"Bella, where are you? आप have a दिखाना in 20 mins, are आप looking good?"
Phil कहा throught the fuzz of my "New phone" in which i again did not choose. It funny all the stuff that is labeled mine, was not selected द्वारा me. hmph.
Thinking back to the house, the walls, the name, my name, On the walls, edward. My nightmare that proved real, and my dream all in one moment still rang in mind.
I knocked loadly on the taxi glass.
"Can आप hurry up please!" i कहा franicly.
"Hey are you? Are आप Bella, like Bella swan?"
Sigh. Yes. Unfortunatly.
"Yes."
"OMG! no way! my dautgher loved you! her name is alice! will आप please sign this picture of her, its in my wallet?" he कहा reaching into his backside.
i slide across the door, and began searching for my marker. Phil had always made me carry one around.
He passed me a frayed picture will soft edges, its shown a beautifull like girl. she was a little baby. with small blonde ringlet She was a Alice, like my alice. Her face was sweet, like an apple. She was soft and rosie, she smiled a toothless grin, as though it was just a captured moment. She was someone's baby. His words resversed in my head once more. "She loved you." My दिल felt heavy and my eyes felt in solemen.
"I'm so sorry, Alice IS soo beautiful.' I inhaled, holding back my tears, for the loss of this girl, and for my friend. Who else is लॉस्ट to me. लॉस्ट forever. Only alive in my heart, a दिल that only beats द्वारा force, not will, and is torn , riddled with disease.
"We dont know. i just remember waking up to feed the कुत्ता and. and. there she was lying in the tall grass, like she was a victim, hairr on her face.." He stopped, to upset to continue.
"She was 5" he finished.
i signed. "Alice, i प्यार you. Bella."
and handed it back. a tear running .
He stopped the car. which surprised me.
"Where here ma'am" he voice gone and broken.
"Thank you." in a instant flashing light invaded my eyes. Ohh crap the papz.

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"Hey everyone, sorry for being late, i got caught up. so how is everyone tonight? Good i hope. Really to hear some संगीत im wishing."
the crowd roared loader then ever. They all screamed, whistled, yelled and sung.

Ok, so i have this one song, i haven't sung yet, but some of the lyrics are inside jokes. Soo. but i dont doubt आप will like it.

Maybe I need some rehab,
या maybe just need some sleep
I've got a sick obsession,
I'm seeing it in my dreams

I'm looking down every alley,
I'm making those desperate calls
Im staying up all night hoping,
Hit my head against the walls

What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my दिल is fried
I just cant get आप off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your प्यार your प्यार your प्यार
I कहा your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your प्यार your प्यार your प्यार

Won't listen to any advice, mamma's telling me to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!

b]My फ्रेंड्स think I've gone crazy,[/b] my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a प्यार sick crackhead


What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my दिल is fried
I just cant get आप off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your प्यार your प्यार your प्यार
I कहा your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your प्यार your प्यार your प्यार

I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave आप when आप are away

So I got a question;
Do आप want to have a summer party in my basement?
Do I make your दिल beat like an 808 drum?
Is my love, your drug?
(huh) Your drug? (huh) your drug? (huh) your drug?
Is my love, your drug? (am i your herion.)

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your प्यार your प्यार your प्यार
I कहा your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your प्यार your प्यार your प्यार (x2)

Heyyy heyyy your love, your love,your love,your love, (whispered) is my drug
I like your beard



all my दिल when into this song, as though He was somehow listening, and remembering when he once told me that i was his herion.
But i had another i wanted to hit him with.

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an सेब hanging from a पेड़
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

आप कहा हटाइए on, where do I go?
I guess सेकंड best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of आप
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what आप would do
If आप were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard कैन्डी with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
आप कहा there's tons of मछली in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of आप
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what आप would do
If आप were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let आप go
Now, now the lesson's learned
I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think आप should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of आप
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what आप would do
If आप were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't आप walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no और mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay


this time there was no applause, just silence. They finally knew. that all my song fit together. I was in love. that i had a love. and was gone forever. That i waiting for him to hear them. As thought they were waiting for Edward too. His name hurt.
i hit the stage the mic falling before me. Still continueing my sobs, for all th fear.
Was i the one that they use to advise the consquence?
Like teen mothers will unprotected sex, was i the girl on the poster for giving your दिल away for love?
A soft sound tuned behind me, a beautiful tune that flowed like a river. it was familar.
My lullaby.