I stood infront of the mirror,I took a deep breath in.
At least its friday,i thought.
I had to go to school when i'd rather just sleep या go see louie.
Louie and I had became good friends,and hung out often,nearly every day.And each दिन was a chance for me to tell him how i felt,but that सेकंड im close to him and know its the right moment....
I would get nervous,started being paranoid,and all together chicken out.
I had no clue what he felt,and he had no clue what i felt.
Meanwhile,Zayn and Anna had started dating.
I seen that coming.
They were so risky,and confident.They were willing to jump head first,not caring या regreting,I had wished i could be a bit और like that.
I was fearful and timid.
I brushed my hair back and threw some water on my face as an attempt to wake myself up.
I grabbed a towel of the rack and patted my face gently,When i threw the towel on the ground my braclets became attached and popped off.
The beads making a drone and scattering as they hit the floor.I looked at my bare wrist.
I still had scars from when i tried to commit suidice.
I sighed and got down on my knees to pick up the beads.
द्वारा the looks of it i was skipping school so i could buy और braclets at the mall.
Louies POV:
"Louie wake the fuck up!!!!"harry yelled in my face.Niall then blew a सांड, बैल horn in my ear.
Immediately I jump out of बिस्तर alarmed.
The boys laughed as i shaked in confusion.
"Ha!that was funny!Did आप get it Liam?"
"Yup."Liam stood there filming me with his cam recorder.
"No,It wasnt!Ow my freakin ear!''i yelled.
I went inside my bathroom ad slammed the door shut.I looked in the mirror at my nearly deaf ear.
"Am I bleeding?"i asked my self even through i wasnt.
I thought about the usual dream I had.
In my dream,The human race had been whipped out besides,Amber and Me.We were looking for surivors and ended up at Anna's house.
Th house was empty,no one there.Thats when i bumped into amber.It reminded me of when i ran into her in New York.Back in the dream,she had started crying because she was scared,I had hugged her and told her that she had all she needed,in my arms.I then kissed her.
अगला thing I knew,I was being terrorified द्वारा the people i call my friends.
"Lou Lou,we woke आप because we need groceries and its your turn,besides i stil have scars from प्रशंसकों last time when i went.''niall कहा through the door.
"what ever.''i कहा in grumpy voice because of the pain in my ear.
Ambers POV:
I took my शावर, शॉवर and got dressed.I only had enough braclets to only cover one of my wrist so i threw on a hoodie to cover them.
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I कहा bye to my brothers and Mrs.Rose and started to walk toward the mall,passing through a few nieghborhoods.I came to the end of street,and waited for this pick up truck to pass me.
To my luck,Drew was driving the truck.He looked at me for a second,that सेकंड to me seemed like an hour,lasting forever.He then drove on.
How bout we take a look back at the past cant we?
I always knew she had a better chance then me with him,even as little kids.
In annas back yard,when the suns haze pushed down on the green grass,There were laughs of 3 children.Once they had finshed their lunch,They decided to play house as suggested द्वारा Anna.
I never liked house,i preferd baseball.
Anna would insist,and whin if she didnt get her way,also Drew liked the idea.The first thing,we do is get married.Except Anna was always the bride,and drew was the groom,leaving me to be the pastor.No one ever wanted to be the pastor.
अगला came grade school,Drew had picked Anna to be his partner in every thing and i usually got stuck with some stranger.I was just a third wheel,and always had been,and i just took what was served,even through the meal was bitter.
Then we hit middle school,when we started becoming who we are,and making descions.Some good and Most bad.
I couldnt forgive Anna for that night at the valentines dance,8th grade year.Anna and Drew were talking alot back then and i felt pushed aside.Drew कहा he'd take me to the dance,in fact he promised.I remeber,I was so happy i wouldnt be alone for the first time,Mrs.Rose curled my hair and bought me a new dress so i could go.Once i arrived,i seen Anna and Drew dancing together to a slow song.I ran out crying,Mrs.Rose asked me if i wanted to go घर but i decided to stay since she had spent her last dime on my dress.I sat in the bathroom the whole night crying.Alone.
Then there's the worst part.High School.
द्वारा my junior year,i practically लॉस्ट it.
They had started dating and i was always alone,when i was with them i faked a smile and acted happy.Mrs.Rose always knew and she was very nursing and kind to me,one of the reasons i didnt just slit my throat,except on that one day.Anna was late to school one moring and i was just wandering around in the halls thinking about Drew.
He was standing over द्वारा the lockers,waiting on anna to दिखाना up.I told him that she was late and that he was wanted in the office.We started to walk toward the office,thats when i made a mistake.I pushed him into the janitors closet,and forcefully kissed him.He pushed me away and cursed at me,he left me angered.
i sat there for hours crying in the dark,thats when i found the box knive.I thought about it for second,then in my tears cut a deep incision,burstin one of my main arteries.
I suddenly felt cold but ignored it and slit the other wrist.The अगला thing I knew i woke up in Drews arms like a had imagined all those years,but a tade diffrently.Anna was yelling and crying,as hundreds of students stared at the blood draining from my wrist.I woke up again in the hosipital.After that Anna broke up with Drew and headed off to collage.I didnt talk to him at all at school,so i was alone and i adapted to it.
I felt a tear fall down from my face,thinking of tat painful memory,But हे who are आप to judge me?Everyone has there own story.
I continued walking,
Louie's POV:
I had drove द्वारा Ambers apartment to see if she was home,I remembered that it was a Friday through and turned around.
I had drove through the neighborhood near to get on to the highway,but I seen Amber walking on the side walk.
I pulled over and rolled down the window.
"Need a ride?"I asked.
She then got in,Her eyes were red as if she had been crying.
Instinctively,I wanted to know why.
"What's wrong?"I कहा in a worried tone.
"Just having a stressful day."
"Is there anything else?"
She started to cry,It was the first time I had since her cry,I was so use to seeing her happy.Had she been faking it?
"no,I'm okay.."
I knew that was a big lie.
"No your not."I unbuckled my seatbelt and scooted closer to her hugging her as an attempt as comforting her.
"If आप ever feel upset आप can just call me and I'll be there."I told her.
"thanks Lou,"she said.
Her tears made my कमीज, शर्ट a bit damp as had my arms wrapped around her.
"Now,can आप दिखाना me that pretty smile?"I asked.
She cracked a small smile.
"bigger."I told her.
She let out her real smile,She had small dimples and scrunched nose,I loved it.
"Tap on my window,knock on my door,I wanna make आप feel beautiful,"I sung a verse softly,to our song.
"I don't mind spending everyday,Out on your corner in the pouring rain."she sang with me.
"Look for the girl with the broken smile,Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved"we sang together.
"how bout we go buy some cookies."I smiled.
"Cookies?Like चॉकलेट chip?"
"Yep,I know it's your favorite."
I hugged her tightly then scooted over to the drivers सीट then pushed the gas pedal.We went to the खाना court at tge mall,and I bought her a really big cookie,And a ठग, चिकनी to share,except the fact she wouldn't let me have any,But I didn't care.
I let her have anything she wanted,We went into hot topic and she wanted these set of bracelets.I picked it up off the rack,and also a one direction bracelet.
"How about this?"I picked up a कमीज, शर्ट that had my face printed on it."Might,I say that's one handsome lad."
"Your funny,now put it down before someone relizes it's you."
Some how she got me into a गुलाबी tutu,not sure how that happened.Oh yea,I remember,she looked at me with those कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला dog eyes and handed it to me.By time we left,She had a huge lollipop which was bigger then Harry's head and she wore a one direction Tee,and she चुरा लिया my beanie.Oh yea,and she made me walk around in a tutu.I looked like a pedo,but I didnt care.
I made my दिन to see her smile.
The अगला place we went was walmart for grocries.
We got out the car and started toward the building.She walked a bit close to me,I held her hand.I wore a smile on my face.
"I have no clue what to buy.''i told her."it mazing me an the boys are still alive from living our own."
"i believe that."
We entered the store,and grabbed a shopping cart.She jumped in गाड़ी like a litle kid.
"Onward!To aisle 8"she yelled.
I pushed the गाड़ी to aisle 8.
She then hopped out and grabbed about 5 boxes of hamburger helper.
"Since its one of your favorites."
She then turned around and grabbed all the carrots they had out of the fridge.
"and a snack."she कहा then dropping the bags in the cart.
After picking out our grocries,we to the bikes section.She grabbed a bike and started riding it,leaving me with the बार्बी tricycle.Gladly,i squated down and pedaled.
"Hey,thats sexy."she teased me.
"i know right."i laughed as i turned the corner scooting.i broke it and fell off of it and was on the ground.
She laughed so hard she snorted,my true weakness.When she snorted,i rolled around on the ground,hugging the tricycle.
"come on,before someone sees."she helped me up and we made a run for it.
When we went to check out,the total was over $300.I didnt care as long as she was happy.
I had dropped her घर about 3 oclock,she thanked me and कहा she had a great day.
When i was heading home,a song came on the radio,with a happy tone.I turned it up and song along.
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It made me think of her,the lyrics had a sweet melady.
'I'm in trouble, I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my दिल tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirl But even worse I can't stop calling her She's all I wanted and more,I mean damn,whats not to adore?'the radio played.
It was excactly how I felt about her,I was stir crazy about her.
I'd might even say that I loved her.
At least its friday,i thought.
I had to go to school when i'd rather just sleep या go see louie.
Louie and I had became good friends,and hung out often,nearly every day.And each दिन was a chance for me to tell him how i felt,but that सेकंड im close to him and know its the right moment....
I would get nervous,started being paranoid,and all together chicken out.
I had no clue what he felt,and he had no clue what i felt.
Meanwhile,Zayn and Anna had started dating.
I seen that coming.
They were so risky,and confident.They were willing to jump head first,not caring या regreting,I had wished i could be a bit और like that.
I was fearful and timid.
I brushed my hair back and threw some water on my face as an attempt to wake myself up.
I grabbed a towel of the rack and patted my face gently,When i threw the towel on the ground my braclets became attached and popped off.
The beads making a drone and scattering as they hit the floor.I looked at my bare wrist.
I still had scars from when i tried to commit suidice.
I sighed and got down on my knees to pick up the beads.
द्वारा the looks of it i was skipping school so i could buy और braclets at the mall.
Louies POV:
"Louie wake the fuck up!!!!"harry yelled in my face.Niall then blew a सांड, बैल horn in my ear.
Immediately I jump out of बिस्तर alarmed.
The boys laughed as i shaked in confusion.
"Ha!that was funny!Did आप get it Liam?"
"Yup."Liam stood there filming me with his cam recorder.
"No,It wasnt!Ow my freakin ear!''i yelled.
I went inside my bathroom ad slammed the door shut.I looked in the mirror at my nearly deaf ear.
"Am I bleeding?"i asked my self even through i wasnt.
I thought about the usual dream I had.
In my dream,The human race had been whipped out besides,Amber and Me.We were looking for surivors and ended up at Anna's house.
Th house was empty,no one there.Thats when i bumped into amber.It reminded me of when i ran into her in New York.Back in the dream,she had started crying because she was scared,I had hugged her and told her that she had all she needed,in my arms.I then kissed her.
अगला thing I knew,I was being terrorified द्वारा the people i call my friends.
"Lou Lou,we woke आप because we need groceries and its your turn,besides i stil have scars from प्रशंसकों last time when i went.''niall कहा through the door.
"what ever.''i कहा in grumpy voice because of the pain in my ear.
Ambers POV:
I took my शावर, शॉवर and got dressed.I only had enough braclets to only cover one of my wrist so i threw on a hoodie to cover them.
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I कहा bye to my brothers and Mrs.Rose and started to walk toward the mall,passing through a few nieghborhoods.I came to the end of street,and waited for this pick up truck to pass me.
To my luck,Drew was driving the truck.He looked at me for a second,that सेकंड to me seemed like an hour,lasting forever.He then drove on.
How bout we take a look back at the past cant we?
I always knew she had a better chance then me with him,even as little kids.
In annas back yard,when the suns haze pushed down on the green grass,There were laughs of 3 children.Once they had finshed their lunch,They decided to play house as suggested द्वारा Anna.
I never liked house,i preferd baseball.
Anna would insist,and whin if she didnt get her way,also Drew liked the idea.The first thing,we do is get married.Except Anna was always the bride,and drew was the groom,leaving me to be the pastor.No one ever wanted to be the pastor.
अगला came grade school,Drew had picked Anna to be his partner in every thing and i usually got stuck with some stranger.I was just a third wheel,and always had been,and i just took what was served,even through the meal was bitter.
Then we hit middle school,when we started becoming who we are,and making descions.Some good and Most bad.
I couldnt forgive Anna for that night at the valentines dance,8th grade year.Anna and Drew were talking alot back then and i felt pushed aside.Drew कहा he'd take me to the dance,in fact he promised.I remeber,I was so happy i wouldnt be alone for the first time,Mrs.Rose curled my hair and bought me a new dress so i could go.Once i arrived,i seen Anna and Drew dancing together to a slow song.I ran out crying,Mrs.Rose asked me if i wanted to go घर but i decided to stay since she had spent her last dime on my dress.I sat in the bathroom the whole night crying.Alone.
Then there's the worst part.High School.
द्वारा my junior year,i practically लॉस्ट it.
They had started dating and i was always alone,when i was with them i faked a smile and acted happy.Mrs.Rose always knew and she was very nursing and kind to me,one of the reasons i didnt just slit my throat,except on that one day.Anna was late to school one moring and i was just wandering around in the halls thinking about Drew.
He was standing over द्वारा the lockers,waiting on anna to दिखाना up.I told him that she was late and that he was wanted in the office.We started to walk toward the office,thats when i made a mistake.I pushed him into the janitors closet,and forcefully kissed him.He pushed me away and cursed at me,he left me angered.
i sat there for hours crying in the dark,thats when i found the box knive.I thought about it for second,then in my tears cut a deep incision,burstin one of my main arteries.
I suddenly felt cold but ignored it and slit the other wrist.The अगला thing I knew i woke up in Drews arms like a had imagined all those years,but a tade diffrently.Anna was yelling and crying,as hundreds of students stared at the blood draining from my wrist.I woke up again in the hosipital.After that Anna broke up with Drew and headed off to collage.I didnt talk to him at all at school,so i was alone and i adapted to it.
I felt a tear fall down from my face,thinking of tat painful memory,But हे who are आप to judge me?Everyone has there own story.
I continued walking,
Louie's POV:
I had drove द्वारा Ambers apartment to see if she was home,I remembered that it was a Friday through and turned around.
I had drove through the neighborhood near to get on to the highway,but I seen Amber walking on the side walk.
I pulled over and rolled down the window.
"Need a ride?"I asked.
She then got in,Her eyes were red as if she had been crying.
Instinctively,I wanted to know why.
"What's wrong?"I कहा in a worried tone.
"Just having a stressful day."
"Is there anything else?"
She started to cry,It was the first time I had since her cry,I was so use to seeing her happy.Had she been faking it?
"no,I'm okay.."
I knew that was a big lie.
"No your not."I unbuckled my seatbelt and scooted closer to her hugging her as an attempt as comforting her.
"If आप ever feel upset आप can just call me and I'll be there."I told her.
"thanks Lou,"she said.
Her tears made my कमीज, शर्ट a bit damp as had my arms wrapped around her.
"Now,can आप दिखाना me that pretty smile?"I asked.
She cracked a small smile.
"bigger."I told her.
She let out her real smile,She had small dimples and scrunched nose,I loved it.
"Tap on my window,knock on my door,I wanna make आप feel beautiful,"I sung a verse softly,to our song.
"I don't mind spending everyday,Out on your corner in the pouring rain."she sang with me.
"Look for the girl with the broken smile,Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved"we sang together.
"how bout we go buy some cookies."I smiled.
"Cookies?Like चॉकलेट chip?"
"Yep,I know it's your favorite."
I hugged her tightly then scooted over to the drivers सीट then pushed the gas pedal.We went to the खाना court at tge mall,and I bought her a really big cookie,And a ठग, चिकनी to share,except the fact she wouldn't let me have any,But I didn't care.
I let her have anything she wanted,We went into hot topic and she wanted these set of bracelets.I picked it up off the rack,and also a one direction bracelet.
"How about this?"I picked up a कमीज, शर्ट that had my face printed on it."Might,I say that's one handsome lad."
"Your funny,now put it down before someone relizes it's you."
Some how she got me into a गुलाबी tutu,not sure how that happened.Oh yea,I remember,she looked at me with those कुत्ते का बच्चा, पिल्ला dog eyes and handed it to me.By time we left,She had a huge lollipop which was bigger then Harry's head and she wore a one direction Tee,and she चुरा लिया my beanie.Oh yea,and she made me walk around in a tutu.I looked like a pedo,but I didnt care.
I made my दिन to see her smile.
The अगला place we went was walmart for grocries.
We got out the car and started toward the building.She walked a bit close to me,I held her hand.I wore a smile on my face.
"I have no clue what to buy.''i told her."it mazing me an the boys are still alive from living our own."
"i believe that."
We entered the store,and grabbed a shopping cart.She jumped in गाड़ी like a litle kid.
"Onward!To aisle 8"she yelled.
I pushed the गाड़ी to aisle 8.
She then hopped out and grabbed about 5 boxes of hamburger helper.
"Since its one of your favorites."
She then turned around and grabbed all the carrots they had out of the fridge.
"and a snack."she कहा then dropping the bags in the cart.
After picking out our grocries,we to the bikes section.She grabbed a bike and started riding it,leaving me with the बार्बी tricycle.Gladly,i squated down and pedaled.
"Hey,thats sexy."she teased me.
"i know right."i laughed as i turned the corner scooting.i broke it and fell off of it and was on the ground.
She laughed so hard she snorted,my true weakness.When she snorted,i rolled around on the ground,hugging the tricycle.
"come on,before someone sees."she helped me up and we made a run for it.
When we went to check out,the total was over $300.I didnt care as long as she was happy.
I had dropped her घर about 3 oclock,she thanked me and कहा she had a great day.
When i was heading home,a song came on the radio,with a happy tone.I turned it up and song along.
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It made me think of her,the lyrics had a sweet melady.
'I'm in trouble, I'm an addict I'm addicted to this girl She's got my दिल tied in a knot And my stomach in a whirl But even worse I can't stop calling her She's all I wanted and more,I mean damn,whats not to adore?'the radio played.
It was excactly how I felt about her,I was stir crazy about her.
I'd might even say that I loved her.
*the door घंटी, बेल rings*
kaitlyn: ill get it
mom: ok
harry: hi
kaitlyn: 00
0
louis: wow cute girl
liam: he means to say can we stay wit you
kaitlyn:let me go ask my mom
* go's up stairs*
kaitlyn:hey mom can some people stay over
mom:ok
kaitlyn:thanks
* go's down stairs*
kaitlyn: आप can stay
niall: thank आप so much
zayn: do आप think you'r mom and dad and brother and sister like a समुद्र तट trip
kaitlyn:yah
zayn:ill give them the tickets
all but zayn: ok
kaitlyn:so hey
to be contued
kaitlyn: ill get it
mom: ok
harry: hi
kaitlyn: 00
0
louis: wow cute girl
liam: he means to say can we stay wit you
kaitlyn:let me go ask my mom
* go's up stairs*
kaitlyn:hey mom can some people stay over
mom:ok
kaitlyn:thanks
* go's down stairs*
kaitlyn: आप can stay
niall: thank आप so much
zayn: do आप think you'r mom and dad and brother and sister like a समुद्र तट trip
kaitlyn:yah
zayn:ill give them the tickets
all but zayn: ok
kaitlyn:so hey
to be contued