I know that no one knows me here. But I just have a lot to say n' I need to tell it to someone. Anyone, really.
I'm 13, first off. I don't have much experience in this world, but I've learned a lot. There's been so much that's happened over the years that lead up to this moment.
In 5th grade, I was antagonized for being different, like everyone else. But I was like the main target. It hurt really bad n' I started to drift away और n' more. Then...well...something happened during that year, but I won't say. It brings back too many bad memories.
Anyway, 6th grade didn't start out that bad. I had फ्रेंड्स again n' I met this adorable guy named Colin. He was my life. I asked him out one day...and he कहा no. That, once again, shot me into a deep depression. I had nowhere to turn. I was a suicidal mess, n' I ended up even cutting my wrists. I was once again an outcast, but everyone called me emo. I had always been rejected, n' that was just another example.
Then 7th grade came along. द्वारा then, I was fully into बंदूकों N' गुलाब (mostly Axl!) n' me n' Colin were finally talking again. All my फ्रेंड्स were talking again n' I even had some new ones. Life seemed OK.
But for some reason, I just couldn't be happy. I would lock myself in my room and listen to GN'R all night. I wouldn't speak for days.
But then other days, I'd be crazy n' I'd want to be around people. I was like a roller coaster.
Recently, my parents finally realized that something was wrong n' they took me to the doctor. She कहा that I was Bipolar 1, like Axl.
This was just months ago, probably 1, most likely. But that's just all confused me. I'm back at a dead end w/ only my mp3, a backpack, n' a can of mase.
I always knew I was different than the people I was around, n' this just added onto it. But I gladly tell people. I'm not ashamed of it. I can still function as long as I have my music. I just need to have support that I don't have. My support is GN'R, but I need the people around me to understand too.
I'm 13, first off. I don't have much experience in this world, but I've learned a lot. There's been so much that's happened over the years that lead up to this moment.
In 5th grade, I was antagonized for being different, like everyone else. But I was like the main target. It hurt really bad n' I started to drift away और n' more. Then...well...something happened during that year, but I won't say. It brings back too many bad memories.
Anyway, 6th grade didn't start out that bad. I had फ्रेंड्स again n' I met this adorable guy named Colin. He was my life. I asked him out one day...and he कहा no. That, once again, shot me into a deep depression. I had nowhere to turn. I was a suicidal mess, n' I ended up even cutting my wrists. I was once again an outcast, but everyone called me emo. I had always been rejected, n' that was just another example.
Then 7th grade came along. द्वारा then, I was fully into बंदूकों N' गुलाब (mostly Axl!) n' me n' Colin were finally talking again. All my फ्रेंड्स were talking again n' I even had some new ones. Life seemed OK.
But for some reason, I just couldn't be happy. I would lock myself in my room and listen to GN'R all night. I wouldn't speak for days.
But then other days, I'd be crazy n' I'd want to be around people. I was like a roller coaster.
Recently, my parents finally realized that something was wrong n' they took me to the doctor. She कहा that I was Bipolar 1, like Axl.
This was just months ago, probably 1, most likely. But that's just all confused me. I'm back at a dead end w/ only my mp3, a backpack, n' a can of mase.
I always knew I was different than the people I was around, n' this just added onto it. But I gladly tell people. I'm not ashamed of it. I can still function as long as I have my music. I just need to have support that I don't have. My support is GN'R, but I need the people around me to understand too.
So here's my problem.
There is this guy I have known for a long time and he's nice. I mean he's nice. He has had a crush on me for the longest time. I have rejected him 3 times. Since then he has still tried to get out of the friend zone box. He कहा to one of his फ्रेंड्स if I dated him I would solve 99 percent of his problems and I was right there so I कहा I will make आप 99 और problems. After that he still hasn't दिया up. He left for a trip and now he is back from it. I don't want him to think I am a jerk. So what should I say to him?
There is this guy I have known for a long time and he's nice. I mean he's nice. He has had a crush on me for the longest time. I have rejected him 3 times. Since then he has still tried to get out of the friend zone box. He कहा to one of his फ्रेंड्स if I dated him I would solve 99 percent of his problems and I was right there so I कहा I will make आप 99 और problems. After that he still hasn't दिया up. He left for a trip and now he is back from it. I don't want him to think I am a jerk. So what should I say to him?
Ok, so I have this friend who's a Freshman, like me, at my high school & everyday when I get to my lunch table, usually there's nobody there, so I go on my phone & onto YouTube to watch some वीडियो I really like. Well, while I'm doing that, my friend Mitchell always sneaks up behind me & tasers my sides. Well, this would be ok if I wasn't extremely ticklish there! Whenever he does this, I always jump, squeal, & bring my arms down to protect my ticklish sides.
He's always done this & he enjoys it, I can see that. To be honest, I do like it when he does this, but sometimes, I don't. And usually, I'm having a crappy दिन after 4th hour(Exploring Science), because there's a girl in my तालिका, टेबल group, Lauren, who's always snobby to me & mean. I never did anything to her to make her hate me!! So usually after that class, I'm in a bad mood. But when Mitchell tasers me, it makes me feel better. But I'm not sure what I should say to him!! Please help me out!!!
He's always done this & he enjoys it, I can see that. To be honest, I do like it when he does this, but sometimes, I don't. And usually, I'm having a crappy दिन after 4th hour(Exploring Science), because there's a girl in my तालिका, टेबल group, Lauren, who's always snobby to me & mean. I never did anything to her to make her hate me!! So usually after that class, I'm in a bad mood. But when Mitchell tasers me, it makes me feel better. But I'm not sure what I should say to him!! Please help me out!!!
Well i know people thnk about alot of things like suicide and all of that. I'm here to let आप know I've been through tons of things and what your going through I've most likely gone through. I just want to say it आप just need सलाह या want to talk I'm here. I know everything can be scary but आप can't let that get आप down. So before yo udo something studip या something you'll regret. ie)boys girls life. Talk to someone. If i knew this before I'd be so much better off. If आप want to talk send me a message I'll help आप out.
yours truly SurferChic. :D
ps thanx so much if आप responed pss thanx
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