Hi Fellow MJFam. This Is The First Time I Have Ever Done Something Like This So Please Dont Laugh. For Awhile I Have Been Felling Lonely For Some Reason. And Today Has Been Especially Hard I Just Wanted To Crawl Into A Corner And Just Cry My Eyes Out. And I Have Been Missing Michael Alot Lately And Its Hard For Me And Its Hard For Everyone Else And I Understand That But With Me I Feel Like I Have A Real Strong Connection With Michael. Some Nights I Dream That I Was His Sister,Friend, And His 4th Kid. Other Nights I Dream That We Are In A Realtionship. I Just Dont Know What To Do Anymore. I Go To A Highschool Where Alot Of People Judge Me And Make Fun Of Me Just Because Im A Moonwalker. And It Hurts When People Do That And After Awhile It Starts Affecting Me. And It Seems Like Noone Understands Me, I Feel Like A Speck Of Dirt या A Grain Of Sand. And I Understand That The MJFam Is Always With Me In My दिल But Some Days Like Today Its Not Really Helping. And I Know Michael Is In My दिल But Some Days It Doesnt Feel Like It. Im Sorry For Venting But I Had To Release My Feelings Somehow And I Figure This Was A Good Way.