You're so ugly." आप कहा to yourself as आप looked in the mirror. आप spat और and और insults at yourself until a throat was cleared. In that moment your swear your दिल just stopped as आप turned and saw Johnny. "Baby...." He कहा quietly as he walked up to you. He grabbed your hands and held them tightly, so आप wouldn't pull away. He knew आप try to walk past him like आप always did when आप didn't want to talk about something. "Is that how आप really feel?" He asked. He sounded so hurt. Your eyes stung from rising tears. आप didn't say a word, but आप managed a nod. "Why?" He asked. आप could tell he was holding back tears. "They're all skinnier than me, have nicer skin than me, prettier than me. आप could have ANY girl आप wanted, but you're with me. Those other damn girl point out my flaws like there's no tomorrow. I know I'm not pretty. I know I shouldn't be with you. I kn-" Johnny cut आप off before आप could say another word. "Don't talk like that! I think you're perfect. आप may not have the most pretty skin या the thinnest body, but I don't care. आप could looked like Marylyn Monroe या आप could look like something that crawled out from the gutter and of प्यार you. You. Are. Perfect. Fuck what everyone else has to say. They aren't me and they never will be. I प्यार आप and only you. Face the facts; you're perfect, I प्यार आप and no matter what anyone else says they're wrong." He said. He had a few tears rolling down his cheeks and आप were practically sobbing. Johnny let go of your hands and gave आप a hug. His arms were wrapped so tightly around आप almost could breath, but आप didn't care. When he pulled away he wiped your cheeks gently rather than his own. "I'm sorry." आप whispered. Johnny shook his head no. "I'm sorry. I should've made आप feel how आप really are." He said. आप felt another tear roll down your cheek. "I प्यार you." आप whispered. Johnny didn't answer, he just leaned in for a kiss.
His tongue ran down your stomach. It sent chills up your back. It felt amazing.
His tongue went back up to your lips as he started to unclasp your bra. He got it off, and threw it across the room.
But instead of it hitting the floor with a thud…
“Not on my couch.” Darry says, bra in hand
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“Will आप please tell me why?” आप were sitting on the bathroom floor with him. आप were still shaking from the silent sobs that racked your body.
“Baby look at me.” He whispers.
Your eyes meet his, and आप loose it. आप put your head into your hands and sob.
“Hey, हे everything’s fine. Shh babe, it’s ok. (Y/N) I promise,” he says as he picks आप up an places आप in his lap.
He rocks आप back and forth for a few minutes, saying nothing. He looks down at your arm.
“You’re beautiful, आप know that?” He mutters into your hair.
“Yeah?” He says, looking over at you.
“I found this in the attic.” आप say, tossing it over to him.
It was his baby blanket, a dark blue color.
He looks at it wide eyed, just taking in the memories.
“What about this?” He asks, still looking at the blanket.
“Well I thought our baby would like it.”
“Planning ahead huh?” He grins.
“Only 8 eight months ahead.” आप smile.
He looks up at आप in surprise.
“You’re pregnant?” He asks, standing up from the सोफ़ा, सोफे to face you.
आप just smile.
He scoops आप up into a giant hug.
How were आप going to tell him आप got laid off?
Y’all needed money… आप had just bought a house, and money was short.
So of course आप had to lose your job.
आप walking into your house, and flop onto the couch. आप were pretty much done with all the stress.
Darry walked out of the bathroom, towel around his waist.
“What’s up babe?” He said, chuckling at the sight of आप sprawled on the couch.
“I got laid off.” आप mumble.
He’s silent for a second, taking this in. “I’ll pick up another shift.” He says.
“No, no.. आप don’t have to…” आप start.
“No.. I’d make और money than आप would. It’s gonna be fine I promise.”
आप turn around to see your boyfriend Steve grinning wildly, another snowball in hand.
“It’s so on,” आप laugh, as आप lean down to scoop the snow.
आप are hit with another snowball, right in the shoulder. आप आग back, hitting him in the face.
Instead of picking up snow to make another snowball, he sprints towards you.
And tackles आप into the snow.
“Oww Steve!” आप laughed.
“It was needed.” He joked back.
आप were lying on your backs in the snow, looking up at the stars.
आप start to shiver.
He looks over at you. “Babe, are आप cold?”
“Yeah.” आप nod your head, teeth chattering.
He scoots closer to you, and wraps his arms around you. “Warmer?”
“Yeah,” आप smile.
He picks up the naked two साल old and plops him into the bath. “There. Your in. Stay in.”
आप were holding baby Stephanie, who would not stop crying. Why did आप and Dally even agree to watch Johnny’s kids? This wasn’t a great experience.
“Hey, (Y/N), look at this,” Dally grins.
आप look in the bathroom to see Josh, sitting in the tub, his hair greased back, smiling like a maniac.
आप can’t help but burst out laughing, only making the baby cry more.
“Stephie, shut the hell up!” Josh says from the tub.
“Josh!” आप scold. आप glare at Dally.
“It wasn’t me!” Dally says.
“Yeah right.” आप say, rolling your eyes.
“In my opinion, we are the greatest babysitters ever.” Dally said, smiling.
“Hey,” Dally whispers in your ear.
“Hey,”you whisper back.
“You’re parents home?”
“Yeah, they’re asleep.”
“So nothing fun?”
“Dally, आप pig.” आप laugh.
“Nah, I प्यार just cuddling with you.” He says, snuggling closer to your body.
You’re silent for awhile, feeling the heat of his body.
“I प्यार you.” आप whisper.
“Not as much as I प्यार you.” He squeezes you.
“Are आप crying?” आप ask as he walks in.
“No.” He mutters, wiping his eyes on his sleeve.
“Yes आप are, आप big softie,” Ponyboy grins.
“Is she all ok?” Soda asks, still sniffling.
“Yes, she’s in perfect condition.” The doctor grins. ” 6 pounds, 9 ounces. आप want to hold her?” He asks Soda.
Soda just nods his head. The doctor hands him the baby.
(OK INSERT SODA BABY IMAGINE HERE TO GET SODA FEELINGS)
Soda just smiles.
“Hey, Grace.” He says softly. “Hey.”
“She looks like you.” Ponyboy says to आप as he looks over Soda’s shoulder at his niece.
“Pretty, just like her mom.” Soda glances at you.
I had it all ready.
My parents wouldn’t care.
It would be a blessing for me to be gone.
I take a deep breath and take a final look in the mirror. My dark skin. Even darker eyes. The black hair I could never keep back. The scar on my cheek.
I run a hand through my hair, exhale, and open the mirror to see the different bottles of pills glaring at me; tempting me.
It would hurt the least. Less than the blade. But it might take longer. The rope would be quicker.
I reach for a bottle, twist the cap, and pour a few pills in my hand. I take another bottle and do the same.
I take a look at the drugs in my hand. I sigh, tilt my head back, and drop the pills in my mouth.
“JOHNNY!” I heard my drunk mother screech.
I spit the pills back into my hands.
I wouldn’t do this in front of my mother. Even though she was awful, she still is my mom. Im still her son.
My parents wouldn’t care.
It would be a blessing for me to be gone.
I take a deep breath and take a final look in the mirror. My dark skin. Even darker eyes. The black hair I could never keep back. The scar on my cheek.
I run a hand through my hair, exhale, and open the mirror to see the different bottles of pills glaring at me; tempting me.
It would hurt the least. Less than the blade. But it might take longer. The rope would be quicker.
I reach for a bottle, twist the cap, and pour a few pills in my hand. I take another bottle and do the same.
I take a look at the drugs in my hand. I sigh, tilt my head back, and drop the pills in my mouth.
“JOHNNY!” I heard my drunk mother screech.
I spit the pills back into my hands.
I wouldn’t do this in front of my mother. Even though she was awful, she still is my mom. Im still her son.