Guys...seriously need help...dying here...

so...theres this guy.....and he hayed me lats uear cuz i stalked his friend (well i won cuz his friend asked me out tehe)but theb this साल we became really, REALLY close friends...and my friend liked him...and he hated her and no offence ro her या anything (were not really फ्रेंड्स anymore) buthe was never, never ever, EVER gonna like her back, and i kimda told her that comstantly cuz i had a leetle crush on the guy (the dude is freaking goregeous) and then one दिन he tottaly dissed her and she "stopped liking him". (she never REALLY stopped, she still epically fails at trying to flirt with him) and so i liked him and for the longest time him, his friend, and my best friend were the bestest of friends. untill someone starting telling him that i was saying crap about him. that was about a महीना ago. now, hes having a hard time trusting me...and everyone.. and everytime i see him it feels like a billion
ice cold knives are stabbing me slowly. and im bleeding. ever. so.slowly. and i just cant take it anymore......oh alot of thus happens at drama justto know... and the दिखाना is in two days...and i worked SO FUCKING HARD to get into this
show,scince like the whole sixth grade auditions....and i was considering dropping out.
and of course i wont do that, but im going imsane...i cant take it anymore....



any advice? θηανκς......haha i dont even know what i just wrote tehe