I need to record these things. Somehow. Preserve them even if its only through small ways. They deserve to live. They deserve to go on.
If I don't, they'll just disappear. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

I suppose it isn't my own mortality that I fear. Not really...
Rather, it's a fear of the inevitable fading of everything I love. All my memories, the sentimental significance of the things I own, all the ideas and feelings. My deep प्यार of the trees and the घास never being felt again, the song of my stuffed कमला, कैटरपिलर never meaning the same thing to anyone after I'm gone. All the ideas...
There will be no one to carry those things, they begin and end with me.
If I could preserve those.... पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

I'm so glad I've been able to spend this time with you... पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

Things wouldn't be the same if आप were me and I were you- we really are separate parts of a whole. You, me, and him and her, too....
Where would any of us be without one another? पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

Sometimes I really wish आप were here. I'll never have a friend that's quite like you... and I need you. I wouldn't be the same without you... पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

I wish I felt सुरक्षित in my own skin... पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

I wish dying were a viable option... पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

I want to die. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

Sometimes these things hurt. Sometimes my brain doesn't shut off. Sometimes I feel like आप hide from me. I don't need your protection. I want to stop hurting. I want all of this to stop. I want all of this to stop. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

She's gone, isn't she? Forever. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

I'd rather just die. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

Hmm. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

I'll never know. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

i dont want to. not anymore. im done. let me rot. let me fade away. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

Feeling a bit suppressed. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

Cut it out of me! Cut it out! I don't want it- I don't want it! Get it away from me, get it out! I just want to be normal, feel normal- I didn't ask for this, I didn't want this. Get it out. Cut it out of me. Get it out, get it out, get it out. Cut it out of me before it cuts me out. Please. Please. Please. Get it out get it out get it out get it out I WANT IT OUT GET IT OUT KILL IT KILL IT KILL IT BEFORE IT KILLS ME PLEASE PLEASE पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

helphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelphelp पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

Its just a वृत्त in the sand, but its my वृत्त in the sand, and that makes all the difference. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

It isn't that I want to die, I just want to stop existing for a little while. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना

If somehow you've come across the club, I ask that आप please leave and forget that आप ever saw it. I would very much like to keep it to myself. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना