"Matthew tells me you're improving. Guess that brings us a step closer to being happy again, right?" Charlie stared at me with a hopeful expression, awaiting the answer he wanted to hear all along. Yes, Charlie. I'm finally moving on from the past because I प्यार you. I प्यार आप and I want to make this work. I'm changing who I am for you. Dr. Thomas' words, his advice, echoed in my head as I slowly paced back and forth, playing with my fingers nervously. "Jamie, what is it?" "Do आप think there's any point in staying married if the relationship isn't going to survive?" I blurted out the words before I could think to stop myself. "I mean, let's face it Charlie... Are we even strong enough to want to fight for this?" An irritated undertone just barely touched the question.
Charlie stood from the सोफ़ा, सोफे and stepped closer to me, once again towering over me - making me feel smaller than I should have felt. "I thought आप told me आप wanted to try," he whispered, masking the hurt as much as he could, but he wasn't fooling anyone. "I thought आप wanted to make this work." I shook my head in disagreement, crossing my arms over my chest. "No, Charlie. You wanted me to try." He stepped away from me, visibly struck द्वारा my response. "Why are आप अभिनय like this, Jamie?" "Because I'm trying to get through to you! आप keep अभिनय as if nothing is wrong and that everything will get better! I'm tired, Charlie, really tired. I can't do it anymore... I won't."
Now the irritation was taking its toll on him as well. Without holding back any longer, Charlie released all the anger and frustration built up inside him for the past month. "Goddamnit, Jamie!" He slammed his hand on the coffee table, causing me to jump. "Why can't आप just get a hold on reality and face it! He's gone! Alexander is gone and he's not coming back!" My tone matched his in volume. "Stop saying that! आप don't know, I don't know! Nobody knows what will happen, but I'm willing to wait!" "Why?! Why are आप waiting for him when आप could be helping me out here?! It takes two people to have a healthy marriage, Jamie! Two!" "You're telling me I need to get a hold on reality? Fuck you! You're the one who can't see what's really going on! You're being greedy, Charlie! आप want what आप can't have!"
I kept pushing just to see how long it took for him to finally break - something we both needed. "I bring आप all the way up here thinking that maybe, just maybe, you'd see how much I would crawl to make आप want me again. I was wrong about you... about us. You're right, Jamie, there's no point. There's absolutely no point anymore. I just can't understand why आप waited all this time to tell me आप want out." I lowered my gaze to my feet, my toes sinking into the softness of the carpet. "Because it took me until now to realize how much I प्यार him." Charlie shook his head, disappointed with my fantasy. "Well, that's it then."
He grabbed his sunglasses and car keys, heading for the front door. "Where are आप go?" I didn't really care; I just didn't want to be left at his parents' house. He stopped and turned around to face me. "I'm going for a drive. आप can pack your things while I'm gone. I'll drive आप to the airport when I come back... I won't be long." As soon as he slammed the front door, I reached for the telephone and dialed Matthew's number.
Charlie stood from the सोफ़ा, सोफे and stepped closer to me, once again towering over me - making me feel smaller than I should have felt. "I thought आप told me आप wanted to try," he whispered, masking the hurt as much as he could, but he wasn't fooling anyone. "I thought आप wanted to make this work." I shook my head in disagreement, crossing my arms over my chest. "No, Charlie. You wanted me to try." He stepped away from me, visibly struck द्वारा my response. "Why are आप अभिनय like this, Jamie?" "Because I'm trying to get through to you! आप keep अभिनय as if nothing is wrong and that everything will get better! I'm tired, Charlie, really tired. I can't do it anymore... I won't."
Now the irritation was taking its toll on him as well. Without holding back any longer, Charlie released all the anger and frustration built up inside him for the past month. "Goddamnit, Jamie!" He slammed his hand on the coffee table, causing me to jump. "Why can't आप just get a hold on reality and face it! He's gone! Alexander is gone and he's not coming back!" My tone matched his in volume. "Stop saying that! आप don't know, I don't know! Nobody knows what will happen, but I'm willing to wait!" "Why?! Why are आप waiting for him when आप could be helping me out here?! It takes two people to have a healthy marriage, Jamie! Two!" "You're telling me I need to get a hold on reality? Fuck you! You're the one who can't see what's really going on! You're being greedy, Charlie! आप want what आप can't have!"
I kept pushing just to see how long it took for him to finally break - something we both needed. "I bring आप all the way up here thinking that maybe, just maybe, you'd see how much I would crawl to make आप want me again. I was wrong about you... about us. You're right, Jamie, there's no point. There's absolutely no point anymore. I just can't understand why आप waited all this time to tell me आप want out." I lowered my gaze to my feet, my toes sinking into the softness of the carpet. "Because it took me until now to realize how much I प्यार him." Charlie shook his head, disappointed with my fantasy. "Well, that's it then."
He grabbed his sunglasses and car keys, heading for the front door. "Where are आप go?" I didn't really care; I just didn't want to be left at his parents' house. He stopped and turned around to face me. "I'm going for a drive. आप can pack your things while I'm gone. I'll drive आप to the airport when I come back... I won't be long." As soon as he slammed the front door, I reached for the telephone and dialed Matthew's number.
upset
and so many thoughts
circling around
your head,
आप try to make
this right,
to find the best way
so आप could feel better,
so आप could be free.
Pain will never
go away,
it always stays
to remember you
that life is not a dream,
life is unpredictable.
Endless questions,
so many "Why",
but the answer
we will
never find!
The strength within
will not let us crack,
life is unpredictable,
who's to say?
Today you're happy,
and yet
despair waits
stealthily
to engulf you.
But,
आप need to be prepared.
Not only bad things
happen to bad people.
Unfortunately,
so many pure,
honored hearts
have been broken for
so many times,
in so many pieces,
and yet
they live,
they live with
their agony,
they live with
their groan,
but they live,
tho their eyes are
always sad,
their hearts are
still softly.
Therefore
they know...
Therefore
they are...
The brightest star
that shines
in the dark,
that spark of hope
for all of us
who deserve better.
When आप look at the night sky, what do आप see?
In my eyes,
I see the moon as a peaceful spirit,
watching over me.
When आप stop and listen to the wind, what do आप hear?
In my eyes,
The wind sings to me and tells tales.
When आप feel the sun on your back, what do आप think?
In my eyes,
The sun reaches out and gives me a warm smile.
When आप hear a flowing stream, how does it sound?
In my eyes,
The stream is floating in my दिल and soul, drifting on and on.
When आप look at me, what do आप see?
In my eyes,
I see an average girl who is silently struggling inside.
But that's all in my eyes.
In my eyes,
I see the moon as a peaceful spirit,
watching over me.
When आप stop and listen to the wind, what do आप hear?
In my eyes,
The wind sings to me and tells tales.
When आप feel the sun on your back, what do आप think?
In my eyes,
The sun reaches out and gives me a warm smile.
When आप hear a flowing stream, how does it sound?
In my eyes,
The stream is floating in my दिल and soul, drifting on and on.
When आप look at me, what do आप see?
In my eyes,
I see an average girl who is silently struggling inside.
But that's all in my eyes.
Pain!!
Hi people. well im starting up an सलाह column for those people who need सलाह through situations and questions. If आप yourself find your stuck in a problem ई मेल my account at dearannie_advice@hotmail.co.uk. this is my special account i use for people needing help. Dont worry anything आप say will never be told to anyone else, thats my promise. If आप dont think आप trust me then send it to my फैन्पॉप account. im here to help those stuck.
please if आप need advice, just try it.
the new Dear Annie
xxxxx
please if आप need advice, just try it.
the new Dear Annie
xxxxx
"After a while, the insanity of the situation wore off and it seemed completely normal."
isaac
I chanced a glance at you
from across the crowded room
and that was when I noticed
आप were looking at me too
we both know this shouldn't happen
its a road we've been down before
and the only way it ever ends
is with आप walking out the door
so I wish someone would explain to me
why I'm still rooted in place
staring in the direction
of just another lonely face
my mind is screaming at me to run
while my दिल asks me to stay
for a moment I dont know what to do
and if its a price I'm willing to pay
we both know this is wrong
the प्यार that we share
but we also know that wont stop us
because to find this kind of प्यार is rare
from across the crowded room
and that was when I noticed
आप were looking at me too
we both know this shouldn't happen
its a road we've been down before
and the only way it ever ends
is with आप walking out the door
so I wish someone would explain to me
why I'm still rooted in place
staring in the direction
of just another lonely face
my mind is screaming at me to run
while my दिल asks me to stay
for a moment I dont know what to do
and if its a price I'm willing to pay
we both know this is wrong
the प्यार that we share
but we also know that wont stop us
because to find this kind of प्यार is rare
