Tell me if आप like this is my first लेख so tell me the truth.

My name is Isabella Marie हंस and two years पूर्व I was faced with the worst desition of my life...I had to pick who I would marry. Edward the प्यार of my life who I had been with through some crazy things या my best फ्रेंड्स that I loved and that loved me Jacob.He helped me through some rough times and helped me to be happy when I was in the worst pain.I know secrets about both of them I could never tell,and what was worse I loved both of them.When I finaly picked everyone was suprised because I pick Jacob Black,and two months laster I became Mrs.Black.

Today we lay in बिस्तर amrs wraped around each other.Jacob was still sleeping but I was awake listening to his दिल beat,it was nice to have a boy friend या a husband who had a दिल beat.I just woke from a dream the wost dream I had ever had.....Edward was siting in alices room asking why I left and why I picked Jacob and thats when alice had the a vision of me coming and asking for Edward to take me back and him saying yes.Thats how my dream ended.I was happy in my dream but when I woke I was anything but.I looked at my husband who I loved but when i closed my eyes I saw Edwad who I loved even और then Jacob if it was posible.I began to cry thats when jacob woke up he held me tight and kissed my forhead all I could do is lay there and let this hapen.I couldnt tell him I still प्यार Edward या that I प्यार him और then I used to.I couldn`t just leave him but I had to know if Edward still loved me if he did then I tell him I still प्यार him to if not then i`d just stay with Jacob and live a happy life.

The अगला दिन called Alices cell phone she answered with a exsited"Hey Bella.No Edwards not here but I will answer your question.""Hello Alice.I`m not suer how to ask this but does Edward still प्यार me?".Her voice sounded suprised when she answered but it was the answer I was hoping and wishing for,"Bella आप know he still loves you,he is probably the only man who can say he will प्यार आप forever and really mean it.He would do anything to make आप happy thats why he didnt fight for आप he thinks your be happier with Jacob."I sat there in shock i`ll I could say is"Alice I still प्यार him और then i`ve loved anyone before,I dont want to lose him.Were are आप guy`s living I need to see him but dont let him know im coming....ok?"Alice didn`t answer for a मिनट but when she did see told me they were still at the house just outside forks."oh द्वारा the Bella dont were a गुलाबी चोटी, शीर्ष या you`ll fall in the mud coming up to the door go with the bule because it`s his favourite colour on you.See आप soon!"I got off the phone and I told Jacob I wanted to take a drive to see my dad.He didnt really care so I कहा bye and I left for Edwards house.I Put on my blue चोटी, शीर्ष just befor I left and when I got ther Alice was outside waiting for me."Edwards not back yet from hunting with everyone else but I called and he कहा he`ll be back around five so about 30 मिनटों from now"I looked at her she hadn`t changed all that much other then her hair.It was longer and in pony-tail she looked great.I couldn`t wait to see Edward`s face.

I looked out Alice`s Window and said"When he gets here dont think about me make sure this is a suprise and tell him to go to his room" She looked at me and replied"O.K but I need to do somthing about your hair it looks like आप just woke up."I looked at her and she started laughing remembering I was human and it was only 10:00 in the morring so I must have just woken-up."O.K but nothing crazy!"

20 मिनटों later I was siting on edwards सोफ़ा, सोफे my hair and make-up done,wearing Alice`s jeans and my top.Thats when I saw his sliver Volvo pull in to the drve way.Alice was already outside द्वारा now and I heard her tell Edward to go up to his room and then come back to tell her if something was different and if he liked it.He had no clue what she was talking about and द्वारा the look on his face he couldn`t clearly read her thoughts.Now I was nervous I was in his room but why wasnt he up here yet.Was he doing this to seem human या did he know I was here and doing this to bug me for not seeing him?

The door opened a मिनट later, Edward looked at me and dropped his bags..........

To be continued if आप like the story so far!