The True.

I will always be with for every moment of every day
I will call आप when I know your not okay
I will be there before the blood starts pouring
I will be there even when आप are ignoring
I will be there when आप parents do not care
I will be there even when your unaware
I will be there when a blade is pulled out
I will be there even if its me आप can go without
I will be there for every tear drop shed
I will be there for every red blood drop bled
I will be there for every time that your depressed
I will be there for every time without rest
I will be there for every bloody nightmare
I will be there when you...

-The song!! Full one of a few lyrics!!-

~.:Breaking Inside:.~

[chorus-]
I know you’re breaking inside,
there's so many people who just don't get you,
but if they only knew what was really going on inside,
they would think better!

Oh, Oh,
I feel so alone,
like if they left me out in the cold..
they कहा they cared,
but they never dared to come near me,
and so,
with every little step I take,
I can feel my दिल break.

Outside from my heart,
my body is pumping,
trying to survive,
while throwing these movements.
I tag along,
dragging myself,
not knowing how the hell I got myself in this mess!...

आप know she is finding her way there, द्वारा how the air feels. आप know she’s coming द्वारा the sound of the wind whispering in your ear, telling आप secrets. आप know she’s on her way द्वारा the way the clouds gather and dance in the sky, like there having a party. आप know she is creeping behind आप द्वारा the fog that blows from your mouth. आप know she’s right अगला to आप when the lights begin to flicker.

आप can feel the air get thicker and it slowly becomes harder to breath. Your lungs feel like there being beaten. आप slowly run your hands over your arms and आप can feel all your hair standing...

हे आप guys... I am uhm. Not going to be online for awhile : but while i have the time to... I really need to let some shit out. And also apologise for never ever 'being here'... I guess आप were right, i never really am here when आप really need me and I am a terrible friend. Trust me. I hate myself for that too.

This morning before my parents left for a baseball game. I had to look in the mirror. I ussually dont because i really have gotten to where i cant stand mirrors. They make me kind of sick. But as I was looking i really thought a bit too long and a bit too hard. Yeah i have brown...

“If a clock could count down to the moment आप meet your soul mate, would आप want to know?”
The rain beaded off the चोटी, शीर्ष of the building as it picked up from a soft drizzle to a hard downpour.
“I प्यार the rain.” कहा a sweet calm voice from a old women in a hospital bed, she was hooked up to the machines अगला to her. She looked like worn down paper that had been used to many times, her hair was white and thin and there was little of it, and the light in her grey green eyes almost gone. The was many people sitting around in the the small white room, they all looked sad and tired like...

Sometimes i wonder if people even care about me? या if they should care? Because honestly i think im going mad. I think everythings getting to my head and the voices, they never stop anymore...and they're louder to..really bad things..

I also wonder why people care about me? I mean i really am a लॉस्ट hope...i cant save anyone anymore because i can barely सुरक्षित myself..Everythings getting bad..real bad..

I also wonder if my family notices i havent been eating? Because i havent been eating and ive been skiping meals and counting calories. I wonder if they see that i really hate myself and eveything...

हे Guys, It's me , Ellen.
And here, this is where I feel like I am family.
I feel like I don't ever belong. But when I'm with आप guys, It's like I'm... Welcome.
I think I am hideous but my फ्रेंड्स say otherwise.
I may be the one that tries to cheer everyone up at school but I have my own problems too.
I am going through a really tough time right know and it is a struggle to be OKAY. I am sorry about complaining about my problems like this but it just makes me feel better to tell आप guys. I need to tell आप guys something very important. I may not be the most depressed person but i sure as...