Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. आप come घर from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So आप go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over आप take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. आप grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, आप close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell आप dinners ready. आप don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is आप laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake आप up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake आप up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting अगला to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The अगला दिन at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few सेकंड्स for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean लोकप्रिय girls, they think of all the things they’ve कहा to you. That boy that used to tease आप and call आप names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling आप how beautiful आप really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that आप told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped आप before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what आप were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for आप to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know आप killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just कहा आप died. It hurts him, a lot. आप were his big sister, आप were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease आप cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to प्यार anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your फ्रेंड्स all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like आप did, but she tried… your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what आप did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in बिस्तर all day. People care. आप may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t end your life, आप have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if आप give up. I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who आप are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, I’m here for you.
I've compiled a सूची of all of the names we've created (so far). I'll add to it as we come up with new ideas.
> Perry/Nathaniel = Perennial
> Jo/Alec = Jolec
> Kaitlyn/James = Jaitlyn Marpotter
> Priya/Jericho = Jeya/Pericho/Pericha? (we're still working on that one at the moment)
> Primrose/Louis = Precious
> Primrose/Hugo = Prugo
> Primrose/James = Pames
> Emma/Stephen = Stepha
If आप guys decide to change any on the names, let me know in the "Comments" section. And if आप haven't figured out what to use for your ship, keep working on it!
> Perry/Nathaniel = Perennial
> Jo/Alec = Jolec
> Kaitlyn/James = Jaitlyn Marpotter
> Priya/Jericho = Jeya/Pericho/Pericha? (we're still working on that one at the moment)
> Primrose/Louis = Precious
> Primrose/Hugo = Prugo
> Primrose/James = Pames
> Emma/Stephen = Stepha
If आप guys decide to change any on the names, let me know in the "Comments" section. And if आप haven't figured out what to use for your ship, keep working on it!