She wakes with pain.
Server pain.
She can barely move.
The water running down her legs.
She's scared.
She turns to her husband.
To her son.
She's scared.
But she's smiling.
A baby girl is coming.
The pain is not like before.
She knows somethings wrong.
But she says nothing.
At the hospital.
They prep her.
They help her.
They दिखाना her what to do.
This is not the first time for her.
She lays there in pain.
Refussing to take anything.
Afraid to hurt the child.
It's almost time.
the pain grows.
She knows that this will be her last.
Through the pain,sweat,and blood.
She strains,breath,and prays.
Relife.
She hears her baby girl crys.
As her life slips.
A life was born.
While a life dies.
A tragic lose.

I crave a family.
I'm not worth it.
I crave love.
I'm not worth it.
I crave freinds.
I'm not worth it.
I crave freedom.
I'm not worth it.
I crave to be desired.
I'm not worth it.
I crave a loving touch.
I'm not worth it.
I wont my mom.
I'm not worth it.
I wont to live.
I'm not worth it.
I wont to be saved.
I'm not worth it.
SUDDENLY!
A warm smile.
I'm still not woth it.
A loving word.
I'm still not worth it.
A warm feeling.
I'm still not worth it.
A gental love.
I'm still worth it.
I hang my head and walk away.
Cuz I know I'm not worth it

I'm crying.
I'm scared.
Why do I have to go through this?
The pain.
The hate.
I know why I have to go through this.
A pure sould died with my life.
Dieing.
Screaming.
Yearning.
I can not take this any longer.
In the bathroom.
Lights are out.
The tub is full of hot water.
I look at myself in the mirrow.
Ugly.
Stupid.
Horrable.
All I see is a ugly red head with clear eyes.
Someone who should have never been born.
I play it over and over in my head.
*You killed your mother*
It never stops.
It never will.
I hold the razor in my hand.
I hear the voises.
I cut.
The cool razor slices into my skin.
The heat for the blood.
I lay down in the tub.
The water is hot.
but I am cold.
I close my eyes and call for my mom.
no answer.
I sink lower.
The red water covers my face.
A life for a life.
I killed my mom.
So I must suffer and die.
Laying in blood like she was.
I do not care anymore.
I welcome death.
Mom I am coming home.

I sit here my dark corner.
Crying.
Screaming.
Cutting.
Not careing.
Wanting to die.
I am lost.
I am alone.
I am unloved.
Thats all I ever wanted.
Someone to call me theirs.
Someone to प्यार me.
Someone to hold me.
Someone to tell me they प्यार me.
That they want me.
That they need me.
Someone to hold me threw this storm.
I am screaming for help.
no one ever answers.
No one ever does.
I stand alone in the cold world.
Dressed in all black.
Welcoming death.
Praying for death.
There is no way out for me.
Lost,Alone,Unloved.

I look.
I see.
I cry.
All these people loveing eachother.
I see the hearts in their eyes.
I see them smile.
The kisses.
The huges.
The way they look in eachother eyes.
I hang my head and walk away.
IMPOSSIABLE FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE.
I sit in my room.
Holding my pillow.
Crying.
Soaking my तकिया case.
The peopl.
The movies.
The books.
All the प्यार in the world.
Everyone had someone.
But me.
No one understands this lonliness.
This pain.
I feel everyday.
No one to hold.
No one to kiss.
No one who cares.
I stare out my window.
Seeing the world pass me by.
I cry.
IMPOSSIABLE FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE.
Dieing inside.
Screaming on the outside.
This world.
Why am I here?
What kind of life it is?
Without love.
without compassion.
Without someone to hold you.
Threw this storm.
Someone to call my own.
Someone who falls for someone like me.
Someone to understand me.
प्यार me.
Be with me.
But I am just dreaming.
IMPOSSIABLE FOR SOMEONE TO LOVE.