Me.
I think I’m okay to talk about it now. It’s such a weird topic in today’s society and will no doubt come off as a bit of a shock to most people, but that’s cuz not too many are educated on it. I think I wanna help change that. I’m hesitant… Not to help try and change the way people see this, but taking on that main role. Not too many individuals “come out” to the internet where they have thousands watching and पढ़ना their stuff everyday, to share something like this.. there being a huge chance people won’t understand. Which they won’t. आप won’t. Unless we share the same experiences… But I’m putting myself out there anyway. I want people to stop harassing and abusing people over this. I want people like myself to know they can be who they are. I used to have a separate YouTube channel dedicated to talking about this back in 2008. I thought it would help me but I really didn’t like talking about it. Still don’t. But I want to now, even though it’s frustrating to try and deal with the close-minded folks who can’t see past someone’s surface. People need to start being और humane, have feelings. And stop worrying, we’re all misunderstood.
I’ve read numerous posts and whatever else people put on the internet, about me and what they THINK they know about my past life and I’d just like to say that 98% of it is inaccurate. I know they know that, but I’d just like to clear that up for you. It’s like one of those messages आप pass along to the person अगला to आप in a circle, and द्वारा the time it gets around to the last person, the message is all screwed up. All they’ve done is gather information they’ve read from बिना सोचे समझे sources. They don’t know me. आप can’t write a biography about someone without talking to them. आप know nothing.
Honestly, the easiest way to put it, regardless of all the terms that are used today… I was born in the wrong body. I was born physically female. But that’s not who I am या who I ever was on the inside. The term clinically used is “transgender” but it’s such a mis-used word and I don’t use it to describe myself cuz I feel put into a category when life already threw me into the wrong one.
Your gender and your sex are two different things. Gender is between your ears (your brain) and sex is between your legs. When you’re being developed, your brain and your body are on the same track. आप develop a body that would match your brain. Usually, your sex matches your gender. Usually, आप are born happy with your दिया sex because it matches your gender. Usually. Okay…picture yourself in the body of the opposite sex. Don’t think about it, picture it. That body doesn’t match up to your brain, does it? If you’re a girl, do आप like the idea of having a deep voice, masculine features, hairy body, etc? If you’re a boy, would आप live your life as a female? Your own set of breasts, high voice, small body, etc?
Your body is here to hold the person आप are inside it. It doesn’t matter what changes on your body, whether it’s your hair colour, length, if आप have a piercing, get a tattoo, whether आप break a bone, lose a limb…. who आप are will always be who आप are. Your body is always changing anyway. How do आप know if you’re a girl या a boy? आप don’t need to look down to figure it out.
It’s not just that आप would feel awkward, it’s the role you’re expected to play, even the name you’re given. I don’t get why people deny transgender as possible, there are lots of things that go wrong when a baby is being developed, what makes आप think something like this can’t happen? It’s another physical birth defect. आप can’t tell someone who they are inside. आप aren’t them. Just like someone can’t tell आप who आप are. This jumps into the whole “you can’t help the way आप are born” so I don’t understand why people think it’s hilarious to point fun at someone who’s unhappy with their body. या in any situation. And in this one… it’s not just the life I’m living but myself to the core. Unhappy. Looking into the mirror and seeing a completely different person. My whole life. How does one express themselves when they don’t even see themselves?
Most of my life I wasn’t living. I could get into details of emotion… but not right now. “Being lead through someone else’s life I was given” almost sounds like a fucking joy ride, so that waters it down way too much, but it felt like all I could do was watch. Make no sound. Just watch. When you’re born all lined up, आप don’t know what it’s like to have to try and convince someone you’re a boy when your body says girl (or convince someone you’re a girl when your body says boy.) Consider yourself lucky. I was afraid to speak up and say “I’m a boy.” I knew how society worked, I knew it sounded foolish to say opposite of what people saw. Like pointing at Green and saying it’s Red. या better yet, pointing at गुलाबी and saying it’s Blue. आप don’t know what it’s like to try and explain to your Mom that आप aren’t her daughter, you’re her son. To have her look आप in the eye and reject आप over and over, fight with आप about the way आप feel. For years, having her basically tell आप that आप aren’t who आप really are. Hearing the words from your Dad that he would never see आप as his son. To have your family against आप when it’s something आप can’t even help. Having a bad relationship with all of them cuz they see आप differently than आप see yourself. It’s like a huge joke life played, except it’s not even close to being funny. If it was up to me, I wouldn’t have chose this. Who would? Who would want to feel like this? People have insecurities as it is, but mine is my entire being… insecure about the person other people in the world would see me as. Granted, I’ve done my best to present myself how I feel, and I don’t mind how I look at the moment…but underneath it all, I’m not comfortable.
But I’m also not afraid to be who I am. Which is why I’m now open about this. It’s really nobody’s business but my own, but it’s my choice to make it public for this reason…. Thousands of people like me commit suicide every साल because of harassment and being completely unhappy with their body.
I was pretty low and unhappy in highschool because of harassment. All I ever did was let the boy I am step out. I mean no harm to anyone, probably one of the nicest people you’ll ever meet. I’m nice to everyone unless आप give me a reason not to be. Not to slap myself with compliments but I won’t be an unnecessary jerk. I like to give and make people laugh. Just take people’s mind off everything and give them something to watch to do so. My craziness. But it’s hard to cope going somewhere that makes आप even और uncomfortable than आप already are in your own skin… I won’t get into absolutely everything I dealt with, but I was harassed to the point I couldn’t stand going to school, left and found alternatives elsewhere. I’m sure if I didn’t, I wouldn’t be here today… I couldn’t deal with everyone else’s bullshit and how they thought I should live my life on चोटी, शीर्ष of having no family support at home, on चोटी, शीर्ष of not being comfortable in my body…where am I supposed to feel safe?
YouTube has truly helped me feel like I can be myself and be accepted. Be crazy and not have to worry what people think because they don’t know my “history” या past to alter what they thought. This might change a little now that people will get a dip into where I come from, what I’ve gone through and what has made me the guy I am today. But hopefully this will also maybe shine a light into someone’s life and let आप know you’re not alone, that there are options and ways to help आप live your life fully and be who आप are, regardless of what life presented आप at birth. I encourage everyone to be who they are and I wanna help give people the strength to do that. Maybe this will दिखाना you, truly how much I don’t care what other people think of me, not even my parents, and that I’ll continue to be me. Always. Maybe if I can do it, आप can.
I have better family support now. I feel loved and accepted द्वारा each of them. Only recently 2010 did I start feeling this way though. There have been tons of events off-camera that nobody on YouTube knows about. As much as आप saw me laughing and having a great time in my videos, the complete opposite would happen that आप wouldn’t see. I did my best to hide the tough crap I didn’t feel like letting go on the internet. Not to say shit doesn’t happen time and time again now, but it’s hard to let the rest of the world know what I go through when I don’t like to think about it. I don’t know how पढ़ना this affected you, but take note that this is MY life. This is what I’ve gone through and go through… but I’m gonna see that my प्रशंसकों and supporters are just as supportive now as before. I haven’t betrayed anyone द्वारा keeping this to myself before this, just like anyone wouldn’t tell the world something personal, but I’m letting आप a lot closer than आप were before as viewers. Because now you’ve read and know something deep. Something different. Maybe something you’ve never heard of before. But it’s there whether anyone likes it या not. Whether I like it या not…
The अगला time आप think the way someone else has to live their life is amusing, put yourself in their shoes. Listen to their experiences, hear what they have to say about what they go through because everyone has struggles and some, as आप just read, are out-of-this-world different. Situations like the one I’m in bring so many people to suicide and I want to help stop that द्वारा reducing the amount of hate we get over it. When people don’t understand something, they either make fun of it या get mad at it. Hopefully I can make a stand and help both sides. There’s still everything I didn’t say in this post that आप don’t know about, but maybe I’ll share it with आप at a later date. I’d like to think this first revealing shows some courage and bravery.
for those of आप who better get your facts straight, my LEGAL name is Jeydon Whale. I was raised a girl, but born to be a boy. And that I am. A boy.
peace fam.
I think I’m okay to talk about it now. It’s such a weird topic in today’s society and will no doubt come off as a bit of a shock to most people, but that’s cuz not too many are educated on it. I think I wanna help change that. I’m hesitant… Not to help try and change the way people see this, but taking on that main role. Not too many individuals “come out” to the internet where they have thousands watching and पढ़ना their stuff everyday, to share something like this.. there being a huge chance people won’t understand. Which they won’t. आप won’t. Unless we share the same experiences… But I’m putting myself out there anyway. I want people to stop harassing and abusing people over this. I want people like myself to know they can be who they are. I used to have a separate YouTube channel dedicated to talking about this back in 2008. I thought it would help me but I really didn’t like talking about it. Still don’t. But I want to now, even though it’s frustrating to try and deal with the close-minded folks who can’t see past someone’s surface. People need to start being और humane, have feelings. And stop worrying, we’re all misunderstood.
I’ve read numerous posts and whatever else people put on the internet, about me and what they THINK they know about my past life and I’d just like to say that 98% of it is inaccurate. I know they know that, but I’d just like to clear that up for you. It’s like one of those messages आप pass along to the person अगला to आप in a circle, and द्वारा the time it gets around to the last person, the message is all screwed up. All they’ve done is gather information they’ve read from बिना सोचे समझे sources. They don’t know me. आप can’t write a biography about someone without talking to them. आप know nothing.
Honestly, the easiest way to put it, regardless of all the terms that are used today… I was born in the wrong body. I was born physically female. But that’s not who I am या who I ever was on the inside. The term clinically used is “transgender” but it’s such a mis-used word and I don’t use it to describe myself cuz I feel put into a category when life already threw me into the wrong one.
Your gender and your sex are two different things. Gender is between your ears (your brain) and sex is between your legs. When you’re being developed, your brain and your body are on the same track. आप develop a body that would match your brain. Usually, your sex matches your gender. Usually, आप are born happy with your दिया sex because it matches your gender. Usually. Okay…picture yourself in the body of the opposite sex. Don’t think about it, picture it. That body doesn’t match up to your brain, does it? If you’re a girl, do आप like the idea of having a deep voice, masculine features, hairy body, etc? If you’re a boy, would आप live your life as a female? Your own set of breasts, high voice, small body, etc?
Your body is here to hold the person आप are inside it. It doesn’t matter what changes on your body, whether it’s your hair colour, length, if आप have a piercing, get a tattoo, whether आप break a bone, lose a limb…. who आप are will always be who आप are. Your body is always changing anyway. How do आप know if you’re a girl या a boy? आप don’t need to look down to figure it out.
It’s not just that आप would feel awkward, it’s the role you’re expected to play, even the name you’re given. I don’t get why people deny transgender as possible, there are lots of things that go wrong when a baby is being developed, what makes आप think something like this can’t happen? It’s another physical birth defect. आप can’t tell someone who they are inside. आप aren’t them. Just like someone can’t tell आप who आप are. This jumps into the whole “you can’t help the way आप are born” so I don’t understand why people think it’s hilarious to point fun at someone who’s unhappy with their body. या in any situation. And in this one… it’s not just the life I’m living but myself to the core. Unhappy. Looking into the mirror and seeing a completely different person. My whole life. How does one express themselves when they don’t even see themselves?
Most of my life I wasn’t living. I could get into details of emotion… but not right now. “Being lead through someone else’s life I was given” almost sounds like a fucking joy ride, so that waters it down way too much, but it felt like all I could do was watch. Make no sound. Just watch. When you’re born all lined up, आप don’t know what it’s like to have to try and convince someone you’re a boy when your body says girl (or convince someone you’re a girl when your body says boy.) Consider yourself lucky. I was afraid to speak up and say “I’m a boy.” I knew how society worked, I knew it sounded foolish to say opposite of what people saw. Like pointing at Green and saying it’s Red. या better yet, pointing at गुलाबी and saying it’s Blue. आप don’t know what it’s like to try and explain to your Mom that आप aren’t her daughter, you’re her son. To have her look आप in the eye and reject आप over and over, fight with आप about the way आप feel. For years, having her basically tell आप that आप aren’t who आप really are. Hearing the words from your Dad that he would never see आप as his son. To have your family against आप when it’s something आप can’t even help. Having a bad relationship with all of them cuz they see आप differently than आप see yourself. It’s like a huge joke life played, except it’s not even close to being funny. If it was up to me, I wouldn’t have chose this. Who would? Who would want to feel like this? People have insecurities as it is, but mine is my entire being… insecure about the person other people in the world would see me as. Granted, I’ve done my best to present myself how I feel, and I don’t mind how I look at the moment…but underneath it all, I’m not comfortable.
But I’m also not afraid to be who I am. Which is why I’m now open about this. It’s really nobody’s business but my own, but it’s my choice to make it public for this reason…. Thousands of people like me commit suicide every साल because of harassment and being completely unhappy with their body.
I was pretty low and unhappy in highschool because of harassment. All I ever did was let the boy I am step out. I mean no harm to anyone, probably one of the nicest people you’ll ever meet. I’m nice to everyone unless आप give me a reason not to be. Not to slap myself with compliments but I won’t be an unnecessary jerk. I like to give and make people laugh. Just take people’s mind off everything and give them something to watch to do so. My craziness. But it’s hard to cope going somewhere that makes आप even और uncomfortable than आप already are in your own skin… I won’t get into absolutely everything I dealt with, but I was harassed to the point I couldn’t stand going to school, left and found alternatives elsewhere. I’m sure if I didn’t, I wouldn’t be here today… I couldn’t deal with everyone else’s bullshit and how they thought I should live my life on चोटी, शीर्ष of having no family support at home, on चोटी, शीर्ष of not being comfortable in my body…where am I supposed to feel safe?
YouTube has truly helped me feel like I can be myself and be accepted. Be crazy and not have to worry what people think because they don’t know my “history” या past to alter what they thought. This might change a little now that people will get a dip into where I come from, what I’ve gone through and what has made me the guy I am today. But hopefully this will also maybe shine a light into someone’s life and let आप know you’re not alone, that there are options and ways to help आप live your life fully and be who आप are, regardless of what life presented आप at birth. I encourage everyone to be who they are and I wanna help give people the strength to do that. Maybe this will दिखाना you, truly how much I don’t care what other people think of me, not even my parents, and that I’ll continue to be me. Always. Maybe if I can do it, आप can.
I have better family support now. I feel loved and accepted द्वारा each of them. Only recently 2010 did I start feeling this way though. There have been tons of events off-camera that nobody on YouTube knows about. As much as आप saw me laughing and having a great time in my videos, the complete opposite would happen that आप wouldn’t see. I did my best to hide the tough crap I didn’t feel like letting go on the internet. Not to say shit doesn’t happen time and time again now, but it’s hard to let the rest of the world know what I go through when I don’t like to think about it. I don’t know how पढ़ना this affected you, but take note that this is MY life. This is what I’ve gone through and go through… but I’m gonna see that my प्रशंसकों and supporters are just as supportive now as before. I haven’t betrayed anyone द्वारा keeping this to myself before this, just like anyone wouldn’t tell the world something personal, but I’m letting आप a lot closer than आप were before as viewers. Because now you’ve read and know something deep. Something different. Maybe something you’ve never heard of before. But it’s there whether anyone likes it या not. Whether I like it या not…
The अगला time आप think the way someone else has to live their life is amusing, put yourself in their shoes. Listen to their experiences, hear what they have to say about what they go through because everyone has struggles and some, as आप just read, are out-of-this-world different. Situations like the one I’m in bring so many people to suicide and I want to help stop that द्वारा reducing the amount of hate we get over it. When people don’t understand something, they either make fun of it या get mad at it. Hopefully I can make a stand and help both sides. There’s still everything I didn’t say in this post that आप don’t know about, but maybe I’ll share it with आप at a later date. I’d like to think this first revealing shows some courage and bravery.
for those of आप who better get your facts straight, my LEGAL name is Jeydon Whale. I was raised a girl, but born to be a boy. And that I am. A boy.
peace fam.
i have forgotten the शीर्षक but i guess it doesnt MATTER
i will put something in myself soon.....sooonnn
i dont own this
What. Would. Life. Be. Like.Without. Pain? Sorrow? Troubles? Hatred? Loneliness? Tears?
I see it.
I see it everyday.
Teens just like आप and me.
Hurting from Lose of a loved one. Broken up families. Abandonment. Broken Heart.
आप ask them how they are doing.
They answer.
Fine.
But deep down they're just dying for a someone to just reach out to them and understand them.
They ask us for help.
But what do they need help with?
They कहा they were.
Fine.
Then suddenly we begin feeling this same sickness.
And Hurt.
It's almost as if this madness.
This disease.....
Is contagious.
द्वारा helenbieber...<3
i will put something in myself soon.....sooonnn
i dont own this
What. Would. Life. Be. Like.Without. Pain? Sorrow? Troubles? Hatred? Loneliness? Tears?
I see it.
I see it everyday.
Teens just like आप and me.
Hurting from Lose of a loved one. Broken up families. Abandonment. Broken Heart.
आप ask them how they are doing.
They answer.
Fine.
But deep down they're just dying for a someone to just reach out to them and understand them.
They ask us for help.
But what do they need help with?
They कहा they were.
Fine.
Then suddenly we begin feeling this same sickness.
And Hurt.
It's almost as if this madness.
This disease.....
Is contagious.
द्वारा helenbieber...<3
I don't own any poems sorry
I'm just putting these up I think आप guys would like to see...
~Shadow Drown~
Hidden among the corners
Without a sound, without a light
The shadow bleeds conniving
Extended evils of the night
***
Yowls from the city alleys
Send chills up arms, down spines
Resonation far and wide
Polluting the bark of Pines
***
Ink tears bleeding, ink tears spilling
Filling the streets, flooding our lives
The shadows watch in quiet shill
As nobody survives
***
द्वारा helenbieber
this is not mine
I don't own this
But helenbieber opens this so now I'm going to keep adding her poem onto my club for now on...
Breathe me a आग ,a आग of lies interwine me I know आप despis Surround me in heat ,surround me with fear I won't budge , I'm not moving from here No matter how much आप scream I won't leave ,because I have felt , I have seen I know how आप are feeling, the sickness within How lonely आप feel, in the cold full sin If आप continue to ignore your own innocence Your दिल will start to build it's fence Slowly, blocking out the world & the truth forever Don't push me away I havent left yet..
द्वारा helenbieber
Your welcome
:)
I don't own this
But helenbieber opens this so now I'm going to keep adding her poem onto my club for now on...
Breathe me a आग ,a आग of lies interwine me I know आप despis Surround me in heat ,surround me with fear I won't budge , I'm not moving from here No matter how much आप scream I won't leave ,because I have felt , I have seen I know how आप are feeling, the sickness within How lonely आप feel, in the cold full sin If आप continue to ignore your own innocence Your दिल will start to build it's fence Slowly, blocking out the world & the truth forever Don't push me away I havent left yet..
द्वारा helenbieber
Your welcome
:)