why do आप cut and what's your story?(pleases don't take this as a insult!)

I have not cut...ever in my life but i think about it, my life sucks without ईमो and i only have 3 फ्रेंड्स and 1 is also emo. Ive been bullied at church alot and i now jest like to go sit in a corner till they leave.

I used to cut cuz I have been bullied या 3 years and I eventually got depression in the third year. Ppl would make fun of me at school and I would get so angry...and eventually cry. I crude myself 2 sleep every night and so I started cutting. It made me feel better...as soon as I felt the blood cone out I would feel better. I cut my arms and my waist and my legs. आप can only see the scars on my legs now. I'm better now tho.

I cut because I believe its my fault that my फ्रेंड्स hurt(I have almost killed a friend before) and that I am worthless.I am also bullied quite a lot. How it started was dad had just finished screaming at me and beating me. I had bruises everywhere and a broken nose. I grabbed a रसोई, रसोईघर चाकू and cut 10 slits down my wrist. After he found out he कहा अगला time I did it I would be on my way to the insanitorium. Yet I continued.

I have been having panic attacks for 4 years and suffer from "depressive tendencies" . After a while आप just get sick of it and would go to extreme measures for some sort of release.

I currently cut right now and I just can't stop. It started when my dad committed suicide and I have tried to do this also a couple of times because I wanted to be just like him but they didn't work. People always make fun of me for these things but I think that for some people it is just a thing that some people do often to themselves.