आप say hello?" Carter hid his face in my shoulder and I कहा "I guess he's going to act shy today."
I put him on the ground in front of Kyle and he clutched my leg. Kyle bent down and कहा "hi buddy!" Carter looked up at me and asked "why does he talk funny?" I picked Carter up and started laughing. Kyle कहा "he must be talking about the English accent I have!" I कहा "he lives in England Carter and a lot of people from England talk that way." Carter कहा seeming to lose interest in Kyle "I'm hungry!" I कहा "okay; let's go get आप something to eat."
The three of us went downstairs and I put Carter in his high chair. I asked as I looked in the pantry "do आप want cereal?" Carter कहा "Cheerios" and I took the box over to the table. I poured the cereal into a bowl and passed it to him. I asked "what do आप say Carter?" He responded "thank you" and I कहा "you're welcome."
After he was done eating, I let him out of his high chair and we walked into the play room. Carter dumped out his bucket of hot wheels cars and sat down on the floor. As I played with him, Kyle sat down अगला to me and watched in silence. I looked over at him and then back at Carter as I कहा "Carter; Kyle knows a lot about cars!" Carter stood up and passed Kyle one of the toy cars and asked "what kind is that?" Kyle looked down at it and कहा "it looks like the घोड़ा to me!" Carter कहा "I want to दिखाना आप my racetrack!" As Kyle knelt down on the floor to play with him, I whispered in his ear "I think आप won him over!"
February 1, 2011,
I woke up this morning to Carter calling for me. I forced myself up even though I didn't want to and walked over to take him out of his crib. I playfully कहा as I smiled down at him "I really wish आप didn't wake up so early every day!" He reached his arms out for me to pick him up and I put him on my hip. He looked at me and asked "where's Kyle mommy?" I कहा "I think he's still sleeping. Do आप want to go wake him up?" Carter shook his head in agreement and we made our way down the hall.
We walked into the guest bedroom and Kyle was fast asleep wearing a plain white T-shirt and blue pajama bottoms. I put Carter down on the बिस्तर and he started jumping on it. Kyle opened his eyes and smiled. Carter stuck his face a few inches away from Kyle's and asked "are आप awake yet?" Kyle and I laughed and he कहा "I am now!"
Kyle got out of the बिस्तर and I कहा "the first thing he कहा this morning was 'where's Kyle?'” Grandma yelled from downstairs "breakfast is ready!" I was about to pick Carter up when he कहा "no; I want Kyle to carry me!" I looked at him shocked and Kyle कहा "alright." Kyle picked him up and Carter smiled like I've never seen him smile before.
We went downstairs and Kyle put Carter in his high chair. There was a whole bunch of खाना on the तालिका, टेबल and everyone sat down. I passed Carter a piece of सूअर का मांस, बेकन and Paris asked "what was it like being on tour AJ?" I कहा "it was really fun at first but; then I started to really miss आप guys! I'm definitely glad to be back home! Even at the hotels I would stay at, प्रशंसकों would stand outside shouting my name over and over; all night long!" Don't get me wrong, I प्यार my fans; but आप think that they would know that I would be trying to sleep at night!" Prince asked "did आप do meet and greets before the concerts with fans?" I कहा "I did a few times; but the प्रशंसकों got too crazy and it started to become dangerous! One of them actually ripped the सोना chain I was wearing right off my neck and ran off with it after she had her picture taken! Enough about me; how do आप and Paris like going to school at Buckley?" Paris कहा "it's so much better than homeschooling! I've made tons of फ्रेंड्स already!" Prince कहा "yeah me too; I made the बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल team last week!" I कहा "that's cool; I can't wait to go to one of your games!" He कहा "we'll have to play some बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल so I can get some practice in!" I took the last bite of my खाना and asked "you want to go play बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल outside right now?" Prince threw his plate in the sink and कहा "sure." Kyle कहा "oh man; I can't wait to see this!"
Kyle, Prince, Carter, and I walked outside to the बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल court. Kyle sat down in the घास with Carter and कहा "look; mommy's going to play बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल with uncle Prince!" I dribbled the बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल back and forth in my hands and कहा "I hope you're ready to lose little brother!" He कहा "don't get too ahead of yourself!"
We played for a solid घंटा and Prince was only a few points away from me. Both of us were getting tired and Prince shot the ball in one last attempt to catch up to me. The ball rebounded off the backboard and fell to the ground. I laughed and कहा "well, well, well, looks like I won again!" He कहा as he smiled "good game AJ! One of these times I'm going to end up beating you!" I कहा "whatever आप say Prince."
Carter ran up to me and कहा "yay; mommy won!" Kyle कहा "I had no idea that आप are so good at basketball!" I कहा "I taught Prince everything he knows and he still hasn't beaten me yet! I guarantee आप that once he gets a little bit taller he'll be some true competition for me." Kyle and I laughed as we looked down as Carter attempted to dribble the basketball.
February 17, 2011,
It was 9 o'clock in the morning when Prince came into my room and कहा "we'll be back in a few weeks." That caused me to open my eyes and I asked "where are आप guys going?" Prince कहा "I don't really know; I guess we're just going to hang out. I think were going to Hawaii. It sucks that आप can't come with us! Grandma wasn't expecting आप to be done with your tour so soon या else she would have bought आप a plane ticket!" I कहा "that's okay; I have Carter and Kyle to keep me company while all of आप are gone! Do आप know exactly when आप be back?" Prince कहा "grandma कहा just a few weeks but; आप know how she is always changing her mind." I got out of बिस्तर and hugged him as I कहा "have fun in Hawaii! I'll hold the fort down while you're gone!"
After I heard all of them leave, I looked over at Carter's पालना to see that he was still fast asleep. I went downstairs and saw Kyle sitting down on the couch." Kyle कहा "it feels weird having only three people in this huge house!" I कहा "I'm definitely going to enjoy the quiet while we have it.
February 18, 2011,
I woke up this morning and felt like I had the flu. Sure enough, a few मिनटों later I ended up throwing up! Kyle came into my bedroom startled द्वारा the noise and asked "are आप okay?" I climbed back into the बिस्तर कहा "I feel awful!" Carter was woken up द्वारा our conversation and कहा "mommy." I let out a deep sigh and Kyle कहा "if you're not feeling well I can take care of him for you!" I rubbed my eyes and कहा "oh no; I couldn't ask आप to do that." He कहा "I don't mind; get some rest because आप look exhausted!" He took Carter out of his पालना and कहा "looks like it's just me and आप today dude!"
Four hours later, I woke up and was feeling quite a bit better. I walked downstairs and into the play room. I sat down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे अगला to Kyle and he asked "are आप feeling any better?" I कहा "a lot better; thanks for watching him for me!" He कहा "no problem; we've been watching कार्टून all day." I asked "did आप change him? I won't be mad if आप didn't! Most guys don't want anything to do with that!" Kyle कहा "of course I did! For someone who's never changed a diaper before, I think I did pretty good; considering I had to change him five times." I कहा "I'm glad he got it out of his system before I woke up!" Kyle कहा "I didn't know if आप were in the mood to eat anything; but I ordered a पिज़्ज़ा, पिज्जा and it just got here about five मिनटों ago.
We walked into the रसोई, रसोईघर and sat down at the table. Kyle put Carter in his high chair and I stood up so I could cut his food. Kyle stopped me and कहा "I got it; आप just sit and relax!" I stared at him as he cut Carter's पिज़्ज़ा, पिज्जा into the smallest possible pieces and passed it to him.
I've already got a small crush on Kyle; but seeing his inner parent is really making me और interested. With Damien I was just being a stupid teenager but now that I've got Carter to worry about I can't be like that anymore.
March 15, 2011,
I was sitting on the सोफ़ा, सोफे in the living room, not expecting to do much for my 17th birthday because my family was still in Hawaii and it was still just the three of us.
It was about 5 o'clock at night and Kyle कहा "come on; I want to take Carter and आप out for a nice रात का खाना on me!" I कहा with a surprised look on my face "if आप really want to आप can." Carter interrupted "I want to eat McDonald's!" I looked at Kyle and कहा "I kind of agree with him on that one! I don't really like going to fancy restaurants." Kyle कहा "if आप want to go to McDonald's then we can go to McDonald's! It's your birthday!"
After I put Carter's shoes on him, we walked out to my truck and Kyle put Carter in his car seat. We drove to McDonald's and ordered our food. After getting our food, we decided to stay in the truck to eat. As I was about to pass Carter his french fries, I saw that he was fast asleep with an empty चीज़बर्गर wrapper on his lap. I laughed and कहा "well; it looks like आप and I have some extra fries." I put the fries in between the two of us and it seemed like every time one of us would try to reach for a fry our hands would clash with each other.
Kyle and I walked through the front door of Havenhurst and I was carrying Carter who was still asleep in my arms. I gently laid him down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and turned the TV on just in case he woke up so he would know where he was. I covered him with a throw blanket and kissed his forehead.
When I walked upstairs to my room I noticed that Kyle was sitting on my बिस्तर scrolling through songs on my iPod. I sat down अगला to him and he took the earphones out of his ears. He कहा "you have a lot of Jesse McCartney songs on here! Do आप like him या something? I pointed to the दीवार with all my Jesse McCartney posters on it and कहा "it's pretty obvious!"
We started talking and I कहा "I want to tell आप something but; I don't want to freak आप out!" He कहा "it's alright; I promise आप that whatever is on your mind it won't freak me out; just tell me!" I took a deep breath and कहा "I have a huge crush on you!" He took a sigh of relief and कहा "oh thank God; finally!" I looked at him confused and asked "finally what?" He कहा "since the moment I saw आप at the hotel I've had a crush on you! I was too afraid to say anything because I didn't know if आप felt the same way!"
He leaned in to किस me and I कहा "wait; if this is leading to where I think it is, I don't want it to be a just because sort of thing!" He asked "what do आप mean द्वारा that?" I कहा "I'm not the type to हटाइए things fast; but I've got a son and आप and I aren't just going to be intimate! If आप want this just as bad as I do right now, than आप and I have to be officially dating!" He कहा "that's what I want too; what did आप think I was going to do? I'm not going to just have sex with आप because I'm in the mood at the moment! Has a guy ever used आप like that before?" I कहा "yeah; right after Carter's birthday his dad convinced me that he was going to be there and a few days later I found out he had a girlfriend." Kyle कहा "that's awful; I would never do that to you!" He leaned in to किस me again and I stopped him द्वारा saying "wait; I want आप to realize that if आप are choosing to तारीख, दिनांक me Carter's part of that deal! Even if we break up, आप have to promise me that he'll keep in contact with आप in some way! I don't know if you've noticed; but he really likes आप and I don't want him to get hurt द्वारा something between us!" Kyle looked me in the eyes and कहा "I don't just like you; I'm pretty sure I प्यार आप and I प्यार Carter too!"
I had to take a मिनट to think about what he had just कहा to me. Did he just promise never to hurt me या Carter? Did he promise to never abandon Carter like Damien did? Wait; did he just tell me that he loves me? Damien had कहा that he loved me before but never like that!
Kyle interrupted my thoughts द्वारा asking "are आप okay? Did I say too much too soon?" I took the headphones out of my iPod and pressed play on "right where आप want me" द्वारा Jesse McCartney. I finally granted his request for a किस and let the संगीत take control of me as it blasted through the speakers. "Girl; I'm going to let आप have your way with me. When आप हटाइए like that it's hard to breathe! I've always held it back and played it slow; but not this time! Baby; don't be gentle… I can handle anything!"
After we were done, I quickly slipped back into my clothes and flopped back onto the bed. My दिल was still racing as I tried to catch my breath and कहा "that was seriously so much freaking better than it ever was with Damien! I can honestly say that was the best sex I have ever had!" Kyle कहा as he looked over at me with sweat dripping down his face "that was the only sex I've ever had!" I laughed in disbelief and कहा "yeah right; there's no way आप were a virgin! That was too good!" He कहा "no really; I was!" I कहा "but you're so good-looking! How could a girl keep their hands off you?" He कहा "I wanted my first time to be special and आप definitely made it worth it!"
May 4, 2011,
Surprisingly, Kyle and I have been able to keep our relationship a secret from the rest of the family. We only do anything if we are in the house alone and no one suspects anything out of the ordinary. I just hope we never get caught because I don't want to give up on the amazing connection the two of us have together!
It was just Kyle, Carter, and I at Havenhurst because my siblings were at school and I had just gotten घर from a long दिन of interviews for talk shows. I walked into my room and Kyle was wrapped up in the towel after just taking a shower. I कहा "thanks for watching Carter today again. I really appreciate it!" He pushed me up against the dresser and I looked around to see if Carter was in the room.
I seductively bit Kyle's bottom lip as he pulled away from a किस and he immediately went back for another one. This time, he kissed me harder and longer than before. We were both startled द्वारा the noise of Blanket yelling "gross!" Kyle and I turned our heads in shock as Blanket stood there with a disgusted look on his face.
Blanket ran down the hall shouting" grandma AJ and Kyle were! –" I put my hand over his mouth to muffle the sound and gently pushed him into my room. I whispered "be quiet; no one can know about this! Grandma will kick Kyle and I out of the house! Blanket, आप can't say anything to anyone about Kyle and I चुंबन each other!" Blanket looked at me with a mischievous look on his face and कहा "that depends; what are आप going to give me to keep my mouth shut?" I rolled my eyes and asked "what do आप want?" He कहा "$70!" I took out my wallet and passed him the money as I कहा "there; now don't say anything to anyone!" He कहा "wait; I'm not done yet! I want your Xbox 360 too." He smirked up at me and I hesitated "but that's mine!" He threatened "I guess I'll just have to tell grandma that I saw आप and Kyle kissing!" I कहा as I started to unhook the Xbox from my flatscreen TV "fine; आप can have it!" I placed the Xbox in his arms and he कहा as he left the room "it was nice doing business with you!" I shut my door and looked over at Kyle. He started laughing and I कहा "I can't believe that I just got hustled द्वारा a nine-year-old!"
July 11, 2011,
My grandmother was out grocery shopping and Carter was entertaining himself in the play room downstairs. Kyle and I were upstairs and were watching TV. During the commercial break, he suddenly picked me up and sat me on चोटी, शीर्ष of the dresser. I asked "what are आप doing?" He कहा "being spontaneous! Let's do it right here!" I whispered with a smile on my face "right now? My grandmother will be घर any minute!" He कहा as his दिल began to race "there's enough time! Don't worry about it! We won't get caught!"
I couldn't resist him anymore as the temptation began to bother me. I pulled him close to me and कहा "I like this daredevil side of you!" I tried to keep as quiet as possible; only letting out small discrete moans every few minutes!
I could hear the front door shut in the distance and forced Kyle off of me. We walked downstairs and she asked "were आप guys rearranging AJ's room? I thought I heard furniture moving around." I quickly कहा "oh yeah; Kyle was just helping me हटाइए the dresser to a different spot so there would be और अंतरिक्ष in my room." She कहा "okay then" and walked off to the car to grab the groceries.
Kyle looked at me shocked and कहा "I can't believe आप just lied to your grandmother!" I कहा "what was I supposed to say? ‘By the way grandma, Kyle and I just finished having sex in my room!' That would've gone over well!" Kyle and I walked back upstairs and I कहा "technically; I didn't lie! We did हटाइए the dresser around! Just not the way she thinks we did!" The two of us burst out laughing as I shut my bedroom door.
October 7, 2011,
After coming घर after a long दिन of unsuccessful house hunting with Kyle, we opened up the front door and I looked over to see three suitcases packed in the corner with some of Carter's toys. I asked "what's going on?" Grandma कहा "I told आप that if I ever caught any funny business going on between आप and Kyle, all three of आप would be out the door!" Uncle Marlon was standing अगला to grandma and I कहा "the two of us didn't have sex grandma!" Uncle Marlon कहा "Don't Lie to Us AJ! I saw the empty condom box in your trashcan!"
My oppositional defiance disorder kicked in and I कहा "fine; if आप want us out on the सड़क, स्ट्रीट then go ahead!" I picked Carter up and कहा "I wouldn't have done what I did if I didn't truly प्यार Kyle!" Uncle Marlon कहा "you're 17 AJ; आप don't even know what true प्यार is!" I कहा "who are आप to make that judgment? Just because आप didn't fall and प्यार at 17 years old; doesn't mean I can't!" Grandma कहा trying to defuse the situation "just leave AJ! आप don't want Carter to witness all this fighting and screaming; do you?"
I stormed out of the house with Kyle behind me and Carter in my arms. We went out to the truck and I climbed into the front seat. Kyle looked at me as my face turned red with rage and कहा "it'll be okay babe!" I कहा "I don't know where the hell she expects us to go!" I picked up my phone and started going through my phone book. I came across aunt Latoya's number and pressed the call button.
She answered the phone द्वारा saying "hello." I responded "hi; Long story short, grandma kicked all three of us out of the house and we have nowhere to go. Can we stay at your house until we get back on our feet?" She कहा "of course आप can stay with me; but what happened?" I कहा "it's a long story! I'll explain it to आप when we get there." She कहा goodbye and I hung up the phone.
We knocked on the door to aunt Latoya's house and she कहा "come on in!" She gestured for us to sit on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and asked "what's really going on AJ?" I कहा "when grandma agreed to let Kyle stay at Havenhurst, she कहा that if she ever caught any sort of personal relationship between the two of us that she would kick us out." Aunt Latoya asked "so आप and Kyle are in an intimate relationship?" I कहा "yes; it doesn't bother me that she kicked us out!" Kyle कहा "the reason that bugs us is because we think she knew a long time पूर्व about the two of us being in a relationship!" She asked "how do आप think your grandmother knew?" I कहा as I blushed with embarrassment "one could say that I'm not the most quiet person in the world when it comes to that!" Kyle chuckled and कहा "trust me; she is right when she कहा that!"
Aunt Latoya asked "wait; one of your uncles wasn't there with her when she kicked आप guys out; was there?" I कहा "yeah; but why does that matter?" She rolled her eyes and कहा "I guarantee आप your uncles had something to do with this! They have so much power over your grandmother it's insane!"
She took Kyle, Carter, and I to her spare bedroom and कहा "you can stay for as long as आप need!" Kyle and I hugged her as I कहा "thank आप so much!" She कहा "you're welcome; it's no problem at all! I'm going to go call your grandmother to see if she's okay! I swear, sometimes I just want to shake my brothers so badly so they wake up and see what they're doing to this family!"
I helped Kyle put together the playpen for Carter to sleep in and within minutes, Carter had fallen asleep. Kyle and I lied down in बिस्तर अगला to each other and he asked "what do we do now?" I कहा "we're going to have to try extra hard to find a place of our own because I don't want to take advantage of my aunt for too long! Plus, I want to have a stable place that Carter can call his घर and I can raise him there!!!"
January 25, 2011,
I am so excited because I'm in लंडन and finishing my last four concerts of my "legacy" tour and that means I get to go home! Don't get me wrong, I प्यार being on tour but; I miss Carter!
I was just settling in back in my hotel room, when there was a knock at the door. I opened it assuming it would be room service but, instead there was a tall, good-looking teenage boy with brown hair and blue eyes standing there. I got worried because I thought he was an obsessed fan. I कहा "sorry but आप can't come in! प्रशंसकों aren't even supposed to know what room I'm in!" I started yelling for security and he कहा frantically "calm down AJ! I'm not one of your crazy fans! Don't आप remember me?" I कहा "not really, who are you?" He rolled his eyes and कहा "your friend Kyle! My dad was फ्रेंड्स with your dad and we used to hang out together when आप came to the UK!"
I कहा "it is you! I haven't seen आप in forever! Come on in; we have a lot of catching up to do!" He walked in and sat down in a chair that was in the room. He कहा "I heard आप were in लंडन for the rest of the week and decided to stop by." I stared at him and how much he's changed from when we were little kids. I'll be honest with you, he is crazy attractive! I snapped out of it and कहा "yeah; it's so weird seeing आप again! I thought my odds of seeing आप again were very slim." He asked "so, where are आप going to go after the tour is over?" I कहा "back to my grandmother's house." He asked "you must make lots of money; how come आप haven't moved to your own place yet?" I कहा "after I get back to California, I'm going to start house hunting."
He picked up the framed picture of Carter that I had displayed on the डेस्क and कहा "this must be आप are son. He is on every tabloid magazine in London!" I कहा "yeah; don't remind me!" He कहा "he's really cute!" I कहा "thanks" as I looked at the clock. I कहा "I'm really tired but, if आप want to hang out tomorrow is my दिन off." He gave me a friendly hug and कहा "I'll pick आप up here tomorrow morning."
January 26, 2011,
Kyle knocked on my hotel room door and I opened it. He कहा "I hope you're ready for a good दिन today!" Jeff followed me out of the hotel room and I introduced him to Kyle. I asked "where are we going?" He कहा "I thought we could go see a movie; if that's cool with you?" I कहा "I haven't been to the फिल्में in months because I've been so busy with everything to do with the tour."
The मिनट we stepped out of the hotel, paparazzi swarmed me. Jeff pushed them back as best he could while Kyle and I squeezed our way to the car. Once we were inside, Kyle asked "is it always like that when आप go out?" I कहा "sadly, this is my new normal!" He कहा "I couldn't imagine having to deal with that every day!" I कहा "I don't think anyone could ever get used to that. That's why tried to keep Carter a secret for as long as possible. Thanks to my uncle, Carter will never have a normal life!"
Kyle asked "so; do आप still get in trouble a lot?" I laughed and कहा "I'll always be getting into some sort of trouble!" He laughed and कहा "I remember when your dad brought आप and your siblings to my house. आप called your dad 'a stupid dummy head’ and I just looked at आप because I couldn't believe आप had the guts to talk to your dad like that! No matter how many times he put आप in the corner, right after आप would get out he would have to put आप right back in because आप would do something else that he didn't approve of!" I कहा "yeah that definitely sounds like something I would do!"
The car pulled up in front of the movie theater and thousands of प्रशंसकों were crowding the streets because word had gotten out that I was going there to see a movie. I sighed with frustration and Kyle suggested "why don't we just go back to my dad's place? He and my stepmom left last night to go on a business trip and they won't be back for three weeks." I asked "what about your little brother and little sister?" He कहा "they are with my great aunt." I कहा dying with the anticipation of getting to be a normal teenager for once "that sounds awesome!" Jeff कहा "I guess since you'll be at his house then I don't really need to be there to protect आप because no one will know that you're there."
Kyle and I walked through the front door of his father's घर in London. I looked around and it doesn't look like much has changed since I was there when I was a little kid. Kyle sat down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and gestured for me to sit down अगला to him. He कहा "I hope this isn't going to be too boring for आप sitting around here!" I कहा "boring are आप kidding me? I've been looking आगे to just being able to relax for a long time!" He passed me an Xbox controller and asked "you want to play?" I कहा "sure but; be prepared for me to kick your butt!" He playfully कहा "I think you're a little too overconfident!" I smirked at him and कहा "no; I'm just stating the obvious." He smiled and कहा "oh; we'll have to see about that!"
After about four hours of playing video games, Kyle's stomach started growling and he asked "do आप want to make something to eat?" I कहा "sure but, I have to warn आप that I'm not the best cook!" He laughed and कहा "neither am I so; I guess were even." I opened up the fridge and saw some hamburger that wasn't frozen. He opened up one of the cupboards and कहा "there's पास्ता shells." He tossed the box to me and I कहा as I looked down at it "that's not पास्ता shells आप doofus; it's bowtie pasta!" He laughed and asked "what's the difference? There pretty much the same thing; just shaped differently." I कहा "I guess you're right about that one! What's the point of making them into little bowtie shapes? You're just going to eat them anyway." He laughed and asked "I'm guessing were making पास्ता with meat sauce?" I कहा "yeah; I'll do the पास्ता and आप can cook the hamburger."
Kyle's phone started ringing and he stopped cooking the hamburger to answer it. I heard him say "oh that's great news! So all I have to do is pick up my diploma and drop off all my books? Okay, I'll stop द्वारा the school at the end of the week to drop everything off. Thanks for letting me know. I'll see आप then Mr. Hartford; goodbye." I asked curiously "who was that?" Kyle responded with a big smile on his face "that was my principal and he कहा my application for early graduation was approved this morning!" I asked "you're graduating a साल early?" He कहा "yeah; I have really good grades in all my classes and I really hate doing sit down paperwork. I decided to add 12th grade classes to my schedule so I could graduate early." As I put up off the on his plate I कहा "you are so lucky!"
He was speechless and then we were interrupted द्वारा the sound of the smoke alarm going off. He कहा "oh crap; I forgot about the hamburger!" I burst out laughing as he stood up on a chair swarming smoke away from the alarm. I कहा as I looked at the charred remains of part of our meal" well; it looks like were just having पास्ता with sauce!"
We both sat down in the living room on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and he कहा "sorry about burning the hamburger!" I कहा "that's fine; it doesn't really matter!" He passed me the sprinkled cheese and I asked "so what are आप planning on doing after आप get out of high school this week?" He कहा "I really want to be a mechanic! My friend dad owns a body खरीडिए a few blocks away from here and he offered me a job at the beginning of अगला year." I asked "what are आप going to do to occupy yourself until then?" He sighed and कहा "I'll probably just be sitting around here because all my फ्रेंड्स will be at school during the day."
I thought about it for सेकंड and कहा "I have an idea." He asked while wiping his face with a napkin "what?" I कहा "my tour ends this week and आप can come back to California with me to hang out! There's a spare bedroom for आप to use and I'm sure my grandmother wouldn't mind because आप and I are just friends!" He कहा "it sure would be nice to go back to California but; I wouldn't want to impose!" I कहा "my grandmother's pretty laid-back when it comes to me; she won't care! She enjoys hosting guests at Havenhurst! Plus I'm in desperate need of some friend time! If I don't go back to you, I'll be stuck in the house with them all the time!" He कहा "sure I'll come back with you; that does sound like fun!" I heard the tour bus pull up into Kyle's driveway and कहा "okay; come द्वारा the hotel at the end of the week and आप can just leave with me on the flight back to California." He gave me a friendly hug goodbye and कहा "I'll see आप then!"
January 30, 2011,
I performed the last संगीत कार्यक्रम of my "Legacy" tour last night and was packing up my suitcase so we could leave for our flight back to California. There was a knock on my door and I answered it. Kyle stood there with his suitcase and he was dressed in winter clothes. I laughed and कहा "you are going to California with me; not Alaska!" He कहा "I know; all my shorts and tank tops are in my suitcase. This is all that I had left hanging in my closet to wear today."
Frank yelled from his hotel room "are आप guys ready to leave yet? We have to get on the tour bus and hit the road if we want to make back to your grandmother's द्वारा tomorrow! Kyle कहा "wait; I thought we were flying." I कहा "I thought we were too; but Frank forgot all about the tour bus. If we flew, there would be no way to get the bus back to California and to the rental place!" Kyle कहा "oh okay; that's fine with me!"
Frank, Jeff, Kyle, and I all boarded the tour bus that was waiting outside the back door of the hotel; so I could easily sneak out without anybody noticing me. I sat down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and Kyle कहा with his mouth wide open "this is so awesome!" I कहा "I thought it was too; at first!" Kyle asked "you mean that you're bored द्वारा all of this?" I कहा "yeah; nothing beats being at घर with my family!" He कहा "I bet आप can't wait to see Carter!" I कहा "more than आप could imagine! I've only seen him twice since I've been on tour and that makes me mad because I was told I would be able to see him a lot more! I wasn't even able to go see him on his सेकंड birthday two months पूर्व and it hurt me a lot because the only thing I could do was help sing happy birthday to him on Skype!" Kyle कहा "I'm sure he'll be excited to see आप tomorrow!" I कहा "Prince has been trying to explain to him दिन द्वारा दिन when I'm coming back घर but; he's too young to really understand! I don't even think he understands that I'll be back tomorrow! I'm so excited to surprise him and actually see with my own two eyes how big he had gotten! It's been eight months since I've seen him in person!" Kyle asked "do आप think Carter is going to like me?" I कहा "I have a feeling that he's going to प्यार you! I think he desperately wants a male role model!" Kyle कहा "well; I'd be happy to be that for him until I have to go back to लंडन to work in the body shop!"
Hearing Kyle say that made me smile, I've always wanted to provide that for Carter but, I thought that was out of the सवाल for a long time after Damien left! Even though having Kyle around as a friend to spend time with is only temporary, I'm definitely going to use him as a support system while he's in California! I'm getting to the point where I want to start breaking away from the adults in my life and start creating a life for Carter and I on my own! I hope I can figure all this out!
January 31, 2011,
I was woken up द्वारा Frank nudging my shoulder. I opened up my eyes and he कहा "wake up kid; we're on the सड़क, स्ट्रीट that leads to Havenhurst." I looked over at the alarm clock that कहा 8:00 AM on it and got off of the full-sized बिस्तर that was in the tour bus. I shook Kyle awake and he sat up on the bunk बिस्तर that he had fallen asleep on last night. He rubbed his eyes and asked "are we here?" I yawned and कहा "yeah!" Frank had the Havenhurst security guard open up the front gate and he parked the tour bus. Kyle and I got off the bus and Frank कहा "enjoy your two महीना break AJ! I'm pretty sure I'll have a whole bunch of ideas for your अगला career हटाइए when it's over!" I कहा "okay; see आप in two months Frank and Jeff." With that, the bus driver pulled the tour bus out of the driveway and I looked at Kyle with a smile on my face.
I कहा "come on; I'm dying to see my family!" He followed me into the गेराज and I opened the door with the spare key that was underneath the welcome mat. I walked inside with Kyle behind me and Prince looked up at me. He shouted "AJ's home" and ran up to hug me. Blanket, Paris, and grandma all got up from the तालिका, टेबल and hugged me. I asked "is Carter still asleep?" Grandma कहा "yeah; he should be awake anytime now though!"
Grandma's eyes shifted over to Kyle and she asked "who's this AJ?" Before I could respond, Prince interrupted द्वारा asking "Kyle; is that you?" Kyle shook his head in agreement and I asked "grandma, I was wondering if Kyle could stay with us for a while?"
She immediately pulled me into one of the other rooms and asked in hushed tones "what is he to आप guys? How do आप know him?" I कहा "his father was a friend of dad's and we used to hang out from time to time when we were little." She asked "okay; well are आप two dating?" I laughed and कहा "no; we're just friends!" She कहा "as long as आप two are just फ्रेंड्स he can stay in the spare bedroom but; I'm telling आप right now that if I catch any funny business going on he'll be out the door and you'll be going with him! Am I being understood?" I rolled my eyes and कहा "yes grandma; there's nothing to worry about!" I hugged her and कहा "thank आप for letting him stay here! I'm so glad to have a friend to hang out with!"
Grandma and I went back out into the रसोई, रसोईघर and I कहा "she कहा आप could stay Kyle." Kyle कहा "thank आप so much Mrs. Jackson!" Grandma responded "you're welcome; I'm glad to see Alanna has a friend again!" Blanket hugged me and कहा playfully "don't ever leave again! I missed आप too much!" I put a piece of his hair behind his ear and कहा "don't worry; I won't be working for another two months and even after that, I'm not going on tour for a while!" He smiled up at me and कहा "good!"
As he stood there in the kitchen, I heard a tiny voice shouting from upstairs "uncle Prince; I'm awake!" Prince walked toward the stairs and I कहा "I'm back; I got it! Kyle, come up with me because I want आप to meet someone!"
Kyle followed me upstairs and we walked into my bedroom. Carter was standing up in his पालना with his hair sticking out everywhere. Carter कहा "mommy; when did आप come back?" I lifted him out of the पालना and कहा "I just got back buddy; what's up?" He कहा "I missed आप so much mommy!" I कहा "I missed आप so much more! Can I have a kiss?" He lightly pecked my lips and I कहा "I want आप to meet somebody! This is my friend Kyle; can आप say hello?" Carter hid his face in my shoulder and I कहा "I guess he's going to act shy today."
I put him on the ground in front of Kyle and he clutched my leg. Kyle bent down and कहा "hi buddy!" Carter looked up at me and asked "why does he talk funny?" I picked Carter up and started laughing. Kyle कहा "he must be talking about the English accent I have!" I कहा "he lives in England Carter and a lot of people from England talk that way." Carter कहा seeming to lose interest in Kyle "I'm hungry!" I कहा "okay; let's go get आप something to eat."
The three of us went downstairs and I put Carter in his high chair. I asked as I looked in the pantry "do आप want cereal?" Carter कहा "Cheerios" and I took the box over to the table. I poured the cereal into a bowl and passed it to him. I asked "what do आप say Carter?" He responded "thank you" and I कहा "you're welcome."
After he was done eating, I let him out of his high chair and we walked into the play room. Carter dumped out his bucket of hot wheels cars and sat down on the floor. As I played with him, Kyle sat down अगला to me and watched in silence. I looked over at him and then back at Carter as I कहा "Carter; Kyle knows a lot about cars!" Carter stood up and passed Kyle one of the toy cars and asked "what kind is that?" Kyle looked down at it and कहा "it looks like the घोड़ा to me!" Carter कहा "I want to दिखाना आप my racetrack!" As Kyle knelt down on the floor to play with him, I whispered in his ear "I think आप won him over!"
February 1, 2011,
I woke up this morning to Carter calling for me. I forced myself up even though I didn't want to and walked over to take him out of his crib. I playfully कहा as I smiled down at him "I really wish आप didn't wake up so early every day!" He reached his arms out for me to pick him up and I put him on my hip. He looked at me and asked "where's Kyle mommy?" I कहा "I think he's still sleeping. Do आप want to go wake him up?" Carter shook his head in agreement and we made our way down the hall.
We walked into the guest bedroom and Kyle was fast asleep wearing a plain white T-shirt and blue pajama bottoms. I put Carter down on the बिस्तर and he started jumping on it. Kyle opened his eyes and smiled. Carter stuck his face a few inches away from Kyle's and asked "are आप awake yet?" Kyle and I laughed and he कहा "I am now!"
Kyle got out of the बिस्तर and I कहा "the first thing he कहा this morning was 'where's Kyle?'” Grandma yelled from downstairs "breakfast is ready!" I was about to pick Carter up when he कहा "no; I want Kyle to carry me!" I looked at him shocked and Kyle कहा "alright." Kyle picked him up and Carter smiled like I've never seen him smile before.
We went downstairs and Kyle put Carter in his high chair. There was a whole bunch of खाना on the तालिका, टेबल and everyone sat down. I passed Carter a piece of सूअर का मांस, बेकन and Paris asked "what was it like being on tour AJ?" I कहा "it was really fun at first but; then I started to really miss आप guys! I'm definitely glad to be back home! Even at the hotels I would stay at, प्रशंसकों would stand outside shouting my name over and over; all night long!" Don't get me wrong, I प्यार my fans; but आप think that they would know that I would be trying to sleep at night!" Prince asked "did आप do meet and greets before the concerts with fans?" I कहा "I did a few times; but the प्रशंसकों got too crazy and it started to become dangerous! One of them actually ripped the सोना chain I was wearing right off my neck and ran off with it after she had her picture taken! Enough about me; how do आप and Paris like going to school at Buckley?" Paris कहा "it's so much better than homeschooling! I've made tons of फ्रेंड्स already!" Prince कहा "yeah me too; I made the बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल team last week!" I कहा "that's cool; I can't wait to go to one of your games!" He कहा "we'll have to play some बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल so I can get some practice in!" I took the last bite of my खाना and asked "you want to go play बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल outside right now?" Prince threw his plate in the sink and कहा "sure." Kyle कहा "oh man; I can't wait to see this!"
Kyle, Prince, Carter, and I walked outside to the बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल court. Kyle sat down in the घास with Carter and कहा "look; mommy's going to play बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल with uncle Prince!" I dribbled the बास्केटबाल, बास्केटबॉल, बास्केट बॉल back and forth in my hands and कहा "I hope you're ready to lose little brother!" He कहा "don't get too ahead of yourself!"
We played for a solid घंटा and Prince was only a few points away from me. Both of us were getting tired and Prince shot the ball in one last attempt to catch up to me. The ball rebounded off the backboard and fell to the ground. I laughed and कहा "well, well, well, looks like I won again!" He कहा as he smiled "good game AJ! One of these times I'm going to end up beating you!" I कहा "whatever आप say Prince."
Carter ran up to me and कहा "yay; mommy won!" Kyle कहा "I had no idea that आप are so good at basketball!" I कहा "I taught Prince everything he knows and he still hasn't beaten me yet! I guarantee आप that once he gets a little bit taller he'll be some true competition for me." Kyle and I laughed as we looked down as Carter attempted to dribble the basketball.
February 17, 2011,
It was 9 o'clock in the morning when Prince came into my room and कहा "we'll be back in a few weeks." That caused me to open my eyes and I asked "where are आप guys going?" Prince कहा "I don't really know; I guess we're just going to hang out. I think were going to Hawaii. It sucks that आप can't come with us! Grandma wasn't expecting आप to be done with your tour so soon या else she would have bought आप a plane ticket!" I कहा "that's okay; I have Carter and Kyle to keep me company while all of आप are gone! Do आप know exactly when आप be back?" Prince कहा "grandma कहा just a few weeks but; आप know how she is always changing her mind." I got out of बिस्तर and hugged him as I कहा "have fun in Hawaii! I'll hold the fort down while you're gone!"
After I heard all of them leave, I looked over at Carter's पालना to see that he was still fast asleep. I went downstairs and saw Kyle sitting down on the couch." Kyle कहा "it feels weird having only three people in this huge house!" I कहा "I'm definitely going to enjoy the quiet while we have it.
February 18, 2011,
I woke up this morning and felt like I had the flu. Sure enough, a few मिनटों later I ended up throwing up! Kyle came into my bedroom startled द्वारा the noise and asked "are आप okay?" I climbed back into the बिस्तर कहा "I feel awful!" Carter was woken up द्वारा our conversation and कहा "mommy." I let out a deep sigh and Kyle कहा "if you're not feeling well I can take care of him for you!" I rubbed my eyes and कहा "oh no; I couldn't ask आप to do that." He कहा "I don't mind; get some rest because आप look exhausted!" He took Carter out of his पालना and कहा "looks like it's just me and आप today dude!"
Four hours later, I woke up and was feeling quite a bit better. I walked downstairs and into the play room. I sat down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे अगला to Kyle and he asked "are आप feeling any better?" I कहा "a lot better; thanks for watching him for me!" He कहा "no problem; we've been watching कार्टून all day." I asked "did आप change him? I won't be mad if आप didn't! Most guys don't want anything to do with that!" Kyle कहा "of course I did! For someone who's never changed a diaper before, I think I did pretty good; considering I had to change him five times." I कहा "I'm glad he got it out of his system before I woke up!" Kyle कहा "I didn't know if आप were in the mood to eat anything; but I ordered a पिज़्ज़ा, पिज्जा and it just got here about five मिनटों ago.
We walked into the रसोई, रसोईघर and sat down at the table. Kyle put Carter in his high chair and I stood up so I could cut his food. Kyle stopped me and कहा "I got it; आप just sit and relax!" I stared at him as he cut Carter's पिज़्ज़ा, पिज्जा into the smallest possible pieces and passed it to him.
I've already got a small crush on Kyle; but seeing his inner parent is really making me और interested. With Damien I was just being a stupid teenager but now that I've got Carter to worry about I can't be like that anymore.
March 15, 2011,
I was sitting on the सोफ़ा, सोफे in the living room, not expecting to do much for my 17th birthday because my family was still in Hawaii and it was still just the three of us.
It was about 5 o'clock at night and Kyle कहा "come on; I want to take Carter and आप out for a nice रात का खाना on me!" I कहा with a surprised look on my face "if आप really want to आप can." Carter interrupted "I want to eat McDonald's!" I looked at Kyle and कहा "I kind of agree with him on that one! I don't really like going to fancy restaurants." Kyle कहा "if आप want to go to McDonald's then we can go to McDonald's! It's your birthday!"
After I put Carter's shoes on him, we walked out to my truck and Kyle put Carter in his car seat. We drove to McDonald's and ordered our food. After getting our food, we decided to stay in the truck to eat. As I was about to pass Carter his french fries, I saw that he was fast asleep with an empty चीज़बर्गर wrapper on his lap. I laughed and कहा "well; it looks like आप and I have some extra fries." I put the fries in between the two of us and it seemed like every time one of us would try to reach for a fry our hands would clash with each other.
Kyle and I walked through the front door of Havenhurst and I was carrying Carter who was still asleep in my arms. I gently laid him down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and turned the TV on just in case he woke up so he would know where he was. I covered him with a throw blanket and kissed his forehead.
When I walked upstairs to my room I noticed that Kyle was sitting on my बिस्तर scrolling through songs on my iPod. I sat down अगला to him and he took the earphones out of his ears. He कहा "you have a lot of Jesse McCartney songs on here! Do आप like him या something? I pointed to the दीवार with all my Jesse McCartney posters on it and कहा "it's pretty obvious!"
We started talking and I कहा "I want to tell आप something but; I don't want to freak आप out!" He कहा "it's alright; I promise आप that whatever is on your mind it won't freak me out; just tell me!" I took a deep breath and कहा "I have a huge crush on you!" He took a sigh of relief and कहा "oh thank God; finally!" I looked at him confused and asked "finally what?" He कहा "since the moment I saw आप at the hotel I've had a crush on you! I was too afraid to say anything because I didn't know if आप felt the same way!"
He leaned in to किस me and I कहा "wait; if this is leading to where I think it is, I don't want it to be a just because sort of thing!" He asked "what do आप mean द्वारा that?" I कहा "I'm not the type to हटाइए things fast; but I've got a son and आप and I aren't just going to be intimate! If आप want this just as bad as I do right now, than आप and I have to be officially dating!" He कहा "that's what I want too; what did आप think I was going to do? I'm not going to just have sex with आप because I'm in the mood at the moment! Has a guy ever used आप like that before?" I कहा "yeah; right after Carter's birthday his dad convinced me that he was going to be there and a few days later I found out he had a girlfriend." Kyle कहा "that's awful; I would never do that to you!" He leaned in to किस me again and I stopped him द्वारा saying "wait; I want आप to realize that if आप are choosing to तारीख, दिनांक me Carter's part of that deal! Even if we break up, आप have to promise me that he'll keep in contact with आप in some way! I don't know if you've noticed; but he really likes आप and I don't want him to get hurt द्वारा something between us!" Kyle looked me in the eyes and कहा "I don't just like you; I'm pretty sure I प्यार आप and I प्यार Carter too!"
I had to take a मिनट to think about what he had just कहा to me. Did he just promise never to hurt me या Carter? Did he promise to never abandon Carter like Damien did? Wait; did he just tell me that he loves me? Damien had कहा that he loved me before but never like that!
Kyle interrupted my thoughts द्वारा asking "are आप okay? Did I say too much too soon?" I took the headphones out of my iPod and pressed play on "right where आप want me" द्वारा Jesse McCartney. I finally granted his request for a किस and let the संगीत take control of me as it blasted through the speakers. "Girl; I'm going to let आप have your way with me. When आप हटाइए like that it's hard to breathe! I've always held it back and played it slow; but not this time! Baby; don't be gentle… I can handle anything!"
After we were done, I quickly slipped back into my clothes and flopped back onto the bed. My दिल was still racing as I tried to catch my breath and कहा "that was seriously so much freaking better than it ever was with Damien! I can honestly say that was the best sex I have ever had!" Kyle कहा as he looked over at me with sweat dripping down his face "that was the only sex I've ever had!" I laughed in disbelief and कहा "yeah right; there's no way आप were a virgin! That was too good!" He कहा "no really; I was!" I कहा "but you're so good-looking! How could a girl keep their hands off you?" He कहा "I wanted my first time to be special and आप definitely made it worth it!"
May 4, 2011,
Surprisingly, Kyle and I have been able to keep our relationship a secret from the rest of the family. We only do anything if we are in the house alone and no one suspects anything out of the ordinary. I just hope we never get caught because I don't want to give up on the amazing connection the two of us have together!
It was just Kyle, Carter, and I at Havenhurst because my siblings were at school and I had just gotten घर from a long दिन of interviews for talk shows. I walked into my room and Kyle was wrapped up in the towel after just taking a shower. I कहा "thanks for watching Carter today again. I really appreciate it!" He pushed me up against the dresser and I looked around to see if Carter was in the room.
I seductively bit Kyle's bottom lip as he pulled away from a किस and he immediately went back for another one. This time, he kissed me harder and longer than before. We were both startled द्वारा the noise of Blanket yelling "gross!" Kyle and I turned our heads in shock as Blanket stood there with a disgusted look on his face.
Blanket ran down the hall shouting" grandma AJ and Kyle were! –" I put my hand over his mouth to muffle the sound and gently pushed him into my room. I whispered "be quiet; no one can know about this! Grandma will kick Kyle and I out of the house! Blanket, आप can't say anything to anyone about Kyle and I चुंबन each other!" Blanket looked at me with a mischievous look on his face and कहा "that depends; what are आप going to give me to keep my mouth shut?" I rolled my eyes and asked "what do आप want?" He कहा "$70!" I took out my wallet and passed him the money as I कहा "there; now don't say anything to anyone!" He कहा "wait; I'm not done yet! I want your Xbox 360 too." He smirked up at me and I hesitated "but that's mine!" He threatened "I guess I'll just have to tell grandma that I saw आप and Kyle kissing!" I कहा as I started to unhook the Xbox from my flatscreen TV "fine; आप can have it!" I placed the Xbox in his arms and he कहा as he left the room "it was nice doing business with you!" I shut my door and looked over at Kyle. He started laughing and I कहा "I can't believe that I just got hustled द्वारा a nine-year-old!"
July 11, 2011,
My grandmother was out grocery shopping and Carter was entertaining himself in the play room downstairs. Kyle and I were upstairs and were watching TV. During the commercial break, he suddenly picked me up and sat me on चोटी, शीर्ष of the dresser. I asked "what are आप doing?" He कहा "being spontaneous! Let's do it right here!" I whispered with a smile on my face "right now? My grandmother will be घर any minute!" He कहा as his दिल began to race "there's enough time! Don't worry about it! We won't get caught!"
I couldn't resist him anymore as the temptation began to bother me. I pulled him close to me and कहा "I like this daredevil side of you!" I tried to keep as quiet as possible; only letting out small discrete moans every few minutes!
I could hear the front door shut in the distance and forced Kyle off of me. We walked downstairs and she asked "were आप guys rearranging AJ's room? I thought I heard furniture moving around." I quickly कहा "oh yeah; Kyle was just helping me हटाइए the dresser to a different spot so there would be और अंतरिक्ष in my room." She कहा "okay then" and walked off to the car to grab the groceries.
Kyle looked at me shocked and कहा "I can't believe आप just lied to your grandmother!" I कहा "what was I supposed to say? ‘By the way grandma, Kyle and I just finished having sex in my room!' That would've gone over well!" Kyle and I walked back upstairs and I कहा "technically; I didn't lie! We did हटाइए the dresser around! Just not the way she thinks we did!" The two of us burst out laughing as I shut my bedroom door.
October 7, 2011,
After coming घर after a long दिन of unsuccessful house hunting with Kyle, we opened up the front door and I looked over to see three suitcases packed in the corner with some of Carter's toys. I asked "what's going on?" Grandma कहा "I told आप that if I ever caught any funny business going on between आप and Kyle, all three of आप would be out the door!" Uncle Marlon was standing अगला to grandma and I कहा "the two of us didn't have sex grandma!" Uncle Marlon कहा "Don't Lie to Us AJ! I saw the empty condom box in your trashcan!"
My oppositional defiance disorder kicked in and I कहा "fine; if आप want us out on the सड़क, स्ट्रीट then go ahead!" I picked Carter up and कहा "I wouldn't have done what I did if I didn't truly प्यार Kyle!" Uncle Marlon कहा "you're 17 AJ; आप don't even know what true प्यार is!" I कहा "who are आप to make that judgment? Just because आप didn't fall and प्यार at 17 years old; doesn't mean I can't!" Grandma कहा trying to defuse the situation "just leave AJ! आप don't want Carter to witness all this fighting and screaming; do you?"
I stormed out of the house with Kyle behind me and Carter in my arms. We went out to the truck and I climbed into the front seat. Kyle looked at me as my face turned red with rage and कहा "it'll be okay babe!" I कहा "I don't know where the hell she expects us to go!" I picked up my phone and started going through my phone book. I came across aunt Latoya's number and pressed the call button.
She answered the phone द्वारा saying "hello." I responded "hi; Long story short, grandma kicked all three of us out of the house and we have nowhere to go. Can we stay at your house until we get back on our feet?" She कहा "of course आप can stay with me; but what happened?" I कहा "it's a long story! I'll explain it to आप when we get there." She कहा goodbye and I hung up the phone.
We knocked on the door to aunt Latoya's house and she कहा "come on in!" She gestured for us to sit on the सोफ़ा, सोफे and asked "what's really going on AJ?" I कहा "when grandma agreed to let Kyle stay at Havenhurst, she कहा that if she ever caught any sort of personal relationship between the two of us that she would kick us out." Aunt Latoya asked "so आप and Kyle are in an intimate relationship?" I कहा "yes; it doesn't bother me that she kicked us out!" Kyle कहा "the reason that bugs us is because we think she knew a long time पूर्व about the two of us being in a relationship!" She asked "how do आप think your grandmother knew?" I कहा as I blushed with embarrassment "one could say that I'm not the most quiet person in the world when it comes to that!" Kyle chuckled and कहा "trust me; she is right when she कहा that!"
Aunt Latoya asked "wait; one of your uncles wasn't there with her when she kicked आप guys out; was there?" I कहा "yeah; but why does that matter?" She rolled her eyes and कहा "I guarantee आप your uncles had something to do with this! They have so much power over your grandmother it's insane!"
She took Kyle, Carter, and I to her spare bedroom and कहा "you can stay for as long as आप need!" Kyle and I hugged her as I कहा "thank आप so much!" She कहा "you're welcome; it's no problem at all! I'm going to go call your grandmother to see if she's okay! I swear, sometimes I just want to shake my brothers so badly so they wake up and see what they're doing to this family!"
I helped Kyle put together the playpen for Carter to sleep in and within minutes, Carter had fallen asleep. Kyle and I lied down in बिस्तर अगला to each other and he asked "what do we do now?" I कहा "we're going to have to try extra hard to find a place of our own because I don't want to take advantage of my aunt for too long! Plus, I want to have a stable place that Carter can call his घर and I can raise him there!!!"