I could feel the rejection from halfway across the room, hear the laughter, and just knew they were talking about me. I tried to ignore it, but the tears threatened, exusing myself to go to the toilet I desperately fought for control. The tears overflowed, it was like a tap was turned on. I had absolutely no control over them, they just ran down, racing each other to my chin, when I was finished I walked off to my अगला class.
On my way over, Mr Mofti saw me, कहा hi and asked how I was. I replied, saying I was fine, he almost looked like he was going to walk away, but, then he asked if I really was ok. I saw real concern in his eyes, I panicked though and so i said, "yea, I'm fine."
The laughter steadily got louder, but, I was still फ्रेंड्स with Amber and Lily, but for how long? Then Amber said, "you look depressed." I don't think she expected a response, "haven't आप heard the rumours? I get laughed at every day, what do आप expect? I have hardly any फ्रेंड्स and noone cares!" I started crying and headed to the bathroom, to cut myself some more. Then I decided to commit suicide, I cut myself fairly deep, unlocked my cubicle door and leaned against the wall.
Mr Mofti
20 मिनटों had passed since I'd last walked past Quinn and I couldn't see her. I asked Amber where she had gone, she कहा Quinn had been in the bathroom for the past 20 mintues. I asked her to go in there and see if there was anyone in there, she screamed, and I ran in, I saw Quinn lying in a pool of her own blood. Scooping her into my arms I came out, taking off my चोटी, शीर्ष I stemmed the cuts on her left arm. Noticing Amber I asked her, first if she had a singlet on underneath, when she कहा yes I asked her to take off her चोटी, शीर्ष and use it to stem the other arm. When that was done, I yelled for help, Greg, Patrick and Rose came running, I asked Rose to call an ambulance, Pat to get a blood transfusion kit and Greg to take over Amber.
When the रोगी वाहन, एम्बुलेंस arrived Rose was पढ़ना the suicide note labeled 'What would happen...' Pat was still transfusing and Greg and I were still stemming. She was दिया some antidepressants, the doctors thought if I hadn't got to at the time I had she might be dead. I week later she woke up.
Quinn
I was at deaths peaceful door when Moft got me, when I woke up, there were wires in me and there were sounds of snoring. I felt the heaviness of bandages, and braced myself for when they woke. The door opened and I saw Veronica enter, "I was still your friend, I still care," she gestured to my 'guards' "they care, we would have listened, I can listen now." So I told her everything that had happened, द्वारा the time I was finished my 'guards' had woken up. Sighing, I prepared for the worst, but all they did was give me a new copy of my 'What would happen..." with जवाब they wrote after each question. The doctor walked in, and I was discharged, we were just leaving when my mum was rushed to recess. I followed her and saw as doctors tried to save her but failed. I screamed and ducked the clutches of Mr Mofti and Mr Haffa, I raced out to the carpark. I didn't even feel the impact of the car, hear the scream of breaks या see Moft and Haff fighting to get to me.
Mr Mofti
We raced out just in time to see the crash, द्वारा the time the car stopped, doctors had reached Quinn, they felt for a pulse, and started CPR, but they shook their heads. Tears poured down my face, and my knees gave out, I lay there in a awkward heap, sobbing, Rose got there and comforted me. She drove us back to school where we called a special assembly after lunch, I prepared a speech and organized the slideshow for Quinns memorial.
At the memorial I stood up and spoke "Quinn was a hard working student, she fought for everyones rights before her own, she was vibriant," and I went on. Describing her, how I thought of her, even when tears were rolling down my face, when I was finished, there was not a dry eye.
Later on I went through her stuff and found stories, all completed, so in her memory I personally went to publishers and told her story. Then I helped her organize a funeral.
The दिन of the funeral was beautiful, we held it at the school, I was first up to speak about her and this is what I said:
"Quinn had a gift, that gift was to make others laugh, but, she had great values as well. She could whip up a great story anytime, but, the greatest thing about her was the size of her heart. She would always stand up for others before herself, she put others needs before her own, all the way to her death. The problem was she never realised that, when all this started, she had been crying. Because you, as a school, didn't respect her, so आप put her down, आप as a school rejected her. A महीना after that, she attempted to take her life, had it not been for me, she would have succeeded, she never liked telling her feelings, so she kept quiet, left her head down."
I didn't need to say anymore, it was in my voice, how much I cared, I read out the suicide note, I walked back to my सीट and sat heavily. I watched her pictures on the data projection, saw her happiness and smiled through the tears. I was the first up to see her, I couldn't help it, I broke down.
Later at my place, I couldn't handle it, after realisng most people from the funeral commited suicide, I did too, Quinn herself greeted me.
On my way over, Mr Mofti saw me, कहा hi and asked how I was. I replied, saying I was fine, he almost looked like he was going to walk away, but, then he asked if I really was ok. I saw real concern in his eyes, I panicked though and so i said, "yea, I'm fine."
The laughter steadily got louder, but, I was still फ्रेंड्स with Amber and Lily, but for how long? Then Amber said, "you look depressed." I don't think she expected a response, "haven't आप heard the rumours? I get laughed at every day, what do आप expect? I have hardly any फ्रेंड्स and noone cares!" I started crying and headed to the bathroom, to cut myself some more. Then I decided to commit suicide, I cut myself fairly deep, unlocked my cubicle door and leaned against the wall.
Mr Mofti
20 मिनटों had passed since I'd last walked past Quinn and I couldn't see her. I asked Amber where she had gone, she कहा Quinn had been in the bathroom for the past 20 mintues. I asked her to go in there and see if there was anyone in there, she screamed, and I ran in, I saw Quinn lying in a pool of her own blood. Scooping her into my arms I came out, taking off my चोटी, शीर्ष I stemmed the cuts on her left arm. Noticing Amber I asked her, first if she had a singlet on underneath, when she कहा yes I asked her to take off her चोटी, शीर्ष and use it to stem the other arm. When that was done, I yelled for help, Greg, Patrick and Rose came running, I asked Rose to call an ambulance, Pat to get a blood transfusion kit and Greg to take over Amber.
When the रोगी वाहन, एम्बुलेंस arrived Rose was पढ़ना the suicide note labeled 'What would happen...' Pat was still transfusing and Greg and I were still stemming. She was दिया some antidepressants, the doctors thought if I hadn't got to at the time I had she might be dead. I week later she woke up.
Quinn
I was at deaths peaceful door when Moft got me, when I woke up, there were wires in me and there were sounds of snoring. I felt the heaviness of bandages, and braced myself for when they woke. The door opened and I saw Veronica enter, "I was still your friend, I still care," she gestured to my 'guards' "they care, we would have listened, I can listen now." So I told her everything that had happened, द्वारा the time I was finished my 'guards' had woken up. Sighing, I prepared for the worst, but all they did was give me a new copy of my 'What would happen..." with जवाब they wrote after each question. The doctor walked in, and I was discharged, we were just leaving when my mum was rushed to recess. I followed her and saw as doctors tried to save her but failed. I screamed and ducked the clutches of Mr Mofti and Mr Haffa, I raced out to the carpark. I didn't even feel the impact of the car, hear the scream of breaks या see Moft and Haff fighting to get to me.
Mr Mofti
We raced out just in time to see the crash, द्वारा the time the car stopped, doctors had reached Quinn, they felt for a pulse, and started CPR, but they shook their heads. Tears poured down my face, and my knees gave out, I lay there in a awkward heap, sobbing, Rose got there and comforted me. She drove us back to school where we called a special assembly after lunch, I prepared a speech and organized the slideshow for Quinns memorial.
At the memorial I stood up and spoke "Quinn was a hard working student, she fought for everyones rights before her own, she was vibriant," and I went on. Describing her, how I thought of her, even when tears were rolling down my face, when I was finished, there was not a dry eye.
Later on I went through her stuff and found stories, all completed, so in her memory I personally went to publishers and told her story. Then I helped her organize a funeral.
The दिन of the funeral was beautiful, we held it at the school, I was first up to speak about her and this is what I said:
"Quinn had a gift, that gift was to make others laugh, but, she had great values as well. She could whip up a great story anytime, but, the greatest thing about her was the size of her heart. She would always stand up for others before herself, she put others needs before her own, all the way to her death. The problem was she never realised that, when all this started, she had been crying. Because you, as a school, didn't respect her, so आप put her down, आप as a school rejected her. A महीना after that, she attempted to take her life, had it not been for me, she would have succeeded, she never liked telling her feelings, so she kept quiet, left her head down."
I didn't need to say anymore, it was in my voice, how much I cared, I read out the suicide note, I walked back to my सीट and sat heavily. I watched her pictures on the data projection, saw her happiness and smiled through the tears. I was the first up to see her, I couldn't help it, I broke down.
Later at my place, I couldn't handle it, after realisng most people from the funeral commited suicide, I did too, Quinn herself greeted me.
Feel like falling,
but sure to stand fast.
Feel like letting go,
but afraid of the rash,
Feel like giving up,
but afraid to sleep,
Want to jump,
but afraid to of falling off way to deep.
Sometimes life takes me in weird directions,
but knowing me, its all imperfections.
Sometimes emotions बादल every single thought,
and knowing my actions, I’m here to rot.
Forever will my mistakes continue to haunt me,
standing here, I now see.
What if things could be different अगला time?
Would it then, take a lifetime?
but sure to stand fast.
Feel like letting go,
but afraid of the rash,
Feel like giving up,
but afraid to sleep,
Want to jump,
but afraid to of falling off way to deep.
Sometimes life takes me in weird directions,
but knowing me, its all imperfections.
Sometimes emotions बादल every single thought,
and knowing my actions, I’m here to rot.
Forever will my mistakes continue to haunt me,
standing here, I now see.
What if things could be different अगला time?
Would it then, take a lifetime?
Izzy POV
It was about 12:01. I was going out to howl at the moon. When i walked outside, i saw a note. Iread it aloud.
Meet me in the woods at midnight.
love,
Your secret admirer
me:Wow,i have a secret admirer. maybe its owen. No wait, cody! no no, JUSTIN!!! या trent. What about Geoff?
I wondered all the way there. then, i tripped on a leg.
me:AHHH!
duncan: हे there babe.
izzy: what? oh, hi duncan. now, whos the secre admirer?
duncan: your looking at him.
me*laughs*okay, okay. आप got me. now, who is it?
duncan:me.
me:oh, really?duncan: uhu!
3rd person
izzy: oh, okay then are आप sure?
duncan; yes babe.
izzy: okay then
duncan: so,
izzy: आप wanna make out.
duncan:okay
*2 hours later*
*2 और hours alter*
izzy: okay well that was fun
duncan: yeah, uh, so, see आप later.
izzy:okay
duncan: yeah.cool. okay then, bye!
izzy: bye.
*15 min later*
both: I प्यार U! *start making out*
It was about 12:01. I was going out to howl at the moon. When i walked outside, i saw a note. Iread it aloud.
Meet me in the woods at midnight.
love,
Your secret admirer
me:Wow,i have a secret admirer. maybe its owen. No wait, cody! no no, JUSTIN!!! या trent. What about Geoff?
I wondered all the way there. then, i tripped on a leg.
me:AHHH!
duncan: हे there babe.
izzy: what? oh, hi duncan. now, whos the secre admirer?
duncan: your looking at him.
me*laughs*okay, okay. आप got me. now, who is it?
duncan:me.
me:oh, really?duncan: uhu!
3rd person
izzy: oh, okay then are आप sure?
duncan; yes babe.
izzy: okay then
duncan: so,
izzy: आप wanna make out.
duncan:okay
*2 hours later*
*2 और hours alter*
izzy: okay well that was fun
duncan: yeah, uh, so, see आप later.
izzy:okay
duncan: yeah.cool. okay then, bye!
izzy: bye.
*15 min later*
both: I प्यार U! *start making out*
I remember the times of the i प्यार you's
and times when it was i hate you.
But आप come back begging at me feet.
And when my pity defeated me.
and the sweet seranades, in our matching shades.
My rose collection, evidence of your effection.
The sheets unmade, from the nights आप stayed.
The child in me, from the times आप loved me.
The debt आप owe, from using the word borrow.
The times i was scared, was the time आप spared.
And this dress i wear, in which are people become aware, that आप are gone, and withdrawn.
The memories i hold, they are written in bold.
my broken heart, from when आप apart.
so rest now my love, up now from above.
and times when it was i hate you.
But आप come back begging at me feet.
And when my pity defeated me.
and the sweet seranades, in our matching shades.
My rose collection, evidence of your effection.
The sheets unmade, from the nights आप stayed.
The child in me, from the times आप loved me.
The debt आप owe, from using the word borrow.
The times i was scared, was the time आप spared.
And this dress i wear, in which are people become aware, that आप are gone, and withdrawn.
The memories i hold, they are written in bold.
my broken heart, from when आप apart.
so rest now my love, up now from above.
have आप noticed when आप fall in प्यार it feels like your flying? I have. It the most wonderful feeling in the world. But when do आप feel it? Do आप feel it when आप fall in love, या when आप just are overfilled with joy?
Have आप ever felt it? या have आप felt anything close to it? What does it mean? Does it mean that आप have to fly away from it before your प्यार hurts you? या does it mean that your body enjoys the joy filling your body?
Tell me what आप think...
Have आप ever felt it? या have आप felt anything close to it? What does it mean? Does it mean that आप have to fly away from it before your प्यार hurts you? या does it mean that your body enjoys the joy filling your body?
Tell me what आप think...