Because I can't. I've had enough of them. I can't deal with आप anymore. EVER. So why don't आप just leave me the f*** alone. And get one with your life like you're so tempted to do?
1.Because I'm not going to cry when आप leave. I won't cry for a lowly peasant/serf. Because I'd hate to waste my tears on someone who doesn't give two shits about me.
And I sure as hell cry when I need to keep talking to आप pretending like I don't know anything about all the goddamned mendacity I've always known about.
2. Because it hurts. Each. And. Every. Time. I don't know why आप think I'm stupid because I'm not. I know all the shit आप smile and tell me. I spent quite some time getting the armor I have around me to its present strength. A lot of time. And a lot of tears. And I hate it when आप become a chink in the armor द्वारा pretending you're a friend.
3. Because आप will never, NEVER EVER care about me the way I care about you. I consider आप my friend. आप don't. आप never did. And that, believe me, is the worst thing to deal with. It takes a lot of effort to निगलना, निगल, निगल संकलन all of the कड़वा resentment from that fact in and smile at आप like nothing ever happened.
4. Because I preferred my life when it meant only 10-15 of my closest फ्रेंड्स and a hell lot of 2D people. Because, those 10-15 people have proved their trustworthiness over quite a few years. And 2D people never hurt me. And आप didn't need to step in and spoil that perfect world द्वारा messing up my life.
5. Because I won't hate my trashy innocence. I won't. I won't. I WON'T. I like the person I am. Even if she's naive and crazy and bipolar. I like who I am. And I don't want to hate myself because you caused me pain.
1.Because I'm not going to cry when आप leave. I won't cry for a lowly peasant/serf. Because I'd hate to waste my tears on someone who doesn't give two shits about me.
And I sure as hell cry when I need to keep talking to आप pretending like I don't know anything about all the goddamned mendacity I've always known about.
2. Because it hurts. Each. And. Every. Time. I don't know why आप think I'm stupid because I'm not. I know all the shit आप smile and tell me. I spent quite some time getting the armor I have around me to its present strength. A lot of time. And a lot of tears. And I hate it when आप become a chink in the armor द्वारा pretending you're a friend.
3. Because आप will never, NEVER EVER care about me the way I care about you. I consider आप my friend. आप don't. आप never did. And that, believe me, is the worst thing to deal with. It takes a lot of effort to निगलना, निगल, निगल संकलन all of the कड़वा resentment from that fact in and smile at आप like nothing ever happened.
4. Because I preferred my life when it meant only 10-15 of my closest फ्रेंड्स and a hell lot of 2D people. Because, those 10-15 people have proved their trustworthiness over quite a few years. And 2D people never hurt me. And आप didn't need to step in and spoil that perfect world द्वारा messing up my life.
5. Because I won't hate my trashy innocence. I won't. I won't. I WON'T. I like the person I am. Even if she's naive and crazy and bipolar. I like who I am. And I don't want to hate myself because you caused me pain.