“ the new beginning ”
As days passed it got worse. I couldn't take it anymore, we were growing apart, barely even talking.
Anything I talked about doing, Edward would disagree या say its not safe.
Once, I was going to the toilet and Edward asked Alice to go with me!. To the toilet!
That led to a दिन of me ignoring him. That taught him a lesson to shut his mouth and stop making decision for me…..well for about 24 hours. Then it starts again.
“Bells….your getting so boring! Talk a little…oh! I have a better idea lets play” Emmett grinned.
“Emmett, cant आप see Bella Is tired? She has to rest” Edward कहा and put a hand on my shoulder.
“But Edward, all your making Bella do is rest and घर work!” Emmett argued with him.
I removed Edwards hand from my shoulder and got us before walking to the door.
“Where are आप going?” Edward asked.
“I’m going somewhere where I can make my own decisions. Not have someone making them for me!”
“Bella. I don’t think…”
“I’M NOT A DAMN PUPPET EDWARD!” I screamed at him.
Everyone appeared अगला to Emmett, who was looking at me with pride.
“You cant just go! Victoria could be out there waiting for you” Edward कहा angrily.
“Well….news flash Edward. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! I’d rather live a short happy life than a long crappy, hiding in the shadows one!"
“Bell….”Edward started to talk but I cut him off.
“Just shut up Edward! I'm talking. आप are hiding me from everything! From the volturi and that stupid Victoria. Even from my friends”
“But its for your own protection”
“I don't need protection. Did I have a say in this? NO! I didn't. What a shock! आप are living my life for me, Edward! I don't even have a say in what I eat! Your always saying that's not enough आप need और protein, और this और that…blah, blah, blah!
He was looking at me shocked.
“What Edward?” I asked. He cant honestly say he didn’t know he was like this.
“Bella I’m sorry…I just...i just want आप to be healthy…if आप want आप can eat anything आप want… its no probl…”
“EDWARD!” I screamed.
He still looked confused.
“My health isn't fucking important to me!...you know what? I'm leaving. Cause your not going to change me and if I stay here I’m always going to run from my problems…that’s not gonna happen! I want my short human life to be spent in peace and for me to make my own decisions!...I’m tired of this Edward”
“Bella…look…if आप want…”He reached to take my hand but I just took a step back. That hurt him. I could tell द्वारा his face.
“I don't want anything from आप ever again Edward” I told him.
“Bella lets sit and talk about this” Alice looked at me with pleading eyes “we can figure this out..”
“Maybe later Alice…I want to go home. To my own house.
So… what did आप think?
I know in this chapter I was a little harsh with Eddie but….HE DESERVED IT! Wouldn't ya be if the one आप loved acted like this?
Heheheheh!:)))
अगला chap is going to be better… maybe a little B/E but it will soon change!
Sooo….GUESS WHAT? *~~~~ Review~~~~*
As days passed it got worse. I couldn't take it anymore, we were growing apart, barely even talking.
Anything I talked about doing, Edward would disagree या say its not safe.
Once, I was going to the toilet and Edward asked Alice to go with me!. To the toilet!
That led to a दिन of me ignoring him. That taught him a lesson to shut his mouth and stop making decision for me…..well for about 24 hours. Then it starts again.
“Bells….your getting so boring! Talk a little…oh! I have a better idea lets play” Emmett grinned.
“Emmett, cant आप see Bella Is tired? She has to rest” Edward कहा and put a hand on my shoulder.
“But Edward, all your making Bella do is rest and घर work!” Emmett argued with him.
I removed Edwards hand from my shoulder and got us before walking to the door.
“Where are आप going?” Edward asked.
“I’m going somewhere where I can make my own decisions. Not have someone making them for me!”
“Bella. I don’t think…”
“I’M NOT A DAMN PUPPET EDWARD!” I screamed at him.
Everyone appeared अगला to Emmett, who was looking at me with pride.
“You cant just go! Victoria could be out there waiting for you” Edward कहा angrily.
“Well….news flash Edward. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! I’d rather live a short happy life than a long crappy, hiding in the shadows one!"
“Bell….”Edward started to talk but I cut him off.
“Just shut up Edward! I'm talking. आप are hiding me from everything! From the volturi and that stupid Victoria. Even from my friends”
“But its for your own protection”
“I don't need protection. Did I have a say in this? NO! I didn't. What a shock! आप are living my life for me, Edward! I don't even have a say in what I eat! Your always saying that's not enough आप need और protein, और this और that…blah, blah, blah!
He was looking at me shocked.
“What Edward?” I asked. He cant honestly say he didn’t know he was like this.
“Bella I’m sorry…I just...i just want आप to be healthy…if आप want आप can eat anything आप want… its no probl…”
“EDWARD!” I screamed.
He still looked confused.
“My health isn't fucking important to me!...you know what? I'm leaving. Cause your not going to change me and if I stay here I’m always going to run from my problems…that’s not gonna happen! I want my short human life to be spent in peace and for me to make my own decisions!...I’m tired of this Edward”
“Bella…look…if आप want…”He reached to take my hand but I just took a step back. That hurt him. I could tell द्वारा his face.
“I don't want anything from आप ever again Edward” I told him.
“Bella lets sit and talk about this” Alice looked at me with pleading eyes “we can figure this out..”
“Maybe later Alice…I want to go home. To my own house.
So… what did आप think?
I know in this chapter I was a little harsh with Eddie but….HE DESERVED IT! Wouldn't ya be if the one आप loved acted like this?
Heheheheh!:)))
अगला chap is going to be better… maybe a little B/E but it will soon change!
Sooo….GUESS WHAT? *~~~~ Review~~~~*
Hey, so this is a poem Ive been thinking of for a long time,please read and comment!
The Spirit
The spirit rushes on,
Swifter than the wind,
To find answers,
To seek the way.
The spirit flows on,
Like the river.
Flowing on to find the ocean,
A घर for all its dreams.
The spirit shines on,
Brighter than a thousand suns.
Shining on to clear the darkness,
To find the path.
The spirit lives on,
और eternal than the sea,
Living on to find its home,
Where all the ends shall meet.
The Spirit
The spirit rushes on,
Swifter than the wind,
To find answers,
To seek the way.
The spirit flows on,
Like the river.
Flowing on to find the ocean,
A घर for all its dreams.
The spirit shines on,
Brighter than a thousand suns.
Shining on to clear the darkness,
To find the path.
The spirit lives on,
और eternal than the sea,
Living on to find its home,
Where all the ends shall meet.
"It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right."
I can still remember the disappointment in those hazel eyes the moment I told him I was leaving. I couldn't stay - I had no choice. I still can't decide whether it hurt और to leave him, या to know I had been the one who caused the pain. What was I supposed to do? This child needed guidance and protection now और than ever, and I couldn't help him. For so long I had been the one to console him - make him feel सुरक्षित - and it was coming to an end. It was... the rule.
"I need to go away, Alex. It's what imaginary फ्रेंड्स do....
Forever
Forever आप are mine
Forever I’ll be here
Forever is what आप promised
Your दिल is worth nothing
But the your soul is priceless
Forever can be a long time
Forever can be a long time cut short
It’s worth the suffering
It’s worth the sacrifice
To forever be yours
Forever protected द्वारा your eagle like wings
Forever loved द्वारा your ocean wide heart
Forever सुरक्षित in your warm embrace
Forever is worth the wait
To be sliced thin
To stuffed thick
Forever is Forever
Forever is Eternity
Forever is a risk
Forever is a chance
Forever is worth the wait
Forever आप are mine
Forever I’ll be here
Forever is what आप promised
Your दिल is worth nothing
But the your soul is priceless
Forever can be a long time
Forever can be a long time cut short
It’s worth the suffering
It’s worth the sacrifice
To forever be yours
Forever protected द्वारा your eagle like wings
Forever loved द्वारा your ocean wide heart
Forever सुरक्षित in your warm embrace
Forever is worth the wait
To be sliced thin
To stuffed thick
Forever is Forever
Forever is Eternity
Forever is a risk
Forever is a chance
Forever is worth the wait
