I tried Sammy, man I really tried but I just can't keep pretending that everything is alright because it's not and it's never going to be. आप chose a demon over your own and look what happened.

"You know I would give anything, anything, to take it all back."

I know आप would, and I know how sorry आप are, I do, but man आप were the one that I depended on the most and आप let me down in ways that I can't even ... i'm just ... i'm having a hard time forgiving and forgetting here, आप know?

"What can I do?"

Honestly .. Nothing. I just don't .. I don't think we can ever be what we were, आप know? I just don't think I can trust you.

-- I actually feel bad for Sam too, I do.

I just feel worse for Dean. because God .. his दिल is broken and he's trying to forgive Sam but he just can't and he knows that Sam is sorry and that he would take it back if he could but he can't, nothing he does could ever really make what he did okay. and now Dean is left trying to forgive something that is pretty much impossible to forgive all because Sam chose to listen to a demon over the person who has ALWAYS been there, from the time he was six months old.

Now Dean has to live with the fact that his whole entire LIFE from the time he was four years old ditched him for a demon and accidentally started the end of the world. This दिखाना just breaks my heart! :( ♥