my current user icon: a festive depiction of my favorite Disney couple
Basic Info
Name: Rhianan (It’s actually my middle name, but I hate my first name and have a strict rule about not using it online)
Gender: Female
Country: USA (specifically the South)
Astrological sign: Sagittarius
Ethnicity: German and Scandinavian on my father’s side; English, Irish, and Native American on my mother’s
Physical appearance: I’m 5’7 and plus-sized. I have medium-length very light blonde hair and blue eyes (If आप want a डिज़्नी comparison, think Fairy Mary’s body, Cinderella’s eyes, Belle’s hair length, and Elsa’s hair color)
Behind the Screen name: I was a huge प्रशंसक of Criminal Minds when I joined फैन्पॉप (I still watch it, but I’m not obsessed anymore). The show’s 100th episode, which was the end of a story arc involving my then-favorite character Aaron Hotchner and his ex-wife Haley, aired soon after I joined and was being heavily promoted and speculated at the time. I knew whatever happened in that episode, Aaron would still प्यार Haley forever, so AaronHaley4ever became my screen name. I really dislike my screen name now because my opinion of one of the characters who inspired it changed dramatically, so it sends the wrong message. I only still have it because I don’t want to start over with earning फ्रेंड्स and medals.
Aaron and Haley HOtchner, the character who inspired my screen name
My personality: At my best, I’m kind, open-minded, generous, creative, determined, and optimistic. At my worst, I’m naïve, prideful, stubborn, odd, and/or moody. I’m very much a problem-solver and enjoy challenges and figuring things out on my own. I’m also very shy and only speak my mind if it’s about something that really matters to me या won’t cause controversy, which some people mistake for indifference या snobbishness. I’m a huge perfectionist and care a lot what others think of me (a trait I’m not proud of), so I go out of my way to avoid ridicule/disapproval.
The things I value most are:
Individuality- I’ve been bullied in some form for most of my life, so I know how it feels to be afraid/ ashamed to be yourself. I believe all people should have the right to be who they are and that it’s absolutely wrong to expect others to change/hide themselves to fit the “norm”.
Optimism – I know firsthand how a negative attitude can affect आप and the people around you, so I don’t want to be that one person who’s always bringing everyone else down. I try to see the good in all people and situations, and I have little patience for defeatism, self-pity, या complaining (sorry if that sounds callous).
Kindness- This I strive for above all else! I believe that no person (real या fictional) is all good या all evil and that it’s possible to dislike a person’s actions या choices without disliking the person themselves. I feel we all have reasons why we are who we are, and I believe in understanding others’ thoughts/motivations/histories instead of judging them for it. I know how hurtful and humiliating it is to be judged, and I never want to make another person feel that way. I’m a firm believer that two wrongs don’t make a right, so I don’t hold grudges, wish या cause pain (physical या emotional) to others, या take satisfaction in others’ misfortune, not matter what they’ve done in the past या how they treat me in return.
My Life
I have a rare condition called cerebral angiomatosis, या angiomatosis of the brain. I couldn’t find an लेख explaining my exact condition, but here’s one about angiomatosis in general (sorry if it confuses anyone!): link. I don’t like to talk about my condition because people usually think I’m lying या that it means something it doesn’t. Also, I don’t let it define me, so I don’t want it to define others’ perceptions of me. I want people to see me for the person I am, not a condition I have.
What angiomatosis means: I have potentially deadly seizures; I experience weight gain as a side effect of the medicine to control कहा seizures; I have no peripheral vision (I have to turn my head to see anything to the side of me instead of moving my eyes); I have chronic migraines that are triggered द्वारा heat and bright light; I have problems with balance and coordination; a fall या blow to the head could cause bleeding in my brain and kill me.
What angiomatosis does not mean: I’m mentally challenged; I have a psychological problem; I have cancer; I’m too dumb/fragile/irresponsible to take care of myself.
Because of my condition, my parents were very overprotective of me and didn’t let me be around other kids because they were afraid they’d play too rough and kill me accidentally. Since I’m an only child, that meant spending most of my childhood isolated. When I got to school, I had a really hard time fitting in and was bullied for everything imaginable. While some teachers were understanding, most of them just told me I was “too weird for [my] own good” and needed to be “more typical” so it wouldn’t be a problem. Whenever I tried to stand up for myself, there was always some form of retaliation, and if the bullies made me cry, the teacher punished me for being “too emotional”. It was so traumatic that to this day, I try to avoid दिखा रहा है emotion या putting myself in a situation where I might become emotional.
I lived with my parents until they died and now live on my own. I don’t get out much because my lack of peripheral vision makes it hard (and dangerous) to drive a car, and there aren’t any reliable mass transit systems where I live so going somewhere means paying for a cab या asking for a ride (which I hate to do). My migraines kept me from finishing college या holding down a normal job, so I’m currently on disability, which I absolutely hate because people usually call me a lazy bum या tell me I’m stealing money from the taxpayers when they learn about it. I can’t stand depending on others for survival, so I’m trying to find a way to turn my talents into income. I’m currently working on a novel and trying to establish myself as a freelance writer.
*I’m so sorry if talking about my life makes me sound like I’m complaining/feeling sorry for myself; I don’t mean to! I’m thankful for the things I have, and I only brought it up to give people a better understanding *
My family: My parents were very similar to the King and क्वीन of Arendelle. My dad was strong, a natural leader, and expected a lot of me; my mom was quiet, submissive, and rarely challenged her husband. Like King Angarr and क्वीन Iduna, my parents made the misguided choice to isolate their daughter and died relatively young, not to mention the fact that my parents looked uncannily like them (the only difference is the eye colors). For this reason, King Agnarr and क्वीन Iduna will always hold a special place in my heart, so I sometimes get a bit defensive of them.
Disney dopplegangers of my parents
I don’t get to spend much time with my dad’s side of the family because they live far away, though they’re usually supportive and let me make my own decisions, while my mom’s side has always been nearby, though they don’t really understand my condition. They often criticize and micromanage me, which makes me feel like they don’t trust me to handle anything myself. I have a lot of cousins on both sides, of whom I’m the only one who’s never had a spouse, college degree, या “real job”, so I don’t feel like I measure up when compared to them.
Pets: I’ve always loved जानवर and have had a lot of pets over the years. I currently have a Persian cat named Remus, a white rabbit named Marshmallow, a guinea pig named Anna (so named because she’s feisty and talkative like Princess Anna, and the first thing she did when I brought her घर was snuggle up to one of my Hans dolls), and a bloodhound named Clampett that I inherited from my mom.
Remus, my "hairy baby"
My style/fashion sense: It may seem vain to include this, but it’s a big part of who I am. Some people think big girls don’t care how they look, but that isn’t true for me. I प्यार experimenting with fashion, and I never step outside the door unless my hair/make-up/clothes are perfect! I like to think if my style as eye-catching but not gaudy – mostly dresses या tops and skirts in neutral/dark रंग that are easy to mix and match, paired with colorful handbags and dramatic jewelry to make it stand out. Most of my wardrobe is stuff I designed and sewed myself या bought and altered/embellished. I sort of had to learn to make my own fashion because the only clothes I could find on the racks were never my style (either too plain या too gaudy). My designs are mostly inspired द्वारा my fandoms, and it makes me proud when I wear them and get compliments.
Hobbies/Interests: One of the only places I was allowed to go as a child was the library, so I developed a प्यार of पढ़ना from a young age. I enjoy writing, drawing, गाना (though I stink at it and would be too shy to perform), sewing, jewelry/fashion design, collecting dolls/entertainment memorabilia, researching pop culture trivia, learning foreign languages, doll/action figure customization, and traveling (though I don’t get to do it often). I प्यार Broadway musicals! The shows I’ve seen live are The Secret Garden, The Addams Family, Les Miserables, Sweeney Todd, Beauty and the Beast, The Phantom of the Opera, and Rodgers and Hammerstein’s Cinderella.
an example of one of my doll customizations: the King of Arendelle with my dad's eye color
Pet Peeve: STEREOTYPES!!! People think I’m unsophisticated/intolerant because I’m Southern, insecure/a slob/always eating या thinking about खाना because I’m big, cold/snobbish/uninterested because I’m shy, vain/shallow/unintelligent because I have a lot of interests that are considered “girly” etc., and it makes me angry! I’d much rather people ask me if there’s something about me that they don’t understand instead of jumping to (often wrong) conclusions.
Favorites
Food: sushi
Drink: स्टारबक्स frappucinos – all flavors, though my प्रिय is caramel
Colors: dark green, black, and navy blue
Possessions: a $100 bill that was the last thing my dad gave me before he died and a musical picture frame that holds a picture of me with Ramin Karimloo
books: Les Miserables द्वारा Victor Hugo, The Phantom of the Opera द्वारा Gaston Leroux, The Vampire Chronicles series द्वारा Anne Rice, Frankenstein द्वारा Mary Shelley, The Great Gatsby द्वारा F. Scott Fitzgerald, Phantom द्वारा Susan Kay, A Tale of Two Cities द्वारा Charles Dickens, The Harry Potter series द्वारा J. K. Rowling, Dracula and Dracula’s Guest and other short stories द्वारा Bram Stoker, and pretty much anything द्वारा Alexandre Dumas
movies: Edward Scissorhands, The Dark Knight, प्यार and Human remains, Titanic, Finding Neverland, The Patriot, Robin हुड, डाकू (the Errol Flynn version), The Great Gatsby, X-Men: First Class and Days of Future Past, Memory, The Reckoning, Captain Blood, It’s a Wonderful Life, the classic Universal monster फिल्में (Dracula, Frankenstein, The Wolfman, etc.), and all of the Spider-Man फिल्में
shows: Criminal Minds, Once Upon a Time, Downton Abbey, एन सी आइ एस#Naval Criminal Investigative Service (the original and New Orleans), Sleepy Hollow, Bates Motel, The Mentalist, सी एस आइ (the original and Cyber), Code Black, Untold Stories of the ER, The Addams Family, and almost all of the classic Nickelodeon and Cartoon Network cartoons
Musicals: Les Miserables, Jekyll and Hyde, The Phantom of the Opera, Sweeney Todd, and Beauty and the Beast
musicians/bands: Bon Jovi, Simple Plan, Shinedown, Avril Lavigne, Muse, Three Days Grace, Green Day, Adele, Ramin Karimloo, Jason Crabb, and और acts from the 50s and 60s than I could ever name in just one article
Games: I’m not really a gamer, but I like डिज़्नी Tsum Tsum and फ्रोज़न Free Fall.
Fictional Characters: Severus Snape and Hermione Granger (Harry Potter series), Harry Osborn (Spider-man), Eponine Thenardier and Jean Valjean (Les Miserables), Valerie Gray (Danny Phantom), नीलकंठ, जय, जे Gatsby (The Great Gatsby), Tracy Turnblad (Hairspray), Erik (The Phantom of the Opera), and Emma हंस (Once Upon a Time)
Other Cultures (sorry if these are dumb reasons to be interested):
British- I’m probably dating myself द्वारा saying this, but I idolized Princess Diana growing up, and I’ve been a Harry Potter प्रशंसक for most of my life. These things helped me develop an interest in British culture at an early age. I प्यार the संगीत of the 60s British invasion and sometimes use British words in conversation (which usually causes people to look at me like I’m nuts). It’s been my dream to visit the UK since I was 8!
French- A lot of my प्रिय पुस्तकें were written द्वारा French authors, and I always wanted to visit France and see all the places I’ve read about firsthand. I प्यार French food, and the language is very beautiful (though I don’t speak it well…yet)
Danish- The novel I’m working on takes place in 19th century Denmark, so I had to do a lot of research on Danish history and culture to insure its accuracy. I found it all fascinating!
All Things Disney
Favorite movies: Saving Mr. Banks, The Hunchback of Notre Dame, Beauty and the Beast, The Little Mermaid, सिंडरेला (2015), Tarzan, The Lion King, Wreck-It Ralph, Mary Poppins, and all 3 of the Toy Story movies
Favorite songs (including songs from the Broadway musicals): Part of Your World, God Help the Outcasts, Feed the Birds, Home, Proud of Your Boy, Reflection, Go the Distance, Son of Man, If I Can’t प्यार Her, and I See the Light
Favorite shows: Lizzie Maguire, Phil of the Future, Pepper Ann, Recess, The Little Mermaid, and Aladdin
Favorite Princesses: My सूची changes often, but the ones who are most consistently in the चोटी, शीर्ष spots are Ariel, Mulan, and Rapunzel.
प्रिय Princes: Beast/Adam, Aladdin, and Flynn/Eugene
Other प्रिय डिज़्नी characters: Woody, Esmeralda, Hans, Tarzan, Wreck-It Ralph, Dory, Simba, Ray, Baymax, Ella, Travers Goff (if he counts), and the King and क्वीन of Arendelle
My डिज़्नी guilty pleasure: Descendants. It’s not objectively a good movie, but I प्यार the story and its message of redemption and सेकंड chances. The गुड़िया are awesome too!
Disney Characters I relate to most (I’ll eventually do an लेख with और detailed explanations):
Ariel – curiosity, determination, optimism, have physical limitations (my angiomatosis and her mermaid tail/loss of her voice) but don’t let them hold us back
Hans – determination, ambition, desire for admiration, problem-solvers, don’t feel appreciated द्वारा our families
Belle- book lovers, compassionate, see the best in others, protective of those we care about, considered odd द्वारा others
सिंडरेला – kind and forgiving to all, hopeful, लॉस्ट our parents at a young age, don’t often speak our minds/stand up for ourselves
अलादीन – adaptable, economic struggles, strive to better our circumstances
