My breaths were trapped in the back of my throat. I was afraid to breathe, because they'd probably come out as screams. The barrel of the gun pressed harder into my head, probably leaving a mark.
"Give me your money," the voice said. I tried to speak, but I couldn't. A couple moments later he took his hand away from my mouth so I could speak.
"I-- I-- I-- don't ha-- a-- ave an-- n-- n--y," I said, my voice shaking so much it took him a while to tell what I was saying. Then he laughed darkly.
"Well, that sucks for you." I felt the gun हटाइए a little, as he put his finger on the trigger. I took a deep breath. I would not go out like this. I had somewhat of a plan, but it might just backfire and kill me. I gritted my teeth, bracing myself, then threw my head to the side, against the gun barrel. I hoped it wouldn't make him pull the trigger, and luckily it didn't; it knocked the gun out of his hand. Then I kicked back, hitting him where it counts. He whimpered a little bit, and let go of me.
I took off running. I ran as fast as I could, which was still not fast enough. I focused on my feet, trying to run fast, but still not trip. I heard the gun shot, aimed at me. I ducked, but tried to keep running. I almost fell, but luckily I didn't. Another gun shot.
Then I felt the searing pain. It was through the back of my leg, a couple inches under the back of my knee. I almost fell, but I had to keep going. I managed to run a couple और houses down, out of sight, when I couldn't handle it anymore. With each step, the bullet seemed to rip deeper and deeper into my flesh. I fell onto the sidewalk, leaving a small trail of blood. Tears ran down my face unrelenting.
I didn't know what to do. I couldn't walk home, even though it was only a half a block farther, and I couldn't scream someone's name. I feared the attacker would hear and come after me again. So I laid there on the sidewalk for a while, trying to deal with the red-hot pain.
I took a deep breath, and tried to crawl, but it did almost nothing. I got about four houses down, when I just couldn't anymore. I was exhausted. I gave up, and figured enough time had passed; the gunman was probably gone द्वारा now.
"Kirsten! Sage!" I screamed. A couple मिनटों later, and nothing. I screamed their names again. A couple मिनटों later, they finally showed up.
"Oh my God!" Kirsten said. "What happened?!" She put my arm around her shoulders, and tried to lift me up. Sage held my other side.
"I got shot," I said, keeping my leg off the ground. I winced; it hurt from even the slightest movement. Kirsten and Sage managed to get me home, and laid my carefully on the couch.
"What're we going to do?" Sage asked. Surprisingly, for a seven साल old, she was staying pretty calm.
"We need to go get Paige," Kirsten said.
"No," I कहा quickly. "She just went to work. She needs to. I'll just wait until she gets back."
"But what if it hurts आप more? It could get infected."
"I don't care. I'll wait." Kirsten pursed her lips.
"At least let me clean it with rubbing alcohol," she said. I sighed, then agreed after a little while.
Kirsten went and got the rubbing alcohol, then helped me flip over onto my stomach so the wound was faced up. She rolled up my jeans, up to my knee.
It was too much.
She had poured the alcohol into the wound, an amount probably the size of a dime, and it burned incredibly. I hissed, and buried my face in the arm of the couch.
"Sorry!" she apologized. "But I need to clean it!" She poured और alcohol into it, and it felt like my leg was on fire. I screamed, and clenched my teeth together.
"Enough!" I shouted at her. She nodded and backed away. "I'll just wait for Paige now..." I managed to actually fall asleep a while after that, despite the pain.
."What happened?!" Paige screamed, jerking me away from a nice nap. I peered over my shoulder, to see her gaping at me.
"She got shot," Sage कहा quietly. "You need to fix it." Paige stared at me, unbelieving, and then shook her head.
"Fine. Ok, ok... Um, आप guys get her to lay down on the table, under the light. I'll go get Mom's old sewing kit."
"Sewing kit?!" I squeaked.
"Yes, Shelby," she said, exasperated. "We need to get the bullet out, and sew up the wound." I whimpered as she disappeared into Mom's room, and Kirsten and Sage helped me get up. I had to lay down on the रसोई, रसोईघर table; it felt like I was being operated on. It was frightening.
"How do आप plan on getting the bullet out?" I asked when Paige came back.
"Not sure yet," she said, looking around the room. She was quiet for a moment. "There..." she said, going to the kitchen. She held up a spoon.
"Are आप fucking kidding me?!" I screeched. "No! No way!"
"It's either this, या a fishing hook, Shelby." I gulped. She grabbed something else, and threw it at my face. "Bite on it." It was a towel. I stuffed it into my mouth, and braced myself.
***
"STOP! JUST STOP!" I screamed. "JUST LEAVE IT! I CAN LIVE WITH A BULLET IN MY LEG!!"
"It's out," Paige finally said, after almost an घंटा of "surgery." I sighed a big sigh of relief. "Now we have to stitch it up," she sighed, holding up a needle and thread. I whimpered, and bit down hard on the towel again.
***
I was in tears द्वारा the end. I couldn't take it; the pain was terrible. After a half hour, the bullet hole in my leg was all stitched up. I squeezed my eyes shut, unable to move.
"Just stay here for a while," Paige said. "I'm going to put ice on it to numb it."
"You couldn't have done that before?!" I shouted at her. She pursed her lips, and shrugged sheepishly. I groaned, and put my forehead on the table. It was beaded in sweat, and I took a lot of deep breaths. She put a pack of ice in another towel on my leg cooling down the burning feeling in my leg.
"How're आप feeling?" Sage asked quietly from the couch.
"Hell," I muttered.
"Watch it," Paige said. "I let the profanities slip द्वारा before because I knew आप were in a lot of pain. Doesn't mean आप can swear now." I growled at her.
"I. Don't. Give. A. Fuck right now," I कहा through my teeth. Despite the ice, my leg still hurt like crazy. There was the sound of a door unlocking, and someone stepped in. Paige stood up, and I looked over my shoulder to see who it was.
Mom.
"Hey girls!" she कहा cheerfully. "How was your day? I had the greatest दिन with Matt! Oh, it was wonderful..." She went and got Auburn from her crib, and came back, all smiles. She sighed at me, shaking her head. "Shelby, why are आप on the table," she chastised. I groaned and let my head fall back onto the table.
"Give me your money," the voice said. I tried to speak, but I couldn't. A couple moments later he took his hand away from my mouth so I could speak.
"I-- I-- I-- don't ha-- a-- ave an-- n-- n--y," I said, my voice shaking so much it took him a while to tell what I was saying. Then he laughed darkly.
"Well, that sucks for you." I felt the gun हटाइए a little, as he put his finger on the trigger. I took a deep breath. I would not go out like this. I had somewhat of a plan, but it might just backfire and kill me. I gritted my teeth, bracing myself, then threw my head to the side, against the gun barrel. I hoped it wouldn't make him pull the trigger, and luckily it didn't; it knocked the gun out of his hand. Then I kicked back, hitting him where it counts. He whimpered a little bit, and let go of me.
I took off running. I ran as fast as I could, which was still not fast enough. I focused on my feet, trying to run fast, but still not trip. I heard the gun shot, aimed at me. I ducked, but tried to keep running. I almost fell, but luckily I didn't. Another gun shot.
Then I felt the searing pain. It was through the back of my leg, a couple inches under the back of my knee. I almost fell, but I had to keep going. I managed to run a couple और houses down, out of sight, when I couldn't handle it anymore. With each step, the bullet seemed to rip deeper and deeper into my flesh. I fell onto the sidewalk, leaving a small trail of blood. Tears ran down my face unrelenting.
I didn't know what to do. I couldn't walk home, even though it was only a half a block farther, and I couldn't scream someone's name. I feared the attacker would hear and come after me again. So I laid there on the sidewalk for a while, trying to deal with the red-hot pain.
I took a deep breath, and tried to crawl, but it did almost nothing. I got about four houses down, when I just couldn't anymore. I was exhausted. I gave up, and figured enough time had passed; the gunman was probably gone द्वारा now.
"Kirsten! Sage!" I screamed. A couple मिनटों later, and nothing. I screamed their names again. A couple मिनटों later, they finally showed up.
"Oh my God!" Kirsten said. "What happened?!" She put my arm around her shoulders, and tried to lift me up. Sage held my other side.
"I got shot," I said, keeping my leg off the ground. I winced; it hurt from even the slightest movement. Kirsten and Sage managed to get me home, and laid my carefully on the couch.
"What're we going to do?" Sage asked. Surprisingly, for a seven साल old, she was staying pretty calm.
"We need to go get Paige," Kirsten said.
"No," I कहा quickly. "She just went to work. She needs to. I'll just wait until she gets back."
"But what if it hurts आप more? It could get infected."
"I don't care. I'll wait." Kirsten pursed her lips.
"At least let me clean it with rubbing alcohol," she said. I sighed, then agreed after a little while.
Kirsten went and got the rubbing alcohol, then helped me flip over onto my stomach so the wound was faced up. She rolled up my jeans, up to my knee.
It was too much.
She had poured the alcohol into the wound, an amount probably the size of a dime, and it burned incredibly. I hissed, and buried my face in the arm of the couch.
"Sorry!" she apologized. "But I need to clean it!" She poured और alcohol into it, and it felt like my leg was on fire. I screamed, and clenched my teeth together.
"Enough!" I shouted at her. She nodded and backed away. "I'll just wait for Paige now..." I managed to actually fall asleep a while after that, despite the pain.
."What happened?!" Paige screamed, jerking me away from a nice nap. I peered over my shoulder, to see her gaping at me.
"She got shot," Sage कहा quietly. "You need to fix it." Paige stared at me, unbelieving, and then shook her head.
"Fine. Ok, ok... Um, आप guys get her to lay down on the table, under the light. I'll go get Mom's old sewing kit."
"Sewing kit?!" I squeaked.
"Yes, Shelby," she said, exasperated. "We need to get the bullet out, and sew up the wound." I whimpered as she disappeared into Mom's room, and Kirsten and Sage helped me get up. I had to lay down on the रसोई, रसोईघर table; it felt like I was being operated on. It was frightening.
"How do आप plan on getting the bullet out?" I asked when Paige came back.
"Not sure yet," she said, looking around the room. She was quiet for a moment. "There..." she said, going to the kitchen. She held up a spoon.
"Are आप fucking kidding me?!" I screeched. "No! No way!"
"It's either this, या a fishing hook, Shelby." I gulped. She grabbed something else, and threw it at my face. "Bite on it." It was a towel. I stuffed it into my mouth, and braced myself.
***
"STOP! JUST STOP!" I screamed. "JUST LEAVE IT! I CAN LIVE WITH A BULLET IN MY LEG!!"
"It's out," Paige finally said, after almost an घंटा of "surgery." I sighed a big sigh of relief. "Now we have to stitch it up," she sighed, holding up a needle and thread. I whimpered, and bit down hard on the towel again.
***
I was in tears द्वारा the end. I couldn't take it; the pain was terrible. After a half hour, the bullet hole in my leg was all stitched up. I squeezed my eyes shut, unable to move.
"Just stay here for a while," Paige said. "I'm going to put ice on it to numb it."
"You couldn't have done that before?!" I shouted at her. She pursed her lips, and shrugged sheepishly. I groaned, and put my forehead on the table. It was beaded in sweat, and I took a lot of deep breaths. She put a pack of ice in another towel on my leg cooling down the burning feeling in my leg.
"How're आप feeling?" Sage asked quietly from the couch.
"Hell," I muttered.
"Watch it," Paige said. "I let the profanities slip द्वारा before because I knew आप were in a lot of pain. Doesn't mean आप can swear now." I growled at her.
"I. Don't. Give. A. Fuck right now," I कहा through my teeth. Despite the ice, my leg still hurt like crazy. There was the sound of a door unlocking, and someone stepped in. Paige stood up, and I looked over my shoulder to see who it was.
Mom.
"Hey girls!" she कहा cheerfully. "How was your day? I had the greatest दिन with Matt! Oh, it was wonderful..." She went and got Auburn from her crib, and came back, all smiles. She sighed at me, shaking her head. "Shelby, why are आप on the table," she chastised. I groaned and let my head fall back onto the table.
I NEED inspiration for this book. I cant say why, because it will ruin the last book but the school has been rebuilt,and theres a new gardening class, and Haru-Kun, Kariko-Kun, and Shimura-Chan are falling into love, could Kariko finaly fall for Haru, या could it be Haikuga-Kun? Haru could have his दिल torn into pieces, या turned into gold. And Shimura, being the only lesbian in the school could have problems with प्यार too. Karuga-Chan (a new character introduced as a Japenese girl found lying on the समुद्र तट after a violent storm) changes all of that. Life when thrive this साल in Dojenskei Koukou (Dojenskei High School). All these सवालों and और will be answered in the garden of Hinjou, the Garden Classroom. Be waiting, Both the first chapter of the first and सेकंड book are being worked on. (PLEASE give me good names for the third and fourht book, and the main name for the सेकंड series, such as Burning Passion Book One: The Flame. (oo, I might use that) Byes!)
The Man With No Eyes Collection (6): Dream
A crystallized life, on the bright TV screen,
But I’ve finally broken away from the dream,
And into the warm embrace of your esteem.
The stage that I left disappears from my mind,
Like suddenly being engulfed द्वारा sunshine,
I am truly alive, for the very first time,
All at once, let me sing, let me cry!
‘Til it bursts,
From my lungs, like a child,
Let me smile ‘til it hurts!
Let the blue of the morning
Strike my tearful eyes,
I still don’t know how,
I still don’t know why,
(I still fear this life may yet be a lie,)
But even if this world is the true dream, I want to play out this beautiful scene.
Here it is, the last in the Man With No Eyes Collection! I wanted to complete this on a pleasant note, give the guy some mercy.
A crystallized life, on the bright TV screen,
But I’ve finally broken away from the dream,
And into the warm embrace of your esteem.
The stage that I left disappears from my mind,
Like suddenly being engulfed द्वारा sunshine,
I am truly alive, for the very first time,
All at once, let me sing, let me cry!
‘Til it bursts,
From my lungs, like a child,
Let me smile ‘til it hurts!
Let the blue of the morning
Strike my tearful eyes,
I still don’t know how,
I still don’t know why,
(I still fear this life may yet be a lie,)
But even if this world is the true dream, I want to play out this beautiful scene.
Here it is, the last in the Man With No Eyes Collection! I wanted to complete this on a pleasant note, give the guy some mercy.
I just started going on the path where my life had no light. I missed everyone from our school who graduated, and I really had many amazing फ्रेंड्स there. फ्रेंड्स who gave me memories that lasted forever...friends who helped me out when things got bad...friends who were always there for me. I know, however, that they will always continue to be in my heart, even as they went away from me. If they never come back, they will still have left hand prints on my दिल that will never be washed away. Life without the light makes me feel so lonely...like a vagabond on the streets with no home...like an eagle with no prey...like me with no one to cry with. However sad this situation I find myself in...I still know that life will go on...and I must continue to strive to be the best I can be. Even without the warmth of my फ्रेंड्स close by, I know that they will always be द्वारा my side even if they are not with me. All my फ्रेंड्स are the light in my life.
The noise,
buzzing and buzzing in my ears.
It's just not right,
आप think आप are so bright,
saying आप buzz because आप care.
But it's so unfair.
I don't need your concern,
the best way आप can दिखाना आप care,
is to leave me alone.
Why can't आप understand?
Have आप tried to understand?
Do I really expect आप to understand?
This is not a teenage problem,
the excuse आप uses so often,
This is about my freedom.
आप think I don't know anything,
आप think I am naive and innocent.
But things are so different.
आप think because आप are older,
आप know और than we do,
That’s not true.
The world has changed,
We are not the fairy tales that sing,
we are the ones who could take our lives in a blink.
No, आप are lying to yourself,
blocking the truth that would make आप knelt
buzzing and buzzing in my ears.
It's just not right,
आप think आप are so bright,
saying आप buzz because आप care.
But it's so unfair.
I don't need your concern,
the best way आप can दिखाना आप care,
is to leave me alone.
Why can't आप understand?
Have आप tried to understand?
Do I really expect आप to understand?
This is not a teenage problem,
the excuse आप uses so often,
This is about my freedom.
आप think I don't know anything,
आप think I am naive and innocent.
But things are so different.
आप think because आप are older,
आप know और than we do,
That’s not true.
The world has changed,
We are not the fairy tales that sing,
we are the ones who could take our lives in a blink.
No, आप are lying to yourself,
blocking the truth that would make आप knelt
I look out
Into the crowd
Looking for you
Hoping to see you
I search
And search
But can’t find
Your face
In all the crowd
The one person
I wanted to see
I couldn’t see
I was left
With my disappointment
As I begin to think
Of all the times
You’ve broken your word
But then
I should have known
आप never stayed
Unless आप profited
आप never were
A real dad
Never has been
Never will
I look out
In the crowd
Hoping against hope
That आप will be there
But I shouldn't even bother
I'm a nobody
Someone आप never loved
Someone आप don't even know
Maybe someday
I'll learn
That all I get from you
Is broken promises
Half truths
And utter disappointments
So now I say good bye to it all
The hurt and anger
My disappointment
And you
Into the crowd
Looking for you
Hoping to see you
I search
And search
But can’t find
Your face
In all the crowd
The one person
I wanted to see
I couldn’t see
I was left
With my disappointment
As I begin to think
Of all the times
You’ve broken your word
But then
I should have known
आप never stayed
Unless आप profited
आप never were
A real dad
Never has been
Never will
I look out
In the crowd
Hoping against hope
That आप will be there
But I shouldn't even bother
I'm a nobody
Someone आप never loved
Someone आप don't even know
Maybe someday
I'll learn
That all I get from you
Is broken promises
Half truths
And utter disappointments
So now I say good bye to it all
The hurt and anger
My disappointment
And you
