I know that no one knows me here. But I just have a lot to say n' I need to tell it to someone. Anyone, really.
I'm 13, first off. I don't have much experience in this world, but I've learned a lot. There's been so much that's happened over the years that lead up to this moment.
In 5th grade, I was antagonized for being different, like everyone else. But I was like the main target. It hurt really bad n' I started to drift away और n' more. Then...well...something happened during that year, but I won't say. It brings back too many bad memories.
Anyway, 6th grade didn't start out that bad. I had फ्रेंड्स again n' I met this adorable guy named Colin. He was my life. I asked him out one day...and he कहा no. That, once again, shot me into a deep depression. I had nowhere to turn. I was a suicidal mess, n' I ended up even cutting my wrists. I was once again an outcast, but everyone called me emo. I had always been rejected, n' that was just another example.
Then 7th grade came along. द्वारा then, I was fully into बंदूकों N' गुलाब (mostly Axl!) n' me n' Colin were finally talking again. All my फ्रेंड्स were talking again n' I even had some new ones. Life seemed OK.
But for some reason, I just couldn't be happy. I would lock myself in my room and listen to GN'R all night. I wouldn't speak for days.
But then other days, I'd be crazy n' I'd want to be around people. I was like a roller coaster.
Recently, my parents finally realized that something was wrong n' they took me to the doctor. She कहा that I was Bipolar 1, like Axl.
This was just months ago, probably 1, most likely. But that's just all confused me. I'm back at a dead end w/ only my mp3, a backpack, n' a can of mase.
I always knew I was different than the people I was around, n' this just added onto it. But I gladly tell people. I'm not ashamed of it. I can still function as long as I have my music. I just need to have support that I don't have. My support is GN'R, but I need the people around me to understand too.
I'm 13, first off. I don't have much experience in this world, but I've learned a lot. There's been so much that's happened over the years that lead up to this moment.
In 5th grade, I was antagonized for being different, like everyone else. But I was like the main target. It hurt really bad n' I started to drift away और n' more. Then...well...something happened during that year, but I won't say. It brings back too many bad memories.
Anyway, 6th grade didn't start out that bad. I had फ्रेंड्स again n' I met this adorable guy named Colin. He was my life. I asked him out one day...and he कहा no. That, once again, shot me into a deep depression. I had nowhere to turn. I was a suicidal mess, n' I ended up even cutting my wrists. I was once again an outcast, but everyone called me emo. I had always been rejected, n' that was just another example.
Then 7th grade came along. द्वारा then, I was fully into बंदूकों N' गुलाब (mostly Axl!) n' me n' Colin were finally talking again. All my फ्रेंड्स were talking again n' I even had some new ones. Life seemed OK.
But for some reason, I just couldn't be happy. I would lock myself in my room and listen to GN'R all night. I wouldn't speak for days.
But then other days, I'd be crazy n' I'd want to be around people. I was like a roller coaster.
Recently, my parents finally realized that something was wrong n' they took me to the doctor. She कहा that I was Bipolar 1, like Axl.
This was just months ago, probably 1, most likely. But that's just all confused me. I'm back at a dead end w/ only my mp3, a backpack, n' a can of mase.
I always knew I was different than the people I was around, n' this just added onto it. But I gladly tell people. I'm not ashamed of it. I can still function as long as I have my music. I just need to have support that I don't have. My support is GN'R, but I need the people around me to understand too.
