“I’ve loved आप from the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared of the way I felt. आप know, loving a girl. I learned how to become a sarcastic कुतिया, मतलबी to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work.
When we got together, it scared the shit out of me, because आप were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed आप away. I made आप think things were your fault. But. Really I was just terrified of the pain.
I screwed that girl Sophia, to kind of spite आप for having that hold on me. And I’m a total fucking coward because… (takes tickets out of bag) I got these. These tickets to go for us three months ago.
But I, I couldn’t stand…I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can आप understand?
आप were trying to punish me back and it’s hard. It’s so horrible. Because. Really. I’d die for you. I प्यार you. I प्यार आप so much it’s killing me”