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"where is she?, i wanna see her, where's jacob" i felt over joyed. she was alive, and well. my baby.
Tanna.
"He's with her in the waiting room." he replied in the same velvet voice that i oh longinly wanted to hear for so long ago. But it wasn't the right voice.
This was one big fix of them, that i think i might die of a overdose.
"Carlisle." i panted. i dont know how long i havent कहा that name only for my own good.
"Yes bella" he sighed, he diddnt look at me, as though he thought was either better that way , considering he knew what moment we were coming in to या that he just diddnt want to be mean. i diddnt know what would hurt more.
I diddnt know what to say, आप know form all the years that had been gone, i had created a सूची of सवालों id wanted to ask, but now that he was really, here. really here, body and flesh. i couldnt say them.
"We'are sorry. bella."he कहा under his breath.
They sorry. these were the words i have wanted to hear for so long. and now that they were actaully said, i had troubles actaully beleiveing that he had actaully कहा them.
But i had a wonderful husband out there and a gorgeous baby.
These words should not mean as much as they do.But they did. They meant और than anything. they meant और than saying i प्यार आप for the first time, या when आप say everything is going to be alright when आप know that its the thruth.
He sighed once more, it was a sigh that आप instantly knew, ended all what was going on, he was leaving, again.
i लॉस्ट all breath, i diddnt know control myself, i was on autopilot.
"Carlisle. not again. please" was all i could push out, with my pants excaping me.
My chest, had another blow, and i could hear the machines start to make संगीत as though it was a symfony, from the 1600's, panic was ariseing.
i can let him go, not again.
my chest started to fester and bleed as much as it did as when they all left. If he does leave, im not stuck with और moments that will leave me a worst state, how can i be a good mother like that?
" his back still turned, still wearing his white overcoat, he keeped his back to me, and turned his head to his shoulder, his eyes still on the floor. As though he was too scared to see my face.
"We प्यार आप bella. He still loves you. but must go home, आप have a family" who कहा softly.
They were everyhting that i wanted , but we लॉस्ट it.
i dont remember anything else after that, i just faded out, another blackout.
But i woke, still in my white room. If i jsut woke up. then it was a dream right?
right?i sifted only to feel and see that i was fully clothed, but clothes that were of not my own. A blue shirt, and a white skirt. ok.
i sat up, feeling better, now, but still dizzy form waking up.
everything was fuzzy, i tried to exercise my eyes byu looking around, the only colour in this room were the फूल on the बिस्तर side table, they looked dead... i looked at them close, at the bottom of them. was a note.
"Dont come looking for us bella,
i miss you. we miss you, he misses you.
Be with your family.
A."
alice. alice. it was alice, alice was here.
"where is she?, i wanna see her, where's jacob" i felt over joyed. she was alive, and well. my baby.
Tanna.
"He's with her in the waiting room." he replied in the same velvet voice that i oh longinly wanted to hear for so long ago. But it wasn't the right voice.
This was one big fix of them, that i think i might die of a overdose.
"Carlisle." i panted. i dont know how long i havent कहा that name only for my own good.
"Yes bella" he sighed, he diddnt look at me, as though he thought was either better that way , considering he knew what moment we were coming in to या that he just diddnt want to be mean. i diddnt know what would hurt more.
I diddnt know what to say, आप know form all the years that had been gone, i had created a सूची of सवालों id wanted to ask, but now that he was really, here. really here, body and flesh. i couldnt say them.
"We'are sorry. bella."he कहा under his breath.
They sorry. these were the words i have wanted to hear for so long. and now that they were actaully said, i had troubles actaully beleiveing that he had actaully कहा them.
But i had a wonderful husband out there and a gorgeous baby.
These words should not mean as much as they do.But they did. They meant और than anything. they meant और than saying i प्यार आप for the first time, या when आप say everything is going to be alright when आप know that its the thruth.
He sighed once more, it was a sigh that आप instantly knew, ended all what was going on, he was leaving, again.
i लॉस्ट all breath, i diddnt know control myself, i was on autopilot.
"Carlisle. not again. please" was all i could push out, with my pants excaping me.
My chest, had another blow, and i could hear the machines start to make संगीत as though it was a symfony, from the 1600's, panic was ariseing.
i can let him go, not again.
my chest started to fester and bleed as much as it did as when they all left. If he does leave, im not stuck with और moments that will leave me a worst state, how can i be a good mother like that?
" his back still turned, still wearing his white overcoat, he keeped his back to me, and turned his head to his shoulder, his eyes still on the floor. As though he was too scared to see my face.
"We प्यार आप bella. He still loves you. but must go home, आप have a family" who कहा softly.
They were everyhting that i wanted , but we लॉस्ट it.
i dont remember anything else after that, i just faded out, another blackout.
But i woke, still in my white room. If i jsut woke up. then it was a dream right?
right?i sifted only to feel and see that i was fully clothed, but clothes that were of not my own. A blue shirt, and a white skirt. ok.
i sat up, feeling better, now, but still dizzy form waking up.
everything was fuzzy, i tried to exercise my eyes byu looking around, the only colour in this room were the फूल on the बिस्तर side table, they looked dead... i looked at them close, at the bottom of them. was a note.
"Dont come looking for us bella,
i miss you. we miss you, he misses you.
Be with your family.
A."
alice. alice. it was alice, alice was here.
I promise to remember Bella Each time I trip for no reason.
And I promise to remember Edward Whenever I covet something.
I promise to obey traffic laws For Charlies sake of course
And I promise to remember Jacob When I see a smile that lights up my whole day
I promise to remember Carlisle
Whenever I am in the Emergency Room
And I promise to remember Emmett Every time there's a huge boom
I promise to to remember Rose Whenever I see something that holds pure beauty
And I promise to remember Alice When I'm at a mall and a cute outfit spots me
I promise to remember Nessie When I see my child for the first time and tell it i प्यार it
And I promise to remember Esme When someone tells me they care
I promise to remember Jasper Whenever I see someone constantly in pain =)
And I promise to remember the Volturi When someone speaks of dominating the world
I swear i will प्यार Twilight everyday of my life for the rest of my life
And I promise to remember Edward Whenever I covet something.
I promise to obey traffic laws For Charlies sake of course
And I promise to remember Jacob When I see a smile that lights up my whole day
I promise to remember Carlisle
Whenever I am in the Emergency Room
And I promise to remember Emmett Every time there's a huge boom
I promise to to remember Rose Whenever I see something that holds pure beauty
And I promise to remember Alice When I'm at a mall and a cute outfit spots me
I promise to remember Nessie When I see my child for the first time and tell it i प्यार it
And I promise to remember Esme When someone tells me they care
I promise to remember Jasper Whenever I see someone constantly in pain =)
And I promise to remember the Volturi When someone speaks of dominating the world
I swear i will प्यार Twilight everyday of my life for the rest of my life
On her website, Stephenie Meyer कहा that this is the संगीत playlist that she envisioned for Twilight. She also कहा that she would always listen to these songs WHILE लेखन Twilight!=
1. "Why Does it Always Rain on Me?" — Travis
2. "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" [video edit] — My Chemical Romance
3. "Creep" [radio edit] — Radiohead
4. "In My Place" — Coldplay
5. "By Myself" — Linkin Park
6. "Dreaming" — OMD
7. "Please Forgive Me" — David Gray
8. "Here With Me" — Dido
9. "With You" [reanimation remix] — Linkin Park
10. "Time is Running Out" — Muse
11. "Dreams" — The Cranberries
12. "Tremble for My Beloved" — Collective Soul
13. "Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel)" — Billy Joel
There आप have it! :D
1. "Why Does it Always Rain on Me?" — Travis
2. "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" [video edit] — My Chemical Romance
3. "Creep" [radio edit] — Radiohead
4. "In My Place" — Coldplay
5. "By Myself" — Linkin Park
6. "Dreaming" — OMD
7. "Please Forgive Me" — David Gray
8. "Here With Me" — Dido
9. "With You" [reanimation remix] — Linkin Park
10. "Time is Running Out" — Muse
11. "Dreams" — The Cranberries
12. "Tremble for My Beloved" — Collective Soul
13. "Lullaby (Goodnight, My Angel)" — Billy Joel
There आप have it! :D