For all those who don't understand why people cut, this is for you. I get it. I completely understand. When you're depressed, आप need an outlet. You're so empty and numb that आप need to feel something, and since आप refuse to feel happy, आप cut yourself to feel pain. That sounds completely wrong, but, who knows? Maybe it really works. It becomes an addiction. आप can't go with out feeling that pain. And everytime, आप have to cut deeper and deeper to feel the same way. Feel the way that आप strive for. Just feel anything. Soon enough, everything around आप becomes a weapon of self-destruction. Razors, scissors, needles, pencils.... No, I have never personally cut myself and hopefully won't ever, but I know lots of people (people I actually know, and people I've met on here, Twitter, Tumblr...) who have. And it's all horror stories. Whenever my फ्रेंड्स bring up cutting, I have to stay quiet because I'm too afraid that if I say how I really feel, they'll think I cut. I don't really. My फ्रेंड्स think that they could never feel that horrible that they would need to bleed to feel better, but that's how almost ever case starts. They may not even end up having a real reason to be depressed, they might just feel empty. I felt this way once. I had to draw an anchor on my wrist every morning just to stop myself from thinking about it. I had to tell everyone that asked about that I just really like Hedley (my प्रिय band, and I do really like them) If any of my फ्रेंड्स are पढ़ना this... Don't worry about me. I never cut. I think I'm strong enough not too. Every once in a while I just feel so terrible that I do think about it but then I remember how great my life actually is. For all of those who cut, I get it. They might not understand, but I do and I really hope that आप can recover. Don't give up. I still think you're beautiful.
*All the kids were outside*
Taylor:This is so cool!Our own secret hide out!
Lizzy:I KNOW RIGHT!!SO cool!
Taylor:Yup!Hey we should make a secret handshake!
Lizzy:First I gotta see if your ready!Time for the test!I WENT DOWNTOWN TO SEE CHARLIE BROWN,HE GAVE ME A NICKEL SO I BOUGHT HIM A PICKLE,THE अचार WAS खट्टा SO I BOUGHT HIM A FLOWER,THE फूल WAS DEAD SO THIS IS WHAT I SAID:DOWN DOWN BABY RIDE THE ROLLER COASTER
Taylor:Seriously?
Lizzy:YES!
Taylor:*Whisper whisper whisper*
Lizzy:GREAT IDEA!!!COME ON!
Taylor:Mrs.Amy!Can me and Lizzy Bunk together!?
Amy:I don't know
Taylor:*Slips 5 bucks*What about now?
Amy:*sarcasm*Sure!
Taylor:YES!!!COME ON LIZZY!
Lizzy:OKAY!!
Lizzy packed her bag and moved it to Taylor's bunk
Taylor's POV:
That night आप would imagine I slept well but I didn't.My dream:
Dad got in the house,duck taped her mouth,hid her in the basement,and stabbed her.
I woke up immediately
Taylor:AH!!
Lizzy:TAYLOR!Whats wrong!
Taylor:Nothing,*pants*Nothing
Taylor:This is so cool!Our own secret hide out!
Lizzy:I KNOW RIGHT!!SO cool!
Taylor:Yup!Hey we should make a secret handshake!
Lizzy:First I gotta see if your ready!Time for the test!I WENT DOWNTOWN TO SEE CHARLIE BROWN,HE GAVE ME A NICKEL SO I BOUGHT HIM A PICKLE,THE अचार WAS खट्टा SO I BOUGHT HIM A FLOWER,THE फूल WAS DEAD SO THIS IS WHAT I SAID:DOWN DOWN BABY RIDE THE ROLLER COASTER
Taylor:Seriously?
Lizzy:YES!
Taylor:*Whisper whisper whisper*
Lizzy:GREAT IDEA!!!COME ON!
Taylor:Mrs.Amy!Can me and Lizzy Bunk together!?
Amy:I don't know
Taylor:*Slips 5 bucks*What about now?
Amy:*sarcasm*Sure!
Taylor:YES!!!COME ON LIZZY!
Lizzy:OKAY!!
Lizzy packed her bag and moved it to Taylor's bunk
Taylor's POV:
That night आप would imagine I slept well but I didn't.My dream:
Dad got in the house,duck taped her mouth,hid her in the basement,and stabbed her.
I woke up immediately
Taylor:AH!!
Lizzy:TAYLOR!Whats wrong!
Taylor:Nothing,*pants*Nothing
I'm sorry to those who i can't help
I'm sorry to those who are abused
I'm sorry to those who are alone
I'm sorry to those who are different
I'm sorry I'm not normal
I'm sorry i can't live how i want to
I'm sorry I'm different
I'm sorry people suffer
I'm sorry to those who know me
I feel so sorry for existing in this world
because I cause nothing but pain to those I love
because those who know me end up suffering
that's why I'm always so sorry
I say I'm sorry to the world
because I exist
I'm sorry to those who are abused
I'm sorry to those who are alone
I'm sorry to those who are different
I'm sorry I'm not normal
I'm sorry i can't live how i want to
I'm sorry I'm different
I'm sorry people suffer
I'm sorry to those who know me
I feel so sorry for existing in this world
because I cause nothing but pain to those I love
because those who know me end up suffering
that's why I'm always so sorry
I say I'm sorry to the world
because I exist