what do आप think?

Well, this may be a long answer, but here goes:
1. I am not sure what the truth is about all the stuff MJ did. If he did do it, then yes he was very sick. The thing is that from what I saw, the family that was accusing him of these things also were on TV stating that he did not do anything of the sort. I do not know what their motives where in their stories taking a 180 other than $.
2. The child mol. stuff aside - was MJ sick. He did have many problems - his family life was not good, and I think he tried to get his childhood back as an adult. Did this make him sick as in "Sick" या just sick as in not well. I really don't know the answer to that even. Unfortunately when so much $ is involved stories get distorted.
3. Now for you. आप did mention that आप are bipolar. There are many people who are, however with treatment and therapy they live normal lives - ie neither "Sick" nor unwell.
4. Was the fact that आप were such a big प्रशंसक of his make आप "Sick". Not if आप were just a प्रशंसक of his music, and आप believed that he was innocent. In other words if आप were not a प्रशंसक of him because आप thought he was doing the bad stuff people were saying he was doing, then आप are not "Sick".

I hope my answer has not confused आप further. I also hope that आप can get the manic / depressive swings under control. I think that once आप are able to, आप will see the truth in my answer.

I'd give आप my opinion on this,but I don't quite understand the question. I'm sorry