lakas,,,tama,,,

I only just started cutting and I haven't told anyone about it yet.....I don't want people thinking I'm doin it for attention I'm doing it because of stuff that happened with my mum and dad...I'm also doing it because this boy that I like that did like me has apparently been using me and he's been breaking me दिल द्वारा saying he loves me but then he went to my best friend...this one guy has made me cry so much and now I'm doing this to my self I don't want to do it but I cant help it. I just don't want people thinking that I'm doing this for attention I don't even want to tell anyone but I don't just want to keep it inside me I need to tell my best friend but I don't want to hurt her because she does cut as well and it really hurt me when she told me she cut and know I do it 😞😢

I Remember
© Jennifer
I remember the way it felt
when आप where on चोटी, शीर्ष of me
It was like आप controlled me
Your forced yourself in
So I gave up & let आप win

I remember the way आप looked at me
when I कहा NO
It was like आप wanted to दिखाना आप were in control
आप pushed harder
and I tried to say no again
आप covered my mouth
so I gave up & let आप win.

I remember the sounds आप made.
It was like आप enjoyed it too much to care.
there were other people there
I should of yelled for them
But I was too ashamed; too afraid
they wouldn't believe me
या say it was my fault
I remember everything आप did
But don't worry your secrets safe
I'm still afraid.
Nobody will believe me
So I give up and I guess आप win.