(March 31, 2011)
(this is after we get घर from the vet’s office)
“This is Colby Browning for Dr. Johnston,” I कहा to Milly the secretary. She put me on hold and transferred the call.
“This is Dr. Johnston,” he कहा when he came on the line.
“Hey, doc, this is that guy that pulled a gun on आप earlier,” I कहा hesitatingly. There was only silence. “Anyway, I’m just calling to apologize for that. I would never have pulled the trigger and आप were in no danger at any point. I just had to get back there and make sure that Scar got treated.”
When the doctor first spoke, there was steel in his voice, but it softened. “That was incredibly stupid and dangerous,” he said. Then his voice softened. “But I appreciate the apology and I understand what आप were going through. She’s a beautiful young भेड़िया and you’re very lucky to have her. She’s headstrong and fearless, and I wish both of आप the best of luck.”
Doctor Johnston and I exchanged a few और pleasantries, but the substance of the conversation had passed. I disconnected the call and glanced over at Scar. Her eyes were wide from fighting off the effects of the sedative, even though she was walking around just fine. She seemed terrified to fall asleep, lest she never wake again.
“Scar, it’s okay, babe,” I कहा to soothe her. “You’re gonna be just fine. I’m not going to let anything like that happen to आप ever again. आप understand me, Scar? Never. I प्यार आप too damn much.”
She glanced up at me, then locked her gaze on the road again. Why that was, I’m not sure. Maybe the rhythmic pattern of the asphalt was soothing and calming. I know that driving always calms me down. या flying. One of the two.
When we finally got home, I picked her up and carried her into the house. I didn’t quite trust her legs yet. I made her a nice little बिस्तर and she laid in it and watched me the entire time. Her eyes never left me, a sign that she was और cognitive than I had thought.
I longed to see her running again, to see her chasing, to hear her paws whispering on the hardwood floors the way they were supposed to, the freedom that it gave her to explore the world beyond her पूर्व experiences in Jasper Park Canada. But most of all, I just wanted her to be happy and with me.
Her being stuck in a बिस्तर made of hastily thrown together blankets and pillows away from my side was driving her bat shit crazy for the most part. She couldn’t stand being confined over there, so I tried to spend my time over there, whispering and crooning to her, stroking her long wavy thick beautiful fur, and testing her intellect to make sure that she was alright.
She was able to answer every सवाल I posed correctly, which I took as a good sign.
A few hours later, Scar started insisting that she was ready to try to stand. I really didn't want to push it, but I decided to let her try, but I would stand close.
She seemed a little intimidated, but went ahead. Once she was actually standing on all four paws, she seemed a little wobbly, but Scar stayed standing.
Thus encouraged, she took a few tentative steps.
After lunch, which had seemed hours away in the vets office, Scar went outside. It took her a सेकंड to get coordinated enough to get through the automatic door, but she made it and through the window I saw her walk around the side of the house.
I was somewhat curious as to what she was doing over there, but I didn't pay too much mind to it.
30 मिनटों later, she still hadn't come back inside and I was starting to get a little worried.
I went outside, calling her name.
"Scar... Scar..."
She didn't respond.
I called her name a good dozen और times, but still never got an answering call.
At this point, I was scared shitless that something had happened to her.
I searched every nook and cranny of the house, plus all the stuff outside where a भेड़िया could hide. I couldn't find her.
"Scar!" I yelled, starting to freak.
A few और मिनटों of searching was enough to determine that she wasn't on the property.
I finally realized that I was going to have to खोजिए from the air. I made my way to the MD500, but before I made it to the bird, I I caught a glimpse of red फर through a gap in a clump of bushes.
"Scar!" I yelled happily, running to her. She was cornered in the middle of the clump and I could only reach her paws, but nothing more. Her head was turned away from me. She seemed determined to stay out of my reach.
"Scar? Honey?" I कहा to her.
She turned to me and I could see the tear tracks in her fur. The sight of them tore my heart.
"Scar, what's wrong?" I asked softly.
"What happened yesterday!" she cried. "What I told आप wasn't true."
I settled down onto the घास and waited. "What happened?"
"That dog... He tried to mount me. That's why I snapped at him and that's why he bit me."
"Oh my god, Scar, I'm so sorry, babe," I said, stunned beyond belief. I started tearing up a little myself.
"This is so upsetting," she sobbed. "I want things to back to the way they used to be."
She buried her face in her paws and sobbed.
I knew what I had to do. I went back to the house, grabbed a bowl, filled it with "water", and came back out with a good blanket.
Scar saw me coming with the "water" and started thumping her tail.
When I had the blanket and stuff set up, I put the "water" down. Scar crawled out on her belly and over to the bowl. I hoped that she wouldn't realize what I had done.
When the bowl was empty, which I hadn't filled up all the way, Scar laid down on the blanket and stretched out. She pretended to be asleep, but I knew that she would be in a few minutes.
Scar looked up at me and the look on her face made me laugh and cry all at once. She didn't know what I had done, but I felt like she did.
When her eyes closed, I sighed. I felt like total shit for doing this to her, but I didn't have a choice. I bundled her in the blanket and carried her into the house.
(this is after we get घर from the vet’s office)
“This is Colby Browning for Dr. Johnston,” I कहा to Milly the secretary. She put me on hold and transferred the call.
“This is Dr. Johnston,” he कहा when he came on the line.
“Hey, doc, this is that guy that pulled a gun on आप earlier,” I कहा hesitatingly. There was only silence. “Anyway, I’m just calling to apologize for that. I would never have pulled the trigger and आप were in no danger at any point. I just had to get back there and make sure that Scar got treated.”
When the doctor first spoke, there was steel in his voice, but it softened. “That was incredibly stupid and dangerous,” he said. Then his voice softened. “But I appreciate the apology and I understand what आप were going through. She’s a beautiful young भेड़िया and you’re very lucky to have her. She’s headstrong and fearless, and I wish both of आप the best of luck.”
Doctor Johnston and I exchanged a few और pleasantries, but the substance of the conversation had passed. I disconnected the call and glanced over at Scar. Her eyes were wide from fighting off the effects of the sedative, even though she was walking around just fine. She seemed terrified to fall asleep, lest she never wake again.
“Scar, it’s okay, babe,” I कहा to soothe her. “You’re gonna be just fine. I’m not going to let anything like that happen to आप ever again. आप understand me, Scar? Never. I प्यार आप too damn much.”
She glanced up at me, then locked her gaze on the road again. Why that was, I’m not sure. Maybe the rhythmic pattern of the asphalt was soothing and calming. I know that driving always calms me down. या flying. One of the two.
When we finally got home, I picked her up and carried her into the house. I didn’t quite trust her legs yet. I made her a nice little बिस्तर and she laid in it and watched me the entire time. Her eyes never left me, a sign that she was और cognitive than I had thought.
I longed to see her running again, to see her chasing, to hear her paws whispering on the hardwood floors the way they were supposed to, the freedom that it gave her to explore the world beyond her पूर्व experiences in Jasper Park Canada. But most of all, I just wanted her to be happy and with me.
Her being stuck in a बिस्तर made of hastily thrown together blankets and pillows away from my side was driving her bat shit crazy for the most part. She couldn’t stand being confined over there, so I tried to spend my time over there, whispering and crooning to her, stroking her long wavy thick beautiful fur, and testing her intellect to make sure that she was alright.
She was able to answer every सवाल I posed correctly, which I took as a good sign.
A few hours later, Scar started insisting that she was ready to try to stand. I really didn't want to push it, but I decided to let her try, but I would stand close.
She seemed a little intimidated, but went ahead. Once she was actually standing on all four paws, she seemed a little wobbly, but Scar stayed standing.
Thus encouraged, she took a few tentative steps.
After lunch, which had seemed hours away in the vets office, Scar went outside. It took her a सेकंड to get coordinated enough to get through the automatic door, but she made it and through the window I saw her walk around the side of the house.
I was somewhat curious as to what she was doing over there, but I didn't pay too much mind to it.
30 मिनटों later, she still hadn't come back inside and I was starting to get a little worried.
I went outside, calling her name.
"Scar... Scar..."
She didn't respond.
I called her name a good dozen और times, but still never got an answering call.
At this point, I was scared shitless that something had happened to her.
I searched every nook and cranny of the house, plus all the stuff outside where a भेड़िया could hide. I couldn't find her.
"Scar!" I yelled, starting to freak.
A few और मिनटों of searching was enough to determine that she wasn't on the property.
I finally realized that I was going to have to खोजिए from the air. I made my way to the MD500, but before I made it to the bird, I I caught a glimpse of red फर through a gap in a clump of bushes.
"Scar!" I yelled happily, running to her. She was cornered in the middle of the clump and I could only reach her paws, but nothing more. Her head was turned away from me. She seemed determined to stay out of my reach.
"Scar? Honey?" I कहा to her.
She turned to me and I could see the tear tracks in her fur. The sight of them tore my heart.
"Scar, what's wrong?" I asked softly.
"What happened yesterday!" she cried. "What I told आप wasn't true."
I settled down onto the घास and waited. "What happened?"
"That dog... He tried to mount me. That's why I snapped at him and that's why he bit me."
"Oh my god, Scar, I'm so sorry, babe," I said, stunned beyond belief. I started tearing up a little myself.
"This is so upsetting," she sobbed. "I want things to back to the way they used to be."
She buried her face in her paws and sobbed.
I knew what I had to do. I went back to the house, grabbed a bowl, filled it with "water", and came back out with a good blanket.
Scar saw me coming with the "water" and started thumping her tail.
When I had the blanket and stuff set up, I put the "water" down. Scar crawled out on her belly and over to the bowl. I hoped that she wouldn't realize what I had done.
When the bowl was empty, which I hadn't filled up all the way, Scar laid down on the blanket and stretched out. She pretended to be asleep, but I knew that she would be in a few minutes.
Scar looked up at me and the look on her face made me laugh and cry all at once. She didn't know what I had done, but I felt like she did.
When her eyes closed, I sighed. I felt like total shit for doing this to her, but I didn't have a choice. I bundled her in the blanket and carried her into the house.
When I hear a funny joke I will not reply, "LOL, LMAO, या ROTFLMAO!"
Start using फेसबुक for something other than Farmville and stupid quizzes
I will try to figure out why I "really" need 5 फेसबुक accounts.
Lose 20 pounds द्वारा going to the gym!
I will stop using, "So, what's your URL?" as a pickup line.
I will spend less than five hours a दिन on the Internet.
I will read the manual... just as soon as I can find it.
Spend less than $1000 for drinks at स्टारबक्स this year.
Lose weight द्वारा inventing an anti-gravity machine
Stop repeating myself again, and again, and again.
I will stop tagging pictures of myself in pictures even when I’m not in them
I will think of a पासवर्ड other than "password"
Start using फेसबुक for something other than Farmville and stupid quizzes
I will try to figure out why I "really" need 5 फेसबुक accounts.
Lose 20 pounds द्वारा going to the gym!
I will stop using, "So, what's your URL?" as a pickup line.
I will spend less than five hours a दिन on the Internet.
I will read the manual... just as soon as I can find it.
Spend less than $1000 for drinks at स्टारबक्स this year.
Lose weight द्वारा inventing an anti-gravity machine
Stop repeating myself again, and again, and again.
I will stop tagging pictures of myself in pictures even when I’m not in them
I will think of a पासवर्ड other than "password"
i rap better it makes that air breath let loose.
go head call me gay i be runnin through the सड़क, स्ट्रीट with my buds with high shoes;
yeah theyre aint much to do down the street.
now we be rappin through the corner yeah we infinites but we been stoppin be the po-lice.
हे pretty lady-
keep lookin sexy, maybe आप can call me;
keep lookin like आप aint interested but inside i make ur mouth grindin without no teeth,
(uh)
आप look at me like im some shit,
yeah आप cant lie,
say it to my face yeah never mind आप way 'bove my height
how bout i give आप an explict,
im like an overdozed bitch
im to greedy to cast spells yeah im for sale no और less than a buck fifthy,
dont bother me when im sittin 'sippin soda under 'neath a tree.
let my body dry,
autumn effects myrhymes now they be fallin leafs.......
go head call me gay i be runnin through the सड़क, स्ट्रीट with my buds with high shoes;
yeah theyre aint much to do down the street.
now we be rappin through the corner yeah we infinites but we been stoppin be the po-lice.
हे pretty lady-
keep lookin sexy, maybe आप can call me;
keep lookin like आप aint interested but inside i make ur mouth grindin without no teeth,
(uh)
आप look at me like im some shit,
yeah आप cant lie,
say it to my face yeah never mind आप way 'bove my height
how bout i give आप an explict,
im like an overdozed bitch
im to greedy to cast spells yeah im for sale no और less than a buck fifthy,
dont bother me when im sittin 'sippin soda under 'neath a tree.
let my body dry,
autumn effects myrhymes now they be fallin leafs.......
Looks like im under in this bridge,
Fall all over til it no longer tilts
Then it builds UP!
After this bridge im just gonna chill,
But I aint got no time to kill.
Need to fight to death; wait til I catch my breath-
In a sec I rip out Ready to conceal-
Eliminate every rapper in the forest with just a fist-
Fuck it I spit it all, yeah im infinite
Meanin,
I fuck आप all.
Play down द्वारा the सड़क, स्ट्रीट while the opponent takes my ball;
I aint got no time to write no और rhymes
Now आप die…but that’ll be a draw;
Cause आप कुत्ता chewed up ya collars,
पंच ‘n kick दिखाना how आप win,
But ya aint no bawlers- freestyle lane of freedom
Sayin you’re the big deal… whatcha breathin?
आप breathin’ weed
I’d be breedin for those type of wimen semen (ha-ha)
Just kiddin,
Ya need infinite follow the broken trees yeah its my district……
Yeah, infinite
Fall all over til it no longer tilts
Then it builds UP!
After this bridge im just gonna chill,
But I aint got no time to kill.
Need to fight to death; wait til I catch my breath-
In a sec I rip out Ready to conceal-
Eliminate every rapper in the forest with just a fist-
Fuck it I spit it all, yeah im infinite
Meanin,
I fuck आप all.
Play down द्वारा the सड़क, स्ट्रीट while the opponent takes my ball;
I aint got no time to write no और rhymes
Now आप die…but that’ll be a draw;
Cause आप कुत्ता chewed up ya collars,
पंच ‘n kick दिखाना how आप win,
But ya aint no bawlers- freestyle lane of freedom
Sayin you’re the big deal… whatcha breathin?
आप breathin’ weed
I’d be breedin for those type of wimen semen (ha-ha)
Just kiddin,
Ya need infinite follow the broken trees yeah its my district……
Yeah, infinite