Author's Note: This is the first fanfiction I'vewritten in quite a while, just coming to me on a whim of wanting to create a more... alive Bella. It's pretty AU, no Renesmee, and whatever. I haven't gone over it yet but I was eager to get it up so I hope आप like it! I don't know if I'll carry on with it so, if आप do like it, be kind and leave a review! As usual, characters are intellectual property of Stephanie Meyer, they're just my toys :)
Rain was streaming down the रसोई, रसोईघर windows where I stood, hot mug of coffee in hand, watching the world go by. Well, actually, that's a lie. How could I watch it goby, if it wasn't going by? Forks was exactly the same shade of grey it always was, strewn with large and dense patches of dull green forest. I would be lying if I कहा I didn't like the forests now. Who knew theseseemingly normal, honest trees hid so manysecrets? I snorted and swigged my coffee, shifting slightly in my position. If it weren'tfor the secrets, I would have been miserable. Just living the same kind of life as everyone else, the pleasant but oh-so-mundane people, content with their mere existence, swallowed द्वारा routine and order. Like my dad. If there's one thing I've learned from living in Forks, it's that I प्यार my dad. I may not have always appreciated him, but I do now. Especially since family can be so fleeting… I sniffed, shrugged, and wiped my eyes on the long sleeve of my shirt, plonking my mug on the counter with a sigh. I didn't likethese thoughts. Soon, I'd have to give up my little family in order to- I was halfway through my thought when there was a short, gentle rap at the door. Edward, my… fiancee had arrived. The ring on my finger sparkled in a way that would have been pretty if it wasn't so ominous. Edward rapped on the door again, and I heard a quiet huff. Patience was not his strong point when it came to me. I used to find it adorable, but now- "Bella?" Damn it. Can't a girl finishing thinking? I sighed again. Then I took to meandering through the hallway, saunter, if आप will. I have a gentleman caller, and a lady is alwaysfashionably late. I giggled. It was fun to toy with him sometimes, my serious sweetheart. "Bella?" But other times, he was just down right rude. I finally flung open the door to find him with his head cocked, mouth open like he was just about to call my name again. A blast of his sickly sweet scent washed over me, and I - sadly - breathed it in. One of my favourite smells in the world. He took me inhis arms without saying a word, and I was buried into his chest. It was comforting, and I lead my head there, closing my eyes totake the moment in. This is what I loved, just being with him, like we'd done so many times before. Most of my days now were spent knee deep in wedding catalogues. "Love, I've been standing here forever. Whattook आप so long?" He inquired, चुंबन the चोटी, शीर्ष of my head. I shrugged him off. "It just feels like forever because you're so damn impatient." I smiled, half-teasing, half-wishing I could tell him that it really did piss me off sometimes. "I've waited long enough for you." He smiled back, his voice smooth, tinged with a hint of sadness that sent me headfirst into a guilt trip. Crap."Is Charlie home?" He asked and just like that, my guilt evaporated. Even the mere mention of my dad was getting to be painful these days. A lump rose in my throat, knowing that after the wedding, I would never see him again. With a strangled sob I managed to choke it back down, resulting in a small cough. "No," I replied hoarsely, "come on in." "Well, actually, I'd like आप to come out. Alice-" "Oh god, और wedding plans!" I said, retreating back into the safety of my house. He chuckled, still not seeing just how serious I was. Don't get me wrong, I प्यार Edward but… maybe it's just cold feet. Pre-wedding jitters या something. या maybeit was the way he treated me, passing off my reluctance as a joke. Sometimes, I was so glad he couldn't read my mind. "Come onnow, sweetheart. आप know what Alice is like. Won't stop until you're Mrs. Isabella Marie Swan-Cullen…" Oh my god. My marital name. I flinched, almost falling backwards onto the stairs. For a quick moment, I was glad I didn't because I wouldn't sure my asswould have ever recovered from the wooden slats but… oh my god, my marital name. The whole idea of marriage just gave me shivers. I was just out of high school for the first time, for Christ's sake. Give me some room to adjust! I carefully edged my way into the living room, flopping down wearily onto Charlie's battered old sofa. Edward followed, shutting the front door behind him to rest his head on the doorframe of the living room. "And neither will I." He smiled softly, speaking lovingly, making me feel guilty again. He had a good talent for that. Another little sigh escaped my throat and I ran my fingers through my hair. It's not like I didn't want to marry Edward, because I did, just… not like this. Not this soon, not this elaborately. He came in and sat अगला to me. "I know आप don't like helping with the wedding plans, love," hallelujah, thank the lord, he noticed!" but this is… possibly the सेकंड biggest दिन of our lives and I'd like it to be just a little bit special, don't you?" Not really. It's not that I haven't tried, but when I picture the wedding, it never looks the same twice."Alice is really excited, आप know," He continued, and I sensed that my silence made him feel nervous. I wanted to comforthim but found myself rooted to my seat, clinging onto a cushion for dear life. "She says that today is essential to wedding prep." I couldn't take it anymore. "Edward, I प्यार you, and I प्यार Alice. But I can't deal with this today," I said, my words coming out in one big rush, and it felt really fucking good just to put my foot down for once. "I'm gonna go and uh, hang out with Jake for a little while." Uh-oh. I didn't know I was gonna say that until the words had already left my mouth, and thought it was a good idea for me, Edward didn't take it so well. We sat in silence on separate ends of the sofa for several minutes, the clock tick-tocking away deafeningly loud as I watched his face tense, and re-tense up. He clenched his hands into fists and laid them on his lap, his foot tapping away on the laminate flooring angrily. An eternity seemed to pass when suddenly, he relaxed."Yes, आप may go." "I may? I may? Edward, I wasn't asking your permission." I replied through gritted teeth, hauling myself up into a respectable sitting position. "Well I think it's only fair I get a say in where आप go since, hey, you're still a human
Rain was streaming down the रसोई, रसोईघर windows where I stood, hot mug of coffee in hand, watching the world go by. Well, actually, that's a lie. How could I watch it goby, if it wasn't going by? Forks was exactly the same shade of grey it always was, strewn with large and dense patches of dull green forest. I would be lying if I कहा I didn't like the forests now. Who knew theseseemingly normal, honest trees hid so manysecrets? I snorted and swigged my coffee, shifting slightly in my position. If it weren'tfor the secrets, I would have been miserable. Just living the same kind of life as everyone else, the pleasant but oh-so-mundane people, content with their mere existence, swallowed द्वारा routine and order. Like my dad. If there's one thing I've learned from living in Forks, it's that I प्यार my dad. I may not have always appreciated him, but I do now. Especially since family can be so fleeting… I sniffed, shrugged, and wiped my eyes on the long sleeve of my shirt, plonking my mug on the counter with a sigh. I didn't likethese thoughts. Soon, I'd have to give up my little family in order to- I was halfway through my thought when there was a short, gentle rap at the door. Edward, my… fiancee had arrived. The ring on my finger sparkled in a way that would have been pretty if it wasn't so ominous. Edward rapped on the door again, and I heard a quiet huff. Patience was not his strong point when it came to me. I used to find it adorable, but now- "Bella?" Damn it. Can't a girl finishing thinking? I sighed again. Then I took to meandering through the hallway, saunter, if आप will. I have a gentleman caller, and a lady is alwaysfashionably late. I giggled. It was fun to toy with him sometimes, my serious sweetheart. "Bella?" But other times, he was just down right rude. I finally flung open the door to find him with his head cocked, mouth open like he was just about to call my name again. A blast of his sickly sweet scent washed over me, and I - sadly - breathed it in. One of my favourite smells in the world. He took me inhis arms without saying a word, and I was buried into his chest. It was comforting, and I lead my head there, closing my eyes totake the moment in. This is what I loved, just being with him, like we'd done so many times before. Most of my days now were spent knee deep in wedding catalogues. "Love, I've been standing here forever. Whattook आप so long?" He inquired, चुंबन the चोटी, शीर्ष of my head. I shrugged him off. "It just feels like forever because you're so damn impatient." I smiled, half-teasing, half-wishing I could tell him that it really did piss me off sometimes. "I've waited long enough for you." He smiled back, his voice smooth, tinged with a hint of sadness that sent me headfirst into a guilt trip. Crap."Is Charlie home?" He asked and just like that, my guilt evaporated. Even the mere mention of my dad was getting to be painful these days. A lump rose in my throat, knowing that after the wedding, I would never see him again. With a strangled sob I managed to choke it back down, resulting in a small cough. "No," I replied hoarsely, "come on in." "Well, actually, I'd like आप to come out. Alice-" "Oh god, और wedding plans!" I said, retreating back into the safety of my house. He chuckled, still not seeing just how serious I was. Don't get me wrong, I प्यार Edward but… maybe it's just cold feet. Pre-wedding jitters या something. या maybeit was the way he treated me, passing off my reluctance as a joke. Sometimes, I was so glad he couldn't read my mind. "Come onnow, sweetheart. आप know what Alice is like. Won't stop until you're Mrs. Isabella Marie Swan-Cullen…" Oh my god. My marital name. I flinched, almost falling backwards onto the stairs. For a quick moment, I was glad I didn't because I wouldn't sure my asswould have ever recovered from the wooden slats but… oh my god, my marital name. The whole idea of marriage just gave me shivers. I was just out of high school for the first time, for Christ's sake. Give me some room to adjust! I carefully edged my way into the living room, flopping down wearily onto Charlie's battered old sofa. Edward followed, shutting the front door behind him to rest his head on the doorframe of the living room. "And neither will I." He smiled softly, speaking lovingly, making me feel guilty again. He had a good talent for that. Another little sigh escaped my throat and I ran my fingers through my hair. It's not like I didn't want to marry Edward, because I did, just… not like this. Not this soon, not this elaborately. He came in and sat अगला to me. "I know आप don't like helping with the wedding plans, love," hallelujah, thank the lord, he noticed!" but this is… possibly the सेकंड biggest दिन of our lives and I'd like it to be just a little bit special, don't you?" Not really. It's not that I haven't tried, but when I picture the wedding, it never looks the same twice."Alice is really excited, आप know," He continued, and I sensed that my silence made him feel nervous. I wanted to comforthim but found myself rooted to my seat, clinging onto a cushion for dear life. "She says that today is essential to wedding prep." I couldn't take it anymore. "Edward, I प्यार you, and I प्यार Alice. But I can't deal with this today," I said, my words coming out in one big rush, and it felt really fucking good just to put my foot down for once. "I'm gonna go and uh, hang out with Jake for a little while." Uh-oh. I didn't know I was gonna say that until the words had already left my mouth, and thought it was a good idea for me, Edward didn't take it so well. We sat in silence on separate ends of the sofa for several minutes, the clock tick-tocking away deafeningly loud as I watched his face tense, and re-tense up. He clenched his hands into fists and laid them on his lap, his foot tapping away on the laminate flooring angrily. An eternity seemed to pass when suddenly, he relaxed."Yes, आप may go." "I may? I may? Edward, I wasn't asking your permission." I replied through gritted teeth, hauling myself up into a respectable sitting position. "Well I think it's only fair I get a say in where आप go since, hey, you're still a human
