Mother was a handful as usual and as usual she was able to find fault with everything I did.
I am the "Dean of Medicine", graduated medical school in the चोटी, शीर्ष of my class, and I run a hospital and it is still not enough to earn her respect.
She called me a slut. How could she actually call me....?
Then there is House. आप were going to stand up for me. आप felt defensive of me. I should tell आप that I loved the way that felt. आप whom I have loved forever and wanted to pay some attention to me. आप felt like a hero to me in that moment. I know आप needed time alone. I have done nothing but order आप around and keep आप jumping through hoops.
I don't know why everything आप do makes me और afraid that this is not what आप want. I wish I could tell आप that I am scared. I have never wanted many things in my life. My life has been based on gaining approval. But, "I want you." I have always wanted you.
"I am screwing this up." I am screwing us up.
I wish I could tell आप that when आप walk into the room I just want to touch you. I think about what it feels like when your lips brush across mine. I can feel आप inside me and how amziing आप feel to me. I can feel आप in my core. The moment that आप took me in your arms and आप picked up and I laid underneath you. I never imagined that आप would feel so good to me. I felt like I was.........................Home.
I knew from the beginning that दिन in the bookstore I would never meet another man that I wanted the way I wanted you. But I know it doesn't seem that way. Lately I can't hold a smile. Lately...... Lately I am so afraid आप will find out I am not what आप want. आप will realize I am not good enough.
She put her head in her hands and tears began streaming down her face. I need आप House. I need आप so much. Please ........
At that moment she felt a hand touch her. She didn't jump because she knew the touch.
Cuddy come here. House pulled her up gently and he sat down and she sat in his lap and she buried her head in his shoulder. He held her and he rocked as she cried.
Cuddy talk to me. Tell me what's wrong.
She just hung on to him tighter and cried harder.
Why are आप so upset now? Is it because I drugged your mother या I tried to get out of being here? I am sorry. Cuddy do आप want out of this?
She raised up and she put her hand on his face. Maybe that would be the best. Maybe this is just और than आप can handle.
With that he stood up. "What?!" और than I can handle? I am not the one who looks miserable all the time या barks out orders like they are a drill instructor. आप wait on me to screw up या to let आप down.
House maybe that is why आप lied to me या tried to get out of my birthday dinner. आप are just sabtoging this.
Again with the lying. Cuddy I did that to save my patient. I didn't tell आप afterwards because आप made a production out of me respecting your wishes. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt us. I didn't want to lose you.
I drugged your mother because I didn't want to spend the evening with her and her ranting. I didn't want to listen to Wilson whining.
For someone who didn't want me to change आप have done nothing but try to change me. I feel like I am on a tightrope.
Well आप can leave. आप don't have to be here. आप are free to leave anytime आप want. I have always survived. I cried myself to sleep many nights because of you. One और is not really a big deal.
He approached her and she tried to pull away but he held on. I don't want to leave Cuddy. I.....
We have everything but the truth Cuddy.
"Cuddy what is the truth?" He put his finger under her jaw and raised her face upward until their eyes met.
"I can't..................."
"Cuddy", the truth?
Her eyes were so full of fear and then she just कहा it.
I'm afraid!!! ok I am afraid.
आप are not the only one who is broken and screwed up. I am so in प्यार with you. आप were my कल्पना House. आप were in my head and now आप are in my............ And again the tears streamed down her face.
You're in my दिल now and I don't know how to deal with it. I know what it feels like to be touched द्वारा आप and how आप feel when आप make प्यार to me and I can't imagine how that would feel if I...... if I lost........
He wrapped his arms around her little frame and sighed and as he began to speak a tear escaped his eyes.
Cuddy I was drowning in my self pity and my pills and आप put your faith in me and आप found a way to breathe life back into me. That chasm that we talked about a few years ago; आप turned a deaf ear to it and आप just dealt with me from your heart.
I am a different man now. I am here because I want to be here and I am trying to reach you. Cuddy come here to me.
Cuddy, "I प्यार you. He led her to the पियानो and he began to play.
"Wilson had it sent over from his condo to Cuddy's." It was therapuetic for House and Wilson had bought for him.
As he played the tension in her body eased and she watched his hands हटाइए across the keys.
"That is beautiful House. What is it?
"Cuddy's Serenade." I composed it the night of Rachel's Simchat.
"What?"
I wrote it that night.
House I wanted to invite you. "I wanted आप there." I didn't know how to say it या how to ask you.
There was a moment that I realized आप had always been there to save me Cuddy and आप took the hit and my wrath. I realized how much आप have दिया up and sacrificed for me. आप put yourself out there for this hospital, patients, and for me.
I was so mad at आप about the surgery आप did but आप did it to save my life. आप knew I would be furious.
House did आप forgive me?
Cuddy आप have been there every step and took everything I had to dish out. The सवाल is now,
"can आप forgive me?"
"I प्यार आप Cuddy." "The way आप draw your bottom lip in when आप want something and आप don't know how to ask for it. The way आप raise your eyebrow and square your shoulders when आप are trying to put your foot down. The way आप flirt with me and even the way आप look at me at the रात का खाना तालिका, टेबल when I am getting ready to put your mother in her place."
"House", I thought आप wanted the night alone.
"That's the thing Cuddy." I am never alone. I don't feel alone and I like the way that feels. The only thing I could think of anyway was आप naked. So here I am.
"She laughed" and then she laughed harder. He watched her but then as he was watching her he just leaned into her. Cuddy I want you.
House आप always want sex.
No. I want you. I want आप to hear आप laugh. I want आप to stop preparing for defeat and open up to me. I want आप to wear low cut blouses to get my attention. I want आप to put me in my place when I am being a jerk. I want आप to let me in.
"House." And she drew her bottom lip in as she stood up. She raised up on her tip toes and she kissed him. She took his hand and led him to the bedroom and began to undress him and with all abandon she made प्यार to him.
She left him breathless all night.
They were slowly forming a bond and they were beginnning to दिखाना they had the ability to bend and not break.
As the light came in from the morning sun they looked at each other and they realized this was a new दिन and a chance to make history.
"Their history."
