Hi, i am Sarah. I know some people dont think this is abuse, but i feel like it was. I had a best friend, Zach was his name. I thought he was the awesomest friend i have ever had. But he was not, no one liked him when i meet him. I never understood why. I was फ्रेंड्स wit thim for a year, then i asked him out. he कहा Sure. a week and 2 days after that he broke up with me. i hated myself. So i cut myself, just 1 cut. Then about 2 months after that. He told me 2 never call him again या talk 2him in anyway. I could not stand it. So i cut my self. Everytime i woud see him या hear hiz voice, when i got घर i would run into my room, start crying, put on a song that helped me calmdown, and cut myself. I thought about suicide once in a while, but never did it, या tryed 2. and i would cry EVERY night. i did that 4 a महीना then i finaly told my friend, Emily. She saved my life, i could have gon so far to get to KILLING my self. i didnt know becase she told a techer and the teacher told me not to and they both made me swear 2 NEVER cut myself agin. But that is now a महीना पूर्व and i have stoped cuting myself, and i havent in a long time. i am glad i told a friend. The thing is I प्यार him, and he wont except that. I always have loved him, since the first time i caled him. And i told him i had HUGE crush on him, but never that i LOVED him. My mom got me someone 2 talk 2 that will tell me how 2 deal with my problems, ad control them. We havent met yet, but we will soon. When i thought of suicide i thought of all my friends, how much they would miss me and what they would think. I always tell my फ्रेंड्स they saved my life, becase they did. i would probly be dead with out them. I प्यार MY फ्रेंड्स THAT SAVED MY LIFE <3