I wondered if my dad knew where I was. I wondered if he cared. A father should care if his daughter spends the night at some guys house, shouldn't he? A father should do a lot of things that mine doesn't do. On the upside, he's probably out buying Cleetus a big old bone. Woohoo.
I looked up into Ethan's eyes and tried to meet his gaze. The way the shimmered made me feel like my eyes were the dullest thing on earth. Annabella liked this guy and I knew I was wrong to be this close to him. I promised her I would not get too close to him, but I almost kissed him. Almost, the key word.
I stayed for breakfast. Of all the places on Earth, this is where I wanted to be. Of all the places on Earth, this is where Annabella would prohibit me from staying at.
I watched the way he picked up his fork. He avoided allowing the fork to rest in between his thumb and ring finger. I caught a glimpse of a स्लैश in his skin. I wondered my way into the wrong conversation.
"..What happened to you're hand?" I gently touched his hand and pulled it toward me. Annabella always wanted to touch his hand so I almost let go, but my hand wasn't capable of letting go. All I wanted to do was hold his hand.
He stares blankly at me and I feel stupid. Emo, I think. We exchange looks and I nod my head.
The air felt thick, and it was hard to breathe. I took in air through my mouth and I sware I tasted the awkwardness. I bit my tongue and tried to suck the awkwardness away so I could get all I wanted to say off the tip of my tongue. The gravitational pull between us was strong and it was hard to break. My stupid head couldn't think of anything better to break the silence except for; "Soooooooo..."
He told me stupid jokes and I laughed. He smiled at me and I smiled back. My instincts fought with me and I fought, too. I would not let voices in the back of my head boss me around. The air particles seemed to whisper; Chemistry, chemistry, chemistry. I didn't know if this was a hint he liked me या a reminder to do my homework.
Even if the voices meant to do my homework, it's not like I cared. When you're with you're crush, that's heaven enough.
One of the things my mama taught me before she passed; Don't stretch your welcome. I held on to that. I knew I couldn't leave too soon and be rude but if I stayed much longer I would 'stretch my welcome.'
I grabbed my जैकेट and felt the urge to bury my face in it and block all of the awkwardness out. I didn't ware out my welcome and decided to leave. I decided not to go straight home... I had already ruined my nerd title, so I decided not much would hurt it. I had just spent the night at my crush's house! Yeah me, the nerd.
I looked up into Ethan's eyes and tried to meet his gaze. The way the shimmered made me feel like my eyes were the dullest thing on earth. Annabella liked this guy and I knew I was wrong to be this close to him. I promised her I would not get too close to him, but I almost kissed him. Almost, the key word.
I stayed for breakfast. Of all the places on Earth, this is where I wanted to be. Of all the places on Earth, this is where Annabella would prohibit me from staying at.
I watched the way he picked up his fork. He avoided allowing the fork to rest in between his thumb and ring finger. I caught a glimpse of a स्लैश in his skin. I wondered my way into the wrong conversation.
"..What happened to you're hand?" I gently touched his hand and pulled it toward me. Annabella always wanted to touch his hand so I almost let go, but my hand wasn't capable of letting go. All I wanted to do was hold his hand.
He stares blankly at me and I feel stupid. Emo, I think. We exchange looks and I nod my head.
The air felt thick, and it was hard to breathe. I took in air through my mouth and I sware I tasted the awkwardness. I bit my tongue and tried to suck the awkwardness away so I could get all I wanted to say off the tip of my tongue. The gravitational pull between us was strong and it was hard to break. My stupid head couldn't think of anything better to break the silence except for; "Soooooooo..."
He told me stupid jokes and I laughed. He smiled at me and I smiled back. My instincts fought with me and I fought, too. I would not let voices in the back of my head boss me around. The air particles seemed to whisper; Chemistry, chemistry, chemistry. I didn't know if this was a hint he liked me या a reminder to do my homework.
Even if the voices meant to do my homework, it's not like I cared. When you're with you're crush, that's heaven enough.
One of the things my mama taught me before she passed; Don't stretch your welcome. I held on to that. I knew I couldn't leave too soon and be rude but if I stayed much longer I would 'stretch my welcome.'
I grabbed my जैकेट and felt the urge to bury my face in it and block all of the awkwardness out. I didn't ware out my welcome and decided to leave. I decided not to go straight home... I had already ruined my nerd title, so I decided not much would hurt it. I had just spent the night at my crush's house! Yeah me, the nerd.
Here I phase
Here in my old age
Here I run with no place to go
Here I stand with no purpose
Here I am with no show,
No lights,no cameras,no grace
Here I am with this world having me in it's tight embrace.
But I won't give in.
For God Loved me so.
Here I am in this place,
Here I am just watching the world race.
Watching the world fall apart,
Here I am just waiting for a new start.
As this breaks my heart,
I know I will शामिल होइए God's cart,his army,his people and I will live in heaven above.
Here I am asking you,
What will आप do?
Here I am watching आप phase,
Here I am watching आप turn to old age.
With no place to go,
Here I am telling आप don't want to low.
As we change and as we grow,
This world will face judgment,This I know.
Don't turn to old age,
Don't get लॉस्ट in the world's maze.
Save आप self.
Don't let yourself phase.......
Here in my old age
Here I run with no place to go
Here I stand with no purpose
Here I am with no show,
No lights,no cameras,no grace
Here I am with this world having me in it's tight embrace.
But I won't give in.
For God Loved me so.
Here I am in this place,
Here I am just watching the world race.
Watching the world fall apart,
Here I am just waiting for a new start.
As this breaks my heart,
I know I will शामिल होइए God's cart,his army,his people and I will live in heaven above.
Here I am asking you,
What will आप do?
Here I am watching आप phase,
Here I am watching आप turn to old age.
With no place to go,
Here I am telling आप don't want to low.
As we change and as we grow,
This world will face judgment,This I know.
Don't turn to old age,
Don't get लॉस्ट in the world's maze.
Save आप self.
Don't let yourself phase.......