हे everyone i need some help

ok i had a very bad summer that changed me after some bad days i cuted my self 4 the first time i wanted to kill my self and i rely प्यार ईमो make up and hair style and i do ईमो make up every day(kuz i realy प्यार it) and i didn't have bang but now i have it and it's on my eye and i start buyin'black cloths kuz i realy realy प्यार black and i always have a black skull on my hand (i do it with pen)and yesterday i cuted my self 4 the 3th time and i listen to black veil brides , linkin park , tokio hotel , 30 सेकंड to mars , एवनेसेन्स and most of my time i cry and i don't know y ? and death is my wish i deaht is my dream i don't realy know y i just want to die so could u pliz tell me am i ईमो या not?