** just wanted आप to know how much i प्यार आप JT and i never meant to hurt आप द्वारा fighting with आप and i just want आप to know that every word आप read is true as hell -Bee **
Ok, आप know how i used to tell आप that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the दिन i found out आप went to the hospital....i kept going to your प्रोफ़ाइल and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) पोस्टेड the bad news on your दीवार and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with आप Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment आप told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the अगला day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with चेरी and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI और LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and चेरी and नीलकंठ, जय, जे reached your room Chris was already in there with आप but आप were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like आप knew we were there and आप woke up and me and चेरी and नीलकंठ, जय, जे just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about आप या चेरी या Spunky नीलकंठ, जय, जे and i know for sure Chris...
but i wanted to tell आप this cause i just want आप to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about आप and i just want आप to know that i dont hate आप and that i have ALWAYS LOVED आप JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I प्यार चेरी AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope आप know that and i never wanna hurt आप again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like आप were ....i hope आप get better and i am praying for you
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Bianca<3
Ok, आप know how i used to tell आप that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the दिन i found out आप went to the hospital....i kept going to your प्रोफ़ाइल and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) पोस्टेड the bad news on your दीवार and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with आप Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment आप told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the अगला day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with चेरी and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI और LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and चेरी and नीलकंठ, जय, जे reached your room Chris was already in there with आप but आप were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like आप knew we were there and आप woke up and me and चेरी and नीलकंठ, जय, जे just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about आप या चेरी या Spunky नीलकंठ, जय, जे and i know for sure Chris...
but i wanted to tell आप this cause i just want आप to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about आप and i just want आप to know that i dont hate आप and that i have ALWAYS LOVED आप JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I प्यार चेरी AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope आप know that and i never wanna hurt आप again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like आप were ....i hope आप get better and i am praying for you
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Bianca<3
