do u just want to let it out?

MY LIFE SUCKS!! आप KNOW WHY?!
DIAGONAL STRIPES ARE EVIL!!! IT TOOK ME AN ENTIRE दिन TO FIND A GOOD SET OF DIAGONAL STRIPES!
AND THAT WAS ALL A महीना पूर्व AND I THOUGHT I WAS DONE WITH THAT CRAP!!!
BUT THEN A FEW मिनटों पूर्व I JUST CAME IN CONTACT WITH A VERSION OF A SONG THAT I HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR SINCE I WAS 8 YEARS OLD AT LEAST AND THE BEGINNING WAS CUT OFF AND THE SOUND QUALITY WASN'T WHAT IT SHOULD BE SO I GOOGLED IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN WITH NO LUCK AND IT HAS BEEN BUGGING ME EVER SINCE BECAUSE I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT THAT SONG.
SO THEN I WENT TO DO WASH MY HANDS BECAUSE NOTHING CALMS ME DOWN और THAN THE CLEAN FEELING आप GET WHEN आप WASH YOUR HANDS. AND IT WORKED FOR TWO सेकंड्स UNTIL I REMEMBERED THAT I DIDN'T DO MY ART HOMEWORK AND NOW I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M GOING TO DO!!!
AND 5 AND 7 ARE STARING AT ME AND LAUGHING AT MY PAIN! GO AHEAD AND LAUGH, आप STUPID NUMBERS! I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL आप IF आप DON'T SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY!
UUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH THIS SUUUUUUUUUUCKSSSS!!!
I HAVE BEEN DEFEATED द्वारा STRIPES, SONGS, NUMBERS, HAND WASHING, AND ARTWORK!!!
I AM USELESS! I AM WORTHLESS!! I AM ABSOLUTELY PATHETIC!!! DISGUSTING, EVEN!!!!
I AM GOING TO CURL UP IN A CAVE SOMEWHERE AND I AM GOING TO HIDE FROM THE WORLD AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER GOING TO दिखाना MY FACE AGAIN AND I WILL SHRIVEL UP AND STARVE AND DIE THE PAINFUL DEATH THAT I DESERVE!!!







UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Nah.....I'm gonna keep it in last time I let it out I got arrested.

...Y'mean rant?
...Nah, got nothing to rant about.

SHOUT, SHOUT, LET IT ALL OUT, THESE ARE THE THINGS I CAN DO WITHOUT, COME ON... I'M TALKING TO YOU, COME ON...

...Sorry couldn't resist that. But no, I don't really...

Nah, that's why I'm seeing a counselor.

I can. But I won't. I do need सलाह though...

I'm in प्यार with a guy but he's with this other girl who is only using him for sex but he's too stupid to realize it and she hurts him all of the time but he always goes back to her and it's driving me crazy!!! He doesn't realize he can do better than her. He thinks he's a horrible person and I just want him to realize that he isn't! He deserves so much better! And the worst part about it is that I want to hate the girl he's with because of what she's doing to him, but I can't help but liking her. It's so confusing for me and it's making me go crazy. But it sure does feel good to let it out. I've been holding it in for so long.

Yes, I just can't hold in this oxygen any longer! D: It's like, so hard to breathe द्वारा keeping it all in! D:<

...I'm not sad/worried/mad about anything so I'm just gonna let out my excitement/happiness. I apologize for the raping of the capslock in advance.


I CANNOT FUCKING BELIEVE I'M GONNA BE 13 TOMORROW LIKE HOLY SHIT. I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED BECAUSE MY ENTIRE FAMILY AND MY FANTABULOUS BOYFRIEND ARE GONNA GO TO CHUCK E MOTHERFUCKING CHEESE AND I'M GONNA GET A MY LITTLE टट्टू CAKE CUZ I'M A BABY AT HEART. FEW DAYS पूर्व I GOT THIS SEXY NEW HAIRCUT AND DYED PART OF IT PURPLE ALL द्वारा MY GOD DAMN SELF. I GOT KICKED OUT OF CLASS TODAY FOR SCREAMING PASTA. TOMORROW IMMA GET SHOWERED WITH PRESENTS FROM PEOPLE I LOVE. I could go on.... :D

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO WRITE याओइ FANFICTION.
AND I AM BEING FORCED TO.
ASAKJKKSDGH;

In a way. For some reason I'm extremely hyper and want to let THAT out, but nothing bad. But I can't run around screaming अभिनय like a shithead because I'm an adult.... :/

What I want to let out?

...

Oh, trust me, आप don't want to hear so much.

Let me see...
Oh yeah!
My parents are so mean to me!1st they made me load the dishwasher then made me go to school today द्वारा BUS and i must have lunch in school and the ribs are not what i'd pick for myself!they wont let me have that cute diamond हार i need to match my earrings with,they bought my brother a 3rd phone THIS week but they wont get me that silver sequin tanktop i want.its so unfair!i will never forget the injustice!!*wails*

okay here it goes...
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IM फ्रेंड्स WITH THIS GUY AND I HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM, I HAVE ASKED HIM OUT AND HE कहा NO :( ANYWAY, I KEEP SAYING IT TO HIM OVER AND OVER AND THEN ONE OF MY फ्रेंड्स LIKES HIM ASWELL, IM HEAPS JEALOUS AND THEY KEEP FLIRTING, IT PISSES ME OFF,
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AND MY FAMILY DONT CARE या LISTEN TO ME ANYMORE,I CANT DO A THING RIGHT ANYMORE MY LIFE SUCKS SO MUCH, I GET YELLED AT 24/7 AND IT MAKES ME DOWN AND SHIT
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AND I GET BITCHED ABOUT AT SCHOOL, AND I GET TEASED AND SHIT, AND I HAVE TROUBLE KEEPING UP WITH ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS AND I HAVE 4 BITS OF WORK I HAVE TO DO IN A WEEK D: I REALLY HATE MY LIFEEEE
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I dont know if that makes sense, but yeah,

... *starts crying*

i want to be with the only person in the world who loves me i miss him so much

..OK HERE GOES;





































































I just ate a अंगूर and I

JIZZED IN MAH PANTZ. :D

yes I do. I have been having horrible sleepless night but I have been staying up all night doing homework I get that much. My health class is starting to get really sickening now and in all of my classes people always misbehave. It annoys the hell out of me and I can never get any of my work done in class and concentrate because of them. And what makes matters worse is I am in JROTC and Key Club so I have to keep my grades up to be in them. Our school dog Mia just had her पिल्लें and they are making me and another girl watch them for a few periods so its frustraiting because I get out of some of my major classes and it makes work even harder on us. I could go on but I don't wanna bore you.

If i were to.. nobody would listen. nobody gets what im feeling right now. T_____T I have nobody to talk to about this..... :'(

Yes..

ALL THE FUCKING GIRLS IN MY SCHOOL ARE ANOREXIC SLUTS AND WHORES!!! THEY'RE ALL LIKE "I'M BETTER THAN आप NERDS!!" AND THINK THEYRE BADASS AND FUCKING ADORABLE! WELL GUESS WHAT BITCHES, YOUR NOT! AND U BITCHES ARE ALREADY GETTIN THEMSELVES AND THE BOYS HORNY BUT ITS NOT MY PROBLEM IF आप GET KNOCKED UP AT 15! TOTAAALLY FINE, IN FACT GET FUCKED IN 7TH GRADE WHY DONCHA? ITD BE AMUSING TO SEE U ALL GET SOME MEAT ON YA BONES! AND ONE LAST THING, LEAVE US GIRLS THE FUCK ALONE!! AND WORSE THAN THAT, MY FRIEND IS TURNING INTO ONE SO I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT TIMES 2! UUUUUGH!

..Thanks for your time...

Hmmmm, okayz.

Okay, so my mom wanted me to take this really advanced program, called I.B. I decided to do it, and it is really hard. I'm always stressed, and I barely get sleep. I've wanted to drop out for a while now, but I don't want her to be disappointed. My eldest brother went through it, and he came out pretty fucked up. My other older brother didn't, and came out worse, but he was always a bit of a fuck up. My brother who didn't says that even though my mom insisted she was just fine with him not doing to the program, he could always see she was disappointed. She has never told me she wouldn't be mad या disappointed if I dropped out, and it's not just her. It's everyone. Everyone says, "It's hard, but just deal with it." I really need someone to tell me its fine if I can't make it, but that's not happening. It's got to the point where I am considering running away from home, which I know would be a stupid thing to do.

Yeah :/
FML.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMOGMOGMOGOGMOGMOGMOGMGOMGOGOMGOGMOGOGOGOGMGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D here goes::::::::

omg todays my birthday and school really sucked today cuz my friend was avoiding me yesterday and hanging out with mckenna instead and then today something happened to her dog, so she started crying. right when she got better, mckenna started crying because elyse was mad at her and mckenna didnt know what she did. so everyone but me, kati, calie, and all the other kids in my grade were bawling their eyes out the whole resess. D: and i hated it because they just ran off without me and left me alone the rest of the resess. my bff didnt even say bye to me like we usually do. and i feel like she was avoiding me again and i seriously HATE it when people do that to me. it makes me feel hated. D=

Yesterday at Choir also sucked. Mrs. Shidecker, our पियानो player कहा that the side i wasnt on, she कहा "this side is much better." and everone started bragging. "we have some real american idles over here". everyone started cheering. Me and baileigh were so mad D:< they sing HORRIBLE! it sounds like theyre trying to throw up या something. our song was suppost to sound beautiful, not stupid and messed up.

And, today is my birthday, like i कहा way up there^^^ so i got a camera from my grandparents, and my mom got me nothing D:< but shes going to get me a wii game या something. its POM (penguins of madagascar) and its called Blowhole strikes back again so im really excited for that.

Im bringing कुकीज़ on Friday :D

Random....i feel so बिना सोचे समझे right now. sorry if this is a long comment, i feel like talking. And typing is close to that so what the heck.


बिना सोचे समझे picture time! :D

I'll make it short.




I'm in प्यार with a heart-breaker.

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I can't seem to trust anyone on here anymore...you know one मिनट someone is nice enough to call आप their "friend" या "pal" and the अगला thing आप know they end up using आप and आप feel like आप have really out did yourself. :( This is what has been bothring me sense this past week.