Dear Self

What if आप don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last दिन on this earth?
What if that two मिनट conversation आप had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time आप ever spoke to her?
What if आप never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile या talk to him ever again?
What if आप later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would आप be proud of the life आप have lived?
Will आप regret something that आप did या did not say?
Would आप be proud of how people would remember you?
Would आप regret not taking और chances, या not telling him what आप really feel for him?


I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My दिल racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..