I am horribly addicted to लेखन this, it's so much fun and interesting to write. I hope आप guys enjoy this chapter:
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Quick refresher:

I need to go now, the lights are coming back on. I will try hiding my book better this time so that no one will find it and take it away. I need this, this is my only lifeline right now."

The last paragraph was slightly smudged, I ran my finger over the spot when I realized what would have made the ink run. I sat there staring at the tear marks realizing that my दिल was breaking twice. Once when I wrote it, and now as I was learning about the way that my own father felt about me.

I closed the book putting it on Jazz's desk, and turned my head so that it was in his shoulder.

"Alice I think आप need to stop for a while, आप were shaking while आप were पढ़ना the end. I know it is hurting you, yet freeing to find out the past, but I think we should stop for a while." He कहा as he wrapped his arms tighter around me and kissed my neck.

I knew he was right, so I slowly removed myself from him and stood up. I walked over to his book shelves, placing the small, battered journal on the shelf.

I stood there for a मिनट touching the spine of it, then I turned grabbing Jasper's hand. We headed out of the room, down the stairs and to the living room where the whole family sat wondering what was going on.

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Jasper and I slowed down so we were walking as we got to the चोटी, शीर्ष of the stairs. Obviously we knew that everyone was downstairs, and that everyone knew that I had gotten the journal. They all knew that I would talk if/when I was ready and Esme made it VERY clear to the rest of the family that I was not to be bothered about all of this.

I stopped at the चोटी, शीर्ष of the stairs looking into the future to see how people would react, या see what else would be happening soon.

Jasper took my hands and held me upright like usual. I think this was all सेकंड nature for him to be my "rock" the one thing that kept me grounded on this planet.

I stood there looking, I saw that Edward was planning on having a big party for Bella for her birthday, that school would start again and we would all be bored as always, and all of them would be understanding to a point but would get upset with my father for how he treated me. I shook my head clearing the visions and focused on Jasper's face right in front of me.

He took my face in his hands and kissed my forehead and stared into my eyes before looking down the stairs and back to my face again.

"Are आप sure that आप want to talk about this now?" He asked in a concerned tone.

Just at that moment Edward decided that he had waited long enough. I was about to answer Jasper when Edward asked in our "secret" (the best way to describe it would be telepathically) way.

"Are आप going to come downstairs, या are आप and Jasper just going to stand at the landing staring at each other all day?" He thought mockingly.

"Alright Jasper we better get down there, the troops are getting restless." I giggled as we made our way down to the living room.

We rounded the corner to find the entire family waiting for us. Rosalie and Emmett were sitting on the प्यार seat, Edward was in one of the overstuffed chairs, and Carlisle and Esme were lounging on the सोफ़ा, सोफे until we walked into the room. As soon as they saw us Carlisle and Esme walked over.

"Oh Alice, how are आप love? Can I do anything for you?" Esme asked as she hugged me tightly.

She was the only mother figure I ever knew, she was so sincere and loving that I couldn't imagine anyone being a better mother, and that hurt me a little. I had just learned और about my family then I had ever dreamed, but knew that Esme would always be my "mother" in every way.

As soon as Esme had released me Carlisle came over and wrapped his arms around my shoulders.

"Can we help in anyway? Would आप like to talk? Do आप want to go out?" He asked all the सवालों in a matter of seconds.

I smiled as I looked at Carlisle, knowing that no matter what any of us "kids" did he would still प्यार all of us for who we were and wouldn't judge us as "freaks" या "weird." I think this is what brought our family so close together. Yes we all had our differences and our personalities clashed but if anything ever happened we would always have each others backs and loved each other.

I looked around the room smiling at Rosalie and Emmett, and stuck my tongue out at Edward as he began to think something stupid trying to distract me.

"I'm ok guys, it's been a lot to process. I mean I didn't remember anything about anyone and had accepted that as a fact. Now, with this one small book." I shook my head, and looked at Edward because I knew that he had either already knew everything that I had read, या was पढ़ना it all now.

I watched as his face changed, the anger and sadness showing. He clenched his hands into fists around the edge of the chair and without thinking crushed the end of the chair. He didn't seem to notice any of this until Esme walked over and nudged him with her knee. He glared up at her, but quickly began apologizing for wrecking her chair.

He stood up, apologized to Esme again and came to stand अगला to me. He stood there looking down at me like some giant when he smiled.

"I heard that, I am not a giant." He thought as he poked me in the ribs.

"Well आप are when आप stand अगला to me remember. I was thinking can we go out, I need to get away for a while and I think since आप already know everything that आप could help me figure out what this means." I thought.

I looked around the room and noticed that everyone else was shooting looks at each other. This was nothing new, Edward and I talking without words. We both knew that it annoyed everyone else, but found that it was easier for us since we were so close.

Emmett cleared his throat and shot a glare at Edward. "Something आप would like to share with the rest of us? आप know that that drives us all mad, right?"

I apologized to everyone and explained that Edward and I were going to go hunting. I had to tell Jasper that I would be back, and that I just needed to get away from the house for a while. He didn't want to let me go, but knew that this is what I needed right now. He sent a wave of प्यार flowing over me, I smiled up at him and kissed his hand as I walked over to the doors.

"Don't worry, I will explain what I read as soon as I have time to process it all." I कहा to my loving family as I turned and ran out the back door looking back up at the पुस्तकालय where the book sat, wanting to go read और but knowing that I needed to get away.