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Riku114 कहा …
A lot of me working on Impulse Control and managing compulsions is going "Do we actualky need to do this as much as we physically feel we do? No? Then dont do it. 'Just this last time' is never true and आप know it so start now. Go do something else and learn to sit with the discomfort. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Revolving looking up Danganronpa stuff and plucking, Ive actually managed to redirect and prevent myself from breaking to it and its actually been a pretty successful process to go through. Its had a like 100% success rate on a smalk impulse thing like Danganronpa but Im trying to apply it to Trich a bit और to see. The time I did it with Trich I dodnt pluck for like... five मिनटों एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
It personally might work and I might test it with some of my other compulsions एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Its also considered a type of Exposure Therapy I suppose? एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Story time

My boyfriend was being stupid and making stupid (yet hilarious) jokes while I was eating grapes and I just looked down at him cos he was in my lap and started trying to shove grapes in his mouth against his will to shut him and his bad (still hilarious) jokes up and all XD and he was like "NOOOO NOOOO NOOOO RAPEEEEE"

And I was like "NO ITS GRAPE" all seriously

Then there was a moment of silence before he lightly hit my head cos it was a stupid pun XD XD XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Seems like a pretty good one to me XD !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Also pretty sure बादल will survive cos 2 hours later hes back to living life like normal and tweeting at me when I checked up on him in the middle of the night XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
That is certainly great to know !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
खोजिए up the danganronpa characters in v3 आप wanna see तस्वीरें

Me: No I dont wanna risk spoilers

do it या else I will...

Chest: *tenses up*

Me: *sweating profusely* Well I mean... since आप are trying to use physical things to force my impulses.... I guess I have to tell आप to FUCK OFF. I am working on my impulse control. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
But yeah Im getting better at it. Ive been able to resist to the urge to look up V3 characters for the most part XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Not even for the most part एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I think entirely actually एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
That makes me proud !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
आप know I actually thought my mom was being a bit of a lazy bad owner when she कहा she would probably just flour it, but now that I'm thinking of it, she probably genuinely doesnt get the procedure to it.

Cause when I was doing it I have her hold him down so I can focus on pulling the feather, but she asked me how to hold him and restrain him and I was like "On his back, then stretch the wing out and hold it there with your fingers या other hand" पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Cos I thought it was common knowledge and/or instinctual for someone who had birds as long as her, but I think the procedure, as simple as I find it to be, probably seems a lot और complicated to someone who doesnt pretty much help out at the Wild Animal equivalent to the ER. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Lucy: *singing after I cover them up*

Me: *checks on them* Ugh go to sleep. आप have an elderly wounded bird there.

Lucy: Oh hi mom

Cloud: *looks over at me as if nothing just happened* Oh hi Riku

Me: >.> Well आप suddenly look all fine. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Just saved Cloud's life for the सेकंड time this month. This time it was REALLY bad though. He either fell off his branch when sleeping या got scared and jumped but he broke three blood feathers in his wings - two of which were primary feathers - and लॉस्ट two flight feathers without breakign them

The bottom of the cage, had blood everywhere and when I took him out I got blood all across my forearm and hand पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Hes lucky (and I am too) that he has a future bird vet as an owner cos I respond really quickly and am good at handling it. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
My mom even admitted if it was her she would have just floured the wing and hoped for the best over the night एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Ill update आप all tomorrow if I remember if he survived. He seems happy and relaxed now so I think I got all of it and it stopped bleeding एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Man... Imma miss my boyfriend when I go off to college. Without him who will make the stupid unnecessary over done jokes and being संपूर्ण, कुल मिलाकर a cute stupid jackass? Who will take the jokes I set up and make the stupid joke I was intending to be said? WHO WILL BE MY PARTNER IN CRIME FOR MAKING THE WORLD CRINGE AT JOKES THAT ARE SO BAD THEY ARE GREAT?!?!?! पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Btw when it comes to him "Jackass" is a compliment and kinda akin to "smartass" XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
But seriously Imma set up so many jokes irl out of habit and no one is going to take them and Ill be sitting there sad. Like we never planned it या organized it but we run this duo of me pretty much making a lot of set up jokes for stupid commentary या puns या whatever XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Honestly this is all so silly. When आप think about it. Kinda childish at it too.

I should stop playing around and just fully leave it behind. Its a waste of my time and energy. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
*When आप think about it, kinda एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Good riddance एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Honestly, if I wasn't so aware its not what I want and its temporary, my parents would literally make me want to kill myself. The way they act just get me into a "I just hate it all. Fuck it its not worth trying." moodset and if I didnt have a natural flowing "Its only temporary and youll be out of the house soon and able to live your life", Id get into major depressive modes and probably borderline suicidal so often because of them पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Oh yeah huh, I just remembered I was literally triggered द्वारा a really small happy thing at my boyfriends house earlier today and pretty much distracted myself out of it so I wouldnt fall into a panic attack या anything XD

Seriously tho. I dont think I can say I dont have PTSD at least to a degree no matter how much my brain wants to tell me I dont XD I literally got triggered द्वारा my boyfriend's dad hugging and being affectionate to the toddler theyve been nanny-ing for two years पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Like at first such a small thing was like "wait what the fuck" and then from there it just hit like a train and was not fun but Im like... the best at dissociation and distracting myself and kinda brought myself back as I hurridly forced myself to NOT think about it no matter what anytime it started coming into my head एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Like yikes I barely remember it but yikes एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
HA IM NOT A FRESHMEAT IN COLLEGE TECHNICALLY. MY AP SCORES HAVE ME LISTED AS A SOPHOMORE FITE ME पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Mmm... Fresh blood !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Me: If she really manages to do get us as roommates, I am going to get her flowers, no question.

Roommate: SAME. If she manages to help us out of the 500 other students trying to get help, we have to do something

Me: I mean... do आप think... we could get the band??? I mean its my always go to as a bando, but we are freshmen and lack connections so would we able to pull that off so early?

Us: Screw it. We will do it. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Update: Still struggling to understand psychosis to the level I wish to. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I honestly प्यार my roommate tbh पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I mean the one that will be my roommate - not my current ones XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Me: I need to get back to learning / figuring out 3D Modeling at some point

Boyfriend: आप do realize आप dont need to have EVERY skill and EVERY hobby in existence right? पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
It is kinda funny when you're making that post with that specific आइकन !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^ .... okay that is true XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I give like at least 50% of credit / blame to my extreme burst in drive to Kevin Laue.

Cos seriously I wasnt so gunho about it until he spoke at my school on a दिन I was really kinda depressed and his speech brought forth my first firm goal and plan for the ideology of "Passing the Torch" that I have still to today

And just like the goal and planning and actively reaching for that was so satisfactory that I just branched it out into so many other things पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I need to watch his documentary at some point. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Within all my memory issues and everything, I will have him have a permanent name in my book of my life. He lit my torch as Im sure he has many others. Hes a truely remarkable man. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Honestly part of the reason Im as driven as I am is I strongly appreciate action over words. आप can SAY आप will graduate. आप can SAY आप will eat better. आप can SAY आप wont be a dick. आप can SAY आप will eat only one और chip. आप can SAY आप will listen and help. आप can SAY आप wont force someone to do something.

Its a whole other thing about actually doing it. I respect people who actually do rather than just talking या just planning. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
That plus आप really never get anywhere if आप just talk and make promises to others and yourself if आप arent willing to actually take active action to follow through एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Oh and birds duh एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Personally I wont say my drive is necessarily 100% good and I wont say I am not sometimes scared of how extreme it can be, but Im also not gonna say I dont think its good for me. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Pretty much Munakata is honestly a pretty good representation of me put under a lot of responsibility and pressure, put in a dire action-calling situation, with an ego put on चोटी, शीर्ष of it.

I think the main issue thats in his hands is he believes hes is the ONE and ONLY Hope.

But nah Munakata is almost creepily like me. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Me: *making predictions on Danganronpa V3 characters* "Well she has the ahegao that all the main protagonists hav- .... backtrack. I am pretty sure ahegao is not the antennae but that hentai mind break thing. That would be an extremely different thing and image. One second"

Me: "Ah Ahoge. That sounds right." पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Also RIP Jet Black's account पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Oh boiii... We'll be seeing him in a new Account a few days from now at least, I guess !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
BlindBandit92 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Not surprised. Dude can't figure out which यूज़रनाम he wants लोल एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
JetBlack__ टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^ I need to stop XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Me: हे can I get some help, I was put in a triple with people that give me extreme anxiety cos of my GAD and PTSD and I could use some सलाह how to get out

ई मेल I get in Response: Triple dorms arent bad! Heres why they arent bad!

Me: .... thanks.... i guess...? पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I swear my stress level will be at a constant like... two notches higher than it usually is until I get verified that I am at least in a better room placement या even better if Im in a room with my roommate.

Like its not horrible but Imma be constantly having that bugging me in the back of my head.

If I didnt get better at handling my anxiety it would be killing me, but since Im better at it, its not THAT bad. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I literally wish I could put "Literally just give me and my roommate a kinda nice cardboard box and we will both be happy" एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
link एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
THAT COULD BE US DAVIS BUT आप ARE IN THE WAY एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
"Welp [redacted] is gonna die. Shes been too supportive and too likable."

*[redacted] isnt killed*

"Welp i didnt call it I gue-"

*[redacted] died another way*

"RING RING MOTHERFUCKER. I CALLED IT" पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
The Death Flag had been raised. Its vibes were too strong !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Me: Yo Lefteris what episode are we on? 7 या 8?

Lefteris: About to see 8. .... WAIT 9 DAMN IT RIKU

Me: :v shhh my memory is crap. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
wait shit I forgot to put Lefteris' exclamation marks. Its not accurate :V एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Wait if we were gonna see 8 why didnt we bring ducks- //shot// एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Lmao. ^ We are going to bring the ducks once they get through the Games !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
आप know, earlier I was at Walmart getting like... college stuff and there was this health machine thing to see your age in health and I always take those just mostly out of tradition and all XD

And for the first time in a long time the सवालों like "How often this महीना have आप been depressed" या "felt like things were going horribly wrong" या "felt आप couldnt keep up / manage your stress" and stuff like that to which I was able to say "rarely" या "none at all" पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Well I doubt none at all cos Im a mental health mess and I do tend to have it at least a bit and all, but like man... एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Ever since I started being most dedicated to myself and my health above all else - academics, achievement, and other people - my life has been wonderful. Never thought it was possible before to be completely honest एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
That's certainly good to know. The progress आप have made and will continue to do so is always great to see !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
[its so weird my dad keeps complimenting me over my skill with money and future planning]

[im not used to compliments from him]
पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
WHY DO I LIKE LOOKING FOR JOBS FOR MY BOYFRIEND

WHY DO I LIKE MANAGING AND PLANNING FINANCES

WHY DO I LIKE DOING ADULT-Y STUFF

ITS NOT NATURAL पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
My boyfriend टिप्पणियाँ a lot on how Im honestly a bit of a schmoozer. And like... Im not entirely denying it. I प्यार getting along with the people in charge, but its just because I like to be involved in leadership stuff if Im not the leader and because people who lead tend to be the type of people I get along with the best.

Its not like I am doing it for the benefits alone, its just the natural way I am. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
If Im not the leader या admin, I like to be the moderator या help them like a moderator. Helps keep things in order since I know its hard even for them, and it helps them understand and work with me if they know me एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Thus why I tend to be similar to the 'teachers pet' and 'favorite regular' at places. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I was honestly a sociopath या something a few years ago. So glad I woke myself up from that एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Debating what game to play now that I finished Pandora...

I really wanna start Zero Escape: Zero Time Dilemma, but Imma start Danganronpa V3 in probably like... a महीना या less and I dont think I should tire myself of that Genre

Hakuoki is too long to start with Danganronpa coming up and Psycho Pass I need to watch the ऐनीमे first. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
So then I have Root Double, Her Smile Beyond the Twilight, Mayajasmine, Eden, and Blood Code. Could always go back and do और of Sickness या give Men of Yoshiwara another torturous go या do और of Pastry प्रेमी but.... eh एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I think Ill go with Her Smile Beyond the Twilight एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Since आप loved Danganronpa, I'm pretty sure आप are really going to like Zero Escape as well. They share quite a few similarities between them. Totally recommend it !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
And so we begin my transition into college where college will be my main focus and integrating and adjusting will be the main focus until the end of the first quarter around like... December या whatever XD

Gotta get all I need for college together
Gotta get my roommate stuff settled out
Gotta go to band camp
Gotta adjust my relationship for long distance
Gotta get used to the campus and classes
Gotta make good friends
Gotta figure out communal bathroom life
etc etc पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Fuck it XD Since my brain is up for an anxiety attack cos of this, Imma just drop the conversation and head straight to the people in charge of student housing with the issue.

Rather than waiting या sitting on it and contemplating, Imma just get information right from the source. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Riku's all fun, nice, charismatic, and someone people like to be around, but that is only until something that is perceived as a threat enters the situation. Then its cold, questioning, sometime crude and harsh, and संपूर्ण, कुल मिलाकर distant and distrustful until कहा perceived threat is either gone या satiated.

Then its also a matter of if my logical side says "Yes, it is a threat" "Not sure if it is या isnt" या "Stfu आप are stupid. Its not a threat" पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Those three determine how much of a filter is on the cold swap and how hard I stick to / try to get out of my defensive mode XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
.... is my brain literally considering going on an anxiety attack over this??? Stfu brain XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
It wants to hide behind "comfortable roommate" XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Me: Ugh thats an annoying way. Ah well, lets work with it. And be nice in case we do end up with the-

Brain: ITS A THREAT. ITS AN ATTACK. HISS. HISS. DEFENSIVE. DONT TRUST. DONT TRUST. DEFENSE DEFENSE

Me: ...

Me: .... Lets be nice and be charismati-

Brain: THREAT. DONT TALK. IGNORE. AVOID. DEFENSIVE. DEFENSIVE. DONT LIKE. DONT LIKE.

Me: Its okay not to like it but we still need a good first impression. Also its not an actual threa-

Brain: THREEEEAAAAATTTT

Me: ... >.> okay पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Literally though XD I hate how they approached me so much XD It puts me in such a corner and I dont like feeling like Im in a corner. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Im in such a defensive mode right now एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
My brain with its trust issues, extreme vulnerability issues, and shit is irrationally पढ़ना it as a personal attack and threat XD Its so stupid XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
AH FUCK MAN.

Im fine with it when its on here and all but unexpected, unsolicited approaches to me related to things and people I have to deal with irl spook the fuck out of me and put me on guard so damn quickly

I like to watch, analyze, and select for at least a few मिनटों before interacting

Strangers suddenly trying to be my friend without me having anything to look after before hand and even और so when I wasnt expecting it is just ugh. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I got put into a Triple dorm apparently with two people I dont know and they approached me before I even knew assignments were out using my personal phone number >.> एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Requests to switch are apparently common and apparently decently handled most of the time but yikes. 0/10 poor way to start an interaction with me :v Two people I dont know ganging up on me and tlaking like they already know each other :v एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
ESPECIALLY if Im not the one that brought it together एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Me: Man Im tired. Long drive and too tired to explain stuff

Also Me: Imma research jobs for the अगला two hours to make my boyfriend's life easier.

Also Me After That: Now to start planning my college finances

Me: This is fun and relaxing. *not sarcastic* पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Also dude, I got my oldest sister to agree to buy me a $32 Cockatiel साज़, दोहन, हार्नेस so Lucy will be slowly trained to be a bird I can go on walks from. Its a bit of a stretch tho since I know hes a hardcore agoraphobic rn XD

If I cant get him comfortable with going out on my shoulder द्वारा the time CMHS' band camp starts, then Ill jsut bring Smokey to my old children since she used to go out with me WITHOUT a साज़, दोहन, हार्नेस and didnt fly off पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Good old times with Smokey when she was younger and less flock-orientated and और of a companion bird XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
She had और energy and could handle going out better cos she was younger and I didnt have to worry much at all of her flying away XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
IM घर HALLELUJAH.

The trip was A LOT of fun. Something of the most fun and relaxing vacations Ive had in a while, and thats coming from me, someone who tends to hate and, और accurately put, fear vacations XD

Plus I got Pandora Hearts completed since I downloaded it before hand and wow that was a great ending XD Made my mood even better for that night that I slept

Plus spending four nights and three full days (five partial) with my boyfriend and his family is always awesome पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Welcome back, Riku. Glad to know about your progress and that आप had a good time !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
GDragon612 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
annyeong Riku, thats good to know that आप are doing great!!! And I am happy आप had alot of fun and sleep एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
GDragon612 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
and आप enjoyed ya trip with fam and playing hehe<3 एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
This drive back is literally the worst :v Its normally a 6-8 घंटा drive and I think its now nearly a 12 घंटा one due to traffic पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Rikus on her way back घर bb पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Have a सुरक्षित return, Riku. Hope आप enjoyed yourself to the fullest !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
2ntyoneplts कहा …
Hi its been a while. Im just here to quickly say a big thanks for everything youve done. Carry on. So this is goodbye from me dude. Im leaving. So ya take care. Stay Alive <3 ||-// पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Youre welcome <3 Im glad I could help. Feel free to come द्वारा whenever. This club, my inbox, and the Mental Health मंच is always there with open arms for आप एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Off camping for a while. Prolly wont be on mich for the अगला few days पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Have fun, Riku. Get the most out of it !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
JetBlack_ टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Have fun :D be सुरक्षित 🏕 एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Thanks XD प्यार yall एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I relate to Nagito drooling over Izuru Kamukura there. Like wowza.

I think Nagito and Munakata summarize my personality pretty well. Then आप could put either Toko या Izuru in to add extra touches. या both. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Same for me with the last two although a little bit और than extra touches. Anyway, both it is. They synchronize pretty well XD !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
[forgot she had like four hours of on and off panic attacks today until Zeppie asked her about it cos she saw the post]

"The Glory of My Memory" XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
But yeah, I felt like I can talk about my boyfriend a tad bit और since some of आप have been curious about it a bit and Ive been rather restrained on the topic until lately.

Itll die down a bit once this whole "Opening the door about the relationship to the public" phase fades through, but until then, the door to know about my relationship और is open XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Cos hes a big part of my life and theres a lot to say about him after being together for nearly a year. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Just a like... two months off. October 20th is the anniversary, which I only remember because the half years is 420 and I'm a child like that. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Its kinda creepy but mostly awesome. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Panic Attacks ; All दिन पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Shoutout to Lucy and my boyfriend for most of the दिन support एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
JetBlack_ कहा …
Guys
since I'm really bored right now I'll post some questions__ Enjoy ^^ पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Yass एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Much appreciated, Comrade. Your सवालों are always a treat XD !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
JetBlack_ टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Np :D एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I am so sleeping in tomorrow

...

inb4 I wake up an घंटा earlier than usual naturally पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
To a degree, pain, suffering, depression, and struggle is pleasant. Its a comfortable usual. Its the normal. Its an actual emotion.

When compared to the nothingness I used to have, या the struggle and even greater pain and all that comes with trying to get better, in a way, pain and suffering are the और pleasant and enjoyable of the two.

In that way, I very much can understand not wanting to get better and personally am not the type to say those that dont want to recover are fake पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
((Even though I might slip it through my mouth in the rage of the people that think mental health is a cool trend and self diagnose unrealistically and make jokes of mental health issues)) एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Despair, in a way, is comfortable. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
But thats just a tangent off of the पूर्व post XD Its not directly related but like.. a tangent of a thought that came up when I was thinking of the last post XD So like a tangent of a tangent एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Also STRONGLY related to Izuru Kamakura at a point in my life. Not AS much anymore cause Ive recovered from shit a good deal and found a lot of great things but like... I totally get it man XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Shocking to say, I dont ENTIRELY hate older Monaca या at least... Post Nagito Monaca. I still have major gripes with her in DRAE but her character seems a little LESS 24/7 extremely ear grating and like she was created to piss me off.

Thank आप Nagito for fixing her up a little bit. I can always rely on you. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Ah honestly, itll be such a relief when September comes around and I can go off to Davis. A lot of my toxic environments vanish pretty well या minimize greatly and Ill actually be able to be me fully in my life. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
AHH. I DID PROGRESSSS

IM SO HAPPY IM NOT KIDDING YOU. I KEPT IT OFF THE CLUB BECAUSE I SOUND SO JADED AND SHIT AT TIME BUT MAN WAS I REALLY LOOSING FAITH BEFORE THIS.

LIKE I WAS FULLY UNDERSTANDING THAT IT WOULDNT GO AWAY UNTIL I लॉस्ट ALL THINGS HOLDING ME BACK AND ALL TRAUMA WAS PROCESSED BEFORE I EVEN GOT SOMETHING LIKE THIS

AND ITS BACK

I FORGOT THAT TRICH USED TO BE A HUGE DEAL FOR ME पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
COS I SHUT OUT HOW BADLY IT FELT TO FAIL AND REALIZED I COULDNT HELP IT AND ACCEPTED IT FOR MY OWN SANITY एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
This is certainly worthy of sharing, Riku. One's improvement is never a small matter. आप still hold room for so much more. Be glad for every step आप take along that path. Once again, I'm really happy for आप !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
BlindBandit92 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^ एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
GUYS IM LIKE MAKING PROGRESS ON MY TRICHOTILLOMANIA FOR THE FIRST TIME IN AGES I THINK पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
INSTEAD OF MAGICALLY FINDING MY HAND PLUCKING HAIR, I HAVE THREE TIMES TODAY FOUND MY HAND MAGICALLY PLAYING WITH MY STIM TOYS एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I SAY THREE मिनटों COS IM SLEEPING SOON एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
IF I CAN STOP SCREAMING एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
On other notes, super hyped for DCI finals tomorrow with my boyfriend XD

Ill finally be free to watch all of them XD Hopes for SCV winning पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Since the private message was rejected, I am highly uncomfortable and not okay with Wanta continue his level of participation in this club and I would really like if people on here would help me in getting that respected since he refuses.

If Im being honest, if I cant feel comfortable in my own club which is like my home, Ill likely leave फैन्पॉप all together since seeing someone I have bad blood so frequently within a place I call घर is really not good for me. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I literally refused nothing btw एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Just an update. I broke the friendship with Wanta off. If any yall really want any specifics I might say in PM but for the most part its mostly just an update that I feel yall would wanna know पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
As my input on this. It had nothing to do with my earlier thing where I blanked my प्रोफ़ाइल and icon. That was an unrelated financial issue. In addition this was a mutual decision Riku and I both came to. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
TFW आप are managing three really important focus demanding conversations at once and after doing so for like... half an घंटा या more, आप literally start throwing out memories of what was going on in conversations.

I need to cool my brain for a bit XD It cant keep up पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I'm also wondering if I should post like... exactly 20 तस्वीरें so my life time सोना is 12,345 cos I like shit like that पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Question: Do आप bite your nails?

Me: *googling: Are humans supposed to have nails?* Its been so long I dont remember पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Also arching on the पूर्व topic a bit, I genuinely think the world is beautiful. Its shitty and unfair, but despite it, its still a beautiful place with so many opportunities to go through.

Its part of why I am driven. I have a limited pass into being part of it, and I want to do as much as I can in the time I have. I want the knowledge it offers. I want the games it gives. I want the art it permits. I want the प्यार it has to give. I want it all, and I cant get it, but I sure will try. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Those that follow my rambles on here a lot will probably remember when I would be like "Its odd, but its almost like a religion at this point that the world is beautiful. I can't see it, but I saw it once and have held onto the belief that its there for so long" and honestly... I think I got out of it. When I was depressed - like really really depressed and suicidal - that beauty was really hard to see. It was pretty much impossible and really hard to even imagine, but I do remember that one time I had among all the bad where I could see it, and stuck with it एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Now Im here and Im so glad I made it here. The struggle is worth it. To undertake extreme pain, discomfort, and worsening suffering to help clear the dirty that darkened and hid the beauty of the world from me, its all worth it. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I still cant say I 100% feel the world is सुरक्षित and that the world is perfect, but for the latter, its natural and just reasonable and for the former, its a work in progress. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Amen to that !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I honestly platonically प्यार my roommate already XD Like... I think I will genuinely be able to have a strong genuine friendship with her, and it baffles me to actually have someone other than my boyfriend near me that actually likes me and that I will be able to hang out with.

I used to be a huge person for arguing that online फ्रेंड्स are just as real as irl फ्रेंड्स (and dont get me wrong, they are), but theres something so special and great about being able to actually be अगला to them पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
To regularly hear them, be द्वारा them, laugh with them, and in the end actually be able to have physical affection like hugs. Like... maybe its my affection depraved self, but just being able to hug someone and to trust them and all... Its like a level of experiencing in the friendship that is hard to get online unless maybe if आप are frequently voice chatting and probably video chatting. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Eh एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I can understand those feelings. They are only natural. I'm really glad to see आप continue making progress and express yourself !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Be: *sprayed birds cos they liked it*

Me: *done* *sprays self twice*

Mom: Oh I can spray आप if आप go outside

Me: What? No! Stop treating me like a bird

Mom: *sprays me*

Me: हे NO *subconsciously moving closer to make it easier*

Me: *sends up full on letting her spray me cos it feels nice*

Me: ... Im a literal bird पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
*Me not Be एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog कहा …
Walmart: You’re not busy enough. We’re increasing how many orders आप get per day”

Me: Yaaaaaay.... पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Phew. After about 2 weeks of working on a hand made birthday present for my boyfriend, I am FINALLY entirely done. Probably banked in like... six घंटा into the smaller parts and like... an घंटा या two into crafting the entire thing, like an घंटा shopping for parts, about $15 into buying parts, and I super glued my fingers together so like...

I think that last one shows how much effort I put into it. Super glue is horrible XD

8-9 total like.. focused hours XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
If I hear "You sound like youve been sexually abused" from my mom one और time, may it be relatively innocent या not, may she back out of it या not, Imma go ballistic.

Im pretty sure this time was mostly cos shes been watching too much Law and Order SVU and I was genuinely in a really over excessive narrow visioned hatred making it remind her of scenes she saw on there and probably being a regular टिप्पणी दे so I didnt let it get to me too much after telling her how much I hate that line. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
But yeah she used to say it a lot ever since those dumb नितंब, गधा group therapists mentioned it after they saw me tear into them for forcing me to talk in front of my mom when they कहा they wouldnt force me if I wasnt comfortable एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog कहा …
Has everyone not yet figured out that I've isolated and taken the facial characteristics of every Danganronpa character in case I ever wanted to put them on things like frankenstein? पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
.... आप have too much time on your hands एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
That's certainl intriguing... एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog कहा …
Putting Chiaki's eyes on things is too much fun. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog कहा …
I'm mad. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
*pout* एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^ ''Welcome to our crazy world of madness'' !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
GDragon612 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
yupp welcome we sit all in the same नाव ^^ एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
So Imma prolly try to do a normal Sims game with no cheating या anything. I randomized two characters. We have an artist for a dad with some other बिना सोचे समझे traits and a कुदाल of a mom. The child will end up being the character I actually try to raise up properly. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
So my goal as parents is to make a not best standing for the kid starting to add to the challenge. Dad is the money maker with his artist career and the moms gonna be a cheating कुदाल XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
So the dads gonna be the one forced to actually be responsible for the kid and money for the most part XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Lets see how this goes एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Centuries have passed since I last played a Sims Game XD Seeing this, made me intrigued in it once again लोल !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog कहा …
Come on, Hajime. दिखाना us your cool side. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Hajime has always been pretty cool !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Honestly, the और आप deal with mental health, trauma, and a really shittily wired mind, the और आप develop a tolerance for really lame and boring trolling that आप cant escape tbh.

Cos like... its like a super annoying troll that knows all the things that can bother आप and is really good at dressing up like something whose opinion actually matters and whispers (and sometimes shouts) the same things that they know could bother you

And आप just sit there like... पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
link एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
0:10 एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
[this दीवार post was forgotten the सेकंड Riku came to write it so this is here द्वारा proxy] पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
So in the end, my goal is to have either an African Grey या Cockatoo from a rescue, my two Cockatiels, and a pigeon XD

Depending on how things go, I might get a Cockatoo and African Grey या maybe some other bird, but thats the plan for birds.

No one can tell me otherwise.

Id also like to have a bird room. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
One of the most amusing moments someone caught me doing is that one time when I was watching cockatoo वीडियो on my phone and it did one of those cute happy neck bounces, and then in response cos it made me happy and I found it cute, I did one as well XD

My boyfriend who was अगला to me just looked over and judged me XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Ill get to rating people tomorrow cos Im tired XD Long दिन since my boyfriends cat got euthanized पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Sorry to know about that. What I कहा before about your Bird, बादल applies in here as well. Hope his Cat lived a contented life. Its memories will remain !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
GDragon612 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
sleep well Riku hun<3 एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog कहा …
I can't describe it in words, but very often I find the wording choice used in Pandora Hearts to be something I kinda don't like...

Well..not that I don't like it but और that it feels off to me. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
"But is it what आप कहा true" एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
That's an example. Pretty sure it's just minor issues with the translation I'm reading. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Oh yeah I noticed that too. Im pretty sure its translation errors and all, but they are minor so I kinda ignore it XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Wow I actually found an ऐनीमे that intrigues me.... I might actually watch it while Wantas working despite पढ़ना Pandora Hearts and watching Danganronpa पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
FUCK ITS ONGOING एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I HATE LIFE XD I WONT BE INTERESTED द्वारा THE TIME ITS DONE एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Which one are आप talking about? एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Happy Sugar Life एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
My dad is literally stupid and so ignorant AND arrogant. Like he constantly makes the most outlandish and/or obviously wrong statements / beliefs to explain why he is right, then comes up with outlandish arguments and proof that in themselves are completely wrong and when आप prove him wrong he just ignores you.

He pulls so much bullshit out of his ass, but its like he doesnt even know it and is certain he is right. He believes FACTUALLY wrong things and gets annoyed when thats pointed out. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
He sounds like my 10 साल old little sister एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I think बादल is getting better btw. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
That's certainly great to know !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
GDragon612 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
thats good <3 एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog कहा …
I felt ब्रेव so I browsed something from V3.

I think I'll relate to Maki Harukawa if the pattern from पूर्व Danganronpa stuff holds true. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^ I'm curious about that pattern. What exactly is it that gave आप that idea? एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Mikan एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^ As I have told आप before, I am pretty sure that Ouma is going to end up being your प्रिय in the new Cast. As for the Relatability, we'll see XD !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
ALSO. I FORGOT TO MENTION THIS BUT I WAS पढ़ना मांगा WITH LUCY AND HE RANDOMLY WALKED OFF OF ME, POOPED, THEN WALKED BACK ON.

HE MADE AN ACTIVE EFFORT NOT TO POOP ON ME पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog कहा …
💩 > Monaca पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Im just fawning over Vincent Nightray.

Its been a while since I fawned and its kinda nice XD A lot of my प्रिय have been REALLY strong ones that get overwhelmingly obsessive and this one is just like ":3 I प्यार Vincent. Look at my Vincent. Hes my favorite. I प्यार Vincent." पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Id collect तस्वीरें but just collecting GIFs were risky enough of spoilers. At least Im like 60% done now. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
My Vincent एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
*10:30 PM*

Bird: *starts गाना randomly*

Me: *from her desk* हे आप ARE SLEEPING

Birds: *not a single peep for the अगला hour*

BTW their 'bed time' is at 9 PM XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
This बिना सोचे समझे test Im taking on morality says Im strongly for "rational utilitarianism" पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Between a score of 1-5, I got a below average 2.5 on empathy and a barely above average disgust XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Lucy likes to sit on my butt पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Also I प्यार Vincent too much पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Better now. Honestly though, hes a piece of crap. Not vindicitvie या aggressive या anything, but he is literally a piece of crap incapable of functioning as a human being himself and relies on his wife for everything, but at the same time treats the thing that he relies on like trash.

My mom isnt innocent either, but she god damn is the better of two evils. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
https://tinyurl.com/yb4wf7sz पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^Mood एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
I'm sick rn so feel free to torture me all ya want. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Cos its not good for me to fester on my hatred for him या anything. Cos I know it can get out of hand एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
My dad makes me wish I was dead sometimes to be honest. Not like... suicide but like... really why the fuck was I born with this piece of shit as a father? What kind of responsible parent brings life into this piece of crap? पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
And its not really in a depressed way. Its और so in an annoyed way. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Its less questioning it but और so factually stating that I shouldnt have been. Its not a bad thing about me, its just a fact. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^ Well, here's where I disagree. I'm glad about your Existence and wouldn't have it any other way. आप still have a lot to live for !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Me: *does appointments once every week like MOST people with mental health have* *get bitched at and insulted until I give in and tell my therapist to go up to two weeks which I know is too long*

My Dad: *has back pain* *goes to chiropractor two times a week - same price as therapist* *thats okay* पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
inb4 Sims 5!

To obtain house building, please buy the "Construction" expansion pack for $60
To obtain personality traits, please buy the "Persona" expansion packs for $60
To obtain different types of windows, please buy the "Should have been in the game" stuff pack for $20

Old news and shit but EA can go to hell XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
We're still gonna play Sims 3 और tho and see आप dive around dumpsters right? एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
My leg hair is long. I should shave it at some point when Im not too lazy पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
IM SO FUCKING TENSE.

I NEED something to do. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Ive done NOTHING particulalry productive या worth anything for an घंटा and its painful :v Just stupid वीडियो that arent even funny and stupid bingos एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Its only been an HOUR. This is what I mean द्वारा the fact I cant relax and do nothing. It kills me. एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
#Relatable !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Boredom makes me so uncomfortable, tense, anxious, and often causes me to start getting depressed.

Like ugh. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Im like literally probably able to like crush a diamond in my hand with how tense I get एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
cause Im not d o i n g a n y t h i n g एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Same. Could never really stand boredom myself !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Has anyone ever had the feeling like their entire sense of stable identity and knowledge on one self shatters?

Its such an uncomfortable feeling and can probably send me into an internal panic if I dont catch myself within like... 5 सेकंड्स of the feeling initiating.

My mind passed the old "Wow, आप almost dont have any signs of trauma. Must of been a lie आप told yourself या an act आप put on" thought through and ALMOST there for a सेकंड लॉस्ट it पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Honestly Ive gotten a lot better at dealing with that stuff though XD I catch myself really quickly so its been.... a while since I fell for that - या well that one line at least. I fell for it like... a few weeks पूर्व (? it feels like a महीना पूर्व but that cant be right) with my memory shit XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
I have to wonder... at one point does processing the past and working through things change into torture and simply और harm reminding myself of bad memories.

Cos its one of those very thin line I have to find with my mental health. At what point is it unnecessary distress and at what point is it healthy recognition?

Much like it took me a while to figure out if लेखन my mental health journal was helping और than it was causing me to get obsessed या not. पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
TheLefteris24 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
Processing the past is an important step towards Improvement. Then again, आप don't achieve any of your Life Goals in a day. Think of it like every other situation. Things require time. Work on yourself but don't overdo it. You'll learn to distinguish that line as long as आप keep it up !!!! एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 कहा …
Guys...

My digital hoarding is finally costing me money XD

I found a really good computer that has pretty much everything I want

Cept its like... a fourth of the memory Im used to cos it uses an SSD rather than an HHD XD

I cant part with my obsessive collections. I cant XD पोस्टेड एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
So Imma buy a 1 TB HHD and install it into the new computer if I can convince my dad to get me this one I found XD एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
wantadog टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
These days any computer that doesnt have both will fall far under the mark in terms of quality एक साल  से अधिक पुराना
Riku114 टिप्पणी जोड़ा गया हे…
^Thanks for the info guys XD I already knew those things but much appreciated एक साल  से अधिक पुराना