I hate being mad at you, but I hate what आप did more.
I don't think I can stay mad at you.
All was calm and sweet until the clouds rolled in and it started to rain.
And when it rains... it pours.
So it pours and we settle in separate spots.
आप ran and found shelter.
I stayed and am trying to stay warm.
I beg for mercy and cry for death.
But I am still here and will build a house so आप can come and visit me in the warmth of my दिल and not the cold depths of my soul.
It was great for awhile but nothing good ever lasts;
The damage is done but how does this help anyone,
Too good to fade away
I just want to breathe,
I hate my soul so much and I just can't change,
I'm on my own in a sea of darkness,
I can't swim so well
And I won't drown fast,
Can't call out for help,
They don't allow it
The demons in my head,
See this girl - she's a fake,
A phony, nothing's real but the melancholy,
I can't be saved because
I ease myself with razor blades,
I don't know if this is revenge या some last cry;
I'm not a writer या artist of any kind;
I tell how it is'
No once upon a time,
I'm masked द्वारा children and death is on my mind,
God help me for I have sinned,
A भेड़िया can't blow this down,
A knight can't break it in,
I sealed it shut so not a creak of sun या sound can be fed just distant distortion of a world unseized,
A seed floating in the wind with no direction,
Slowly fading away,
It has no protection,
Lands on the bank but sees no reflection,
A choice must be made, life's intersection,
Grow into a पेड़ या fade into the past,
Soar like an eagle,
This spring may be it's last,
A decision must be made before the dead of night,
Is it time to lie down and die,
या is it time to fight?
It made the right choice and decided to grow,
But wasn't its choice to make,
Of this it did not know,
Already determined the seed would never be a tree,
It dreams of a better life but hope is all it will ever be,
And now I sit inside my glass prison,
Screaming to be let free,
But all my efforts are in vain,
आप can't even hear me,
Look into my tear stained eyes,
And tell me what आप see,
Am I so completely dead to you,
That आप don't even see me?
Watch the tears fall down my face,
An endless stream of forgotten hate,
Fall into an unknown world,
Follow the road of fearful fate,
Banish the light from inside your mind,
Let the dark consume your soul,
Lose yourself inside this hell,
Cause yourself to lose control,
Rest your head and close your eyes,
Soon the pain will fade,
Slip away into your dreams,
No longer be afraid,
I feel my body growing cold,
Shaking... shivering,
Fade away,
Trembling under Death's sweet kiss,
I'm too far led astray,
Leave me helpless on the ground,
Left alone to face this death,
Fatal numbness pass over me,
And I breathe my one last breath,
My screams have been silenced,
My tears have been dried,
As I lay upon the earth,
And let this life subside,
Let the dark consume the soul,
Pass into eternity,
Thus the ending of this life,
Of this forgotten sanity...