[Amanda]
I suppose I've always felt this way, full of murderous ideas and envy. I envied the girl who slept in my brother's bed. Indeed he was my brother, but how I longed to किस his beautiful गुलाबी lips and caress his जैतून colored cheeks. He was handsome, and I felt if I couldn't have him, no one could. I didn't have a clue what incest was until I was 10, and once I found out what it was. I was drawn to it. I was attracted to my brother and I suppose he felt the same way. The way he looked at me and talked to me. One time we were even close to kissing: my mom walked in and caught us. I even remember him touching me, and it felt good. Like it was supposed to happen. I remember he would say, "Don't tell mom, I'm so sorry Amanda." He would then go back to his room.
Thinking about that, it made me feel good about what I've done. She deserved it. To see her in pain, crying for mercy made me feel in total control. "Crazy" आप may say, but I don't think I'm crazy. I do what I feel is right. And seeing Christine lying down in a pile of her blood made me feel good. She was a lying cheating कुतिया, मतलबी anyway.
My brother deserves someone better, someone like me.
I suppose I've always felt this way, full of murderous ideas and envy. I envied the girl who slept in my brother's bed. Indeed he was my brother, but how I longed to किस his beautiful गुलाबी lips and caress his जैतून colored cheeks. He was handsome, and I felt if I couldn't have him, no one could. I didn't have a clue what incest was until I was 10, and once I found out what it was. I was drawn to it. I was attracted to my brother and I suppose he felt the same way. The way he looked at me and talked to me. One time we were even close to kissing: my mom walked in and caught us. I even remember him touching me, and it felt good. Like it was supposed to happen. I remember he would say, "Don't tell mom, I'm so sorry Amanda." He would then go back to his room.
Thinking about that, it made me feel good about what I've done. She deserved it. To see her in pain, crying for mercy made me feel in total control. "Crazy" आप may say, but I don't think I'm crazy. I do what I feel is right. And seeing Christine lying down in a pile of her blood made me feel good. She was a lying cheating कुतिया, मतलबी anyway.
My brother deserves someone better, someone like me.
This is written about the perfect silence only found in the dead of night, and the feelings it inspires.
The शीर्षक comes from the विवरण a friend of mine gave when we were stuck in the middle of nowhere at midnight and I found it sort of beautiful.
Enjoy (I hope) :)
Weighted air and winking stars,
darkness draped, tension wrought.
This night, this hour, is ours.
Silence chimes unspoken thoughts
that choke my mouth.
Silver moonbeams in glittering outline
surround you, and in our youth
this night, this hour, we intertwine.
I'd प्यार to hear what आप like या hate.
Thanks for reading.
DietCokeGirl
The शीर्षक comes from the विवरण a friend of mine gave when we were stuck in the middle of nowhere at midnight and I found it sort of beautiful.
Enjoy (I hope) :)
Weighted air and winking stars,
darkness draped, tension wrought.
This night, this hour, is ours.
Silence chimes unspoken thoughts
that choke my mouth.
Silver moonbeams in glittering outline
surround you, and in our youth
this night, this hour, we intertwine.
I'd प्यार to hear what आप like या hate.
Thanks for reading.
DietCokeGirl