I was 13 when i had my first love.not my first boyfriend but someone i actually loved.
    
My name is Elisabeth Maddison,but everyone calls me "shinigami" it means " god of death",for my 13th birthday my older cousin Geettto took me to his gig.He plays lead गिटार and vocals for their band. He kept telling me how much they kick butt and all the battle of the bands they won. I just kept walking in the rain as it poured down flooding the sky. We got to the place,it was an old former shed for shipping trucks. The small factory behind it turned into a संगीत store.They give local bands all kinds of supplies.Geetto rented the shed for their new show.they shed was huge. there must have been over 1,000 प्रशंसकों in there.the house lights were almost blinding.over the chatter i could hear my cousin check the mics.

geetto on mic: testing testing....1-2-3-658-7894 yes ladies that's my number

girls giggle

Geetto: alright I'm just about done here I'll be on stage in a min ladies so sit tight

my cousin is so weird.when he's not practicing for the band he's doing martial arts training,working at one of his 3 part time jobs.which is a host,a bus boy,or......I'll tell आप later.
a few मिनटों later the lights dined and a spot light turned on.then another and another.the बास played first.this guy had skills.then came in the drums,keyboard and Geetto shouting out to his fans.

Geetto: WHATS UP,PEOPLE!!!

प्रशंसकों SCREAM

he then reached for his गिटार behind his back and played like a pro.there was so much energy it was unbelievable.i looked up on stage at his band. i only heard them play a couple times so i never saw them.there was the ढंढोरची, ढोलकिया who looked like Buddha. the keyboardist had a wild Mohawk,Getto was well,ghetto and then there was the bassist. cool and calm he wasn't bouncing around like the keyboardist या Geetto. he just stood there playing.after they played 3 songs. they sat there instruments down. came right up to the front of the stage,bowed and as they came back up they did ऐनीमे poses and screamed at the चोटी, शीर्ष of their lungs " thank आप for coming"they got offstage so the अगला band could go on.i was too busy looking at the empty stage that that i didn't hear geetto and the guys coming.geetto put his hand on my shoulder.

Geetto: हे sis.

we're like brother in sis since my parents took him in when he ran away from home.

me:hey G.you guys rocked up there.

G: thanks. i want आप to meet the band.spike,buzz and kira,this is our # 1 fan,Shinigami.

spike was the youngest at 16.he was very thin so thin that i could see his ribs.buzz was totally different, he was so...uh...big boned he almost made a perfect circle.buzz also had no hair at 18,the oldest. geetto and kira were the same age, 17, and played many different instruments.Kira was a Lil taller,had long black hair and red eyes.he was also kinda pale. they all कहा hi to me and we talked. i forgot what about but all i remember is the sound of the guitars raoring,the smell of the cheep खाना and the lights clashing on stage.
after the show,around midnight,we all went back to thier "club house" it was Geetto's aprtment not too far from the shed bujt far enogh so we couldn't hear the bands when we slept.it was an old multi leveled apartment building. but since it's so old and rumored that it's huanted,nobody lived there except Geetto.not even repair guys come so Geetto knows how to fix the pipes and stuff.i was making खाना for the guys in the kitchen,geetto was in the bathroom trying to unclog the toilet for the hundreth time.spike and buzz were in the game room playing games like गिटार hero,Grand theft auto,Halo and other stuff. while chopping green onions for the mega मकई के नमकीन, nachos geetto loves,Kira came in.

K: हे does the water in here work?

me: ya, आप need a drink?

K: ya.

me: ya but the handles are mess up. so the one
that says cold is hot and hot is cold.

K: wow. the pluming here must suck.

me: sometimes.

K: um where do आप guys keep the cups?

me: here I'll दिखाना you.

i reached up in the cupboard for a glass.i couldn't reach so i tried stepping on the counter.i slipped and as soon as i got it i fell.Kira caught me in his arm like a dance partner dipping. we just stayed like that. i got really embarrassed and handed him the cup not looking at him.

K: thanks.

after he got a drink he sat back down on the सोफ़ा, सोफे with the others.geetto came in drenched.
the others laughed at the sight of him.i was going to stop them and get him a towel then he started laughing too. i could never understand guys.it was getting late and everyone was drunk.except Kira.he seems to be able to hold his drinks.while they were all being nuts i picked up after them like I'm their mother. once again he came in and helped.while i was washing dishes he kissed me.it was a surprise so i tried escaping.he held me close चुंबन me more.i gave up.we locked lips in what felt like hours.i looked into his big soulful eyes.i didn't know much at the time but i knew there was a connection. in the morning with the evil sun blazing through the window i woke up to find me laying on Kira's chest,naked. i forgot how we got there but...it was pretty obvious.Kira got up and reached for his pack of cigarettes .

me: morning.

K:hey.

me: um here's your stuff.

K: thanks.

me: so...um i was wondering....

K: what happened was just a mistake. it didn't
mean to go this far.I'm sorry but i have a girlfriend.

after that he just got up.got dressed and sobered up the guys. i took a shower,got dressed and left.i lived with my folks not to far.when i got back i ate with mom and pops,did homework,etc. the kind of stuff a teenage girl did.i got a call on my cell from my friend Erica.us and a few others are part of a all girl gang.we formed an alliance with Geetto's gang.they give us protection and we give them a good time.before we used to be rivals. all boy vs. all girl.anyway Erica called wanting to go the mall.when we got there people stepped out of our way.i could hear them whispering " look, it's the demon queen. i hear even though she's a little girl,she killed a man"well that's half true.that's another story.

E: so how was the show? sorry i couldn't go. my patrol officer wanted to check up on me again.

me: the दिखाना was great.

E: ....whats with that look on your face?

me: what look?!there's no look?!

E: there's a look.

me: what do ya mean?

E: come on, what happened?

me: well i met my brother's band mates.

E: boring....

me: and they all got drunk at the after party

E: who doesn't?

me: and i...kisses his best friend/bassist.

E:.....and? is there more?

me: nope.

E: spill!

me: we went in da sack! there!!!

E:.....!!!...so it wasn't your first.

me: don't tell G. आप know how short his temper is
when it comes to anything about me.

E; alright i wont tell.so..was he good? ( ; 3)

me: shut up Erica!!!! ( > /// < )

we were there pretty much the whole day.while looking around in Hot Topic, we ran into the guys.Geetto's gang.his gang was full of the type of gangsters आप see in anime.along with the guys from the band.

me: हे Erica why don't आप help me try this goth Lolita चोटी, शीर्ष on.

E: what? आप don't like Lolita.

i pulled Erica down behind the clothes rack

me: there here.

E: who?

me: them..you know..HIM!

E: oooh "them" so?

me: well..i..just..freka...aaaaah!

E:...? आप ok boss?

she stood up just as geetto came.i dashed though the crowds to the music

G: हे Erica!

E: oh हे geetto!

G: whatz up?

E: nothing just shopping.your Lil sis told me
about your दिखाना last night,sorry i had stuff to do.

G: nah it's fine.so where is she?

E: i don't know.she was here a while ago,probably
trying on stuff.

while they talk Kira found me looking at the music.

K: hey.

me:.....

K: आप gonna ignore me now?

me:......

K: look what i कहा was harsh i know but...

i looked at him.gave him the कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला eyes.

K:....GAH! don't look at me like that! geez why is it so hard to talk to you?!

me: ..tee hee. *laugh*

K: what's so funny?

me: when i saw आप on stage आप seemed kinda a
snob.now your so....ha ha ha

K: i guess i need to lighten up a bit.can't believe my stupid little brother's right.

me:you have a brother?

K: ya the guy with the Mohawk. COME HERE SPIKE!!

spike: yo!

K: this is my Lil brother.

spike: hi-ya. oh. आप that girl from the party. i
remember you. eh...what was your name....

if आप wanna know what spike sounds like....hold आप nose and sound kinda squeaky. got it? good. due to medical problems spike sounds like that.

me: I'm Shinigami.

K:...!

spike: oh! what a pretty name.

K: हे spike i think i saw an ऐनीमे plushy over
there.go see.

spike: okaaay!!!

....

K: so your name's Shinigami huh?

me: ya.

K: really cause this says Elisabeth.(looking at my
school I.D.)

me: हे give that back! look nobody calls me द्वारा first name except few trusted फ्रेंड्स and boyfriends.

K: so in that case i need your trust.well mind if i take आप out somewhere?

me: why? i thought आप had a girlfriend?

K: nah! i just कहा that to see your reaction.sorry about that.so mind if i take आप to dinner?

me: um...no...i guess.

G: हे SIS THERE आप ARE!!! हे how about आप and me go egg houses like we used to?!

me: um sorry i got homework and chores to do.

G: how about you,Kira,wanna egg houses,smash mail boxes, T.P trees?

K: nah i gotta another mafia lesson with papa.

yes kira's dad is a mafia leader but due to the American government, there very secretive.Kira's dad has Italian mafia in him, and his mother family served and where Yakuza members.so Kira has a faint Italian accent in him, Japanese skin,but mostly American.

G: man this sucks. * phone goes off* huh?...hello?
oh हे Yuki-san.....uh-huh,uh-huh,OK.ya I'm coming.OK bye...what?..really....sigh. fine. I'm coming master.....better? alright I'm going*click* हे looks like i gotta go to work.see ya sis, come see me some time.

me: OK
...

K: i can't belie you're related to that idiot.

me: what do ya mean?

K: i mean आप two are so different.

me: well we're cousins.but ever since we were
kids we've been like siblings.

K: sigh. i see.

me: so how did आप meet the idiot?

K: back in junior high.i was slapping some base
while spike was on the electric गिटार rocking out.i looked up and saw that goof ball looking at as like he was starstruck. he kept going on that he wanted to play with us. i kept turning him down.i got so irritated that to shut him up i कहा " if आप can beat me in a fight, you're in". and that's what happened. before we started he looked like some innocent little kid,like he couldn't hurt a fly, but then, he changed.he was busting out all kinds of martial arts.Chinese,Japanese,Brazilian,etc. i admit i was impressed.luckily spike came in to save my ass. he was yelling " why don't आप fight the toughest guy here?! the Buzz Saw".

me: ha ha ha the buzz saw?

K: ya it was buzz's nick name back then.he was
that fat bully आप see in almost every school. big stomach, little brains.anyway Geetto went up to him at lunch. and it was an awesome fight. even though geetto was 1/2 his size, he still beat buzz up. he flew in the air above his head, and threw a kick to the back of buzz's head,knocking him to the ground.the blow must of did something to his brain because after that, he was the buzz he is now.

me: wow.so where are आप taking me?

K: oh a little place i know, serves great पास्ता and sushi.

me: पास्ता and raw fish? i gotta see this.

we get to this little place called East and West.we went in and on one side was the Italian flag and जापान on the other.we sat at a तालिका, टेबल in the middle. for a small place there were a lot of people.it had a very calming feel to it.we sat there chatting then a beautiful older woman came to us in a elegant dark blue kimono.

lady: hello kids,what would आप like to eat?

K: हे mom.

me: what?

this lady is his mom?!

K: hmm....I'll have the house special.what do आप want? आप can have anything.

me: um...I'm fine with just...uh....

lady: how about the प्रेमी spaghetti?

K: nah just get 2 houses.

lady: alright.

K: sorry about my mom.she thinks when ever i bring a girl here,we're dating.

me: so bring girls here offten?

K: nah. not really.

there's something different about him.usually when a guy takes a girl to dinner,he tries to make a pass, but he's being a gentleman.hmm. maybe good guys do exist.

me: so what's your parents' names?

K: my mom's Yoko,and my dad's Damion.

me: you're bi-racial?

K: yep. Italian and Japanese.

me: cool. I'm a sort of a Mexican mutt.

K: interesting.(he smirks)

we had fun talking together.we laughed all night.i never had this much fun with a guy.after we ate we walked around the park at night just as the sun was setting.we stopped in front of the huge water fountain. the lights glowed under the water. he held my hand,whispered in my ear and the moment the water busted out the top, he kissed me with और प्यार than he ever have.it was like a dream i never want to wake from. we walked back to my apartment hand in hand.i was kinda tired so i leaned my head on his shoulder.he lead me up the steps and right to the door.he kissed my check and my hand.i went to my room and landed face-first in my cloudy pillow.what did he whisper in my ear that made me melt? he कहा and i quote" I प्यार आप Elizabeth, will आप be my one true love?"
sigh. i slept like a baby that night.the अगला morning was like any normal morning. i got up, took a shower,did my make up,picked out my clothes and went to school.except when i got there, somebody graffiti-ed all over the front of the school...I'm not going to say what it was cause of foul language. as soon as stepped on school grounds the blood hound principle, Mrs. Primpelle gave me her witchy scowl.

principle: आप DID THIS! आप VANDALIZED THE SCHOOL DIDN'T YOU?!

me: no i didn't!

Principle: yes आप did! this is last straw Miss maddison. get out of ma school. you're expelled!

this always happens i always get kicked out of school before home-coming.not that i really care.so with nothing to do i just walked around the neighborhood. i knew one place i could always go to,Geetto's place.
i skipped up the steps,got the key under the mat.and let myself in.i could hear him in the back having fun in his room.he always at least 1 fluezy here.when they were done she came out. a tall,very well proportioned young woman,probably in her mid 20's.she had long wavy silky black hair.her name was Danielle. but we call her Duffy या Double D Duffy.
Duffy: giggle. i had a great time tonight Geetto. ( she says seductively)
G: well I'm good at what i do.

Duffy: ooh. indeed आप are.oh! looks like आप got another one waiting.oh she looks young.

G: oh that's my Lil sis.

Duffy: well i gotta go.BA-bye geetto.* wink*

G: drive safe.... what are आप doing here? don't
आप have school?

me: i did but i got expelled again.

G: what happened?

me: some jerk wrote *bleep* all over the front of the school.

G:....wow. and your prick of a principle assumed it was आप and got आप expelled?

me: and that...prick of a principle expelled me!!!

G: so आप gonna crash here till school gets out?

me: ya. i can't tell mom this happened again. she's running out of schools for me.I'm a terrible daughter.

G: nah. you're just a rebel.you're the क्वीन of queens.

me: thanks.
just then his door घंटी, बेल rang.

G: I'll get it. ya? oh हे Kira.

me: *gulp* Kira?

K: सूखी घास, घास geetto. can i come in?

G: sure. हे look Lizzy, it's your boyfriend. ha ha ha

me: shut up we're not dating!

that was a lie.we kept the fact we were dating a secret from Geetto.when ever we meet in front of the guys kira acts like he's teasing me. but when were alone, he treats me like a princess. i usually hate guys like that, but somehow i don't mind when he pulled that stuff.
but when i got into high school, things changed.my dream that I've been living for 2 years turned into a nightmare. the summer of my 14 Th birthday,Geetto and Kira graduated out of high school with good grades for a bunch of punks who hate school.but that wasn't the bad part.the bad part was that as soon as the graduation parties were over Kira left for collage abroad in Italy.he's studding art.

when he left i felt so alone.to चोटी, शीर्ष it all off,my mom sent me to an all-girls school in Japan.it was the last school i could go to. it was either a private school या Jail.Geetto payed for everything with the money he got from his jobs.when i got on that plane i knew i was never going to see my फ्रेंड्स again.mom,dad,Geetto,Erica,the band,the gang, it was all slipping through my fingers.

when i landed some young woman was there to pick me up.she was kinda short and thin but very nice.she कहा her name was Kimiko Satto.she was one of the councilors.since it's an all girl school they also have all girl staff. there are a few boys, but they're the head master's sons. they're " घर schooled" they still learn the fundamentals while they work as dorm presidents.

there are 3 dorm buildings on campus. each 2 story. each has 2 -3 बिस्तर rooms. so at max there are 60 dorms so about 120 girls attend this all-girls private school.when we got there Kimiko-san gave me a tour.the पुस्तकालय was huge. over 2 thousand books! a huge glamorous cafeteria,which she wants me to call it the cafe` cause all the girls here are rich snobs. they have giant fields for every sport along with athletic and leisure pools.there's even a spa! she showed me my classroom. called the Starlight Room. अगला was my dorm.since all the kids and staff are wealthy beyond imagination, my room-mate wasn't there. but the dorm prez was. he was a nice guy. had designer glasses,and clothes. he looked liked the kinda guy back घर we called " preps"he introduced himself to me.his name was Kyota Matsuda. he gave me my key and showed me around inside.it was like my apartment back home, but with better furniture.it was like living on my own.i set my stuff down,unpacked and called my folks.after that he called.

me: hello?

K:hey, i heard आप हटाइए to japan.

me: ya.hows collage?

K: lonely with out you.

me: i see. but I'm sure आप got a bunch of girls there all over you.

K: look G कहा आप had guys cheat on आप a lot,so
always assume that whenever a guy is not around आप he must be cheating and fooling around.well I'm not like that. I'm serious when I'm in a relationship,especially when i want it to last forever.

me:....

K: आप probably just got there huh?

me: ya.

K: i see. how's japan?

me: good so far.

K: where is the dorm?

me: in Karuizawa.

K:....ha ha ha your school is in the dream resort part of japan?!

me: ya so?

K: ha ha ha.sigh. i miss आप Elle. how about on the अगला break,you give me a call and I'll see if i can catch the अगला flight?

me: you'll come all the way here just to see me?

K: of course, I'm your boyfriend aren't i?

me:y-yeah.

K: ha ha.listen i gotta go now,but as soon as I'm
free again I'll send आप a text,call me when you're free to talk OK?

me: OK,bye Kira.

K: bye

me: i प्यार you.

K: i प्यार आप too. bye.

it's been like this since he left.funny i don't remember telling him i was studying in japan? who told him?...Geetto.

I'm Elizabeth "shinigami" Nicole Maddison.
age: 16. sophomore at Matsuda Accadmey.
born in NYC.raised in queens.
currently in a relationship with Lindsy "Kira" Eric Thompson.
this is only the beginning of my story.