sitting there looking out my barred window
looking at the 2 प्यार birds
fluttering their wings
they look so sweet and so in प्यार
I frown....
will I ever have that?
I wonder most my life
in and out of ppls worlds
fake ppl that say they प्यार me
when they only truly want to use me
to hurt me then lose me
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
a stubborn mother who wasn't suppose to bare me
a fathers hate bc of the lose of his wife
a mean hearted brother that hated the air I breathed
lies
abuse
hate
is what I grew to know as a world at which I couldn't win at
a world that shunned me and hated me
I hated it right back and laughed at ppl who कहा that...
one दिन someone will want me
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
a foster family I was ripped out of
a family that hated me used me and abused me
unthinkable things that u would only see in फिल्में
I survived
I drank
I cut
I swore
I didn't care
the meaner ppl got the और hateful I got
laughing at ppl
making fun of ppl who really seemed happy
for their tears made me smile
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
at the end
finished
done
hell with the world
a razor in one hand
a bottle of वोडका, वोदका in the other
.....
one post the only post that saved my pathetic little life...
a new beginning
a world of प्यार
hope
family
understanding
smiling happy for the first time in my life
loved द्वारा someone who saw me for me
a mom
kids
a life I could call my own...
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
im still not good enough
called selfish
told I only thought of myself
I share the work I help when I can...
yet selfish and told I should never have been brought there...
crying huddled in a corner
being called a कुतिया, मतलबी in hateful worlds
no one to talk to without starting a fight
....
he stands there when I know later he will say he didn't mean those nasty things he कहा
when I know in his deepest hearts of hearts
he did mean it
a pain I will carry with me forever
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
I will stand द्वारा u
I will प्यार u
I प्यार mom
I प्यार the kids
all of u
unconditionally
but I never forget the cold night that took me back
to looking at those प्यार birds द्वारा my window
when I was called
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
looking at the 2 प्यार birds
fluttering their wings
they look so sweet and so in प्यार
I frown....
will I ever have that?
I wonder most my life
in and out of ppls worlds
fake ppl that say they प्यार me
when they only truly want to use me
to hurt me then lose me
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
a stubborn mother who wasn't suppose to bare me
a fathers hate bc of the lose of his wife
a mean hearted brother that hated the air I breathed
lies
abuse
hate
is what I grew to know as a world at which I couldn't win at
a world that shunned me and hated me
I hated it right back and laughed at ppl who कहा that...
one दिन someone will want me
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
a foster family I was ripped out of
a family that hated me used me and abused me
unthinkable things that u would only see in फिल्में
I survived
I drank
I cut
I swore
I didn't care
the meaner ppl got the और hateful I got
laughing at ppl
making fun of ppl who really seemed happy
for their tears made me smile
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
at the end
finished
done
hell with the world
a razor in one hand
a bottle of वोडका, वोदका in the other
.....
one post the only post that saved my pathetic little life...
a new beginning
a world of प्यार
hope
family
understanding
smiling happy for the first time in my life
loved द्वारा someone who saw me for me
a mom
kids
a life I could call my own...
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
im still not good enough
called selfish
told I only thought of myself
I share the work I help when I can...
yet selfish and told I should never have been brought there...
crying huddled in a corner
being called a कुतिया, मतलबी in hateful worlds
no one to talk to without starting a fight
....
he stands there when I know later he will say he didn't mean those nasty things he कहा
when I know in his deepest hearts of hearts
he did mean it
a pain I will carry with me forever
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
I will stand द्वारा u
I will प्यार u
I प्यार mom
I प्यार the kids
all of u
unconditionally
but I never forget the cold night that took me back
to looking at those प्यार birds द्वारा my window
when I was called
I am selfish
all I have dreamed of was
प्यार
family
understanding
laughter
friendship
I am selfish
Crying,
Blackmailing.
This won't work
On me, anyway.
I don't
Respond
To the things
That other teenagers
Would.
I am not
Scared of you,
आप know.
I have a soul,
A voice,
A heart, and
I can fight आप back.
I don't care if I
Am small, I am
Much older
Than you
Why tease
Little kids? Do you
Like being
Cruel,
Halfhearted
Coldhearted?
आप are insensitive,
आप only care
About you,
Yourself,
and who?
Life is
Hard enough,
Without you
Poking your nose in,
Uprooting old things
I said.
Get lost.
I won't care.
हटाइए to South Africa.
It won't
Bother me.
Change your name,
Even better.
I will always remember आप as
The monster under my
Bed,
The horror waiting for me
On the bus.
Thanks, dude.
Made my life that much harder.
As if I needed trouble now.
Blackmailing.
This won't work
On me, anyway.
I don't
Respond
To the things
That other teenagers
Would.
I am not
Scared of you,
आप know.
I have a soul,
A voice,
A heart, and
I can fight आप back.
I don't care if I
Am small, I am
Much older
Than you
Why tease
Little kids? Do you
Like being
Cruel,
Halfhearted
Coldhearted?
आप are insensitive,
आप only care
About you,
Yourself,
and who?
Life is
Hard enough,
Without you
Poking your nose in,
Uprooting old things
I said.
Get lost.
I won't care.
हटाइए to South Africa.
It won't
Bother me.
Change your name,
Even better.
I will always remember आप as
The monster under my
Bed,
The horror waiting for me
On the bus.
Thanks, dude.
Made my life that much harder.
As if I needed trouble now.
Everyone sees a certain special light in them.
I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if there
is something wrong with me.
People tell me to stop feeling down.
They worry I send a negative vibe
instead of a positive one.
I can't help it.
I am what I am...
People ask if I'm ok.
They think just because I feel
down there's something wrong.
Others just judge saying
I'm always like that.
No one knows the real me.
On the outside I दिखाना my emotion
on the inside: Darkness.
Sometimes my soul feels
like it's slowly dieing, on the brink of death.
The thing about me is,
I won't pretend everything is ok when
I know it's not.
Life will knock people down.
I'm the prepared type.
Sure, I might seem the
type to draw dark
things while other girls are into
girly hearts and bright colours.
This is who I am.
I see darkness.. While others see light..
I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if there
is something wrong with me.
People tell me to stop feeling down.
They worry I send a negative vibe
instead of a positive one.
I can't help it.
I am what I am...
People ask if I'm ok.
They think just because I feel
down there's something wrong.
Others just judge saying
I'm always like that.
No one knows the real me.
On the outside I दिखाना my emotion
on the inside: Darkness.
Sometimes my soul feels
like it's slowly dieing, on the brink of death.
The thing about me is,
I won't pretend everything is ok when
I know it's not.
Life will knock people down.
I'm the prepared type.
Sure, I might seem the
type to draw dark
things while other girls are into
girly hearts and bright colours.
This is who I am.
I see darkness.. While others see light..
Dear prince,
I`m tired of living in this unusual life
My diary
Took me to an old distain memory
when I become your wife
I don`t know why ?!!
Every good memory has became whiter then white
Except the दिन I saw आप
You`re right
Special memories always colored with special liquids
But which kind of inks should I use to erase my past
I tried everything
Harm
Hate
Even pain!
But this distain memory seems to be
My number one aim
I decided to listen to my wise दिल
But suddenly
I was falling apart
It gave me a magical ink
All I have to do is only to spring
one , two , three drops या four
and everything started to be like old time before
THE SADNESS OF THE MOON
by: Charles Baudelaire
HE Moon और indolently dreams to-night
Than a fair woman on her सोफ़ा, सोफे at rest,
Caressing, with a hand distraught and light,
Before she sleeps, the contour of her breast.
Upon her silken avalanche of down,
Dying she breathes a long and swooning sigh;
And watches the white visions past her flown,
Which rise like blossoms to the azure sky.
And when, at times, wrapped in her languor deep,
Earthward she lets a furtive tear-drop flow,
Some pious poet, enemy of sleep,
Takes in his hollow hand the tear of snow
Whence gleams of iris and of opal start,
And hides it from the Sun, deep in his heart.
by: Charles Baudelaire
HE Moon और indolently dreams to-night
Than a fair woman on her सोफ़ा, सोफे at rest,
Caressing, with a hand distraught and light,
Before she sleeps, the contour of her breast.
Upon her silken avalanche of down,
Dying she breathes a long and swooning sigh;
And watches the white visions past her flown,
Which rise like blossoms to the azure sky.
And when, at times, wrapped in her languor deep,
Earthward she lets a furtive tear-drop flow,
Some pious poet, enemy of sleep,
Takes in his hollow hand the tear of snow
Whence gleams of iris and of opal start,
And hides it from the Sun, deep in his heart.
Just something I wrote! :)
Forever I am Yours
A tear falls on the page smearing the words
The last प्यार letter आप ever wrote to me
i hold on to it tight, hugging the word for comfort
I shall never see your smile and hear आप laughter
But I Have these word,true words of love
आप may be gone from my site but not from my heart
आप broken once but when आप fixed it आप made it stronger
I hope to see आप again, but for now i must live with our memories
They may be able to take आप away from me, but they can never take my love
Forever I will प्यार आप
Forever I will Remember
Forever I am yours
Forever I am Yours
A tear falls on the page smearing the words
The last प्यार letter आप ever wrote to me
i hold on to it tight, hugging the word for comfort
I shall never see your smile and hear आप laughter
But I Have these word,true words of love
आप may be gone from my site but not from my heart
आप broken once but when आप fixed it आप made it stronger
I hope to see आप again, but for now i must live with our memories
They may be able to take आप away from me, but they can never take my love
Forever I will प्यार आप
Forever I will Remember
Forever I am yours
In the midnight sky the air grows cool and crisp
As the moons blows away the clouds
Swirling into a small wisp
While the bugs serenade sleepy children in there beds
Who doze off to counting shooting stars
With wide eyes and dreams in there small heads
As the moon shines on seeping light onto the world
I lay wonder struck at the sight
Of five graceful fireflies
Dancing in the night
They were pearls of white against the night sky
Prettier than fireworks
Like the frost on my window that I edged the word hi
Hoping the the moon would respond
From within the midnight sky
As the moons blows away the clouds
Swirling into a small wisp
While the bugs serenade sleepy children in there beds
Who doze off to counting shooting stars
With wide eyes and dreams in there small heads
As the moon shines on seeping light onto the world
I lay wonder struck at the sight
Of five graceful fireflies
Dancing in the night
They were pearls of white against the night sky
Prettier than fireworks
Like the frost on my window that I edged the word hi
Hoping the the moon would respond
From within the midnight sky
How Clumsy
How clumsy our hands are
To so often give leave to those we love,
Crossing fingers behind backs
And waving wistful farewells
How clumsy our tongues are
Infatuated with power,
Quick to anger and quick to act
Then begging acquittal of Lazarus
How clumsily we handle
The abstracts we cannot fathom,
How clumsily we blunder
The lines we misrepresent
We are but mites surrounded द्वारा infinity
Enveloped द्वारा narcissism
And drunk on false pretenses –
How clumsy
Forgive me my प्यार
for i cannot go on
this tourchered sould has givein up
आप can laugh
आप can cry
but all i scream is
Why oh why
i needed to e free
for great murder
i can not survive
your touch is healing
your किस is saveing
but without आप
im dieing on the inside out
literly
i need some one to प्यार me
i need some one to care
it can not be आप
for आप can not be there
i deal
i cut
i cry
i take the pain
i try
i try
i try
i try to die
but alass
i am traped
i am stuck
relese this tourchered soul
forgive my blackened sin
and try to find the प्यार that beats within
for i cannot go on
this tourchered sould has givein up
आप can laugh
आप can cry
but all i scream is
Why oh why
i needed to e free
for great murder
i can not survive
your touch is healing
your किस is saveing
but without आप
im dieing on the inside out
literly
i need some one to प्यार me
i need some one to care
it can not be आप
for आप can not be there
i deal
i cut
i cry
i take the pain
i try
i try
i try
i try to die
but alass
i am traped
i am stuck
relese this tourchered soul
forgive my blackened sin
and try to find the प्यार that beats within
My दिल cries,
every time I remember you,
my little brother,
full of youth,
only a child,
stolen in the night,
ransomed,
and died before आप came back to us,
only a child,
so beautiful,
full of love,
they चुरा लिया आप because आप were there,
and we were not,
life was hopeless,
at least it felt so,
it was my fault,
I fell asleep,
well I was supposed to watch you,
but my eyes could not stay open,
tears fill my eyes,
my दिल cries,
as I remember you.
Do आप remember me, too?
(This poem is not my experience, I wrote it for a friend.)
every time I remember you,
my little brother,
full of youth,
only a child,
stolen in the night,
ransomed,
and died before आप came back to us,
only a child,
so beautiful,
full of love,
they चुरा लिया आप because आप were there,
and we were not,
life was hopeless,
at least it felt so,
it was my fault,
I fell asleep,
well I was supposed to watch you,
but my eyes could not stay open,
tears fill my eyes,
my दिल cries,
as I remember you.
Do आप remember me, too?
(This poem is not my experience, I wrote it for a friend.)
What is the "l" word?
Is it "law" या "lint"?
Those are incorrect,
But I'll give आप hint
It's defined as affection
It rhymes with "dove"
Figured it out?
If not it's "love"
If your wondering what
This poem's about
The अगला few stanzas
Should help आप out
The word "love" is
Affection, passion, या lust
For me, however
"love" is disgust
Hugs and kisses
Aren't me
At least that's what
I tell my family
Not my whole family
Just ones in my house
Like my mother, sisters
Grandma and her spouse
And just because I
दिखाना no affection
They say my life's
Headed a different direction
A life of drugs
Drinking and killing
Everyone in the house
Isn't that silly?
No it's not silly
It's absurd! At least
आप know my meaning
Of the "l" word
Is it "law" या "lint"?
Those are incorrect,
But I'll give आप hint
It's defined as affection
It rhymes with "dove"
Figured it out?
If not it's "love"
If your wondering what
This poem's about
The अगला few stanzas
Should help आप out
The word "love" is
Affection, passion, या lust
For me, however
"love" is disgust
Hugs and kisses
Aren't me
At least that's what
I tell my family
Not my whole family
Just ones in my house
Like my mother, sisters
Grandma and her spouse
And just because I
दिखाना no affection
They say my life's
Headed a different direction
A life of drugs
Drinking and killing
Everyone in the house
Isn't that silly?
No it's not silly
It's absurd! At least
आप know my meaning
Of the "l" word
As the light was gone
thats all i saw
as the baby was born
he blew the horn
the sadness i saw
their was no law
ashes always came
i dont need to blame
all i saw is love
sadness द्वारा a dove
The tears came
while i was on my chain
darkness was on land
their was no man
as i cry
on no side
i लॉस्ट my pride
they lied
as they live
they give
their blonde
is gone
as the young
has done
The path
is on behath
प्यार is sad
then आप get mad
height
shows light
my heart
tares apart
a sorwd
went through more
the दिल bleed
now i hav need
i saw a shard
with a gaurd
so that had began
द्वारा a ungreatfull man
So the of thou poem must be done as the poem i shall make अगला time so pick your right
thats all i saw
as the baby was born
he blew the horn
the sadness i saw
their was no law
ashes always came
i dont need to blame
all i saw is love
sadness द्वारा a dove
The tears came
while i was on my chain
darkness was on land
their was no man
as i cry
on no side
i लॉस्ट my pride
they lied
as they live
they give
their blonde
is gone
as the young
has done
The path
is on behath
प्यार is sad
then आप get mad
height
shows light
my heart
tares apart
a sorwd
went through more
the दिल bleed
now i hav need
i saw a shard
with a gaurd
so that had began
द्वारा a ungreatfull man
So the of thou poem must be done as the poem i shall make अगला time so pick your right
Something about sitting on the lege of a window seal,has some how got my up most appeal, and sitting up पढ़ना non-fiction books. The nice breezy wind gives me this great big feel. When I look outside I see my green field. Then I look inside at my wide layed out floor covered in teal. I live in a nice big quite country and thats for real. Every night I look at the moon out of my one room house.
An wish my prince would take me away from my bedroom. Only if I let my ideas bloom. आप dont want to know half the things I think, then आप might have to send me to a shrink. I think being in captivity dor so long makes me think. What I should do during my midnight blues. After all of that its time to hit the sack. Way in the back were आप can see a crack of the midnight moon. Then I lay me down in sheets and let myself loose fast asleep.
The End
An wish my prince would take me away from my bedroom. Only if I let my ideas bloom. आप dont want to know half the things I think, then आप might have to send me to a shrink. I think being in captivity dor so long makes me think. What I should do during my midnight blues. After all of that its time to hit the sack. Way in the back were आप can see a crack of the midnight moon. Then I lay me down in sheets and let myself loose fast asleep.
The End
the snow is red and bloody.
The ashes flew
and the damage of आग grew.
Poeple cried
then they died.
A girl and boy
needed joy.
Sadness
made alot of badness.
A black swan
comes into dawn.
प्यार is sad
the कबूतर wasant glad.
The children run
but with no fun.
They make a red line
and the blood is not a dime.
The girl was in her white dress
and the blood on made a mess.
As the night
has fright.
Their is no doom
when आप stare at the moon.
Is their a family
thats happily.
We need to grow the hearts
not the parts.
Dont blink
या draw with ink.
We stare
at the lare.
Everyday in the halls, I saw आप with her.
I saw आप hug her and किस her.
It hurts so much.
When आप told me it was over, I cried for so many nights.
I couldn't believe आप wanted to end our प्यार for that other girl.
Did आप think I would be happy for you?
Well that was a big mistake.
When we met, I felt like I was the happiest girl to have
met you.
I felt,...like our प्यार was going to last for long time..
It hurts so much to see आप everytime we pass द्वारा each other.
It hurts so much,that I can't take it anymore.
But, why would आप want to hurt me like this?
Did आप think I wouldn't feel pain या sadness?
Well आप thought wrong.
आप want to know how I feel?
I feel betrayed.
I feel like आप grabbed a चाकू and...
Just cut it in pieces..
I...I can't go on like this..I just can't..
It..it hurts so much...
I saw आप hug her and किस her.
It hurts so much.
When आप told me it was over, I cried for so many nights.
I couldn't believe आप wanted to end our प्यार for that other girl.
Did आप think I would be happy for you?
Well that was a big mistake.
When we met, I felt like I was the happiest girl to have
met you.
I felt,...like our प्यार was going to last for long time..
It hurts so much to see आप everytime we pass द्वारा each other.
It hurts so much,that I can't take it anymore.
But, why would आप want to hurt me like this?
Did आप think I wouldn't feel pain या sadness?
Well आप thought wrong.
आप want to know how I feel?
I feel betrayed.
I feel like आप grabbed a चाकू and...
Just cut it in pieces..
I...I can't go on like this..I just can't..
It..it hurts so much...
I DON’T KNOW WHAT I OWN A दिल या A MIND
GOD KNOWS IF I AM REALLY LOGICAL या I AM INOCENT AND KIND
I KNOW WHATS WRONG FOR ME AND ALSO WHAT IS RIGHT
BUT STILL MY MIND AND दिल ALWAYS FIGHT
दिल GOES IN SOME WAY AND MIND GOES SOMEWHERE ELSE
MIND SEES WHATS GOOD AND BAD BUT HEART’S SIGHT GOES ON HOW IT SOUNDS AND SMELLS
WHEN I HEAR TO MY MIND MY दिल IS SAD
BUT IT DOESN’T KNOW IN FUTURE IT WOULD BE BAD
MY MIND IS PROUD OF ITS INTELLIGENCE
AND IT WANTS ME TO BE ITS EVIDENCE
HOW COULD I BE HAPPY
WHEN MY MIND IS FINE BUT दिल IS HAVING CRANNY
AND I झूला, स्विंग IN BETWEEN
ALWAYS ONE IS GLOOMY AND OTHER IS SHEEN
IT’S ME WHO ALWAYS HAS TO SUFFER
FOR MAKING MY SOUL SAD I’LL CALL THEM DUFFER
BUT I प्यार MY दिल AND ALSO MY MIND
MAY BE THEY AREN’T PERFECT, BUT THERES SOME PERFECTION THAT IN THEM I CAN FIND.
GOD KNOWS IF I AM REALLY LOGICAL या I AM INOCENT AND KIND
I KNOW WHATS WRONG FOR ME AND ALSO WHAT IS RIGHT
BUT STILL MY MIND AND दिल ALWAYS FIGHT
दिल GOES IN SOME WAY AND MIND GOES SOMEWHERE ELSE
MIND SEES WHATS GOOD AND BAD BUT HEART’S SIGHT GOES ON HOW IT SOUNDS AND SMELLS
WHEN I HEAR TO MY MIND MY दिल IS SAD
BUT IT DOESN’T KNOW IN FUTURE IT WOULD BE BAD
MY MIND IS PROUD OF ITS INTELLIGENCE
AND IT WANTS ME TO BE ITS EVIDENCE
HOW COULD I BE HAPPY
WHEN MY MIND IS FINE BUT दिल IS HAVING CRANNY
AND I झूला, स्विंग IN BETWEEN
ALWAYS ONE IS GLOOMY AND OTHER IS SHEEN
IT’S ME WHO ALWAYS HAS TO SUFFER
FOR MAKING MY SOUL SAD I’LL CALL THEM DUFFER
BUT I प्यार MY दिल AND ALSO MY MIND
MAY BE THEY AREN’T PERFECT, BUT THERES SOME PERFECTION THAT IN THEM I CAN FIND.