A poem of a sad man

The line 'love is a fallacy' isn't justified,
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when प्यार is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.

Know that सोना has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
प्यार cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that प्यार can hold, can only be caught.

I would not compare प्यार to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
प्यार is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.

The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
'Tis beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.

Let your mind floating freely
and आप will see.
Open your soul to those
who will listen,
they'll दिखाना आप the bright side,
the side आप have forgotten.

Trust just this once
and आप will see.

The sea of your लॉस्ट memories
shall return again
if आप make a right choice,
the choice that changes everything.

Trust just this once
and आप will see.

How many people आप want to save?
Who do आप want to follow you
in this journey we call living?

Try,
trust just this once
and आप will see.

All those dark thoughts
that have been imprisoned
in your mind
could be silenced by
the light
आप see cloudy
and it all seems unattainable
and impossible.
Although,
the real truth is in your heart,
आप just have to decide
what आप want to believe.

The smallest reason
to be alive again,
one single reason to smile
along with freedom.


~ Feel it and be free... ~

Hold me, don´t ever let me go. Even if the world crashes in, bury me under your love. Even if the spring never comes, don´t let me feel the cold. Hold me when the night is so cruel. या when the scars of दिन mark my skin. If आप won´t let me go, I won´t release you. Two lovers, shielding each other from the storm. That´s who we´re going to be. Never change, never think. Let the actions flow into your hands, don´t stop. Keep going, keep your head up to the light. At the end of the journey, we will be home, the wounds forgotten and healed.

I hate you

But I just can’t seem to break you

Do I want आप here?

Do I want आप gone?



Everyone says your such a tease

But not to me

Are आप real?

Are आप fake?



Do I need to be

With this drama queen

आप spout lies

No truth to be found



Why am I still

Trying to see the good in you?

Is it worth it?

Should I listen to them?



They tell me to go

Before I’m a victim

Of आप mighty undoing

I won’t fall



I’ve made a promise

Can I keep it?

Will I leave?

Will I remain?



Promises

Sins

They all appear

The same



Lies

Sentences

Preach the

Difference



I’m listening to you

I can’t break you

I’m falling now

No one to catch me



Do I leave now

That I’ve fallen

Are आप worth my time?

Am I worth this pain?



God, help me choose

For this is not my decision

Any longer

I’ve put my faith in my despair



Now दिखाना me the answer

Tell me what to do

Do I stay

या do I leave you?

Anger
Nothing but anger
I should have listened to Mama
She knew best
I didn't listen to her
Yes Mama, they all laughed at me.
The blood.
Everyone jeering and cheering
Just like in the locker room
The pig's blood on the dress I made.
The laughter.
Their ear splitting and cruel laughter.
I start to cry
Tommy yells at them, telling them to stop.
The bucket falls down and he lays there unconsious.
The lights turn red.
Still laughter.
They tried going out the door
I trapped them all inside with only my mind.
The hose unwrapped from the emergency glass.
I turn up the water pressure.
They all scream.
Electrical wiring
The fires
I did it
The town I grew up in
Damaged and destroyed.
All from my mind.
I go home
I go inside.
And I wake up
In a pile of stones from the sky.
All from my mind.
This destruction I caused.
They laugh at me no more.

Clouds of happiness have covered my sky,i was thinking its a gift of god,i wish i could fly.Rain of प्यार showered all the night,i found each दिन so bright, i felt kind a sweet touch of flowers, i plucked each bud in the garden of wishes,i filled my bucket and sang the happy song ,i was walking,thinking about my प्यार and life.on my way i met a single flower,i glanced at it,and i thought to pluck this one.but it looked so sad!i asked ,why are u so sad?he answered me i was just like you,i had wishes just like आप have,i was in प्यार with rain,clouds and garden of wishes.clouds have gone,rain of प्यार never came again to my garden,and my wishes left me alone!,now i admit that i have nothing to love,i smiled and take him in my hands and कहा dont cry !every thing will be fine, why do not आप प्यार your self,it will give आप life,love your sky,spread your fragrance, make your own garden of wishes,clouds of happiness will soon come to आप and bring your rain of love......................

Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Do आप understand?
Do आप get it?
Do आप even care?
Do आप understand bit द्वारा bit?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Well I'm asking,
I'm pleading on my knees,
I'm begging to you,
Why should I believin' thee?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Ya, some friend I have,
Some फ्रेंड्स I got,
Some फ्रेंड्स care,
And आप were the friend, I never thought,
Why should I wonder?
why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.

Death of प्यार arrives...

The Earth shakes
Lightning strikes
The living cry
Lands break open
Flames of the forsaken arise
All life will die

Will आप be there?
Would death be too much to bare?

Shadows creep closer
As the sun runs away
Demons come alive
The weak and lonely are not spared

Will आप be there?
Would death be too much to bare?

Loyalty will be tested
The failed will be condemned
As loveless souls are thrown into a pit
In darkness of eternity

Will आप be there?
Would death be too much to bare?

Death will come to all
Pure hearts, pure souls
Followers of the Goddess of Love
Will see a peaceful end

But will आप be there for me?
Would our death be too much to bare?
Our प्यार shall be tested
But I'll be there...

“Unheeded warnings pushed me to the ground,

They pushed harder and harder till they knocked me down.

Only left with the desire to rise,

Into those lovely empyreal skies.

My wrongdoings, my feelings of hate,

Caused me to carry this troublesome weight.

To make things right is not always the goal,

I will be free when I earn someone’s soul.

I must win one heart,

Somehow, someway,

या after ten years I won’t live one और day.

My dire situation, with my trust and my fear,

I must find just one person, one person to hold dear.

The skies are calling,

I’m wanting to fly.

My wings are broken, फ्रोज़न stiff and bare.

But I must find someone,

Somehow, somewhere,

To help with the search, to help with my goal,

I must capture,

An untainted new soul.”

(c) Waverly L. Harris

It was strange
how we met each other.
I knew from the first contact
that we are different from the others.


You, so unusual and sweet,
with magic in words,
आप left me dreams.


But dreams are afraid of
reality.
Afraid of the storm
and restlessness.


The reasons are always
different, and yet the same.


Everyone wants to dream,
fearing that reality may
destroy that moment of peace,
bringing pain and empty memories,
words that have gone with breeze.


Although आप make your peace
with reality,
आप still dream the same dream,
while the pain smolder in you.


Everything changes,
everything fades away with time,
but आप still dream the same dream.


The reasons are always
different, and yet the same.


In the end, आप realize
that everything is just a dream,
everything has its end.


And while the pain smolder in you
and everything fades slowly,
आप still dream the same dream,
आप still dream.

As we grow up we leave behind the simple things... what would the world be if we just stayed in our lala land of childhood?

When do wobbley steps turn in to fearless sprints? How is it that our mothers kisses lose their powers when आप need them most? When does a modest squart turn in to a slutty skirt? At what point does sparkely eyeshadow fill in for water colours? And eye liner replaces markers? When did undies, अंडे turn in to lacey panties? Why must holding hand with a friend mean something more? At what age are we when rain boots get tossed aside for hooker boots? When did "I प्यार आप mommy" turn in to screams of hatred for the woman who raised you? Why must our evil story book witches come alive as mean, self-centered bitches? How is it possible that some were in our lives we stopped drawing and making दिल and started to break and mend others hearts? Why must songs of joy and fun turn in to to raps of hate and pain?

I can't smile,
i can't think,
my mind is poisoned,
my mind is trapped...

So many thoughts,
the fear is coming,
it's waiting.

How strong are आप to
fight,
how weak are आप to
deny?

Don't find me,
i'd rather stay here,
so far away from
your ruthlessness.

Tears of despair
are calling your name,
and आप want to drag
me there...

The way आप possess me
is so cruel,
why don't आप leave me alone?

I'm not like the others,
they might be stronger
या weaker,
it depends how आप
see it.

The darkness is all over,
poisoning my mind,
the fear is itching,
it's everywhere,
won't go away!

It stains my soul,
i'm shaking,
despair won't let me.

So many thoughts,
but nothing's resolved
yet,
it's just fear
holding me,
hauling me deeper
into its ruthlessness.

I don't want this,
so be gone,
आप live inside me,
but आप don't know.

Tears of despair
are calling your name,
they want to drive आप away,
so i could feel safe,
so i could be far away,
so far of your ruthlessness.