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Goldilottes said:
Things have happened to me too so i know what आप mean.
i gave up everything i knew to go somewhere i hated just to be with the boy that was the प्यार of my life. i gave up my फ्रेंड्स (not intentionally), my studies, my time, my life, my personality, even my mum gacve up the job she loved, which i felt bad about). then lots of difficult heartbreaking things happened all at the same time and i was struggling to cope. i eventually लॉस्ट touch with the few फ्रेंड्स i had left because i was busy dealing with the mountain of issues. since then my lively chatty grandpa went into hospital and became a shadow of who he used to be. my cat who was one of the few फ्रेंड्स i had left died which i was convinced was my fault. i was dreadfully depressed द्वारा this point.
, and it showed. i stopped being who i used to be because of this, and my boy noticed. i couldnt tell him about everything because it was too painful, so i just slipped into an emo. he thought this meant i didnt प्यार him anymore, and he was totally heartbroken. he went to college thinking i hated him, and i never got to tell him how i felt. this was the thing that absolutely crushed me. it didnt help that id had my phone stolen that contained many irreplacable pictures and वीडियो of my granpa, cat and when me and when times were perfect with my bf.
a few weeks later, just to चोटी, शीर्ष it all off, one दिन as i was on my way to see my special aunt for advice, i discovered she'd died that morning and i'd missed her द्वारा hours, so now i had no one to confide in.
so i लॉस्ट everything. and i cant get rid of this new dark personality ive aquired that no one likes. and people wonder why im emo. >.<
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